#slightly annoyed at how hard it is to find good gif-able clips of him

[koushuwu]

[just-some-imagines]

Save you

Summary: You sacrifice yourself to save the team and you get captured by Hydra. Then Hydra tortures you and send a few short clips (by mistake) of your torture to the team back at the HQ. Everyone is devastated and Steve just can’t handle it anymore so he takes it upon himself to find you. Do you survive long enough for them to save you or the last thing that you will ever hear is the sound of death ringing in your ears?

Please, I work really hard on writing these, so, if you want to repost, please give me credit.

A/N: This is my first imagine so sorry if it’s not that good. I promise I will try to improve. Also english is not my first language so I apologize if there are any grammar and spelling mistakes. Requests are open if you like what you read here and if you want something of your own written. Also these are not my gifs I just found them on google images. I would give the credit to the rightful owner but I didn’t find all of the creators of the gifs.

Warnings: Violence, language(just a few small words... nothing much), mentions of torture, blood, angst turning to cute fluff at the end, I think that’s it.

This was one of the hardest battles ever. You were supposed to go to an old abandoned warehouse that long ago belonged to Hydra. It was just a gigantic warehouse full of Hydra’s latest technology and full of Hydra’s files about future new Winter Soldiers. It was suspiciously quiet and calm and peaceful and the thing that triggered you was the fact that they left those important files behind. Hydra would never do that. You thought to yourself. Everything was so out of place in your mind. You knew something bad was gonna happen but you let it slide. You just thought that an oppurtunity like this could not be passed so you decided to finish your mission and then head back to the Quinjet.

The thing that pissed you off in the next 20 seconds was the fact that you were right.

This whole thing was just an ambush prepared skillfully by Hydra so that the Avengers would fall right into their trap. You couldn’t stop blaming yourself for this. You knew you should have said something but now you couldn’t focus on that. The battle that was ahead of you was the thing that requested your focus now. 

Agents were coming to you from the left, from the right, you had a few right in front of you. It was all too much but you were chosen by this team to help and do your everything so lifting your hands in the air you just took control of the ground beneath you and sent them away flying backwards. Having elemental powers was a huge bonus to the fact that you were a trained assassin. When close fighting was taking too much effort you would just take control of something that was surrounding you and use it to your help.

Everything was going good for you so you decided to join the others and help them. You were really good friends with everyone. You would always brighten everyones moods and you were careful to take care of them. After all, they were your only family. Probably that’s why you loved them so much. Your parents abandoned you because you were a freak and when you were at the age of 3 they just left without saying anything. That’s why you needed to protect them with your life. They loved you and you loved them. 

Well, you loved one more than the others. Steve a.k.a. Captain America, America’s Sweetheart, The Golden Boy, however you want to call him - people found a lot of names for him in the last 70 years- . You met him over 3 years ago and you couldn’t stay away from him. You just wanted to be near him every moment of every day. And if that meant just as friends it was fine for you. You knew he couldn’t love you. You were just a freak who couldn’t be treated properly. You didn’t deserve love or that’s what you thought. If you only knew that Steve felt the same way about you.

Because you cared about them so deeply you had to do this. A huge wave of Hydra agents came over you. They were too many and you were outnumbered hours ago... but now, you didn’t stand a chance. You were doomed for failure and you couldn’t risk lettim them down, risk letting them get captured. So you did what you thought was the best thing. You sacrificed yourself. One life for far more. It was a great and noble decision. You channeled all your power and raised a wall betwen you and your team. All the Hydra agents stopped abruptly to look at you and suddenly one of them said:

“You don’t stand a chance against all of us!” The agent said in a slight russian accent and a small snicker behind his words.

“What makes you think that? I’m much more powerful that the rest of you.” You tried to sound confident but inside you knew that you were breaking. The fear was creeping up your spine leaving a slight shiver behind. You knew your words were complete and utter lies but you wouldn’t allow these Hell asssociates know what effect they had on you. You knew they would get you, torture you in the worst ways that existed but you wouldn’t go down without a fight. That’s what you did your whole life. You fought... you fought for your rights, you fought for your life and you fought for the people. So you will continue to fight.

