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24 - The Sights of New Orleans

Part 25

Gemini Runaway

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It had been a few weeks since I had puked up blood and things hadn’t gotten better. I was only puking up blood occasionally but I was still getting sick in the mornings. Throwing my head back I moaned, feeling sick still pressing my back against the wall. “Ugh…This is torture.”

“Let’s just do this the easy way considering this normally works.” Klaus entered the bathroom biting into his wrist holding it out for me.

Wrapping my fingers around his wrist I started drinking it until I felt the sickness coming again where I yanked my mouth away puking again. “Shit…Call Caroline I need help.”:

He got to his feet finding my phone on the bed dialing the blonde phone number watching me as I wiped away the remaining blood on my mouth. “Rae, what’s going on?”

“Hello Caroline, she is having me call on her behalf because she is throwing up once again. What exactly do I need her to get for you, sweetheart?” He responds back to her.

Pushing my messy hair out of my face I croaked out weakly. “Care, can you go to the drug store and pick up something for morning sickness?”

“Sure. But can I ask why Klaus isn’t just giving you blood-“

“Don’t mention that it will make her-“ Klaus tried to warn the blonde but he was too late.

Gripping the side of the toilet I bent over puking for the fifth time this morning. My hair fell over my shoulders until Klaus held it back with his freehand turning the phone on video call showing it to her when I shot my head back up growling at her. “Nobody better say the word blood until this sickening nightmare is over. Or I’ll kick both your assses!”

“Okay, okay sorry. I’ll be back at the mansion in about an hour.” She hung up the phone with Nik sitting it on the countertop wrapping his arms around my waist shifting my body until he carried me bridal style back to the bed.

Reaching for his hand he intertwined our hands together staring at me as I placed my other hand on my stomach propped up on the soft pillows. “Maybe I should call Jo. She’s a doctor and a former witch. She might have answers.”

“Possibly but I have a hunch that you will be much better if we change your surroundings. So I’ll pack you a day bag and we are heading to Orleans in a few hours.” He declares rising to his feet, coming over and planting a kiss on my forehead vamping around the house grabbing some things while we wait for Caroline.

Finally she arrived coming upstairs carrying a full bag plopping down on the bed since I was laying down again not feeling like I had the strength to stand for long periods of time. “So I got some medicine. Then tons of chocolate and something for a hangover in case you had too much to drink.

“Caroline, I didn’t get drunk. I have just been puking almost every morning ever since Nik and I slept together. And his blood doesn’t do anything but make me sicker.” I grumbled laying my head back down.

She smacked me on my legs squealing like the typical teenager she was. “You slept together and you didn’t even tell me until now. I can’t believe you. We are friends and you didn’t tell me!”

“Caroline! You��re ridiculous.” I covered my face with my hands peeking through my thumb and index finger when I started blushing. “Look can we talk about this when I get back because I can assume you're going to freak out even more that I gave him my virginity.”

She bounced up and down on the bed throwing her hair around. “Eehhh! Rae, you are making the sepence even worse. Wait where are you going?”

“New Orleans. Klaus thinks that it would help with my sickness if we took a day trip to his favorite place.” I told her sitting upright when I heard someone vamped up the stairs.

Klaus leaned in the doorway, hands behind his back smiling at me. “It was on that very bed, Caroline. Are you ready to go, Raelyn?”

“Eww I can’t believe you just said that!” She jumped off the bed watching me get to my feet drinking the liquid medicine she had brought me. “I hope you have fun but when you come home we are having a serious friendvention.”

Klaus insisted on driving like usually but I was shocked that he didn’t have us traveling on a private jet. He always said he could compel almost anyone to do anything. “You seem rather quiet, love. Anything I can do now?"

"Just trying to not throw up again because it's disgusting. But uh…just start asking me questions. You know, take my mind off of it." I suggest sliding down in the passenger seat glancing briefly at him.

He nodded, tapping his fingers on the steering wheel. "Alright favorite color."

"Orange. But like where it looks like the sunset. You?" I responded.

He smiled. “Blue.”

“Like your eyes. Okay uh favorite food and if you say blood I will snap my neck when we pull over at a rest stop!” I threatened him with a smirk.

Nik sent me a raised brow smirking at me. “Blood- ow!” I kicked him harshly in the leg where he started laughing against the steering wheel.

“I told you not to say that word!” I shouted at him rolling my eyes covering my mouth trying to not puke in the car.

He raised his hands up for a second. “I’m sorry I couldn’t resist, Rae. Fine my favorite food would have to be a Benya.”

“I’ve never had one of those. My favorite food is steak. If we’re talking about dessert, anything with chocolate.” I shrugged my shoulders leaning back in my seat, spinning the ring on my hand.

Klaus whipped his head around at me with a shocked expression on his face. “You’ve never had a Benya. When we get to New Orleans that is the first very thing we are doing. Because you haven’t lived until you have one.”

“Okay.” I giggle at his outburst over a desert but he must know best since he has lived so long. We immediately parked the car even though it was nightfall already in the city and he laced my fingers with his leading me through the busy street until we came to a bakery shop.

He slides some money to the woman at the cash register. “One Benya for the lady please.”

The woman handed it to me where I took a bite out of it instantly agreeing with him. Quickly finishing the treat in my hands I licked my fingers seeing that he was smiling at me and holding back a laugh. “You can’t take me anywhere can you?” I recalled our dinner night with the Salvatore’s when I made a mess with my chicken dinner.

“No, I most certainly can’t. So I'll take it you enjoy it.” He wiped away some of the icing that was in the corner of my mouth taking my hand again going back outside on the street.

Squeezing my hand in his I smiled at him hearing the loud bands playing music making it very different from Mystic Falls or the off the grid home that I was raised in. “So what exactly do you love about this city? You’ve been all over the world and yet you pick this one.”

