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devildrinksvodka Ā· 8 months ago
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Day 93
Storytimeā€¦ I get to school early in the morning, and occasionally I walk in the front door at the same time as parents who are dropping off their child at the ā€œbefore schoolā€ Care programā€“ a program for parents who have to work early and need the school to look after their child until school starts. A couple days ago, there was a parent walking in behind me. I let him in without checking his IDā€¦
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devildrinksvodka Ā· 7 years ago
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6-30-17 Another Relapse
I foolishly picked up a box of wine and drank the first night in Tawas. Ā Felt crappy the next day and wasnā€™t going to drink the second night-- but it was there and I was bored.. so I did. Ā 
Drinking didnā€™t make things GREAT. Ā On the second morning, we had to get up and get the place cleaned up and head home. Ā One thing I want to mention is that I was SO short tempered with the kids. Ā I knew it was the hangover. Ā I was in a terrible mood. Ā My mental and physical states were sad and painful. Ā 
We are going back up tonight. Ā Iā€™m not sure what or if I will drink this weekend. Ā Monday is the 3rd anniversary of my momā€™s death, it is going to be a hard day.
NOOOOOOOO! Ā  I reread the last two lines, and NO. Ā I will NOT drink this weekend. Ā I DONā€™T want to feel as bad as I did yesterday and Wednesday. Ā I DONā€™T want to be short tempered with my family and unmotivated. Ā More than likely it will just be non drinkers up there anyway, so I donā€™t even need to be tempted by others drinking!
Here is a quick list of strategies for when I feel tempted:
-- Treat myself (food, special drink, apparel-- whatever it takes!)
-- Go outside-- go for a walk or down to the beach and take in nature
-- Read or listen to a podcast
-- Make a list of reasons why I will regret it the next day
Ok team! Ā Weā€™ve got this! Ā I will not sit back andĀ ā€œmaybeā€ drink. Ā I. WILL. NOT. DRINK. Ā PERIOD!!
Now off to do some more writing and reflecting and then go to AA to hear a powerful speaker. Ā 
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