#shoutout to jace. only one to see blair/crimson as herself and not as. well. The Dead Girl.

[acircusfullofdemons]

paracosm // phantasmagoria [im not the one] || paras // blair ceres [crimson shadow]

I don't think you chose the name "Crimson" because of your hair. I think you chose it because you were supposed to be the one to die.

You are not just a shadow of her, either. You are your own person, new name or not.

But I’m not though, am I? I was always meant to be some dead girl. Gone before the story even starts.

That’s not true. You’re—

(He goes to comfort her. She swats his hand away.)

Don’t say that! Everyone needs to stop saying that! It is true! I was meant to die! I know it, you know it, everyone knows it! I’m supposed to be dead, with my sister. Not here causing my brother even more trauma by just existing.

(There are tears in her eyes. God, she is so sick of having tears in her eyes. Like a leaky faucet that can never be fixed.)

Is that all I am in this world? Someone born to die?

(Jace does not answer. Not immediately. Jace does not answer not because he doesn’t know the answer. He does. Jace does not answer because he knows the answer is “yes”. And there is no other way to answer her question. So instead, he stays silent, and pulls his — very much alive — friend into a hug.)