“Everything about it, Raelyn. The music, art, culture, food. Now come on, I want you to see it from above.” He wrapped his arms around my waist where I jumped up wrapping my legs and arms around him so he could vamp us up onto a high platform overlooking the sights.

My hair blows in front of my face when he rested his chin on top of my shoulder holding onto me in the middle of my waist. “It’s beautiful. My brother would have loved looking at all the art.”

“There’s nothing that says we have to go back to Mystic Falls, you know. We could remain here for the rest of our lives.” He suggested where I spun around in his arms pressing my back against the metal railing.

“Did I ever tell you why I don’t want my coven to find me before I knew that if I died then they would too?”

He shook his head no. “No you haven’t, love.”

“The reason is…because I never want to have children. Because there’s a very likely chance that I would have twins. I completely refuse to put such a burden on myself and whoever the father would have been. Putting pressure on my children and telling them that they might have to kill their twin. It’s just too cruel of a thought…but since you're a hybrid I don’t have to worry about it.”

He tilted his head resting his forehead against mine. “If you want to adopt, we could do that someday.”

“Never. I have everything I need right here with you, Niklaus. I don't need any children in my life. I just desire to have you forever and always.” Leaning forward I close the gap kissing him wrapping my arms around his neck. He pressed his lips firmly onto mine, vamping us around until I was pressed against him and the brick wall. Running my fingers through his hair I started making it into a mess when he lowered his face into my neck trailing kisses down it making me moan when he hit my sweet spot. “Nik!”

He lifted his head up when I tugged on the back of his head cupping his face in my hands where he moved his hands up wrapping my legs around him so he could grab a hold of my shirt about to tear it. “Raelyn..”

“Niklaus, Raelyn.” Elijah’s familiar voice caused us to turn our heads quickly seeing that he was standing a few feet away from us.

Burying my blushing face into his black tea shirt he growled at his brother interrupting us. “Go away, Elijah. I am enjoying my time with my love.”

“We need to talk, brother.” He said.

Klaus shook his head lifting my head up in one hand about to kiss me again. “The only thing I need or care to do is going to back to kiss this beautiful face.” I giggled brushing my nose with his wrapping his other arm around my waist.

“I believe I have found the answer to why Raelyn is getting sicker and it isn’t because of her consuming our mother’s magic.” Elijah declares, causing me to lower my legs separating from his brother eyeing him with curiosity where he waved us to follow after him.

Klaus and I followed after the suit wearing vampire until we ended up in a crypt underneath the city. “What are we doing here?”

Elijah replied. “Want to know what the witches have in store for you? Follow me.”

Moving around a corner I saw there was a woman with black hair waiting for us. “Sophie Deveraux. What is this?”

Elijah gestures with his hand. “He's all yours. Proceed.”

Sophie began explaining to my boyfriend in a very serious tone. “You know you're famous in this town? Witches tell bedtime stories about the powerful vampire Klaus. We know Marcel was nothing but an orphaned street rat until you made him what he is. And now he's out of control. He does what he wants. He kills who he wants. I'm gonna stop him... And you're gonna help me.”

Klaus looks at Elijah then down at me with our hands still intertwined together. “This is why you brought me here. You do realize we need to be finding a cure for the dark magic that is killing Raelyn and why she is getting sick all of the sudden.”

Elijah told us. “Hear her out.”

Klaus shook his head turning back to the woman before he began walking towards the door and I followed his heels. “I don't need to hear her out. I assure you, love, there is not a thing on this earth that will matter enough for me to waste even 30 more seconds of my time. Elijah, what madness is this?”

“You two have slept together recently.” The witch shouted, making me halt in my tracks.

Turning on my heels to face her I crossed my arms over my chest feeling my face turn red not expecting that I would have this conversation with a stranger but here we were. “Yes, so what of it. In case you didn’t realize this my sex life isn’t something I talk about publicly. Especially to a strange witch in a bayou in New Orleans.”

Sophie stepped closer to me, shifting her focus back onto the hybrid. “Marcel may be able to keep us from practicing real magic in this town, but as keepers of the balance, we still know when nature has cooked up something new. For example, I have a special gift, of sensing when a girl is pregnant.”

Klaus asked, shaking slightly in confusion. “What?”

“Elijah, did you decide to trust the stupidest witch in the whole city?” Spinning around towards him I started laughing thinking that this was a joke that they were playing on me to make me feel better after the last couple of hard days but the original vampire didn’t start laughing. “Like you know just like every other vampire on the planet that they can’t have children. That’s what Rebekah is always talking about, that was taken away from her before she got the chance. So just go ahead and say this is a joke.”

Klaus took a few steps back dragging me behind him and shielding me with his chest. “What are you saying?”

“Niklaus… The girl is carrying your child.” Elijah reveals to him where my hand’s dropped down to my stomach in shock.

Klaus threw his hands up shouting at the pair in disbelief like me. “No. It's impossible. Vampires cannot procreate.”

“But werewolves can. Magic made you a vampire, but you were born a werewolf. You're the original hybrid, the first of your kind, and this pregnancy is one of nature's loopholes. My sister gave her life to perform the spell she needed to confirm this pregnancy. Because of Jane-Anne's sacrifice, the lives of this girl and her baby are now controlled by us. If you don't help us take down Marcel, so help me, Raelyn won't live long enough to see her first maternity dress.” The French Quarter witch declared in our faces.

“Are you insane? You can’t kill me now that I am linked to him.” I baked pointing my index finger at Nik holding up the magical ring on my hand.

Elijah turned on his heel’s about to leave and go fight whoever this Marcel guy was. “Enough of this, if you want Marcel dead, he's dead. I'll do it myself.”

Sophie raised her voice, stopping him. “No. We can't. Not yet. We have a clear plan that we need to follow and there are rules.”

