#since i really dont have anyone to info dump my fics i sort of keep it inside

[scepterno]

Oh my god I love nsfw with acc feelings in it it makes it so real and meaningful icl

I remember reading one where Alejandro was insanely focused on Noah and like to get handsy and describe every part he loved ab him😭 Alejandro when he’s not playing in TD is so different towards people (if he wasn’t attracted to Heather he’d be attracted to Noah?? Or something like that I remember seeing it) but yeah Noah felt so safe with him and wasn’t at all nervous to say no to things in the fic it was so sweet☹️

I haven't read any nsfw fics of alenoah simply because.. erm...... i do not enjoy a lot of alenoah fics in general.. i cannot shake the feeling that most are written by teens so i just tend to avoid them by virtue of not wanting to read some high schooler's fanfic. i am a stickler about proper grammer, syntax, rhythm and beats, or what have you. *pushes up glasses* i am a scholar in STEM at heart. do not let the art degree fool you! when you get older and go to college you tend to...................................... now, i don't mean to be rude, but you tend to refine your tastes in literature, aka silly gay fanfics in the internet.

i just cannot bring myself to sit through more than 2 sentences of a fic if there's not proper punctuation or grammar. (also you can sort of tell when a fic is written by someone young or inexperienced, which, you know, power to them! you cant get better if you dont suck first! but that does not. mean. i will subject myself to Suck) i simply cannot. it hurts my bones.

that was a totally unrelated tangent. WOOPS. sourry 'bout that, mate.

what you're thinking of is the reddit AMA with alejandro's original voice actor where someone asked if they could see alejandro being attracted to anyone other than Heather, using Noah as an example, and he agreed. (they kind of led him into that one, so i take it with a grain of salt, but celebrate nonetheless)

i personally cannNNNAWWWWTTTT see Noah as submissive in a sexual situation with alejandro. with someone like Emma? yeah. sure. vaporize that stupid twink. but with alejandro, who brings out the competitive, spiky side to Noah??? i cant see him assuming the submissive role. maybe he likes to get pampered and Pillow Princess'd once in a while (he is VERY lazy to his core, after all).

i do find it interesting how most people tend to agree that alejandro would be a much better person as soon as he's no longer on reality television. although, i suppose that applies to most characters, especially the villains.

i personally still think that alejandro has a nasty side, since he wasn't ALLOWED to have a nasty side around his family (or he'd get a beating). being on total drama let him have fun with being a complete asshole, which is not something he was ever allowed to do before then, because he's supposed to be perfect! and suave! and a gentleman! Chris hired him to be a dirtbag, so he played the part and had a blast doing it (until it bit him in the ass)

i do regret not being able to show alejandro's Nasty Side more in my fic, but i dont' really think there was room for it given how hard he was trying to redeem himself both in his family's eyes, as well as Noah's. once he and Noah are more comfortable with each other, Alejandro definitely allows himself to be let loose a bit and forego the manners. he truly DOES admire that Noah isn't a pushover, because he considers himself one and wishes, deep down, that he wasn't so compelled to be a people pleaser. there is a subconscious filter in his brain that keeps him generally polite, just because it's been drilled into him by his family (diplomatic and strict, cough cough) that being undesirable or off-putting is something to be punished for.

EGADS, it appears I have allowed myself to ramble again, so I'll cut it off here. sorry for using your fairly straightforward message as a means of info-dumping. 'tis the turn of the tide, or what have you.

じゃね~~~~!!!

[p1nkwitch]

Hi! I really like all the afterlife fanfics you wrote could you give me director's cut for them?

Since i went off about chapter 3 in another ask i will explain chapter 1 and 2 instead.

So here is the thing, inspired by a fanart yes.

Chapter 1 breaks the mold because its from Peter’s perspective while the other two are from Jonah. This one is to establish his afterlife, how by all means its mostly perfect, by him being alone in the apartment, being able to do his own things. But ultimately its about waiting.

Peter always leaves beceause of the lonely, always runs away, but now he doesnt have that, he doesnt have that blanket to fall into, and like i put there without forsaken he is left truly alone.

He was undicted into it since a child, children need emotional support, the lonely made everything muffled enought that he didnt need to deal with it in big doses. Thats why he admits to have mood swings, he is strggling with his emotions now that he can feel them to the fullest.

