#shoutout to tenka who led me to actually think about what lasting effects all of that would have on her

[warwaged-moved]

ok I have better structured survival au thoughts for ysayle

when she goes to azys lla, she turns into shiva fully intending for that to be the last time because she doesn’t expect to survive. this is supposed to be a last act of good to atone for the harm she’s caused by helping the wol and allies 

she does nearly die. her survival is a close thing, but considering her body doesn’t simply dissipate in aether, someone (🤷‍♀️ I’m leaving this open-ended) goes after her in time for her to be barely alive. it probably takes a lot of healing to make sure she doesn’t die even then, and that’s like, just the immediate aftermath

specially at first, when she’s awake she has short term memory problems. not that she doesn’t remember anything, but that sometimes she forgets things, some things are not as clear, etc. as she recovers, that gets progressively better. she also sustains heavy injuries in her arms and legs, but tbf there’s probably no part of her that isn’t seriously injured somehow. the fall, coupled with the attack, means she has external and internal wounds, and she has many scars all over her body after that (they’re not the first or the only and I’d particularly like to note that although she doesn’t die bc shiva, ravana literally trespasses her with a sword and I think that definitely left a mark). ysayle also can’t walk for a time due to her legs being injured, and even after they’re fully healed, it becomes painful for her to walk very long distances/stand for prolonged periods of time. she also has to deal with chronic pain in her legs and her hands, which would have taken more damage bc if she did fall head first she would have still died lol

as a result, it takes a long time for her to recover. BUT as she plays a part as a ghost when the wol and alphi are ripping nidhogg’s eyes from estinien, I want to say against everyone’s best efforts to keep her resting and recovering, she makes the painful and difficult journey to go there to help (and she cares about estinien enough she would tbh...)

she still has months of recovery before she can properly function entirely on her own without needing more healing so I think she isn’t likely to immediately join the scions. she probably stays in ishgard, and even though she’s recovering, she already does her best to help with the reforms and the peace effort. (it would be! super odd to be there recovering and helping after how she’s looked at ishgard for so long but I do think she’s very glad to see those changes happen and she still wants to make up for what she’s done + the need for medical attention sdkfnjksdfn)

all of that is my excuse for her to be absent from storm.blood shenanigans entirely....

but with ishgard more or less doing ok, and ysayle finally being as recovered as she’s likely to be, she’d go after the scions --- the wol, specifically, because she wants to do good and so she seeks to join their ranks. as she says herself, the wol showed her the way; and she wants to fight beside them. that’s? probably somewhere during 4.4? maybe? I have to check again what happens when

I haven’t decided exactly what job I’m giving her tbh, though she’d need one since she’d no longer rely on shiva’s power. definitely something with magic. maybe summoner? maybe some type of healer? I want to make her a frost mage but that’s a class from the wrong game---

anyways, when the scions are taken to the first, she’s already working with them. BUT because I always try to not to disrupt the story much to not get in the way of other characters and such with my survival aus, I think I’ll go with her not being mistakenly taken to the first and instead staying with the others dealing with garlemald, try to help find information to help bring the others back, etc

she’ll be so devastated to be left alone again rip

maybe I’ll think about what she’ll be up to in ew tomorrow