#shut up shut uo shut up let the characters have time to breathe for gods sake

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

something rewatching adventure time has made me realize. i fucking miss when tv shows had 11 minute long episofes and like 40+ episodes per season. that shit rocks

[thedarkenedkeeper]

So this is what REAL fear feels like...

Welp...I never thought I'd say this but Anti has actually broken me. This - ALL of this - has been SO MUCH WORSE than the Antipocalypse! Why? I'll tell you why!

In October, a lot of us were all over the place about whether or not Anti would show up. There were one or two asks for Jack that even questioned if he'd bring Anti back out for Halloween, and he kept his answer vague yet seemed to hint that there was a possibility Anti wasn't going to show up. On the 29th and 30th he posted pictures of himself dressed all dapper, and immediately everyone thought we were getting a new ego or something. Come Halloween, we got a fantastic old silent movie-themed pumpkin carving video. But out of nowhere, who decided to show up? Anti! Even though we had been led to believe that he most likely wasn't going to show up.

Now it's December and there were videos like Heartbound and the DDLC videos that had us freaking out about Anti showing up for close to Christmas. However, Jack's answer to both an ask and a question from a stream strongly suggested that Anti wasn't going to show up again; he only brought Anti back for DDLC only and was going to wait a couple of months until the next big thing. A majority of us believed this, including me, and let our guard down. And while I do believe a good chunk of it was probably the truth, he never did say WHEN exactly the break from Anti would start. Just like with October, he TRICKED US. And he did it in the WORST way imaginable.

When he said there was going to be something "special" in between both streams, he wasn't fucking kidding. We've watching security camera footage for HOURS. The goddamn thing is STILL going! I don't know how long any of you guys stood up for or anything, but I stayed up for about 9 hours and 45 minutes straight, watching those damn cameras. I stayed up from 8:15 P.M. all the way until 6 in the fucking morning watching and waiting anxiously. And what's worse? Even when I eventually did go to sleep, I COULDN'T. I got a total of 3 hours of sleep and you can bet your ass I was tossing and turning with paranoia.

This entire thing has REALLY driven us all insane! Given how the stream is LIVE, Anti is literally giving us no choice but to actually give him our undivided attention. We're losing sleep and sanity because of him. We're losing sleep and sanity FOR him. If this isn't proof that we're not in control and that we're his braindead puppets, I don't know what is.

And the worst thing out of all of this - for me, anyway? It's not just how we were tricked - it's not just how he's proved how obsessed we are or how sleep deprived and insane we're becoming. No....in my case, it's that for the first time EVER, I am actually 100% AFRAID of Anti.

I mean, I'm not going to lie, August 3rd - the Kill Jack video - scared me. I was SO SHOOK after that video that to this day I can't watch it without getting triggered. I wasn't expecting a rage-consumed Anti, nor was I expecting him to call us out on the GB name or flat out threaten us. That being said, when I say it scared me, I don't mean it ACTUALLY scared me. I know Anti's not actually real, I know it's just Jack pretending and just acting oit as the character. I can laugh off my fear afterwards and go "Oh my God, wow, that was amazing!" But last night....this whole fucking stream....this is SO much different. This time it's actual FEAR I'm feeling.

I watch a bunch of horror movies and the ones that always - ALWAYS - get to me the worst are the found-footage ones, like Paranormal Activity. I believe in ghosts, I believe in that kind of shit that you can't see, and I have a wild imagination. So when I watch those movies, I tend to get too absorbed into them and my brain tries to convince me I'm watching real paranormal footage, and I end uo getting so scared to the point it's not fun. I can't laugh my fear off and I end up being paranoid and on edge for quite a while. This is EXACTLY what happened with me last night.

I was doing alright for a majority of it. Sure, there were things here and there that were sudden or strange, but nothing too creepy to send me reeling. But I'd been watching for hours - at night, no less - and I swear my eyes were starting to play tricks on me. And then for about 3 hours straight, there was silence. I ended up relocating up to my room, got in bed, and my lights were off, while I continued to watch. It was around 4 A.M. at this point and I was starting to drift asleep when the sound of static jolted me awake. I scanned through the cameras with wide eyes and what did I see? The damn emergency exit glitch to show someone crawling up the fucking dark stairwell. And in that moment, I felt fear and I mean TRUE fear. I HATE shit like that - human-like beings crawling or walking up and down stairs or hallways in unnatural creepy ways scare me in the worst ways possible (it's why The Grudge scares me so badly). All night, that damn emergency exit screamed nothing but bad news to me and my anxiety was going through the roof about the idea of something crawling up the stairs. And sure enough, my fear came true.

And when I say "true fear", I mean I wasn't laughing. This wasn't something I could laugh off, not anymore. The hairs on the back of my neck stood up, I felt my blood run cold, my heart rate skyrocketed, my breathing became ragged - I felt like a child who was TERRIFIED of the boogeyman coming to get her. And it was in that moment that I realized I had actually come to a breaking point, that I HAD to stop watching because I had actually reached the point of getting TOO absorbed into it all and getting scared FOR REAL. I'm not kidding when I say I actually started tearing up and shaking because of how scared I got. Even the glitch that followed afterwards gave me a heart attack - hell, I was on edge that I barely even processed what I saw; my brain pretty much tricked me into seeing some lanky, abnormal figure oddly moving through the one hallway, and I knew then that I was DONE. I immediately shut everything down and tried to get to sleep, but that footage - it felt too real for me. I genuinely felt like I was witnessing real paranormal shit, and I was SCARED. I fucking cried because of it.

Anti's scared me before but never until last night has he actually made me experience full-blown FEAR. No laughing it off nervous, no "oh my god, that's cool! I wonder how they did that!", no "this isn't real". No, there was none of that. I sacrificed 9 hours and 45 minutes of my time to be driven so sleep deprived and insane that it got to the point genuine FEAR sank in. THAT is the effect Anti has had on me and holy FUCK, I can't even believe it.

I will say this: although I am tired and went through an emotional breakdown, I have to say this has been a lot of fun - about as much fun as the Antipocalypse, what with bringing the whole community together. I also have to saw that holy fuck, props to Jack and the crew for putting this whole thing together. Yeah, it took a HUGE toll on me last night, but that just goes to show that they've done a good job. After all, Jack himself said he wanted Anti to be taken seriously, not seen as a joke, and actually make him scary. Well, he's DEFINITELY succeeded in doing so.

PS Don't worry about me, I'm fine now. It's bright outside and I'm going to be out all day so no emotional trauma for the day; I'll get a good long break :)

PSS I saw a few posts in regards to there being a possibility of the stream continuing for another day or so. I swear to god...I barely even survived last night. I ACTUALLY reached a breaking point! I don't think I could survive another night or so of that again!