“How dare you command me? threaten me with what you wrongfully perceive to be my weaknesses? I won't hear any more lies!” Klaus roared his voice at her stomping almost out the door until his brother called his name.

“Niklaus. Listen.” He breathed out where he turned around slowly with his blue eye trailing down to my stomach listening closely.

I stuttered when he paused in his step, almost pressing our chests together watching his hand come to cradle my face up so I would look him in the eye. “Nik…they’re lying right. I’m not…we can’t be pregnant.”

He shook his head no slowly causing me to suck in a sharp breath after he whispered hearing the heartbeat of another inside my stomach. “They are telling the truth, Rae.”

“Oh god…” I began crying which caused him to wipe away the falling tears with his thumb. I couldn’t let myself be pregnant. I wasn’t fit to be a mother. The coven didn’t deserve to torture this child like they had me and Jacob.

Klaus faced the pair pulling me from the trance I was in. “Kill the baby. What do I care?”

“I can’t be here to hear this.” I pushed my way past him sniffing through some more tears.m

Nik blinked his eyes watching the siphon witch he loved leaving in front of him and he had no clue what had gotten into her. “Raelyn….Rae wait.” From the conversation earlier he was confused at the reaction she had just given him so he vamped straight after her.

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m0th-t33th · 3 months ago

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re: your tags on the cyrus post (i lost it and scrolling is so much effort lol), I fully understand what you're saying and it is a little bit eeh (headcanons are so much more low stakes), however like. Well a) I've heard very mixed things on wether its a translation error. the consensus seems to be 'maybe???', the specific word can just mean being not great socially but it is associated with autism and things with similar symptoms. as for it just being him, we only know about this potential part of it due to the leaks, like they never intended for anyone to ever see these documents, so it makes the canon-ness of it kinda debatable anyway because its not like on mt. coronet cyrus goes "btw im autistic". Plus, we dont know about any other characters because the leaks are limited to gens 3, 4, and like... some of 5. so who knows, maybe others are, we may never know. plus the seeming seperation between his emotional issues and the potential autism, at least in my eyes, is a good thing, but in that same document they say he has no emotions, which is just patently untrue so it should be taken with a grain of salt regardless. I dunno what I'm getting at here I've been thinking about this a lot the past few days. I guess to conclude: its kind of eehhh might not be true but if it is and that is the intention, I'm not sure it's too bad all things considered? As in it could be worse. But like. theres also the option to just ignore it and stick to your own conceptions of him. I know I'm ignoring plenty of things in these leaks lmao (some of this cut content was cut for a reason guys....). Either way. i am just enjoying the influx of cyrus autism memes because I've been writing him as autistic for years anyway. ( to be clear this ask is in no way a critique i guess I just wanted to provide what little context I have and also this has been bouncing around in my brain for two days so. opinions have been formed kfdsjd)

THIS IS TRUE! it was only a handful of leaked info & there very well could be other characters described the same its just kept away because no one was supposed to see it in the first place.

and Yeah the canon-ness is very iffy but a lot of people ARE just taking it as face value immediate canon (which is. Not. what you should do. lol.)

PLUS. YOU ARE RIGHT. IT COULD BE WORSE. but to me personally i just feel itd be a bit.... iffy? if the ONLY character to be described as autistic is a villain. ya know. but [shrugs] who knows.

the memes are fucking awesome tho im enjoying those very much KJFGJKJHG

( also this is completely fine! no hurt feelings and whatnot. i get it & i actually think you are very cool for this <3 )

#asks #pokemon #<- just to log rather than to like. have this be seen lol #honestly im probs just going to continue on as the leaks didnt happen because like. Wow. that was A Lot.#plus a lot of it was scrapped and whatnot so its whatever to me #but the cyrus thing specifically bothered me because its like. the first time weve ever got something like that and ya know #the whole. demonisation of autism (and other neurodivergencies also) is very much a Thing so im always just like. [squints] ya know?#like my knee jerk reaction was 'thats fucking awesome lets go' but then the Thoughts happened #but i AM a cyrus autism truther so like. no matter what that guys got autism to me LOL

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funnyscienceman · 2 months ago

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so….arcane s2

i said/thought "that's a choice" way too much too often while watching and i highly doubt that that's a good thing. whether it's a reflection of me or of the show, though, remains to be seen djsjhd

ori certainly hasnt had her agency taken away but they sure did take viktor's! 😀👍

jayce has been such a bystander this whole arc

in all the craziness i somehow forgot mel and elora got kidnapped by the black rose

listen im all for sevika getting to have smth to do bc she rocks but please for the love of god dont make jinx a revolutionary

who the hell is the kid???

wtf is going on with hextech

oh my god i completely forgot about ekko and heimer

so much like. Happened? but this whole arc still felt like a nothingburger

idk if it's just that s1a1 left ginormous shoes to fill but like this whole act was just Strange

Sky. That's not sky. Where tf are her glasses. Viktor have you given any of this two seconds of thought? No. Obviously he hasn't. He woke up and kinda just sleepwalked through the divorce. Riot cant point at this and say this is the glorious evolution this is just Changes Happening Without Anybody's Input. this is just Stuff. it's just a whole lot of Nothing what the Fuck

literally the only unequivocally good thing abt these episodes so far is singed

SPEAKING OF SINGED the music box begins each and every one of singed's scenes. it plays all through to the end - except in the last one, cutting out when singed closes the locket. that is the only time it's being played diagetically. those two other scenes, singed didn't have the locket open, but he sure did have his kid at the back of his mind

ok well yknow for one thing im glad nobody so far has been made infallible. i cant think of a single major character who hasnt gotten their shit rocked in some fashion this act. Ambessa's scared of the black rose, Jinx is still vulnerable to stuff like the Gray. i guess viktor hasnt really had anything happen to him yet but i think im considering the whole Jesus thing 'getting his shit rocked' in a completely different way. like jayce isnt wrong to be suspicious of 'it does that to him but i get by without a scratch?'