When i made this i decided to make waiting a plot point in all of them, just like the beach. Elias or Peter need to wait. They need to stay, they have to choose to stay and wait for the other, like they didnt in life. They need it to grow.

Peter goes through the story slowly realizing the empty spaces that Elias ocupied in his life and feels dread at it. Because despite their many issues he does truly care for him. Enought to die for him even. So he has to grapple with that, its not until he finally comes to the conclusion that he misses him and wants him back at the beach house that Jonah is able to be seen.

Peter doesnt want to think that Elias might be the one this time to leave him, that its not him doing the running away but the man instead.

The ice cream, it starts to slowly taste like things that Elias likes because even if he doesnt say it he misses him. The rings and clothes, the more Peter wants Elias back, the more oportunities appear to include him in his life this time, but because he is choosing to do it. Peter is making the choice to prepare for him because he wants to.

But of course he gives a step back and thinks its merely a pattern, that its not real. The world provides the glasses and books to make him connect them more. The moment they both admit that they miss each other is when the storm happens and Jonah comes back.

Something i did not clarifie, but despite not seeming that long of a time, the reality where Jonah was? He spent far longer than he ever tells Peter, he had to really think things through, but eventually htere was so much he could do there alone. So he is sent to Peter. He cant leave the beach and go into town like the other until he is done working himself out and recognizing his wrong doings.  Jonah wont be forgiven, everyone has the right to deny him that, but he has to start by feeling bad about it to get better.

Something i ended up changing because i was not sure if i was right to add it was that i was thinking of transJonah, its why he was mildly uncomfortable most of the time with Peter watching him since he never mentioned it to him. I did not clarify it, but i left it sort of ambiguous because i didnt want to scrap it completely. Peter of course does not care one bit, as he said as long as its Jonah he doesnt care about the body itself. Most of my Jonah’s in this fic play into that, but im not sure if i would do it right so i end up backtracking.

Chapter two!!! I wrote chapter 1 and two back to back, this was originally the first chapter, but i was not sure if people would like the monster Jonah so i switched it to the second one. Its funny because that one was a lot of peoples favourite.

I like writing horror in weird doses, and i have a lot of opinions regarding several of Jonahs choices.

Changing faces, pretending to be what you are not and make people doubt what they know? Stranger, Spiral and Web.

Jonah changed so many faces through the years, so many masks to play to keep his game going that in his afterlife that became  his reality. A lesson.

Short and simple horror, to discover you are not what you think, to repeat it over and over in a cycle starting again from the beggining. I have a short blurb of something like that and got inspired by it. To slowly deteriorate until you cant reconiza yourself in the mirror.

Jonah has an image he likes to project so to get that stolen from him, leaving him with nothing? It destroys him.

He leaves when he rejects knowing, because everything he has ever done is that!! It was the point, to finally stop worrying about it. Forgetting of course was a way to keep himself safe from his own pain.

I wanted him to be alone and paint a particular background of nothingness.

Something i ended up sort of leaving.... again! Due to me not being sure if i would do it right was him slowly starting to lose his self, there are some left overs that remained, he becomes They in some parts. it was going to become more obvious the way he spoke about himself the more he advanced. i regret it now because i really liked it!!! I was just being hard on myself for nothing. Im happy i left some of it, like i did with the first chapeter.

The lighthouse, the house and Peter.

Peter did not realize at first, he just gave it to him on a whim, tired of waiting for his little Siren. As i said, waiting and stayin is the main point.

My favourite part of the entire chapter is Peter asking when will he be done pretending. It sort of got me too while writing it for some reason. I wanted it to be more... impactful but i think it came out perfect as it was. Its like being in a dream but suddenly you are told you need to wake up and it feels like a slap to the face.

Thats the feeling i was aiming for there.

Jonah gets slapped with the reality of the situation that he had been avoiding.

Final thoughs are, Peter doesnt care how he looks!!! They wil stay there for as long as they want. With Simon who can come and go as he pleases.

The cats will come to them eventually, i wont be cruel to let them be forgotten.

And if im honest? I like the idea more that he doesnt recover his face. He cant, he doesnt know who he is anymore. But is happy anyways with Peter to keep him company now.

Ok i really went off here!! If anyone has any other doubt or wants to know something of another fic!! Ask away