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starlit-mansion · 2 years ago

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I deleted the tumblr app off my phone which has been good for not accidently wasting an entire hour every morning but sometimes i do want to look at tumblr on phone so i manually log in using the browser version and it's incredibly poorly optimized and is my version of virtuous suffering

#I like this webbed site #BUT it makes all my bad habits worse #Procrastination... envy... bloviating about shit i barely know about #slamming a skinner box button for validation #Getting unreasonably pissed off at stupid trends and fads #Looking for disagreeable content #I literally had to leave for like 2 weeks bc i saw a post complaining about 'not THAT depressed' depressed people #And how you need to have very extreme self harm or suicidal ideation to be REALLY DEPRESSED KAREN #and after getting into a spiral about how i'm the bad man for having 'fuctional' depression my entire adult life #(which basically just led to me not getting help most of my life even though i needed it)#(because i couldnt get anyone to really understand that i was struggling and needed a reasonable amount of assistence)#my partner was just like 'no that's stupid'#and i deleted the app #which is not to say that all snipey posts about mental illness (even ones that dismiss 'less severe' ones to make a point) are harmful #but oof sometimes you do not realize you are being barraged with low grade radiation of negative shit til you get slapped #And then it's like. Oh i should leave.

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