I might have to rewatch that opening scene tho it was genuinely pretty neat. Just feels like a lifetime ago considering all the crazy shit crammed into three episodes

Overall, Season 2 so far has been such a tonal departure from Season 1 that, if nothing else… it's actually not that hard to just mentally stick with the fanon of S1 taking a straight shot to the 2014 lore 😂 cant believe this is the shit riot wants to make canon lmfao

Earnestly, i really do hope this season turns out well. I don't want to hate it, but so far…. eehhh…

edit: went scrolling thru the singed tag and saw someone mention the "jayce will understand" thing, which like, yeah i guess he did? everything just went by so fast, none of what happened even felt… real. everyone besides singed is so off-kilter it's hard to believe they're even the same characters. they don't even feel like evolutions of who they were in s1, this just feels like a straight-up AU that's somehow made it to the big screen. again, Viktor basically sleptwalk through the 'divorce'. it's hard to even call it that tbh bec it just… happened? jayce said some stuff and viktor said some stuff and it felt like they were going through a script, not that they were actually saying things they thought or felt. this whole act so far has just been bizarre, i struggle to even see it as canon. this is literally just an AU

i shouldn't make any edits after this. i should just go back to hibernation lmao

edit 2: ok one last edit i now no longer feel bad about having cait be a total cringefail protagonist in ccn lmfao that is Absolutely not the worst direction to take her character. this is literally just her own Battlecast. i cant believe they made their 'one of the good ones' cop a total martial law dictator wtf 😂

#arcane season 2 #arcane season 2 spoilers #singed is funny #that is the only conclusion to be drawn here #everyone else is losing their heads and singed is just vibin #im so glad that (SO FAR) he has not been ruined #league of legends #arcane league of legends #rambling

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serendipitous-magic · 4 years ago

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Question Game - AKA Oversharing Hour

I was tagged by @the-angry-pixie! And I’m a chronic oversharer, so this was fun. I’ll put most of it under a read more line because there’s a LOT.

1. Do you prefer writing with a black pen or blue pen?

Black. Dunno why.

2. Would you prefer to live in the country or city?

City city city city city city city city. I’m already going fucking batshit as it is, trapped in suburbia. I want to be able to actually do things, anything. Anything other than just being around the house and / or work. (And I felt like this before the pandemic started.) If you live in the city you can walk out your door and be somewhere else within like 5 minutes. A city park, a cafe, a train/subway, a local attraction, a museum, an artist’s booth, an outdoor market, etc. etc.

Living in suburbia is like, well, to go literally anywhere you have to get into your car first and drive like 10 minutes minimum to get out of the neighborhood, and then if you want to go anywhere that’s not the grocery store you have to drive 20 minutes to get to another area of town, and then once you get there that’s the only place you can be without getting into your car again and getting a nice shot of anxiety from having to drive in traffic and have aggressive drivers roar up on your ass because you’re going 5mph above the speed limit and they want to be going 15mph above, and god help you if you have to merge, and oh by the way this is your only option to get around because public transit doesn’t really exist in any useful way in Big Suburbia, and nothing in within walking distance of your house except like 2 playgrounds and maybe one (1) gas station. (I hate it here lmao)

If I was trapped in the country I’d probably be chill with it for about a week, and enjoy the break, and the on day 8 I’d snap and go on a murdering spree out of stir-craziness.

3. If you could learn a new skill what would it be?

I want to learn German and eventually be fluent in it. But since I’ve already started trying to learn and I don’t know if that counts, I’ll say cinematography. As in the actual working of the camera and lighting and all that. I can dream up some pretty striking images but actually getting the camera to do the settings needed to capture them is another story entirely.

4. Do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar?

Nope. I drink coffee and tea both, and I don’t put any kind of sweetener in either of them. I used to put a shitton of sugar in my coffee and honey in my tea, and then I had some mild eating disorder struggles in college and I never got back in the habit of putting stuff in my hot drinks after that. It just tastes wrong now, after being used to plain black coffee.

5. What was your favourite book as a child?

Either the Harry Potter series or The Hobbit. My grandma would take care of me a lot when I was really little because my parents both worked full time to support us, and every single time I was at her house she’d sit us down at the dining room table and read something to me. Not Junie B. Jones or anything, either, but real, big, thick books. I loved the shit out of Harry Potter and The Hobbit; I would request them repeatedly. We pretty much went back and forth; we’d read Harry Potter, and then The Hobbit, and then when a new Harry Potter book came out we’d read that, and then The Hobbit again, and so on and so forth.

6. Do you prefer baths or showers?

Showers. I love baths, they’re magical, but ain’t nobody got time for that unless it’s a special occasion. I got too much shit to do to spend an hour lying in the bathtub.

7. If you could be a mythical creature, which one would it be?

Vampire. Purely on the basis that if I was immortal maybe I’d finally have time to get my to-do list done and accomplish things. I’d miss the sunlight though.

8. Paper or electronic books?

Paper. Here’s the thing, I really want to enjoy ebooks, but they just don’t hold my attention at all. Maybe I’m too conditioned by the internet to have a short attention span when I’m looking at a screen, idk.

9. What is your favourite item of clothing?

I have a dark gray hoodie from the Seattle Aquarium from when I went on a road trip across America with my BFF a few years ago. It’s still my absolute favorite thing. I also enjoy my hiking boots a lot. (I wear them all the time, really they should just be called “everyday boots” haha)

10. Do you like your name or would you like to change it?

I like my name and I would also like to start going by something different. Probably just because I’m a restless soul and I feel the best (and least trapped) when I’m on the move or when things are changing. The second I get somewhere I want to be somewhere else. That’s just how I am. Gwen is a cool name (I’ve personally met maybe 3 people in my whole life with the same name, face-to-face), but there’s a lot attached to that nickname that I don’t necessarily want to carry with me when I eventually escape my hometown and start down a new path.

