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doebt · 3 years

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tbh I really feel like a bystander to my own life rn. like the past 3 months ESPECIALLY the past 1 month and extra especially the last week..I really hate it

#ive never felt so absent in my own life before #its like i am sooo spaced tf out and just going through motion after motion #and the only things i really feel is like #slight amusement...mostly dejectedness and guilt and shame and embarrassment #and like. feelings hurtedness #andnsometimes a very muted sort of relief #when im falling asleep or laying down #thats like it...it just isnt right #I think im just in a very like liminal inbetween space rn like in life..but i hate it so much #like that post abt taking your life in both hands and holding it #im not doing that at all

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