#shouldve rotated him oh well lmao

[kanos]

[deanirae]

awright kids! i took the pills that make you stare at garbage and here’s what i saw aka 13.01 condensed bc boy i sure dont do meta anymore, so fuckle up for the short ride:

- general experience: it wasn’t rotating on a cactus terrible. it was more like throwing bars of soap on a road, watching cars flatten them to the ground for approximately 35 minutes, at the same time thinking well at least i didnt shove them up my ass so thats something ... [im sure the german language has a word just for that]

- expectation vs reality: i avoided every single tiny spoiler for the whole summer and i didnt even have to be on my dash last night (and i wasnt) to immediately guess the papa cas schtick is a-go. now were it anyone else i would say “try harder” but its dabb we’re talking about so i dont want to give him any ideas. 

...andrew dabb, if youre reading this, please, this is not a challenge. also, stop bootleging my ideas. im doing the better. i got this, andy. u can stop. please stop

- other things that are worth noting:

u dont get to call people crazy if u got uncle jessie hair in 2k17 dude

i loved the friessssssss angel so much, gonna miss her. i just love angels with some personality to them. too bad they all die lol

all the cas is fam talk and they ditched his body lmao. i mean duh i know they came back but like.... they had no guarantee nothing uh-oh would happen with the corpse so... ha ha? thats so sad

 i also  really liked the sherriff but i just love sherriff ladies thats what i doo

dean u shouldve prayed to amara she liked u better

dean:

*pulls sheet off, goes :/, pulls sheet back on*

me:

u know what? same

oh look now dean had a chair to sit by cas’s resting place what a morbidly nice touch

for all i care sam and jack can grab hands and straddle a passing asteroid together assuming it means leaving dean in peace

8.22 called, said nephilim arent immortal... that was ur episode dabb, the fuckseriously where the hell is loflin. bring him back he was doing damage control

why was... the shitty car.... so important...  in the prayers scene.... [meta writers dont interact, i honestly dont wanna hear it]

“even crowley” TRY PRYING THAT FROM MY CROOKED HANDS FUCKERS

“goodbye crowley” DEAN LOVED HIM TOO AND NOW U KNOW THIS

also i am sooo against this constant benny erasure so i assume everyone means him too yanno

- special award i honestly didnt expect to give but here we are: cheesebutt ...all these months i spent as a mcdonalds cook and it never  crossed my mind? i am full of regrets now

[hatchibomitar]

1-50 BABY!!!!!! TAKE IT OF- wait no that sounds wrong

iFINALLY FOUND IT AHAHA IM ON PAGE 59 OF MY BLOG AND I FOUDN IT

1. Post a picture of u?

here’s a pic of me and my little brother!!! it’s from july 4th 2016 so it’s like.......old now hahaha

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

yes i would, i’m currently doing it :-)

3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

well actually most of my friends are nonbinary and the rest are mostly girls! i really want guy friends but it’s hard to find good guys in montana and it’s also intimidating, i get super self conscious around cis guys

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

i try to do it as often as possible!!! i get nervous but i like to try

5. Can you commit to one person?

mhm !

6. How do you look right now?

like a sloppy college student with Good Hair, my hair is finally long enough to curl again!!!

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

uhh, basketball shorts, a rooster teeth shirt haha and my watch and that’s it!

8. How often do you listen to music?

if i’m not at school or work i am listening to music, i’ll put it that way haha. i listen to it as much as humanly possible

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

oooo, jeans i believe? cause i gotta wear em for work. i only wear a rotation of 3 pants: jeans, joggers, basketball shorts

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2015?

hahahahha i’ve answered this thing before i was just reminded by this fkin question!!! i’ll pretend it says 2018

hoo boy.... im gonna go out on a limb and say politically, yes it will. but other than that...gee, i would sure love to get top surgery this summer. it’d be so much easier than doing it during school and needing to take 2 weeks off. i just need to raise money and convince my parents. they support me but i don’t think either would be comfortable with me doing Such A Permanent Change So Soon. i technically don’t need their approval, but i am gonna be living in their house over the summer so.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

oooo man it really depends on my mood hahahha, im extroverted usually so i Love being with people!!! but sometimes im like no pls

12. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

uhh considering we are dating, i’d be upset aha but i don’t think that’ll happen bc we r 2 giant dork babies in love and i know for me that never even crosses my mind

13. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

i really only have two moods, “i am a brick wall and you don’t know how i feel” and “i am currently crying on your floor at 2 in the morning because they stopped selling my favorite brand of pop tart”

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

not to save my life!!!!!!! i used to lie to people and say i could because when my dad got shoulder surgery i had to shift for him......which is true, he said once or maybe twice “hey put it in 2nd” and i was like “what” and he showed me how but like that’s it LMAO

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

ahahhah hm...the only person i could think who would talk bad about me would be this coworker that i fucking hate, but he’s such an overdramatic tool that i wouldn’t care. but if people were like, calling me slurs behind my back i would confront them.

16. Are you going out of town soon?

yES I AM THANK FUCKIN GOG D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im going back to portland a week from today!!!!!!!!1 aaaaaaaaaaaaa oh my god i miss it so much but more importantlty i am Hating it here more than EVer!!!!!! IM REALLY EXCITED

17. When was the last time you cried?

hahahah lately i’ve just been crying at almost every cute or nice thing, most recently while i was searchign for this post actually i saw the hidden figures gals when they won their.. emmy? i do not stay up to date w awards but oh my god they were just alll so happy and they were being recognized and wow. the last time i cried from something that wasn’t tumblr was when i was recording a message for kate because she’s been having a hard time (understatement) and it makes me sad

18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yes aha to be honest i was always having huge crushes on girls for my whole childhood but i didn’t know i was allowed to have those feelings, so i pushed them down. so every girl that i liked i didn’t expect. and i’m only unpacking and raelizing that Now ahaha

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

i don’t think so !!

20. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

i have to work! and ask my boss for time off

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

my rent company emailed me to submit my rent payment......my rent isn’t even due for 2 days aha and it Offended me even though yes i shouldve yesterday but like how Dare they hahahha

22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

if you could kindly never use that phrase again i’d mightily appreciate it bud :)

23. Are you nice to everyone?

i love being a nice person it makes me feel happy inside. but if someone doesn’t deserve kindness then no i’m not. i love giving people chances and i don’t make rushed judgement but some people are so awful that they just don’t deserve my kindness

24. What are you sitting on right now?

my office chair!

25. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

.......

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

yes i have. o i bet u thought i was gonna elaborate!!!! hell NAh figure that shit out on ur own !!!!!!! ahahha but yes i have and i just dont wanna get into it/it’s happened a Lot

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

kate

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

idk i used to ? kinda?

29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

i don’t think so hahah

30. Does anyone hate you?

yes im sure of it!

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

I Hate

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

idk i like the theory of it but once im doing it im like ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,This WAs A Mistake

33. Are you a jealous person?

mmm yes hahah but that’s nothing communication can’t fix ! and most of the time when i get jealous i’m close with the person so i can just bring it up

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

hm...i dunno, i’ve had a lot of bad years, but i’ve also learned a lot from them and as brutal as it sounds i’m kinda glad some of those things happened. like, 7th grade i had insomnia for months and months and i was dealing with internalized homophobia, but that’s how i learned i had anxiety and that was the beginning to me realizing my sexuality so ?

35. Did you have a dream last night?

yes i did!! it was very detailed and intense and i forget it completely hahahha

36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

yes :-)

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

mmm i have no idea? that seems super early to me. i wanna be more financially stable i think

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

yes i do think :-)

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

i think she is sleepin

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

not really aha

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

yes!!!!!

42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

no hahahha wow, im dating someone good and im on hormones and im in college! this time 2 years ago i was a few months from graduating high school. although, i still am dealing with medications for my bipolar, so

43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

....stuff

44. What’s the best part about school?

when i’m so interested in something im learning that i write it down and do extra research because it’s so Fascinating, then tell all my friends

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

yes? what kinda question is this...i have thousands, i’ve been an active facebook user for like 8 years (unfortunately)

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

oh my god...not anymore, but i got in Such trouble one time when my friend wrote the word bitch on a piece of paper and the teacher found it

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

yea a lot!!

48. Were you single over the last summer?

ahahha i was actually!! wow, im amazed that you picked the only time i’ve been single in 3 years

49. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

...........nothin mind ur business

50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

yes!! all my friends r beautiful!!