#sick in the headdd i wrote ALL THIS?

[berrymeter]

ahem kpop bias ask. if u want to. onf and onewe… this is my second formal apology 😔💕. onewe is an afterthought i’m really asking for ur top ten jayus things -tt

NDSKJFSKGH it's really not that serious omgg but hehe. i will start with onewe bc i don't need to elaborate too much. i actually don't wanna hand it to him but i'm gonna have to hand it to yonghoon 🙄 ever since i made that post abt how he fits in a venn diagram w jayus & changgu i have come to realise it . truly mental illness. help. but u know what's more mental illness? whatever bullshit i've written under the cut (it's LONG)

i mean for onf ofc we know. we know. BUT i will say all of them are my meow meows & initially i was an emkay boy actually... like at the very beginning. he's a catboy so ofc i was drawn to him but i think the way i approach each onf boy is different & well jayus has to be the closest to what u would call a ' bias ' ... obviously...

that aside... top ten jayus things. hm. well. in no particular order...

- He's So Normal. but he's also not. i say he's normal bc i think he's the most specialest man (parasocial) but i know to some he just looks like a dude... but look... he is the guy. he is capable of being the guy. because he is. the guy. help i actually got attached to capricorn man i don't even know. now ofc if anything were to change my mind on this (ie him turning out to Suck) i will not excuse him he's still a celeb & idk him but for the time being he's my man

- he actually is very nice?? like from what we know of him. as one of the leaders we know the others rely on him & they seem to trust him a lot. he's also shown a lot of care like,, when wyatt lost his mother during byubyu promos i think & kept it to himself to not bring everyone down, but jayus called him asking where he was then brought like... everyone wyatt loved with him to visit him? just thinking about it gets me all misty-eyed. people being considerate just does things to me i'm not immune. it just makes me think the ppl around them are in good hands if they ever need someone to lean on & like augghhgf to be dependable

- honestly a bit obsessed w how relevant his dislike of cucumbers is that it's mentioned in song lyrics. also that's a mood i hate cucumbers so like i get it. every idol who hates cucumbers they just get it... i do find it funny in general how Serious idols who hate cucumbers are about hating cucumbers

- he's fully aware his stage name is peculiar & that's one of my favourite things truly genuinely... "i'm j-us my name is weird" yea the fuck it is!! how did u even come up with that 😭 but look i enjoy calling him jayus so i can't really complain. i don't think i'll ever be on first name terms with him it feels weird to call him seungjun i feel like i'm about to scold him & like . No

- his fashion. is so bad (positive) sometimes. but also he wears light turtlenecks on purpose so like who am i to complain? (i still think his fit for the sukswim dance practice was SO silly though ngl everyone else was #normal and he had his Jacket. he's not normal actually) i feel like i wanna borrow half his wardrobe... i'd cut a chest window into a turtleneck but then not give it back bc it's for Me now i get the chest window fuck off

- this specific pic of him doing the dishes. i've rbed it at least twice u can probably find it on my blog if u look for it but i admit there are a number of jayus pics in my jayus tag... possible u've already seen it though

- okay now onto the more basic things bc i wanted to get the rest out of the way HE'S A FUCKING PERFORMER!!!!! and i'm genuinely upset we don't get to see it that often bc he leaves the floor to the rest of the group & never takes center!! bro!!! post dance covers where ur the only one dancing!! i'm begging u. ur the leader of the performance team but i can never promote u. i have to rb my pinned post endlessly... pls give me more.....

- now this may be bc of conditioning myself. okay. but he's grown to have my favourite vocal tone in onf. i've already described his voice's flavour so i won't repeat it but it's truly like......... i appreciate it a lot i want to hear him sing more. i feel like he's not the type to post song covers which sucks bc he really has a good voice :/ & he's skilled at singing! even the onf members who aren't the vocalists have very good voices & good technique too! i'm sure i'm not the only one who thinks we should hear all of them more. i love more vocal-focused songs bc we get to hear all of them & it's the best thing (also shout out to tion for having my second favourite vocal tone in onf. i guess that's just capricorns for u)

- u would think he's one of those regular kpop dudes who keep their hair colour to like black or brown all the time but NO. he's Different. he's had dark hair quite a few times but we've gotten white hair haven't we? now the blond? we had the black with the red then purple side too... his hair length has never bothered me like i'm not begging him to grow his hair to his ass (although i would like to see it. post enlistment ofc.) he's like not Outwardly So Special but he doesn't seem like the guy who'll stick to what's "normal" if he wants to do smth he'll do it... even if it's little things i def enjoy the um, casual-ness with which he seems to approach most things. i can't know if the hair colours were all his ideas obviously (i doubt tion decided to Go Yellow) but like, see when hwanung went hot pink & mentioned that he had a hard time getting used to it? u never really get that impression from onf in general they all seem to be fine w anything. they're just here to have fun & make bangers

- *heavy sigh* he's so incredibly handsome to me i don't even know what to say......... this is the part where i am, in fact, gay. i really do think he's handsome like idk how to explain it he's so very charming <3 even in his ugly selfies bc obviously they're my favourites. i'm generally not the biggest on fansites for obvious reasons but some of them offer pics w his brows untouched & like. yes. ❤ tbh i'm sad about enlistment but also seeing him with brows again is probably gonna make me very happy so... i'll take it. (but also idk why it's said they're gonna enlist for two years when enlistment minimum is one & a half year now? idk) oh man i just realised since he's hashtag physically capable he's probably gonna get at least a little bigger there's no way he's gonna be sent to an office for two years. i entrust my laying to rest to u & the mutuals bc i know my family won't do right by me ok? more seriously. i'm always afraid of sounding Weird if i talk abt ppl's facial features (despite being, yknow, an artist, so that's a thing i Have to focus on & study to get better 😭 & everyone else does it but apparently when it's me it's illegal in my mind) but his cheeks *face in hands* he also has such a cute smile. his smile when he's flustered is also um, well it is 😔💕. um. yea. that's about it