“Oh, sweetheart! You think you can take us all down? Then, you should be more careful next time... if there will be a next time for you.” The man said and spat bitterly on the ground. You understood that this was a threat but you didn’t expect the things that happened in the next minutes.

Suddenly you felt a horrendous pain surge through your body. You turned your head a tiny bit and saw that a tranquilizer was sticking out of your neck. But it wasn’t any kind of tranquilizer, it put a barrier on your powers. You couldn’t use them anymore. That’s when your walls broke down, the fear started seeping in. You could’t deny it anymore. You were down and that was it. Probably the team was better off without you. 

Black spots made their appearence on your vision. A painfully loud ring was all that you could hear. You couldn’t feel you knees anymore so you collapsed to the ground. The last thing that you heard before everything went black was that same russian accent:

“And don’t even think that your little friends will come after you.”

-Third person’s point of view-

“Why did she do that?” Natasha asked curiosly.

“I really don’t know. If I knew I would’ve told you... smartass!”

“Seriously Tony? Sarcasam... now?” Clint added annoyed. 

Steve knew something bad was happening. The moment Y/N started to raise those walls he saw something in her eyes that he never saw before, he saw fear. She would never show fear. She said that it made her look weak so she never let her guard down. He wanted to run back to her, to help her but he was too late. The walls were too big. 

“Tony... can’t you fly over them and see what’s wrong with Y/N?” Steve pleaded, afraid of what you could’ve done.

“No can do, Captain! I have only 13% power left so I can’t even reach the middle of the walls without falling back to the ground.”

“We’re going to have to get through these walls somehow! We can’t leave her there!” Natasha was afraid for her best friend. She didn’t want to show it either because she needed to stay tough for her friend... try to help her.

“Step away guys! I have an idea. JARVIS can you extend my power so that I will be able to pierce through this wall and get to the other side?”

“Yes sir! I can focus all you power on the center repulsor! You can charge in 3...2...1...”

BANG

There was a huge hole in the wall. Steve hurried to the wall and passed the rubbish that was surrounding it entering the other side of the battlefield. What he saw was awful. There were no more agents, no more helicopters, no more planes, no more quinjets and there was no sight of... her. Panic started to raise into his chest. He couldn’t lose his girl, he couldn’t lose the light of his life. He had to do something but there was nothing that they could do now. They had to track her... see if something was going to show up. The team waited there for a few hours searching for everything and anything. But they didn’t find anything so they had to head back home and keep searching.

-TIME SKIP-

-Your point of view-

You woke up to a throbbing headache. You tried to move but you couldn’t. Something was off. Then memories started flooding back. How you were shot with some type of serum... how you collapsed... how you felt arms engulf your form and take you away... how you blacked out. Your vision started clearing. You looked around. You were in some type of huge cell. You were surrounded by concrete walls, nothing more. A table with strange supplies was right next to you, supplies that looked like torturing devices. Then you looked down and saw that you were tied to a chair. The serum might still be in you because you weren’t able to use your powers. All of a suden a man enters the room with a knife in his hand.

“Oh! I see that you’re awake! You’re going to be very useful. A new little subject to play with.”

You couldn’t speak since an old worn out piece of cloth was also tied around your mouth so you just glared at the strange man. He was very tall but hunched, he had short combed back hair and he had a huge scar over the left cheeckbone. He changed from his field uniform to a white, slightly dirty, lab coat and had a pair of gloves on and in his hand the knife mentioned earlier.

“It’s hard for you to answer right now but you’ll just have to shake or nod your head at any question I ask you. So first of all... we know that you work with those little superheroes wannabes. And you work in a partnership with S.H.I.E.L.D. I want you to tell me all you know about that stupid organization of yours. Can you do that for me?”

You just shook your head. You knew that they will question you but you could’t betray those who helped you. You will remain silent. Not a word that could end the lives of your friends and also the lives of inoccent people.

