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devildrinksvodka · 7 months ago
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Day 93
Storytime… I get to school early in the morning, and occasionally I walk in the front door at the same time as parents who are dropping off their child at the “before school” Care program– a program for parents who have to work early and need the school to look after their child until school starts. A couple days ago, there was a parent walking in behind me. I let him in without checking his ID…
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devildrinksvodka · 7 years ago
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6-30-17 Another Relapse
I foolishly picked up a box of wine and drank the first night in Tawas.  Felt crappy the next day and wasn’t going to drink the second night-- but it was there and I was bored.. so I did.  
Drinking didn’t make things GREAT.  On the second morning, we had to get up and get the place cleaned up and head home.  One thing I want to mention is that I was SO short tempered with the kids.  I knew it was the hangover.  I was in a terrible mood.  My mental and physical states were sad and painful.  
We are going back up tonight.  I’m not sure what or if I will drink this weekend.  Monday is the 3rd anniversary of my mom’s death, it is going to be a hard day.
NOOOOOOOO!   I reread the last two lines, and NO.  I will NOT drink this weekend.  I DON’T want to feel as bad as I did yesterday and Wednesday.  I DON’T want to be short tempered with my family and unmotivated.  More than likely it will just be non drinkers up there anyway, so I don’t even need to be tempted by others drinking!
Here is a quick list of strategies for when I feel tempted:
-- Treat myself (food, special drink, apparel-- whatever it takes!)
-- Go outside-- go for a walk or down to the beach and take in nature
-- Read or listen to a podcast
-- Make a list of reasons why I will regret it the next day
Ok team!  We’ve got this!  I will not sit back and “maybe” drink.  I. WILL. NOT. DRINK.  PERIOD!!
Now off to do some more writing and reflecting and then go to AA to hear a powerful speaker.  
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