#slept extremely poorly because I didn't feel well last night

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oh who doesn't love a classic Damned If You Do, Damned If You Don't

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Baz Blackwell X Reader #001

Baz X Reader.

"You can't keep kissing strangers pretending it's him."

This is all angst, and a bit of flirtatious Craig just because..why the hell not. I hope you enjoy it, and I am sorry if it stinks. I haven't watched Animal Kingdom in over a year. Also, as a disclaimer this takes place somewhere near the beginning of season two. Ps. No bashing on me for how badly this sucks and how poorly it's written. It's 4am and I haven't slept a wink. Have a good day❤️

   It was another day at the Cody house for you, you didn't feel so alone. Since you'd told Baz to stop coming around your apartment until he changed his mind. You knew he'd never change so you didn't wait around your apartment to hear from him. So you stayed at Smurf's since she was simply in love with you, and thought of you as a daughter.

The only person who knew about you and Baz, was Craig. You felt like you didn't have to worry about him judging you, or telling Smurf. You knew she wouldn't approve. Not that Baz minded, he liked having you as his dirty little secret.

The night before you and Craig had been out with a group of friends. There wasn't a time Craig wasn't around. He knew you'd been having a tough time so he let you cope. With any dude, anywhere. He had walked in on you and some dude the night before.

"What's with you lately?" Craig asked you, walking into the kitchen and the fresh morning air that Craig let in felt good on your skin. And truthfully you didn't want to tell him, you didn't want to tell him about what had happened between you and Baz the last couple days so you decided to lie.

"Nothing." You smiled over at him. "Why would you think there is something wrong?" You knew he wouldn't accept it, but you'd hope he'd leave you alone.

"You can't actually think I believe that right?" He laughed.

"Seriously Craig, I am just fine" you sip your beer. "Why do you think I'd be lying to you?" You look over to him.

"Oh well maybe because you've been day drinking for the last 4 days." He shrugged his shoulders looking down at your beer.

"Come on Craig, I figured you'd just leave it alone" You chuckled at him.

He was the only person who knew what was happening. The only person you've ever trusted enough to tell anything to.

It was quiet for a moment, as seconds than minutes ticked by.

"You know" He stated. "You can't keep kissing strangers pretending it's him" he laid his hands down on the table.

"What are you talking about?" You asked him, like you had no idea what he was talking about.

"Baz" He retorted, as if you'd just offended him.

You sighed and shook your head. "Craig I don't want to talk about it"

"I think we should" He moved closer to you, with a sense of calmness in his voice.

You sighed again, why not right? It's not like talking to Craig about it will change anything. "There isn't anything to talk about" you said quietly. "He made it very clear there wasn't 'anything' going on" You looked away from Craig hoping he doesn't say anything else.

"You know how he is" he put a hand on your shoulder. "He's not human when it comes to emotion"

You giggle "are any of you guys really human?" You asked him, trying to change the subject.

"Oh don't say that, you know I care about you." You looked up at him and see him smiling down at you.

"Yeah and I wish Baz did." You say softly and continue to sigh. Saying his name always got to you, and that was the problem. Why did you let him always get to you? He was always getting under your skin. It didn't matter if the feeling was mutual or anything, but you'd fallen for the older man. Hopelessly and completely fallen in love with this unattainable older man.

"If you talked to him more" he stole a sip of your beer. "You guys wouldn't have this problem" You knew he was telling the truth, all you had to do was open up. But honestly, you couldn't talk to Baz. Not now, certainly after the last couple days.

"Do you want me to talk to him for you?" He softly ran his fingers down your arm.

"No." You looked at him. "It wouldn't make a difference if you did. That ship has sailed, not that I wanted it to" you softly smile.

"Is it just me, or are you sounding more like him everyday?" Craig laughed. You punched him on the shoulder.

"Shut up" you laugh with him. "So now that I've told you, can we leave it alone now?" You take the beer back from him and finish it off.

"Maybe you can kiss me and pretend it's him?" He joked.

"How about no" you laugh even harder.

"I thought you'd want some help getting over it" he shrugged his shoulders again.

"Getting over what?" You heard Baz enter the room behind you and Craig.

He motioned Craig to leave, and he did. He gave you a small smile while walking back towards the pool where he'd been before his interrupted you in the kitchen.

"Before you say anything can you just let me talk to you. No anger, no fighting." He leaned against the counter.

"Sure" you said dryly. You acted like you weren't excited to him him, though you really were. You were extremely happy to see him, to hear his voice, just everything about him made you love him even when you didn't want anything to do with him.

"You promise you'll let me talk?" He crossed his arms.

"Whatever Baz, just get on with it" you turned in your chair to face him.

"I know I've been closed off" He moves closer to you. "But I want you to know when I said I had feelings for you I meant it." You can tell he either wanted something or he was telling the truth.

"Did you also mean it when you said 'kissing you is like kissing my sister'." He shook his head at you.

"Didn't I say let me talk?" You rolled your eyes at him.

"Damn Y/N, this is why we fight!" He shook his head at you, turning from you. "You don't take me seriously, ever!" He yelled.

"You know Baz, I'm not trying to fight with you. Finish what you were going to say" you raise you've voice.

"I fucking love you" he said softly, turning back to you. "It's always you, it's always been you. Ever since Craig started bringing you around, I fell in love with you and I didn't want to admit it."

"Baz"

"Unless your going to say you love me too, just walk away" he seemed almost disappeared.

Before you knew it, he was pulling you from your chair. "Please, just tell me you love me" he's caressed your cheek, his lips an inch or two from yours.

"You know I love you Baz" he looked into your eyes before leaning in to kiss you.

You slowly pull away, putting your forehead to his. "Lets go back to your place" you cooed at him.

"I thought you'd never ask" he winks and pulls you closer. "Let's run by your apartment first, you can start packing your things."

You tilt your head at him "What are you talking about?" a look of confusion crept onto your face.

"You're moving in with me" He smiles down at you.

You kiss him, softly.

The kiss actually felt real, for the first time it felt real. It felt like more than kissing your brother or a family friend. It felt different, the butterflies and softness of his lips. He'd never kissed you like that before.

"Oh I see you made up" Smurf tapped her foot at you.

"Oh sorry, this isn't what it looks like" you almost shit yourself.

"And I thought you'd always end up with Craig" she hums to herself, a small look of disapproval on her face.

And that was when you discovered that not everything was as peachy as it seemed in the Cody household.  Great, Right?

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-s (06/14/2020)