11. Who is a mentor to you?

A friend and former professor whom I usually refer to online as Producer Man. He’s a producer (as you may have guessed) who kind of took me under his wing after I was in one of his film classes in college. We work together on film projects now and he’s teaching me bit-by-bit (usually by way of long, rambling, tangential stories / lectures) about the industry. He’s a really good guy. Like, he for sure has a case of Old White Guy sometimes, but his heart is absolutely in the right place. “He’s a little confused, but he’s got the spirit.” He’s always leaving $10 tips at coffee places and working himself to the bone to get his students connected to jobs and internships that will help them with their careers.

12. Would you like to be famous and if so, what for?

Yes, my stories. Actually, “famous” is not the right word. It’s just that fame is so tightly associated with success in our society. I want to be successful. Whether I’m widely known or not is pretty inconsequential to me. I want to make stories and I want them to have an impact. Books, film, etc. It’s about as simple as that.

13. Are you a restless sleeper?

Oh yeah. I have trouble sleeping as much as I should because I usually kind of jerk awake in the morning with this vague feeling that I forgot something or that I’m late for something. Also I stay up later than I should because I’m a night owl, and yet I like being up early because early mornings are great. And usually if I dream at all it’s something kind of stressful, like I dream that I forgot something important or did something wrong. I’m a Stressed Bean.

14. Do you consider yourself a romantic person?

I think so, yeah. I’m pretty obsessed with the idea of romance (I mean look at my OTPs), but heteronormativity got me fucked up enough that I’m bad at actually navigating real romantic feelings or relationships because society never prepared me for The Gay.

15. Which element best represents you?

Fire, probably.

16. Who do you want to be closer to?

My mom. We fight a lot and there tends to be a lot of tension between us. It’s a long complicated story. It boils down to, she really hurt me when I came out as not-straight at 15 and she lost all of my trust and even though she’s working on being less homophobic we’re still kind of trying to repair that divide seven years later.

17. Do you miss someone at the moment?

Dude, I miss everyone. I’m an introvert and I’d love to be at a big party right now. I miss socialization. (As does everyone.)

18. Tell us about an early childhood memory.

The first time I experienced deja vu, I was about eehhh 6? And I legitimately believed, for several years of my life, that I had future-predicting abilities. Like, supernatural-level future-predicting abilities. Because I didn’t really know what deja vu was, so I thought, every time it happened, that I had already ~seen~ that moment in my dreams or something. 🤣

19. What is the strangest thing you have eaten?

Hm. (My immature ass brain yells “DICK.” No, brain. Those were dark heteronormative times. Also, grow up.)

Probably some of the sushi in Seattle. I actually love sushi, it’s just that when it has full-on legs and eyeballs I start getting a little squeamish. I like the rolls and the kind where there’s some fish meat laid out on a nice little bed of rice, that’s delicious. But when they brought out the whole shrimp with legs still attached, I was like “How in the (redacted) am I going to chew / swallow that.”

20. What are you most thankful for?

That I happened to be living with family when this pandemic hit. I was supposed to move out (and across the country, actually) as of... like 4 days ago, as it happens. That was the plan. Plane ticket was gonna be booked for 7/15/20. Obviously, things didn’t quite work out that way, because of the pandemic and a few other reasons. But I can’t imagine if I had been in an apartment living with roommates, or in an apartment on my own struggling to get by, when this happened. A lot of people couldn’t pay rent and lost their homes. I was very, very lucky to be where I was, when I was, and very lucky that I have family who let me stay in their house pretty much indefinitely while this clusterfuck of a year happens.

21. Do you like spicy food?

Yes! I looooove spicy thai food especially. I miss the massaman curry from a local Thai place so much 😭

22. Have you ever met someone famous?

Um. Maybe? I met Veronica Roth once at an author talk in the library where I work, although it was before I worked there. And I met some guy from New Zealand who’s famous for his sword fighting skills because my dad does sword fighting stuff. Don’t remember his name though.

23. Do you keep a diary or journal?

Yep. I have to write down everything or I forget. (I often say I have the memory of a goldfish.) Also, I have this compulsion to record and preserve my experiences in life, because I feel like our time on Earth is so fleeting and if I don’t write down what’s important to me, I’ll forget it and lose it.

24. Do you prefer to use a pen or a pencil?

Pen. Pencil gets smudged.

25. What is your star sign?

Scorpio, which is ironic because they’re supposed to be ~hyper sexual~ I guess, and I’m like gray-ace or something in that zone.

26. Do you like your cereal soggy or crunchy?

Crunchy. Who eats soggy cereal? Are you okay? Do you need help? This is an intervention.

27. What would you want your legacy to be?

My stories. Life and sentience, as we experience it, is made up of just that: experience. And I read somewhere that, on some level, the human brain doesn’t differentiate that much between real life experiences and fictional experiences. I think that’s true. If you read or watch or hear the right story, it can really touch you and change the way you see life, or even change the way you live life. Stories have an incredible amount of power, both in individual people’s lives and in larger society. A huge amount of power. I want to be able to give people experiences that will Enrich Their Lives (do I sound like a lifestyle coach yet? 🤦🏼‍♀️), but also stories that actively do good in society. Positive representation, body positivity/neutrality, diversity, healthy relationships (Hollywood has a real problem with that). Hope. It’s the best thing I can think to give society, and storytelling is what I love to do.