“You know... if you won’t tell us anything we will have to get the information out of you, one way or another. Although I prefer one way over others. And if you don’t listen to us I won’t hesitate to use it. So I will give you one last chance! Will you tell me what are your plans willingly?”

You shook your head again. You won’t let anything slip. You can take any pain. You will take any pain like a fighter because that’s what you are.

“Okay then, we’ll do it my way. I’m going to have so much fun.”

He aproached you, getting closer to you. He dragged the blade of the knife slowly down your arm leaving a trail of blood behind. He moved the blade to the other arm doing the same thing. You were helpless but you didn’t want to show any sign of weakness so you kept your screams in as best as you could. 

After a while, seeing that you weren’t reacting to the blade he slaped you across the face so many times that you lost count. The ring that he had on cut your skin everytime he would lay his hand on your face. Seeing as that wasn’t getting you talking either he unbound your hand from the chair and hoisted you up by your hair pulling and tugging at it in every way moving you to another room. He pulled the cloth from your mouth away and bound your hands above your hair to some kind of metal like chains pulling them up so that you could barely touch the ground.

“As you don’t seem to want to talk anytime soon we will make things worse for you. And as we like to see our subjects get their punishment again and again we will record your little torture. It won’t hurt... for us. So just stay still, and smile at the camera.”

The man pulled out a whip and lashed out all his anger on you. Your back was hurting so much and along with the other wounds you just couldn’t hold your screams in anymore. You shouted and screamed ant trashed around but that was just worse. You pulled at the restraints which only made the bones and muscles in your body crack and rip. It was so painful you couldn’t handle it. This was the end for you. Even with all the screaming that was coming from you, you kept going... you could live, you needed to prove them that.

“You are a strong one! You’re holding up pretty well, guess I’m going to have to make it worse and worse an worse...”

You started crying, you weren’t making it out of this hell hole but that’s just how things work sometime. Some have amazing lives and others have to work for them. But you were fine with it. You saved the team, you saved Steve! You had to focus on that. That was what made you keep going. Steve!

-Meanwhile at the Avengers Tower-

“Steve, we found something! Quickly! Watch!” Natasha exclaimed somehow excited to see that you were alive. But what she saw next was devastating.

“Oh my God! I hacked into Hydra’s files and this is live. I tracked her location... we need to act NOW!” While Natasha gave orders and Tony and Clint were getting ready, Steve took a closer look at you. Your body was hanging losely from some chains, you were all battered and bruised, a pool of your own blood was around you slowly increasing its amount and a psycopath was hurting you in the worst ways posibble. He then saw your face, you were screaming but he couldn’t hear it, your eyes were bloodshot red and puffy, tears streaming down your face.

Steve couldn’t just stand there and watch you so he quickly got dressed and got on the Quinjet. He would save you no matter what. You were his lifeline. He lost Bucky... he could not lose you too. He had to be your knight in shining armor. This was his most important mission. To save you.

-back at the Hydra facility-

“AAAAARGH!” 

“Stop screaming! You don’t even deserve to scream. You are worthless. You would think that they would come after you? You were wrong!”

The pain was too much, every single stab and punch was a step closer to your death. You knew that but you didn’t want to belive it. You were going to live, you were going to make it out, you were going to see your friends again, you were going to see Steve again.

“AAAAAAAHHhh!”

You heard two gun shots but you didn’t feel them. You didn’t dare open your eyes. Maybe you already died from the pain. But a voice broke your your train of thoughts. You heard that voice before. You knew that voice. No... it couldn’t be... you opened your eyes slowly and saw the commotion around you. Steve was barking some orders and him and Clint were fighting some bodyguards while Natasha was at the door trying to stop everyone that wanted to come inside the cell like room. 

When most of the agents were out, Clint and Nat took the lead taking the rest of them out while Steve ran to you. He broke the chains and you collapsed to the ground. Steve caught you taking you into his arms.

“You’re okay now! I’m here! Shh...”

You didn’t even realize you were sobbing. you nuzzeld in his chest as best as you could. The pain you were feeling was unbearable.

