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brutalfantasytarot · 14 days ago
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PAC Love Reading: What Your Soulmate Wants You to Know 💘
study the images. which one are you drawn to most?
[left to right]
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PILE ONE: ten of wands
they will happily let you ruin them. they would rip their heart out of their chest and offer it to you. they love so deeply and intensely. you are their fate. the moments they spend with you, they are entirely devoted to you. no one else is on their mind. it's just you and them. hazel eyes and reddish hair. pretty freckles. leo rising. leo moon.
"for you, i am fragile. for you, i will strip
of my clothes and my armor. i would tear the flesh right off the bone
for you, i am naked
for you, i am open."
PILE TWO: two of wands
Sagittarius sun. blonde hair. stargazing together. you guide them like the night sky with your soul. they love your soft thighs and pretty eyes. there's something hazy about them. making love to you is like a ceremony for the universe. they dream of your hands on their skin. you take up all the space in their heart.
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just-a-ghost00 · 3 months ago
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13 reasons why you are a good person
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Group 1 ❤️ - Hermit, 10 of cups, Moon
You mind your business
You are adorable.
You are patient.
You are a very calm, chill person.
You are a good listener.
You have a pure heart.
You have a knack for creative hobbies.
You’re a dreamer.
You make people feel safe.
You never take more than you can give.
You are mindful.
You are not afraid to express your emotions.
You genuinely care about others.
Group 2 🎀 - Queen of pentacles, 5 of swords, 10 of wands
You are reliable.
You are very generous.
You take everything seriously.
You are loyal.
You have a great sense of responsibility.
You have a competitive spirit.
You are witty.
You are resilient.
You are opinionated.
You have a strong mindset.
You are rational.
You remain calm in stressful situations.
You always think about the greater good.
Group 3 👓 - 4 of pentacles, 5 of wands, 4 of cups
You know how to keep a secret.
You are cautious.
You are mindful.
You don’t let yourself be overwhelmed by emotion.
You have a competitive spirit.
You know how to take initiative.
You are not naive.
You know your worth and won’t settle for less than you deserve.
You always have people’s back.
You never back down from a challenge.
You may be a person of few words but your actions speak for you.
You are protective of others.
You are independent.
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thementalshawty · 2 months ago
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Short PAC What ‘Era’ Of Your Life You’re In Right Now 😘
Haylowwwww my babies, you seen not only did I post a YouTube video which I know I finally got to do it’ll be at the bottom of this so look at that two readings in one, 😂! This is a reading I felt pulled to do for you guys really quick I felt like mistress Isabelle brooks from drag race feeling myself entering a new era and I wanted to spread that with you guys so choose from these iconic ladies who had and created so many eras and figure out just where you are in your life right now.
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Pile 1
Your Card: The Twins
I’m seeing that you’re in your yin yang individual era right now, your glow up era I’m hearing that for your pile 1 glow up, your aura is vibrating high and you wanna protect yourself, you’re learning all aspects of yourself and you’re doing it in a safe haven or you’re attempting to get into a safe zone so you can explore the dual sides and natures of you! You’re judging yourself and holding yourself up to a standard that may not be you, comparing yourselves with your siblings maybe? Also if you’re in a relationship that is tense right it could be because of some trauma that THE BOTH OF YOU, need to deal with in order for your relationship to be harmonious. You’re your compassionate era “I see you twin.” I heard that, that maybe for some of you, idk, but I see you giving the benefit of the doubt more, being more caring and thoughtful to the other person, ending old habits and cycles that have been stopping you from having a loving relationship. This era you’re in is all about healing, balance, compassion, and reconnection! Glow up Era fashooooo!
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Pile 2
Your Card: The Patron.
Well to put it just like that, you’re in your patron era, your guiding hand era, mentorship era. You’re definitely the voice and mind someone needs right now in order to get through this thing called life, I’m feeling like it could be you being the mentor or you gaining one. I’m also seeing that you’re in your either endorsement deals era or sponsoring the world era, you’re either giving or receiving some kind of financial investment and I’m seeing that this is new project era vibes as well hunty! I’m hearing what ever you but to do you gon eat it up HENNYYYYYYYYYYYY! I’m living for this era that you are entering you’re in your empowerment era and not just for you but for this new person coming into your life, be open minded, they may not be romantic but this connection is important for the both of you whether you’re receiving or giving the guidance. Learning era baby!!!
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Pile 3
Your Card: The Astronomer
So baddies lol, I see that you here are getting more into your taboo era. I’m seeing that you guys will be discovering a lot about yourselves spiritually, you may even connect closely with your higher self, through dreams for some of you. Connecting with the stars is really important for you at this point, you may even be learning more about your astrology charts and shit right now, stars are aligning for you baby and you’re gonna find out why! Whatever shit you’re dealing with too at this point you’re in you’re gaze in to the future era cos the solution is not in the past, it’s in the future and you need to look there because I’m seeing what you doing right now to solve it ain’t working, time for new ideas. Be open to new suggestions to follow them like is gospel trust YOURSELF! If you’re feeling what someone is saying is not right trust me it ain’t! You are in your high priestess/hierophant era babies do not allow anyone to make you feel like you can’t trust yourself! Your gut is leading you right my babies this era that you’re entering is a whole new you! A glow up but this involves only you, as the other likes involved other people. You got this babies!
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That’s all that I’m getting for you guys, let me know if you like these eras reading in the comments and I will try to do them periodically.
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lavendergoddesstarot · 1 month ago
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Manifesting Tips
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Pick a pile/picture
Pile 1:
Knight of Swords:
Speak your desires aloud (Use affirmations or speak spells aloud)
Write your desires down (Use journaling)
Take action!
Have confidence in yourself
Pile 2:
8 of Wands:
Use your Imagination more
Have fun! (When visualizing feel what's it's like to have your desires)
Take action
Communicate
Focus on law of attraction (What you focus on, you attract)
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ange11icyuri · 3 months ago
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❝ PICK A PILE❞
𓆩♱♡♱𓆪
•sabrina carpenter edition
(Short n sweet album)
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╰┈➤ Chose which picture you connect
with more & that will be your pile.
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PILE 1 𐙚
Your song: Dumb and Poetic —Sabrina carpenter.