28. Do you like reading, what was the last book you read?

I love reading. I wish I did it more. Part of my problem is that I get caught up in the hectic Rat Race of modern society and I never feel like I have time to sit down with a book for hours. Another problem of mine is that I start too many things at once, meaning I currently have like 5-10 (I lost count) books that I started reading, and I want to finish all of them, which means no progress ever gets done on any of them.

I last finished The Goldfinch, and I am currently working on The Secret History, Good Omens, Dune, a book my dad wrote, Directing Actors, Shot by Shot, The Way of Kings and I forget what else.

29. How do you show someone you love them?

Physical affection, acts of service, words of affirmation, quality time, and gifts, in that order. If I’m close to someone, whether romantically or not, I want all the affection. And I’m kind of dying in quarantine.

30. Do you like ice in your drinks?

Depends. I usually don’t put any in, because it’s just gonna water down the drink and get in the way of drinking it (you know when the ice attacks your face?), but I don’t really mind ice in my drinks.

31. What are you afraid of?

Helplessness. I Have Control Issues. ✌️ Also stagnation.

32. What is your favourite scent?

Amber. Or any scent that’s kind of autumn-y. You know what I mean. Some other examples include dryer sheets, wood smoke, cigarette smoke (my big sister used to smoke a long long time ago, and although I never saw her do it, I still associate the scent with her), pine resin, rain, that Mahogany Woods scent from Bath and Bodyworks.

33. Do you address older people by their name or surname?

If they introduce themselves as Pam I call them Pam. If they introduce themselves as Mr. Brown I call them Mr. Brown.

34. If money was not a factor, how would you live your life?

If “money is not a factor” means I have an infinite amount of money to spend as I wish, then: buy land, build film studio complex on land, found company, hire fellow creatives, make movies.

If “money is not a factor” just means that I don’t have to work 40 hours a week to afford rent, then: move to Chicago, rent a nice studio apartment, write stories, maybe work 15 hours a week at a used bookstore or coffee shop to get me out of the house and socialize. Go to museums, go to the park, walk along Lake Michigan, go to gay bars, ride the train, brave the Illinois winters, own a cat, paint, play guitar. Build my actual career on writing / storytelling. Probably also do some filmmaking.

Alternatively: buy an RV (not like an American Trailer Park shitty RV, I’m talking the NOICE ones), buy good film equipment, be a freelancer, live in RV driving around to wherever the next filming location is. Life is a road trip and I’m doing what I love. Writing, storytelling, filmmaking. My home would travel with me. Writing in cafes; roadside attractions; early mornings on the road with coffee in the cup holder as the sun comes up; being able to go anywhere to film; always experiencing something new.

35. Do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean?

I’ve lived in a landlocked state my whole life, so I guess swimming pools. And, listen, I CANNOT get water in my mouth at the beach without wondering exactly how many kids have peed (or worse) in that water. (I know that’s a thing with pools too, but pools get cleaned.)

36. What would you do if you found £50 on the ground?

Wonder what some poor European is doing in America right now. But if it was $50, I’d probably yell “DID ANYONE DROP THIS?” and then take it if no one speaks up.

37. Have you ever seen a shooting star?

A few times, yeah.

38. What is the one thing you would want to teach your children?

Grades are not the end-all-be-all. Skip some homework assignments to spend time with friends. Skip class sometimes. I’m serious. If you make school your top priority, even over your own personal life, you will come away with good grades and a lot of regret and missed opportunities. Learning is HELLA important, and very very little of it happens inside a school building. Get a 15 hour weekend or after-school job in high school, befriend your coworkers, and have fun with it. Use your paychecks however you want. Join a school club - one that you’re actually interested in. Do stupid shit. Light your textbooks on fire after graduation or go to the 24 hour Wendy’s at 2am with your friends or kiss that person you met at summer camp or sleep on the porch because it’s too hot to sleep inside. Be smart and safe, but follow your whims. If you let yourself fall into routine, apathy will poison you.

39. If you had to have a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it?

I already have a couple small ones, but the one I want next is a four-leaf clover. Don’t know where. Maybe my right inner wrist or maybe an ankle. Or like behind my ear. Luck has saved me so many times. (See above, with how I happened to be living with family when COVID hit.)

40. What can you hear now?

Swamp cooler downstairs, the clock ticking in my office, cars outside, people moving around the house. I’m surprised the neighbor kids aren’t shrieking their absolute heads off as per the usual.

41. Where do you feel the safest?

When I’m alone and unobserved.

42. What is the one thing you want to overcome/conquer?

TMI warning, but I absolutely despise public bathrooms. How am I expected to pee when there’s somebody sitting like three (3) feet away, with only a partial wall between us, hearing everything that’s going on? My fight or flight response simply will not allow it. It’s too awkward and therefore Not Safe. Either that public restroom has to be empty except for me, or it has to be so loud and bustling that ain’t nobody hearing anything. Anything in-between and I’m in hell.

43. If you could travel back to any era, what would it be?

The ‘80s. Let’s be honest, even that far back makes my life (as a woman, and as a gay person) hella difficult. But, consider this: it’s the ‘80s. Furthermore, consider this: a part-time job might have actually supported me and paid rent back then 😱 Holy fucking shit. Sign me up. I just wouldn’t want to go any further than than like 1980, because again: lesbian. Being a woman in the past = even harder than it is today, being gay in the past = even harder than it is today, being a gay woman in the past = oh no.

44. What is your most used emoji?

In order of descending frequency:

😂🙄😊😁🤦🏼‍♀️👀😬🌈🤷🏼‍♀️😙

45. Describe yourself using one word.

Creative

46. What do you regret the most?

Wasting my entire teenage experience. (See #38.) I did quite literally nothing with my life except homework for like 18 years. If I had taken even a tenth as much time for myself as I did for school, I would be so much farther along as a person today.

