#slowly parsing all my high school trauma rn but have this meditation...

[sergeifyodorov]

is jhughes masc AF

to him yes... in his head he's tom of finland butch like buff cockprint in the leather pants Butch. like thats his self image when hes feeling himself he knows hes like the pinnacle of malegender hes doing it like nobody else.

when hes not feeling himself (or when nico is looking at him or when he's standing next to someone taller that isn't luke (dorky little brother by default and therefore exempt from fighting 4 masc socialstatus) or when hes existing next to an attractive woman that isn't impressed by him) he's Not masc hes sooo skinny and barefaced and TOTALLY 5'11 and like he's still in this "i'm masc and the best" era Outwardly but like he knows. he Knows he's a twink who can't grow a beard as good as quinn or nico and that like. hurts him. and he's always been this kind of hypersexual fratboy (the tzegras effect) so that kind of layers into it. like im kind of girly -> but all the girls wanna fuck me -> but do they? bc i look like a girl -> but all the guys wanna fuck the ppl that look like girls -> AM I GAY AND/OR A GIRLGUY