#smalltownkansas

[ieatmybroccoli]

Fields of Gold: After the Chopping Block

The past month has been full of questions.

What do I want?

Where am I going?

How will I pull all of this off?

...can I pull this off?

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I’ve thought about these quite a bit the past month and a half after my unexpected exit from my job was announced. While I certainly wasn’t happy there, as my friend, Jessica, said, “No one likes to get dumped”.

Let’s call it what it is- my life has pretty much imploded more so than I’ve let on. And at moments, I’ve been left grasping straws.

I allowed myself to fall into a routines. Ruts. Whatever you want to call them. I was comfortable. Although fully aware for about a year that I needed to make a drastic change, I was content to look down, not making the leap. Change was nice to think about, but frightening to implement.

I finally made the jump.

it doesn’t mean I haven’t gone back and forth on my decision. Or that I haven’t worried about my bills. Or what is going to happen.

But after weeks of worry and my anxiety creating 1,000 terrible scenarios- I’m relinquishing the idea I have some sort of control over things. I don’t.

At all.

I sat here this grey Sunday afternoon, having doubt yet again. Because that’s what I do (I’m working on it). However, I decided to ease my mind by going to Upwork to check out virtual assistance job postings.

As I kept scrolling down, this feeling of, “It’s going to be okay” washed over me. I was reminded that not only am I going to be able to have a much more flexible schedule, but be able to work on my own projects.

Like finishing my second chapbook ;)

The next year will be full of all kinds of changes. Whatever it brings, and however comes, it will work out in the end. I’m as ready as I’ll ever be.

...but I wouldn’t be upset if there’s a bit of traveling and a warm beach involved.

[earlgreyteachings]

[madiann65]

A friend of my mom's from high school wrote this book. I'm already in love with it and only 73 pages in!

A friend of my mom’s from high school wrote this book. I’m already in love with it and only 73 pages in!

[thephotobus]

We joke that we're the best babysitter ever! Well tonight we are! We're in Wakefield #Kansas, a town of 800 and I think every kid in the town is here! #theoriginalvwbusphotobooth #theoriginalphotobus #vwbus #photobus #thephotobus #thephotobuskc #smalltownkansas #manhattanks #manhattanksphotographer (at Wakefield, Kansas)

[henceforthandforeverfree-blog]

#lazydays #smalltownkansas

[ieatmybroccoli]

Happiest birthday, little sisters ❤️

[ieatmybroccoli]

Momma had some babies 😂 Once these #coppertonesucculents grow some roots, they'll need new homes 😊 #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #crazyplantlady #succulents #coppertone #whatheleftbehind #plants #waterpropagation

[ieatmybroccoli]

#svenskhyllningsfest #traditionalswedishclothing #dresses #lindsborg #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #adventuresfromthegreatplains #exploreyourstate #kansas #midwest #ohsopretty #iphonephotography

[ieatmybroccoli]

Fields of Gold: Happy 25th, Ebra

[ieatmybroccoli]

#blackandwhitephotography seven day challenge. No people. No explanations. Challenge someone each day @jaclynmichele #amateurphotography #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #imittleteapot #adventuresfromthegreatplains #iphonephotography

[ieatmybroccoli]

How much do we Kansans love our #sunflowers? Enough to wake up at 5am to stand in a field full of them at #sunrise 😆 #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #sunflowerfield #adventuresfromthegreatplains #winfield #ishouldhavedressedfortheoccasion #midwest #midwestliving #kansas #whosaidkansascitywasboring #selfie #tattooedlady #exploreyourstate

[ieatmybroccoli]

When the cards know you better than you think 😮 The goal= #tenofcups. Positivity, goals being met, radiating energy, joyful heart #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #thewildunknowntarot #tarot #tarotcards #yesplease #whenigrowup #imtrying #thewildunknown

[ieatmybroccoli]

Despite the period appropriate #bonnets, we lost Logan to dysentery, Grace to typhoid, and Ambrea at the very last card to a snake bite 😂 (I don't think she likes the "certificate" I made her). Beth and I were left to set up the family homestead in Oregon 😆 #oregontrail #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #familybonding #familygametime #adventuresfromthegreatplains

[ieatmybroccoli]

#familypicnic 😍 #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #sisterbonding #blueskies #openprairie #picnic #shesgotlegs #adventuresfromthegreatplains

[ieatmybroccoli]

A happy #friday indeed 😍 #gilmoregirls #lukes #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #teatime #starshollow #iloveitebra #newteamug #tea #allthecaffeine

[ieatmybroccoli]

May you have the happiest of happy birthdays, little sister 😍❤️ #lifeinkansas #smalltownkansas #ilovesher #sister #hoorayforbirthdays #twentyfiveandcounting