For those who chose this pile this connection broke your heart. You thought that this relationship was what you needed but this person only knew how to swoon you with words and paragraphs, and with trying to be poetic and all along it was just words. (This person says something but it doesn’t align with their actions of this relationship. when it comes to loving you and giving you what you want in a relationship they’ve spoken it but haven’t exactly done a lot for you in terms of their actions. They may seem like a good person but they truly broke your heart. Told you everything they could give you (or told you how much they could love you but yet you’ve only been mislead by their words and got hurt instead. Things were maybe good in the start but in your life there had been a lot of changes when it comes to this connection. This person told you they could love you but you ended up being in disappointment because their actions did not match their words. It will definitely be a long journey trying to make up with this person, or trying to go on your way..but the problems are all worth solving & healing is worth it if you would like to become happier after a connection broke you. You need time to process and heal & solve the problems but it won’t be easy. You definitely will overcome it in the end though. Trust the process.
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PILE 2 𐙚
Your song: Bed Chem — Sabrina carpenter.
For those who chose this pile you feel very passionate for the person that you’re interested in. You may just always get excited around them because they possibly give you butterflies or tingles in your stomach. You often fantasize what it would be like with this person. (Sexually) your extremely attracted to this person and even think about what it’s like being in bed with them. You’re confident that the both of you would have the best fun in bed. You definitely Desire them and there’s strong sexual tension between the both of you. You both are very attracted to one another and wouldn’t want to keep your hands off each other. Despite being confident about the two of you in bed you may have lack of confidence or might not feel very worthy with low self of esteem when it comes to this person because despite the both of you wanting each other you still have a lot of insecurity’s..maybe you want to have a good time with this person but you can feel like you won’t be good enough for this person..but you’re more than good enough you should know that! You don’t need validation from this person or anyone else! You might even feel unrecognized or not seen by this person which makes you feel hurt and gives you these insecurities in the first place. The both of you have a connection but sometimes their can be doubts, insecurities & even conflicts make sure to stand you’re grown and communicate with this person if you want things to work out other than being in bed (if it’s not just casual) the both of you need to work together to fix things. This person needs to try a little harder to recognize you and the things you’ve done for them because you’ve been there from the beginning always loving and caring about them in different situations not just the hook up scene so they should take care of you as well.
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PILE 3 𐙚
Your song: Don’t Smile — Sabrina carpenter.
For those who chose this pile this person broke your heart and left you feeling stuck. you were extremely hurt because they seemed happy or moved on with their lives as soon as everything was over but you hoped that they would regret it, cry, or feel bad..even hoped they wouldn’t sleep at night..maybe you just wished things worked out with this person and when it didn’t you felt unhappy and you hated the fact that they were smiling/happy after everything they did to you while you were stuck in this phase of being dissatisfied and disappointed with how things turned out..you wonder to yourself how can someone just act like a connection never happened when you shared so many memories and just easily move on with their lives doing other things already forgetting you. Although the both of you went through a lot this connection may still have some unfinished business maybe the both of you will reconcile or try to talk again to have closure and end on good terms before you move on(take what resonates leave what doesn’t) don’t worry though I see that you will be letting go of worries when it comes to this connection. I see you overcoming any problems in the way and things could get better for you. In your reading the number 8 showed up twice so 8 could be significant to you. Also it means completion and success so maybe the two of you could be working things out in this time or will work things out because this connection means a lot to the both of you. You must keep in mind that you have to keep caution and communicate things clearly with your partner if you want to things to get better the both of you must focus on becoming mentally clear with one another. Especially this person because they did hurt you in the past before and if you’re trying again their needs to be boundaries + clarity on things. You need all the information in order to take the next step in this connection. The both of you have to decide whether this is worth working on or having to let go.
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weebsinstash · 7 months ago
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you know, it may not ever actually be explained or built upon but one thing I've been thinking about a lot recently is like. Hazbin Hotel lowkey has MHA Quirk mechanics and not enough people are having fun with that. we got one guy who can modify his body with technology and can augment and change himself at will and can go into TVs, use electro-based teleportation, hypnosis, his TV head is also a cellphone, then we got another guy who can summon shadowy minions, change people's clothes, create vestiges made of darkness that can absolutely wreck people's shit, his shadow is some kind of familiar and inner peek at his deeper emotions, and I'm also pretty fucking sure the whole "making a magical contract that cannot be disobeyed" is something anyone in Hell can do, the Overlords are just the best and most powerful options
like WHO can actually do WHAT and will it ever be properly explained?
As a fanfic writer I don't actually inherently care about all of the worldbuilding specifics; I just love having the option of giving Reader insert characters fun ass kickin powers and personally I think 90% of this cast would LOVE watching you beat someone up
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carinasibila · 8 months ago
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PICK A CARD Love Reading (April 2024) ~ Singles How to Increase Your Chances in Love Watch on YouTube / Instagram / TikTok Disclaimer: Only take what resonates and leave the rest behind. I am only posting this reading on profiles I’ve listed on my Linktree (linktr.ee/carinasibila) – all other profiles that might post it are fake. Decks used in this reading: Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot Blue Bird Lenormand* Original Kipper Cards** PILE 1 Ace of Pentacles, Heart*, Gift** Back of the deck: The Devil The cards suggest for you to change your expectations regarding romance. You seem to have slid into the expectation that a romantic partner will be handed to you. However, you shouldn’t solely stick to making wishes – do your part and actively create situations that make it more likely for love to come into your life. PILE 2 Justice, Clouds*, Judication** Back of the deck: III of Swords In order for you to increase your chances in love, the cards urge you to stop expecting to be hurt in a relationship. Recent painful experiences have distorted the way you’ve been looking at potential partners, leading to you prematurely disqualifying them. Get to know potential partners without fear but still act with prudence – this will make your search for love much more fulfilling. PILE 3 II of Cups, Birds*, Lovers** Back of the deck: III of Pentacles If you want to meet a new potential partner, the best you can do right now is to do some “networking”. Get together with people you’ve been wanting to catch up with anyway (likely friends you haven’t seen in a while), especially if they have many acquaintances – there is a good chance one of those acquaintances will turn out to be the romantic partner you’ve been wishing for!
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lovepeaceandtarot · 5 months ago
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Pick a card - What your future spouse want say to you? - Result
(Escolha uma carta - O que o seu futuro esposo quer falar para você? - Resultado
DM me for paid readings.
(Me mande mensagem para leituras pagas)
If that found you, it was for a reason. Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t resonate.
(Se isso encontrou você, é por uma razão. Pegue o que ressoar e deixe o que não ressoa.)
Card 1 - Don’t give up, i’m coming for you and don’t worry.
(Carta 1 - Não desista, eu já estou chegando e não se preocupe.)
Card 2 - While I don't arrive, allow yourself to do things that make you happy. When you least expect it, I'm already with you.)
(Carta 2: Enquanto eu não chego, permita-se fazer coisas que te faz feliz. Quando menos esperar, eu já estou com você.)