“Steve, I’m cold.” 

“I got you now, don’t worry, I’ll warm you up, you’ll be ok. Just don’t close your eyes. Listen to my voice. I need you up. Can you do that for me?” He started crying looking at your broken, vulnerable state. You were strong, beautiful, you always had a smile on your face. Yeah, you had some bad days but they didn’t need to know about those. But seeing you like these broke his heart. He hold his tears in. He couldn’t cry right now. He had to get you back safe.

“I...I.. lov..”

“Shhh... don’t talk. You need to save your energy. It’s okay, we can talk soon.”

“I lo...love y...you, Steve!” And with that you closed your eyes.

“No, no, no, no! You won’t die in my arms. I love you too damn it. I love you too. Wake up!” Steve started panicking. He was getting closer and closer to the quinjet. He thought he lost you but he realised that he hadn’t checked your pulse yet. 

“Please, please, please!” He started crying again. He couldn’t find one. Then suddenly your heart decided to beat again. Your heart was beating again. He still had a chance to save you. He reached the jet into record speed and yelled for Tony and Bruce imediatly. When they saw you their faces dropped. You weren’t you anymore. Bruce imediatly directed Steve to put you on a bed in the small but advanced medical room that they had on there. Banner started the surgery in the next second. Meanwhile Clint and Natasha arrived back and they took off without a second thought.

“She’ll be fine, don’t worry. She’s strong, she will pull through.” Clint tried to assure Steve but Steve didn’t seem convinced.

“Did you see her? She sacrificed herself for us, she got captured, she got tortured and the worst part is that I culdn’t tell her back that I love her! That she’s the only one on my mind!

“What?” Nat and Clint both asked in unison confused.

“Before she closed her eyes she told me she loved me! She still loves me! She’s my everything. I lost Bucky once, I can’t lose her too.”

And they stood there in silence for the rest of the flight.

-TIME SKIP-

You woke up with something lying on your abdomen. You tried to open yor eyes and see what’s happening but the light was so bright you closed them back. The second time you opened them slowly, adjusting to the light and tilted your head to see what was the weight on your stomach.

Steve was sleeping with his head on you and his hand was laced with yours. You couldn’t quite believe it. Steve was here with you. You tried to sit more comfortable but the movements you made brought a sharp pain back to you and you let out a grunt waking Steve up.

“You’re awake! I can’t belive it. You’re really awake! Thank God!” Steve whispered in disbelief. It wasn’t posible.

“Hi!” You responded shyly. You didn’t know what to say. You were shocked to see that he was by your bedside.”How long was I out for?”

“Two weeks” He said slowly not really wanting to tell you that.

“Two weeks?! And you’ve been standing by my side all this time?” You assumed since he was sleeping right next to you.

“Yes. I couldn’t just leave you here all by yourself.”

“But why?” You asked unsure of the response he could give.

“Why? You’re really asking why? Y/N I really love you, you’re the thing that keeps me going, keeps me sane, you’re the most beautiful, the smartest, the kindest girl I’ve ever met. You always brighten a room just when you walk into it. You always know how to make everybody happy. You care about people, you love your job, you’re so strong and tough and you never let anyone know your weaknesses. But I want to help you, I want to be a part of your life. I want to break down your walls. I want you to trust me. I want to be your everything and I want you to be my everything! Now I get the chance to say I love you too! And I will say I love you every chance that I get from now till the end of my life.”

“Steve...I love you too! So much you wouldn’t believe it. You made me so happy by saying those words you don’t even know it.”

“I love you, almost dying in my arms made me realize that I should take any chance I get as soon as I possibly can. Will you make me happy and be mine?”

“Of course!”

Steve leaned towards you bringing his lips slowly to yours. He kissed you passionately pouring all his sentiments in this kiss. After you broke apart for air you scooted a little bit further away so that he could get into bed next to you. He wrapped his arms around you and you laid your head on top of his chest listening to his heartbeat lulling you to sleep. The last thing you heard before sleep took over you was a quietly mumbled “I love you...”.

You were finally happy. The both of you.