47. Last movie you saw?

In the theaters? ........ uh. Shit, I don’t actually remember. It’s been like 5 months. (As it has for everyone.) But the last movie I watched was Lights Out, because I’ve been watching the director’s youtube channel. You could tell it was low-budget and that the director was still kind of finding his stride, but it had a lot of heart behind it and the creators clearly gave a fuck, which made it enjoyable. I am firmly in the camp of “not everything has to be a Magnum Opus or have a multi-billion dollar budget to be a good movie.” If I engaged with it and got some sort of emotional experience out of it, and if it had a good message, I consider it a good movie.

48. Last tv show you watched?

I don’t usually watch a whole lot of TV shows (who has the time?) but I think the last thing I watched was either The Witcher or that new Unsolved Mysteries miniseries on Netflix. Oh and I was watching Dead to Me because I just love Linda Cardellini’s face and I want to wrap Judy up in a blanket and cuddle the shit out of her and protect her from all things 🥺 My precious beautiful unstable sweet murder baby.

49. Invent a word and it’s meaning.

Apapanic. It’s where you’re so stressed about things that half of your brain is panicking but the other half is so overwhelmed that it circled all the way back around to being calm to the point of apathy, so you just kind of sit there like

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caspianxth · 5 years ago

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2020 20 facts game!

I was tagged by @adanceinasnowglobe!!

01 Do you make your bed? yes, but I do it right before bed bc I am too lazy in the morning but I can’t sleep in an unmade bed. sometimes I make it if I’m going out to do something later at night, eventually I want to be the person who makes it in the morning but I’m not there yet ahaha.

02 Your favorite number? 2 or 3.

03 What’s your job? I work in a hospital call center for their health initiatives.

04 If you could, would you go back to school? eehhh maybe, finishing my first degree was emotionally exhausting, but we’ll see how I like this job long term.

05 Can you parallel park? lol nope. I did it for my driving test that was IT. I just take public transport or uber/lyft to go downtown or for concerts I usually let other people drive and then I don’t make them pay for their ticket.

06 A job you had that would surprise people? uhh, probably that I worked in a car dealership but it was in the office. maybe that I worked at starbucks?

07 Do you think aliens are real? I do, bc I think the universe is too big for it to just be us but I don’t know for sure.

08 Can you drive a manual car? no, but I want to learn!

09 What’s your guilty pleasure?

I don’t know, I kinda own what I do and what I watch, sorry if that’s a cop out but I don’t think you should feel guilty about what you like to do!

10 Tattoos? zero, but I have two piercings on each ear lobe (no one tells you but if you have an auto immune disease your piercings can get infected easily so that’s been fun to learn). tattoos scare me bc they’re so permanent whereas I can change out a stud if I want to switch things up.

11 Favorite color? rn I’d say a nice light pink, like lover-esque pink.

12 Things people do that drive you crazy?

when people are mean to their baristas!!! also vote, check your voter registration status at vote.org!! for the love of all that is good vote!!! you can even preregister so that when you hit legal age you’re r e a d y!!

13 Any phobias? most all bugs, and I get anxious when my feet feel trapped in blankets or footie pajamas so I don’t wear those and when I make my bed I don’t tuck the covers in.

14 Favorite Childhood Sport? swimming.

15 Do you talk to yourself? I think that’s a normal thing, to vocalize your own emotions in your head.

16 What movie do you adore? ww1984 I know it’s not out but I can tell you right now I will love it. I also liked the first ww and dunkirk a lot. 10 things I hate about you is good too.

17 Do you like doing puzzles? depends on the puzzle, I’m more into like word puzzles or solitaire.

18 Favorite kind of music? uhh I listen to a lot, but I’d say it’s mostly pop and rock.

19 Tea or coffee? both!!

20 The first thing you remember you wanted to be when you grew up? I wanted to have like a bookstore slash coffee shop bc I could never decide between the two.

I’m tagging: @loveat2am, @danceundersparklinglights, @devilmendes, @missamericanamovie, @adelaidestreets, @nat-roman0ff, @hollandraul and @curiouslycryptic!!

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belphegor1982 · 6 years ago

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Got tagged by @kikabennet!

when did you last sing to yourself?

Yesterday, since I’ve currently been awake for an hour and a half. Might have been either ��Bonnie Portmore” or “Here’s a Health (To The Company)”. I’ve been putting a lot of shanties and pirates/sailing-related films soundtracks on to draw to (and hopefully write to) lately. (EDIT: Ooops - yep, wrote that yesterday around 11AM, so make that this afternoon; I hummed while I drew along with the first 3 Pirates of the Caribbean soundtracks. It’s so darn hummable.)

if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

Who was the Man in the Iron Mask!? (I know better than to ask personal/family truths :S Besides, I’m curious.)

(putting the rest under a cut...)

what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

Being able to speak (mostly) and read/write English fluently.

what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

When my mum was in the hospital with my newborn baby sister, my dad would take me see them, and before that we’d stop for ice cream and a ride on the merry-go-round. That’s what comes to mind when I read “first happy memory”.

if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

I’d go see my family and friends who live far away a lot more, and eat a lot more of my favourite things.

do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

I don’t, really ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

describe a person close to your life in detail

The Best Beloved is tallish (1,77m - that’s… 5′10?), with dark brown hair, green eyes, skin that tans easily even in winter, and glasses. …and that’s as much detail as I’m comfortable putting.

do you feel you had a happy childhood?

On the whole, yes. Could’ve done without the bullying at school and the undermining of self-confidence at home, though.

when did you last cry in front of another person?

Don’t remember, so it must be at least a fortnight.

pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them

My dad, who used to sail with a compass. I don’t think he knows much about constellations, but he’s always willing to share memories, even if sometimes he doesn’t remember he’s told them multiple times.

would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

Probably. I shouldn’t, though. Strangers being by definition strangers, you never know where that information is going and how it might be used (possibly against you).

when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

We both were tired and ended up going to bed around half past midnight, so no 3AM conversation, but my friend Sandrine last week.

if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?