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hypnotherapy-blog-blog · 9 months ago
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The Black Bag - Part 1.
The Black Bag.
Rob Hadley
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Introduction.
When I wrote The Black Bag I had it in mind that many of the people likely to read it would already have a knowledge of Tarot. However, that’s proved to have been a miscalculation. I have been pleased to see many readers have a curiosity about Tarot, but not much familiarity with it.  As a result, I often suggest readers step into this journey with a Tarot deck at hand.  It will help you see the cards mentioned, and to participate in a manner that gives you a deeper connection to the story.  Each reader, does after all, have their own relationship to the cards. Indeed each card relates to each reader differently. As you make your way through these pages, perhaps you will have insights that will make the story unique for you.
My intent is for you to enjoy these pages, and maybe pick up a few ideas along the way. I don’t propose for an instant that any given card has set or established meanings. My own view is that context is everything. The cards tend to match up with your own particular situation and can have very different meanings at different times. I hope you’ll enjoy this journey. Feel free to reach out to me and let me know your own experiences.
My best wishes as you embark on this journey,
Rob Hadley
The Black Bag
By Rob Hadley
C.2024
It is fair to say that the one person you least expect to see following your mother’s funeral is your mother. Yet, as Grahame Bickerton stepped out of the small chapel and into the daylight and looked across the well tended gardens he was shocked to find himself staring at a figure in the distance that bore an unmistakeable resemblance to the very person he had just witnessed being extended that last of human dignities.
The coffin had slid silently away behind the curtain in the funeral home, and he’d been shocked to find himself craning to see the final glimpse as it moved irresistibly into the cremation chamber. And yet here, across this beautifully laid out garden there seemed to be someone that could be his very own mother sitting in mournful contemplation by one of the gravestones, their back to him.
Grahame felt a hand on his sleeve and turned.  It was the only other person that had been at the service. An elderly woman with a cane, bent almost double, the result of some form of spinal deformity.  The woman spoke to him gently, her eyes moist with tears.
“I will miss you mother,” she said. “I feel your loss.”
“You’re very kind,” said Grahame trying not to be too dismissive but wanting to pull away and see the woman in the distance more clearly. She’d got up and was walking away.
“I used to work with her you know, at the college. Geography,” she said. “She spoke of you regularly.”
“Geography?” replied Grahame, completely lost.
“I teach Geography at the college. We used to have tea together often,” she continued.
Grahame didn’t wish to be rude and turned and tried to catch sight of the person in the garden, but she was hurrying away.
“If I can help,” she said, “you can find me at the college.”
Grahame pulled away and started walking across the gardens leaving the old woman staring after him as he strode away.
“Poor man,” she said to herself leaning on her cane. “He’s obviously terribly upset.”
Grahame hurried across the lawns in the direction of the woman he had seen. Soon he stopped. The crows were rising from some trees by the seat the woman had been sitting on but was gone from view now. It was almost as if she’d never been there. He walked on, but after a few moments realised it was no good. He couldn’t see which way she’d gone.
“Christ,” he muttered, then thinking more clearly calmed himself.
“I have to get a grip,” he said to himself. “This is ridiculous, I’m a bloody engineer, dammit.”
With that Grahame dismissed the notion that anything out of the norm had happened. He was obviously overreacting.
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It was mid morning several weeks later when Grahame received the call from the car dealership. The fall sunlight cast the city in a flat light that lacked the warmth of the summer so recently ended. He stood looking out of his meagre office at the glass towers of the downtown core and the cranes that perched beside every spare inch of buildable space.
How very different those offices were from his own. From the office beside his he could hear his boss shouting down the phone at one of the project planners. The congestion on the road today was holding things up for everybody. He was well aware that they were pouring concrete on several projects today, and with those cement trucks stranded in the unexpected traffic chaos caused by this morning’s power outage there was sure to be hell to pay. As luck would have it none of his teams were pumping today, so while the atmosphere in the office would be toxic, it didn’t directly affect any of his people.
He’d been lucky, pacing himself lately. The recent death of his mother had forced him to scale back some of his work commitments. As the executor of the will there were assets to be disposed of, taxes to pay, and all the administrative chaos that accompanies the end of life. And that brought him back to the phone call. It had been the dealership he’d taken his mother’s old Town Car to.  She’d loved that vehicle, but it had no business being on the road with gas prices the way they are today. Getting rid of it had been the only thing to do, and yet in spite of his having thoroughly cleaned the vehicle before leaving it at the second hand car lot, the manager had called and informed him that they’d found some old playing cards and some journals when the car was made ready for sale.
“We didn’t want to toss them out,” said the manager. “They may be something you want.”
The manager had sounded awkward. He was aware the car had been Grahame’s mother’s vehicle, being acquainted with old lady. He’d been servicing the car since he’d joined the dealership over a decade previously.
A phone slammed down in the cubicle beside his and Grahame winced. Did the workplace have to be so toxic, he wondered. Looking at his diary he could see he didn’t need to be here at present, and if he were to walk the dozen blocks to the car lot he could get away early and then slip home to work the rest of the day from there.
He placed a file into his brief case and made for the door. His boss was already on the phone to the next project manager, wringing his hands and looking intently at the screen of his laptop and chewing his lip, a nervous habit he’d nursed every day since Grahame had joined the company. He nodded as he made his way out of the building but went by unnoticed. As he walked out across the car park he felt the sun on his face and a sense of relief in his heart. It was good to be out of the cramped office space.
He loved the city, and being part of the construction trade he was enjoying the fruits of a building boom, but it wasn’t lost on him that he worked for a small consultancy firm, and the glass palaces of downtown were far from his reality. The firm he worked for may be part of the construction team, but he was under no illusions about the work. Twice in the last year his boss had been forced to ask his staff to wait a week for their wages, and if his suspicions were correct, it would happen again. In the hierarchy of the building trade, the company he was working for was not what anyone would describe as a highflyer.
He walked smartly across town, the sound of horns blaring a fitting backdrop to the stationary traffic. Another set of lights up ahead had blown out and a crew was struggling to get their vehicle to somewhere they could work on the switchgear.
Grahame tuned out the sound of the city. He thought of his mother, and that he’d only seen her three times in the year prior to her death. They’d had dinner back in April, and then he had driven out to the cottage in mid summer, and then Rose had told him she was going in for some tests. She seemed unworried about it at the time, and he hadn’t really thought much of it.
Deconstructing things later Grahame realised that Rose had suffered in silence for some time before having these tests run. Indeed by the time pancreatic cancer was diagnosed it was already far advanced. She had suffered briefly, and Grahame had visited, but soon after that last time she had succumbed, slid into a coma and within two weeks had died leaving a great chasm in Graham’s life. A chasm he promptly filled with his own guilt for not being a better son, and more available to his mother.
