#sin is sincere & thankyou for being sincere wit me

[pjisskullourful]

k lets see if i can put this into coherent thoughts...

1 of my fav marilyn manson lyrics is ‘SIN IS SINCERE’ [deep6- the pale emperor is such a sexy, brilliant record with somany lyrics that i feel hit me deep in my chest] & thats something thats always resonated with me & i kinda live my life by that weird philosophy cos yah i am a big ol sinner but i have to make it sincere, i do it with authenticity & that definitely applies to my writing[as a queer woman- damm yall dont even wanna know all the people/things/expressions/casual words from family members that made me feel like a gigantic dirty sinner]

i have a lot of fun with my manesmut-- otherwise i wouldnt be doing it, i’ve said this lots but i’ll say it again. but i am genuinely putting time & thought & care into every word to create something that is real in its own way. its a real expression of sexuality, equality, empowerment, love, experimentation & fun. not to get too deep[although some of ya hoes might like someone to go ballsdeep but thats none of my business]-- but everything that i’ve written i would stand behind completely & i do believe every single word that i share. 

i do put my entire vagina into creating something real that comes from an honest place & the fact that yall are having a real & honest reaction in the form of motherfucking orgasms to this writing-- its wonderful, its telling me that yall get it. its very flattering to know that im creating little headspaces where yall feel safe enough to have a fun moment of release. that is so wonderful. its more than i could’ve hoped for. yall deserve to feel safe within your sexual expressions & im glad that what i write is providing you with that. i am not grossed out, literally not in the slightest. i tink its so empowering & cool. the fact that you & me are having a genuine & honest exchange- its someting i didnt know i would get but that i appreciate fully now that i have it

anyway blahblah im feeling all the warm &fuzzies in my tummy & im so glad i said ‘why the fuck not’ to myself & wrote that 1st victoria smut[& i am not ashamed of a single thing i’ve accomplished since then, i’d thank each of those 4 sluts to their faces for this space to create & experiment & make wonderful friends]

im just not used to this many people giving any kind of fuck about who i am/what i have to say. i’ve been gaslit out of jobs, im used to being the bottom of the pecking order & making myself as small as possible- & yall dont make me feel small or overlooked & i appreciate that. its nice to have people wanting to give me confidence instead of ripping me down