…I have no idea? I think I’d concentrate really hard on not dying :S

what is your opinion on brown eyes?

Why would it matter tho I have brown eyes and for the longest time I thought they were boring. It doesn’t help that brown hair and eyes are basically the default where I grew up/live. Then I grew up and moved on.

pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally

George Bernard Shaw’s “Life does not cease to be funny when people die any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh.” Life is complicated, all about balance between extremes and absolutes. Don’t trust people who tell you the world is grim and serious just because they are. And while getting the giggles at a funeral/wake is inappropriate, it doesn’t mean you’re heartless.

what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

Wait, What

what would you do with one billion dollars?

I’d keep half a dozen millions for me (car and house debts), my family and my friends, and give the rest to social services, healthcare, and public services in general.

are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

Ehhh… It’s complicated. I tend to hold grudges when I can remember why, but I rarely do something about it. On the whole I’m pretty “live and let live”.

would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

Neither, really. I’m too soft for punk, but pastel’s not really my thing either.

how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain

I’m too much of a wuss to even consider getting either, but they look great on other people. When I get a spot on my tongue I wonder how people with a tongue piercing manage to keep it, though. It’s very distracting.

do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

As a rule, no, but if I work or if I’m invited somewhere I’ll throw on a bit of eyeliner and lipstick. (I should raid my makeup drawer, really, some of my lipstick cases are almost 20 years old and you should NOT do that.)

talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way

In high school I saw a psychologist (junior high was NOT a happy time and the bad stuff just overflowed at one point) and went to an outpatient clinic every Wednesday. They had lots of activities, like painting on silk, various art stuff, and a band, and I loved that band. I was one of the only ones who’d request songs to sing in English. The guitarist introduced me to the Beatles’ “Something”, which I didn’t know, and to this day when I hear this lovely song I think of that guy who had a great smile, a great sense of humour and a great moustache (think George Harrison on Let It Be) who helped me get better.

list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel

Not to brag, but back in my uni days I did go to a number of them - K’s Choice, Coldplay, King Khan And His Shrines, M, Tom McRae are among the ones I remember. And a couple months ago I went to a rock concert with three bands one after the other. I love live music, it feels amazing. It courses through my body, makes me grin like a maniac, and want to jump and flail around just to vent the excess energy. And all this without a single drop of beer! (can’t stand the stuff :P)

who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?

I’d love a letter from the national loto that says “here’s a giant check even though you haven’t scratched a ticket in years” :P More seriously, I LOVE receiving letters from my Internet friends.

do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?

I don’t really have a workspace. I have a desk, which has the desktop screen, keyboard, mouse/graphic tablet, and a whole lot of mess of papers, pens, boxes, and stuff. I can use either that desk or my laptop in my armchair.

what is your night time routine?

Finish watching the movie/tv show, look at Tumblr a bit (and/or stuff on the laptop, like TV Tropes), go to bed, read a bit on my Kindle, kiss the Best Beloved good night, switch off the lights, and try to sleep.

what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?

Anything about my intimate life, thanks.

if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

I experimented a bit with henna back in the day, but generally I just have haircuts (I have too little hair to risk harming it). I’d like some reddish highlights one day, though.

pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

Eehhh... I’d rather stay at home and chill :P Okay, I’d take the Best Beloved and my friends Melody, Nico, Sandrine, and Aldric, and head to Marquèze. (wish their website had an English version, it’d be better.) It’s an ecomuseum about local life in the early 1800s/early 1900s, with preserved traditional houses and people showing skills like dyeing fabric, shepherding, making flour (there’s a watermill) and all sorts of cakes and bread and snacks, and an entire day isn’t too much to visit everything.

name three wishes and why you wish for them

I wish:

I had a decently-paying job from home,

my friend Sandrine’s mum were/will be all right (don’t ask),

we had the house extension built already

what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up

We didn’t have Halloween when I was growing up, it really only started to be a thing in earnest a decade or two ago. Although... One time when we lived in Bordeaux, the Best Beloved and I were invited to a housewarming party on Halloween, so people would wear costumes. I went as a witch, with a long black skirt, long-sleeve thing with black lace (-ish), long black and white wig, and of course black lipstick and lots of black around the eyes. The Best Beloved had made a cloak, a scythe of sorts with cardboard and foil, and had a scary death head mask on. We didn’t have a car and the friend lived in Saint-Médard (which is relevant), so we had to ask around the bus drivers for which bus went there.

So picture the two of us dressed as we were, mask and all, well after dark, asking around for the “S&M” bus. Yep :P (People stared at us during the ride, and unlike the Best Beloved, I didn’t have the luxury of a mask to hide my laughter...)

what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

The only time I got slightly tipsy I went a little pink and apparently talked a little louder than usual. I’ve never got drunk (too afraid of stomachache later) or high (it took my mum two heart attacks to quit smoking and I’m wondering if she hasn’t taken it up again, I can’t hold a cigarette, tobacco or otherwise).

what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

Hurt people, probably. If I wouldn’t do it for ten dollars I wouldn’t do it for a million - if you agree to one or the other the rest is just haggling over price.

if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

I don’t think I have the right face shape for that - my face is too round, longer hair suits me better.

what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

I live 126 km (78 miles) from the nearest Starbucks, when I walk by one the queue is huge, and the prices are well beyond my range :> But I’d trust the Best Beloved. He’d still ask me, though.

what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

Being happy and/or stress-free. Also the oncoming Papa Bear Awards nominations in a week and the Eurovision Song Context coming up in May :D

Tagging @radarsteddybear, @rose-of-pollux, @truxi-twice, @myrling-art, @iorvethscommando, and @toooldforthisbutstill! :o)

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