He was being too hard on himself, but that was nothing new.
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At the car dealership the manager had placed the collection of journals and other bits and pieces in a large envelope for Grahame to collect.  He walked into reception and the young lady on the desk reached beneath her desk and passed it to him, recognising him from previous visits. Grahame thanked her and took the package, then decided he’d walk home through the park.
There was little point returning to the office today. He didn’t feel up to working, and the traffic chaos of the morning would soon be merging with the afternoon rush hour, as people tried to leave work early to beat the rush.
Taking a moment to sit in the sunshine he stopped at a park bench and opened the package. It contained three journals, all closely handwritten in his mothers handwriting, and one small black bag. He drew this out and inspected it. Inside he found some cards, but not the playing cards you’d expect an old lady to have should she find herself compelled to get into a game of gin rummy. These were altogether more colorful, and well used.
He inspected them and realised that these were tarot cards. He had no idea his mother had an interest in tarot. While not something he had any knowledge of, Grahame recognised some of the symbols on the cards as he rifled through them. He found the cards strangely puzzling, feeling rather like he’d discovered something secret. He slid the blag bag back into the envelope continued his journey home. They were a mystery he would examine further at a later date.
As he walked he lamented the fact that he had few of his mothers belongings, even though he was her sole heir. The reality was that his small modern apartment was hardly a suitable venue for an ancient armoire, or dining table for eight people.
When he emerged out of the far side of the park he was only a couple of blocks from his apartment. Walking to work today had been a good choice, even here the traffic was log jammed.
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The loss of his sole surviving parent had forced something of a pause in Graham’s life.  It was a moment in which he was compelled to take stock and look at where he was.
He had recently ended a fruitless relationship of eighteen months. It had been a perfunctory affair, neither very passionate nor disastrous, but lacking in so many of the things he felt his life needed.
They’d found each other online, were both ‘self actualised professionals looking to share all life has to offer,’ according to their dating profiles, but were neither very self actualised (he still wasn’t sure what that meant) nor very willing to share very much. He’d decided he didn’t really trust the person he was dating, and realised she didn’t trust him either. They’d decided to ‘have a two week break’ two months ago and he hadn’t heard from her since.
Surprisingly he didn’t miss the woman either. It was as if the relationship had not really happened at all. And he felt no compulsion to reconnect.
If he were quite honest with himself it was much the same with his job.  He’d been working as a project manager for several years, and it paid reasonably well. While his job didn’t excite him, it provided security enough for him to live in the city, pay a disturbingly high proportion of his income in rent, and to own a car that he could drive at barely 20 miles an hour anywhere he chose. And then pay a fortune for parking. Like the relationship, his job didn’t fill him with passion either.
Grahame was gradually coming to the conclusion that there were patterns emerging in his life that didn’t fill him with joyful expectation. In his mid thirties he had expected something more of life. Was this really it?
These were Grahame’s thoughts as he walked alongside the stationary traffic and glanced at the frustrated drivers in their little tin boxes. Just a few blocks from home Grahame watched an episode play out before him.
A driver in a Jeep was blowing his horn at a car in front. The yellow haired woman sat in a little pale blue convertible, studiously ignoring the increasingly insistent honking. Judging by the body language the young lady had not had a good day, sitting arms crossed and lips pursed determined to ignore the blaring of the horn behind.
“Hey lady,” came the voice. A tee shirt clad young man, physically toned and cocksure, leaned from his car window and called to her.
Finally having had enough, the young woman, her hair tightly curled up in a bun, turned in her seat and shouted back at the man, “For god’s sake! I have a boyfriend!”
She then turned and sat, arms folded defiantly in the stationary traffic, red faced and flustered now with her eyes locked on the licence plate before her. At that instant a gap opened in the lane beside her and the jeep bucked forward and pulled alongside her for a moment as vehicles shifted in the Tetris game of traffic flow.
“Lady, I just wanted to tell you,” said the man, a little more gently now, “You have a flat tire.”
Taken aback, the young woman checked behind her to see that the traffic was not moving, and then stepped out of her car to take a closer look. She wore a smart pencil skirt and lemon blouse, the picture of propriety. She came back a moment later and sat behind the wheel looking perplexed.
She seemed nonplussed for a moment, and then composing herself turned and politely addressed the man in the jeep.
“Can you help me fix it?” she called across the traffic lane.
The young man lit up a cigarette in a slow languid style, and then said, “Like you said, lady. You’ve got a boyfriend.”
The traffic shifted and the Jeep advanced progressing up the line of cars.
Grahame, abreast of the little convertible looked at the woman, and saw the tears welling up in her eyes. He guessed she’d maybe not fixed a tire before. And with so many cars around she would be stuck blocking traffic before long as the tire deflated. He knew that on any other day he would have gone with his old habits and just not got involved, but today was just a little different.
“Would you like a hand?” he asked softly.
“That would be so kind,” said the woman, relief spreading across her face. Suddenly she didn’t seem quite so prickly.
“Just pull in to one of the spaces up here,” said Graham. “I live a block up the road, I’ll help you change the tire. Just let me go up to my apartment and change out of my office clothes. I won’t be more than five minutes.”
“That’s so kind of you,” said the young woman. “You’re like a real knight in shining armour.”
“Well, not really. But I can change a tire.  Give me five minutes and I’ll be back.”
With that he left her and hurried toward his apartment.
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Grahame hurried along the street, the sound of construction crowding in on him after the quiet of the park.  That poor woman, he thought. Some men really could be thoughtless.
He hurried into his apartment, tossed the envelope carelessly onto the coffee table, as if by reflex turned on the kettle to boil water for a cup of tea and went to his bedroom. A moment later he’d got out of his work suit and pulled on a pair of jeans and a sweater.
He turned and was about to hurry down to the street to help the woman change her tire, when he noticed the envelope had spilled its contents across the surface of the coffee table.
Not wanting to keep the woman downstairs waiting, he casually glanced at the table. Cards were slewed across the flat surface in an arc. It looked almost artistic. One card lay face up.
Grahame glanced at it, and then retrieved his keys and made for the door. As he stepped out of the elevator on the ground floor, the front door of the building opened and his neighbour, old Mrs. Willoughby entered the vestibule.
At that moment there was a terrible crashing sound from outside. Mrs. Willoughby turned and looked out at the street, a startled look of shock on her face.
Grahame rushed to the door and stared out to see what on earth had happened. Cars were stopped now, honking and people climbing from them and rushing back down the road. It took only a moment for Grahame to realise the sound had come from the building site on the next block, just by where he could see the woman’s car pulled over.
He hurried toward the car, and as he got closer realised this was the centre of the commotion. The woman was standing back, leaning against the siding at the edge of the construction site. He hurried to her side.
The little blue convertible was wrecked. It lay smashed beneath a series of scaffolding poles, looking as though it had been speared in some ghastly hunt.
White faced and shocked the woman stood back, shocked but unharmed, against the siding.
“Good god, what happened?” he said to her after he’d pushed his way through the crowd.
People were looking up, staring at a crane’s hook and some chain suspended seventy feet above the road. A man with a hard hat came barrelling out of the building site and rushed to the car. By-standers were already photographing the wrecked car, and posting them to social media on their phones.
“Was anyone hurt?” the workman was asking in panic, looking around wildly.
“Are you ok?” Grahame said, steadying the woman with a kindly hand.
“I’m ok,” she said rapidly. “I’m ok!”
She was white faced and shaking. Grahame turned to the assembled crowd and said, “Does anyone have some water?”
A bottle was developed and passed to the woman.
Grahame turned to the crowd and asked, “Who saw what happened?”
Several voices piped up. Grahame looked at the man in the hardhat and said, “Are you the foreman?”
He nodded nervously.
“Thank god no one was hurt,” he replied. “You’d better get these people’s statements. The police will be along soon. It’s going to make things a lot better if people are able to describe it.”
The foreman nodded and corralled the witnesses while Grahame turned back to the woman.
“You’re going to need a cup of tea, aren’t you,” he said gently. “Let’s get you out of here and calm things down.”
Grahame handed his card to the foreman, and one of the witnesses.
“When the cops show up can you let them know she’s at my place up the road,” said Grahame.
There was sympathetic nod and Grahame and the woman pressed their way through the crowd and made their way down the block to his apartment building.
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Grahame made the tea as his frightened guest sat in the open plan living room.
“You didn’t tell me your name,” said Graham, wanting to keep the woman talking.
“I’m Sunshine,” she said. “And that’s my mother’s car.”
“Oh, dear,” he said. “It’s a very nice little car. Well, it was. How did you come to be unharmed? I mean, it looks like a hell of a mess.”
Grahame poured the tea and placed a cup and saucer before Sunshine.
“I stepped out of the car to look at the tire, and that’s when it happened,” she said. “There was just this rush of air, and a terrible sound. Like bells ringing, and then those scaffolding poles all around me.”
“What a thing to happen,” Grahame said.
“I guess,” she replied beginning to calm down. “I could have been killed.”
She sipped the tea, her hand still trembling. That was when Sunshine started sobbing.
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The statement to the police, a visit from the foreman and an exchange of documents all took time and Sunshine seemed to go through the process in a daze. She was glad to be somewhere quiet and safe, and Grahame remained largely quiet in the background as the questions were asked and answered. It was a terribly unfortunate accident, but as the police officer pointed out, no one was hurt. The insurance companies would sort out the wrecked car which was now safely off the road. The construction company manager said the company would be up to their necks in investigations, but seemed co-operative, almost as upset by the whole situation as Sunshine was herself.
“That could have been my own daughter,” said the manager as Grahame had shown him out. It happened that he knew Grahame from the local planning department meetings that he’d sometimes have to attend for his company.
“Terrible thing,” he’d said. “I’ve never seen anything quite like it. Those clamps don’t just fail.”
“Thank heavens no one was hurt,” echoed Graham.
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At length the police officer left, and they found themselves alone in the quiet apartment. Noticing the journals and the tarot cards on the table, Sunshine asked, “What’s this?”
“Oh, it’s nothing.  Just some things of my mother’s,” replied Graham.
“Don’t you see it?” said Sunshine, looking at the upturned card.
“What do you mean,” said Graham.
“You don’t think it looks like all those scaffolding poles that fell on my car?” said Sunshine as she picked up the card.
Grahame stared at the card. The Eight of Wands.  He wondered what it meant.
“I suppose,” said Graham.  “It’s really not my thing,” he added and then as an afterthought said, “I’m an engineer.”
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Sunshine looked at the card once more, and then at Grahame trying to find the link between not being able to see the visual connection and being an engineer. She failed.
“I wonder what made you turn over this particular card then,” she said. “Probably something subconscious.”
“I didn’t pick that card.  I mean, I just left some things on the table, they just fell like that, and then I came down to help you.”
“And that was before you heard the crash,” asked Sunshine with newly sparked curiosity.
“Yes,” replied Graham, noticing for the first time how the image in the card did look a little like the scaffolding poles.
“That’s quite the coincidence,” murmured Sunshine.
“Oh, I doubt it,” said Graham. “There’s probably no end of these cards look like falling scaffolding.”
His voice trailed off as he realised how he sounded. Sunshine picked up the cards and started shuffling them.
“So, your mother’s into tarot?” asked Sunshine.
“No. Well, yes,” stammered Graham.
“I see,” said Sunshine.
“I mean she died,” said Graham. “And these were among her things. I should sort them out.  I don’t really know anything about the cards.”
Sunshine looked at the journals, and then asked, “Were you close?”
“Not as close as I wish we had been,” replied Graham.
“So, you never knew she was interested in Tarot?”
“Never had a clue,” confessed Graham.
Sunshine turned the cards over in her hands and then said, “You’re lucky then.  This gives you a chance to get to know her through the cards.”
The words hung in the air. 
“What do you mean,” asked Graham.
“Look at these cards,” she said. “You can see they’ve been well used.  These are quite old. Well used. Your mother must have been adept at the cards. Can’t you see it? There’s a lot of her in these particular cards.”
An awkward silence fell between them as Grahame thought about this. It was true, the journals and these cards were like a voice reaching out across the abyss of death. They were a connection.
The silence was broken by the chirp of Sunshine’s cell phone.
She looked at the display and then said, “Mother. This might be a little awkward.”
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brutalfantasytarot · 7 days ago
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Pick A Card Tarot Reading: Random Future Spouse Messages 💓🦋
study the images. which one are you drawn to most?
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PILE ONE: queen of cups
channeled song: follow you - bring me the horizon
gemini. cancer. blue eyes, light brown hair. ocean dives. super creative and intuitive. a love that makes you feel like you're swimming in the depths of the ocean - never safer than you are now. gold chain. modest clothes. nurturing energy. scorpio moon. intense longing. smell of cigarettes. the lovers. meeting in summer or the very first days of spring. psychic knowing. saturn return. new beginnings as a union. to remain tender is a gift
PILE TWO: the magician
green eyes. nose ring. heart chakra activations. gemini moon. libra sun. Aquarius sun. ruled by mercury. black hair. dark brown hair. chokers. i love your weird brain. jack and sally. bleeding on people who didn't cut you. blooming like flowers on your own time
channeled song: dust - M|O|O|N
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just-a-ghost00 · 26 days ago
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What are you currently manifesting?
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Group 1
The Moon, 10 of cups, 7 of swords, The Magician
Feelings that were trying to be hidden from you will be revealed to you in an undirect way. You will either learn through someone else or using your own intuition and skills about a person's true intentions. You are also manifesting the healing of past betrayals and deceitful situations. You may have been strategically planning to get a person to confess to you. You could also have dreamt of a person that is trying to avoid you and deny their feelings. I feel like your dreams and intuitions about this person are about to come true. This is a result of your constant efforts and manifestation techniques. Beware though of the challenging energies that may be surrounding this connection. This may be something you will have to hide away from prying eyes. Pisces and Gemini seem to be significant here.
Group 2
Death, Ace of swords, 3 of wands, 5 of swords
You are manifesting communication from a person or an institution you were in a conflict with. There may have been misunderstandings in this situation. You will gain clarity on what was going on and may be able to clearly plan for the future because of that. This could be someone you had a fallout with, a person that you were in a no contact situation with. For some of you, you could be receiving communication from passed on loved ones that will help you understand why you were facing obstacles regarding certain plans you had. Overall, you're manifesting understanding of a challenging cycle which will help you to move forward. Scorpio energy seems to be significant here.
Group 3
10 of wands, 7 of swords, Justice, The Emperor
You are manifesting retribution from an important institution or a person of authority. This could be an important masculine energy. This person was testing you and purposefully provoking you, they may have voluntarily burdened you with certain responsibilities but you were smart enough to see right through them. Your astute sense of observation and skills will bring you justice and you will prevail in this situation. You may thus gain a higher status or more freedom of will. This person may become an important ally instead of standing in your way. Aries and Scorpio seem to be significant here.
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jenokoi · 2 years ago
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How is it (the situation) affecting you, and how to move on.
GENERAL TAROT READING BY JENOKOI
Hi. This is quite unexpected, I was not planning on making this reading at all. But here we are, staring one another, you with a question and me with a fear of messing up your answer. However, I am confident this will find those who are meant to read it. Without further ado, tonight we will have a sneak peak on how a certain situation is affecting you, whenever you are aware of it or not, and how to move on (were you wish to do so). Don’t fret if we poke a few traumas here and there, I can not control what I’m told. It is a bit extensive, so please take only what resonates with you and leave the rest for your fellow companions.
That said, there are vague mentions of sexual assault and hints at eating disorders, so if you’re not comfortable with said topics please do not read.
Please take a deep breath and get comfortable. Let your intuition guide you to the answer you seek in the pictures below. Take as much time as you need.
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PILE ONE > PILE TWO > PILE THREE
My tarot readings are guided by the current energy of my subject in question and my own spirit guides. Energies are prone to change based on our actions, and thus nothing is truly set on stone. Please take only what resonates, this is a general reading. It’s okay to not feel drawn to any of the images. If you have to force it into the narrative of your life, then it might not be for you. These readings are for entertainment purposes only.
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
You feel abandoned, left behind or ignored by someone who was supposed to love and care for you unconditionally. You feel like someone broke a promise made to you. As if you had been led on with a blindfold just to find yourself completely alone in an empty room, an empty paradise.
Some of you might be the eldest child or a role model to a younger family member. You have been left behind, yet a part of you still believes whoever abandoned you will come back. You might have been the second choice or someone is in the position you were told was to be yours. Nonetheless, you still hold onto this person/situation and refuse to let go despite the exit sign being right in front of you. You know there are better things awaiting for you on the other side. In your mind, you know what must be done, how the story ends. But your heart holds onto the faintest of flames in the hopes of a fire to burn every obstacle in your way.
Either someone you trust is leading you on, or you have been warned of what will happen regarding the situation by a male energy.
You might have developed really bad eating habits since the situation started. You indulge in addictions to fill the emptiness left by the excitement of a promised destiny yet to manifest. To calm the anxiety of waiting you abuse of your body and take it to its limits. You are a prisoner of your emotions, ignoring evidence and warnings, accusing your mind of being too critical, skeptical. You turn your back to the truth and keep on holding to the situation (or person).
“I can leave when I want, so I’ll be okay with one more.” Your childhood traumas are haunting your present self. Especially those related to your fatherly figure growing up. You might have been very loved by your father during your child years before he abandoned you or left you stranded. Yet you were told by everyone he loved you the most. You have issues letting go. You believe in a love that can’t be seen because you were told you don’t need to feel or receive it for it to be real. You just need to know it’s there and that’s enough.
You gather every small move, every little bread crumb, and make of it a feast. You are holding onto ideas and no proof. This situation is making you delusional. You grab pieces left behind rather than given to you and call them gifts. This situation could be taken place at work or in a religious environment. You are making a big deal out of nothing. And every time you realize you are moving on you find another reason to come back.
If we’re being honest, you don’t want to move on, but there’s nothing you can do at all regarding the situation even if you decide to stay, and that frustrates you a lot. “If given the chance.” You want (yearn) for something out of this situation that you can’t have. You want to be the only choice. But you are afraid of the consequences were you to act upon your emotions. You are scare of getting hurt. You don’t think you are strong enough to face the consequences, but you are strong enough to not give up so easily.
This situation could be an affair of sorts. Your competition might know of you or of the situation. “You are not welcomed.” In case of an affair or something related to a relationship of three, you don’t think your competition is deserving of the subject of your affections. You believe them trapped, and that you could make them happier.
Whispers: darling, if they wanted, they would.
HOW TO MOVE ON (FROM THE SITUATION).
Take a fucking break and stop consuming so much tarot readings in the hopes of getting a different reading from the one two posts ago. Stop feeding onto your delusions, please. Take back control of your impulses and addictions, return to the mentality of “if it’s not doing me good then I shouldn’t continue,” please. It’s all about using reason to cut the negativity out of your life.
You might have been in a low energy as of late, often wanting to be left alone and leaving things for later (your room must be a mess), not necessary out of sadness though. You have been overthinking every action and fighting your mind took a toll on you. Sometimes to find the problem one must pull from the root.
It’s time to open your eyes and see that you have been drinking from an empty cup. There’s nothing there for you but what you have made yourself believe in. You were not invited to the party, your presence was not needed nor warranted. You are not supposed to be in this situation because there’s nothing here for you. It’s not yours to fight for and it’s not yours to win. You have been ignoring the truth waiting for it to be a lie, and you have been surrounding yourself with little lies that you have made them your truth. Even if it hurts, you are to look at the situation through reality and not your own distorted view.
Walk away from your own make believe world and you will see how clear the signs become. Stop projecting your ideas onto the situation (or person).
It’s time to face old habits and acknowledge how they are slowly deteriorating you. Love is not something you can’t see. Love can be found in memories, in actions, in words. Loves needs validation every once in a while, not because we must give it, but because we love so much we just have to scream it, have to show it, have to tell it. When someone loves you, you don’t doubt it. When someone cares for you, you are not afraid to ask of it.
You have to get comfortable with the dark energy within you so that you can learn to protect yourself with it. Learn your past, discover where your obsessions come from and understand how you can prevent being a victim of them.
You are unable to have commitment in a relationship because you must have control at all times of those who have a piece of your heart. You force your own idea of someone onto them and leave when they don’t act accordingly to your script. You don’t know how to receive love. You grew up thinking love should not be received, just acknowledge. And while it might take a while, you have the strength to grow your heart alongside your mind.
The seeds planted during your childhood have grown, some beautifully, some slowly, others even venomous. A few withered in the shadows. It’s time to put them under the sun and help them grow. Butterflies will arrive on their own, at their own time.
You wish for a change in this situation, blindly dancing with the devil. You refuse to move one because part of you, like a fool, believes you will receive your reward for waiting like a good kid.
Love shouldn’t make you feel like the bad guy.
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PILE II
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
This situation makes you feel alive, desired, wanted. You might even receive compensation from it, both financially or emotionally. You are becoming dependent of this situation. It’s euphoric, blinds you with excitement, carries you into a high. Some of you might consume drugs, could be weed or cocaine. This situation feels similar to the story of Alice In Wonderland.
Some of you might video call with someone or exchange nudity content through messages to another participant of the situation. Sexual innuendo warning: a partner might be really good at oral or constantly in the mood. Nevertheless, this situation makes you feel extremely desired and above the competition.
Funnily enough, this situation also makes you feel like less. As if you are not interesting nor cared of as a person but an object to lust after. You feel reduced to how you look rather than to what you can make. You might be afraid of showing your artistic side or ideas. You feel the best participant to a category you don’t think you deserve. You are far more than that, and are not receiving the compensation for all the effort you give. You feel as if your thoughts have no importance, your opinions only for the deaf. You overthink a lot and act as if you care none.
People might say bad/rude things about you behind your back, some even to your face. You might be in a rowdy and raucous environment. Your situation is like fireworks, pretty in it’s appearance, loud in its path, and brief in its high.
Your feelings are in disarray. You don’t know if what you feel for others or what others feel for you is love or lust, if it’s genuine or a parasite trying to suck your blood. You don’t know if they (or a certain person) sees you as a true friend or someone they just want to fuck. You also feel jealousy, a lot of it. Some of you might have stomach ache as of late. Others might be starving yourselves to fit a criteria.
Despite being a favorite, there seems to be a lot of competition regarding your goals. Some of you might constantly feel dizzy, you might like the act of eating a cake more than the cake itself (a rebellious act).
You feel like a fool who tries too hard and only embarrass themselves the more they talk, the more honest they act. There is someone you are trying to impress but they don’t return your affection/interest. This person might always be surrounded by people or talking to someone.
Some of you might be in the fashion business. Modeling, to be more precise. Your situation surrounds you of people trying to survive on their own twisted ways. Prostitutes. Teamwork is not prompted, and often those who play dirty are victorious.
You feel dirty and alone. Cheated on something. You were promised Wonderland and were given the bottom of the rabbit hole. For some, money ties you down to this situation. You feel a product to a store. For some of you, you are dealing with a player, for others, this is a career or project situation. You might feel controlled by a male energy.
TRIGGER WARNING FOR SEXUAL ASSAULT
Some of you might have been victims to sexual abuse and assault, could have been continuous from a young age or an event past the age of sixteen. You might be forced to coexist with your assaulter, either physically or mentally. You don’t feel like you deserve/want to be protected or cared for.
You feel like you aren’t and will never be enough. Someone not worth of respect. “Your body is what gives you value, not your mind, not your heart, but what’s between your open legs.” You don’t think you can reach your dreams. You don’t think to be the person to make them real.
You might be haunted by a male energy, and people’s opinions about you matter more than the love you give yourself. You are scared of growing old and losing your beauty.
HOW TO MOVE ON (FROM THE SITUATION).
You are a prisoner to society, to the male gaze, and you must break free of it before you can learn to forgive. It sounds stupid to you, but that same reason is why you are all so fucking depressed. You dislike men, you find them disgusting, but you are noting without them. If they don’t desire you, it means you are not hot enough. If they don’t come onto you, then you are not worth the time. You are nothing unless a man tells you you are his everything.
And eat/drink your fucking protein because you are a shivering wreck.
You don’t have to find value in your mind or your body or your heart. You have to accept that you won’t fit everyone’s taste and that’s t okay, because you’ll be you, and you only need to fit yourself.
You want to be taken care of, but you must learn how to by yourself first before you let anyone do so. Otherwise, anyone will easily sell you a nightmare dressed as a dream. You must break your dependency on external masculine energy.
You have become comfortable on the role of the victim, and thus you refuse to fight for what you want. “It won’t matter what I do, nothing will change.”
It’s a big wall to break through, but once you do, life will make sense. You will realize you are a little less afraid, a little more vulnerable. Once you break free, you will see how the world changes in an instant. How your feelings have power, your voice has strength, and your hand has the gift of giving love to all that it touches, regardless if it’s made of mud or gold. You will be your best friend and your grandest rival; not someone you want to defeat, but who constantly defies you to improve. You will see your dreams stay as they are, drifting away in the sky because you don’t fly towards them. You’ll allow yourself to be understood, that’s okay to simply feel without a need to explain.
Once you start to work for yourself with yourself, you will flourish into a beauty that has no weight, no standard, no criteria but that of simply being. You will fall in love with yourself and the world will follow in a breath.
And some wounds might never heal, some scars will forever mark your skin. You don’t have to forgive them, but you must forgive yourself. My dear, your karma will find them when you stop holding on to it.
You wish for revenge regarding this situation. Someone ruined your inner child, and you can’t let go until justice has been served. However, all those negative emotions are only attracting negative outcomes. Some victories are attained when you leave the battlefield and let your enemies end themselves.
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PILE III
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
Why are you even reading this man, you clearly don’t want to move on. You truly believe you can work your way into saving this. You don’t want to change shit, you just want to fix whatever is going on and continue on as if nothing ever happened. But, if you already fucked up enough times, and shit is just not working out for you, then it might be time to move on. If you think you can try again, I don’t recommend you continue reading this post :)
Right from the get a go, this might be a cheating situation. Either you cheated on someone or someone cheated on you. It’s cool, we don’t judge, shit spills when the drain is clogged. It doesn’t necessarily have to be a romantic (or a relationship) affair, it could also be a work situation (much like drama office). Whatever it was, it’s irrelevant when compared to the universal truth of pile three: there was foul play in here.
Let us start slow and from the beginning. Fact: you don’t like to be alone. Consequence: you withstand a lot of shit from people as to not feel like you don’t belong. You might be a pushover with a lot of migraine issues. You don’t really put up a fight, especially when talking about this situation in specific.
You don’t like direct conflict. You avoid it, take the punches for the sake of peace, keeping your image clean. Some of you had/have a really bad relationship with your mother, or had someone belittle you a lot during your formative years. A family member might have drink a lot around you. A kitchen has a powerful meaning for some of you (this is very specific, but a tile floor and a room with yellow tones). Nonetheless, to stay in this situation you keep your mouth shut and take the beating. You’re very emotionally weak though, stop lying to yourself about it. Thinking really fuck up comebacks capable of destroying the strongest of enemies doesn’t mean much if you don’t actually use them (granted, you are watching out for yourself and that’s understandable). What’s hard to comprehend is why you put yourself in said situation to begin with.
You have a beggar mentality. Be it for love, money, or validation. You are willing to put up with a lot of crap if the reward is worth the trouble. You have grown dependent of this situation. You might work in an office job or wear blue as part of your uniform. You don’t have any loyalty whatsoever, some of you might be well-known snitches. You put value in people based on what they can offer to you.
A lot of people don’t like you, pile three. They are praying for your downfall in silence. For some, someone you trust is among them (please take this with a grain of salt. If you had no indication of a person plotting against you before, don’t force it now). For others, your friends are ready to give up on you if you don’t pull yourself together. No one really knows why you do what you do, but they don’t trust you. Someone finds you pitiful.
You are seeking something, but you are doing the whole treasure hunt gig wrong. Growing up no one really payed much attention to you, and now you search for it the only way you know; staying quiet or causing trouble. And you don’t understand why despite all your efforts you can’t seem to achieve what others do so easily. You have an inferiority complex, regardless if you come from money or not. Some of you might actually been raised on poverty or a really competitive environment. “Many mouths to feed, not enough hands to work.”
Despite it all, all you ever want is a good, simple life. But you refuse to let go of old mentalities. You want to be the little man and ride off the success of someone else. You don’t want to do anything at all. But lately you have been so fucking depressed and no one wants to be your friend.
But hey, you kept on reading, which means you are ready to give the move on thing a chance.
You want to improve, that’s more than some people can say. You don’t want to be a sentient puppet, you want to be a person with deepness and layers to them. You want to have a major life change, which most likely means you fucked up big time and want to improve. You hurt someone, or someone hurt you (granted, it might have been warranted). But you, quiet literally, want to expel the ugliness out of you, and frankly speaking some people are not having it. They want you to stay the bad person to elevated themselves. But there’s also people around you that are more than willing to help you out, which might confuse you because you won’t know who to trust. You’re ready to put the work, though.
Still, you think life will become boring. If there’s not a villain then there’s not a story to tell. No bad decisions to be made, no more late night drunken shenanigans. So you might be a bit unsteady, prone to giving in everyone once in a while, which might halt any progress you had made. You might have BIG time trust issues. “Leave before they leave you,” stuff going on. Truthfully, you will never move on if you don’t lose that.
HOW TO MOVE ON (FROM THE SITUATION).
To move on, you have to let go of the idea of a perfect life, a perfect you, in a perfect world. There’s no such thing as a life without issues. If you want something you have to put the work into it. Cheating your way into victory is getting a medal without value. Have you watched Wreck-it-Ralph? Yeah? Then you know what I mean. You don’t need to be the most powerful person in the room to be the most loved, the most respected.
Being the first to punch doesn’t make you a better person, m neither does not punching back. You have to stop looking a life thought black and white. You need to let go of this beggar mentality. “You are rich if you’re not poor and you’re poor if your not rich.” Shit don’t work like that bro. You don’t have to break a heart to prove that you have love and were loved. You don’t have to make people hurt you and grovel for your forgiveness just to see that they care. You have to stop seeing everyone as your enemy.
Life is all about how we interact with the universe. Life with life, not life against life. Don’t run from something just because you expect the worst. Nothing will ever be set on stone. Nothing will forever be good and nothing will forever be bad. It’s all about what teachings you decide to carry with you and how you apply them in your everyday. We are constantly learning and changing, for better or for worse.
You have to understand that people have fears just like you, that people can get hurt by your actions. Be more patience, don’t jump at the slightest movement. Don’t enter the first exit you see, let the road take you to your destination. And stop trying to hurt people for the sake of hurting, it’s not cool.
Don’t give value to people based on what they can give to you. You are missing out on so many experiences and learning opportunities by closing off from others. You are blinded by an artificial dream to see what the universe is trying to gift to you. (This is oddly specific, but please stop watching so much porn). It’s okay to ask for help bro, and maybe it’s about damn time you do. You might discover different perspectives about things you used to think yourself an expert on. And stop procrastinating so much, you got shit to do, masterpieces to create.
Don’t be so closed off to new experiences, and try new activities. You won’t belong anywhere if you keep pretending to be someone you aren’t. When you feel the most comfortable, you will find yourself surrounded by people who love you just the way you are. Breaking news, love is not supposed to make you feel like shit.
Also, stop being so hasty. Slow down, take your time and enjoy the ride. You will appreciate all that you have if you simply take a moment to enjoy it.
Stop running away, you will only tired yourself.
You wish to belong so desperately, to fulfill an idea, that you are willing to lose yourself to the situation. Fake it till you make make, make yourself miserable that is. In essence, you are afraid of being alone, to never be wanted for who you are, and you prefer to burn the forest at the first sound of a branch snapping than letting life find you.
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It's really late and I'm very tired, but I had the urge to post this reading as soon as possible. I'll fix any mistakes tomorrow as soon as time allows me to do so. As always, thank you for trusting me with your energies, stay safe, and the universe loves you all <3
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lavendergoddesstarot · 4 months ago
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8/8 𝙈𝙞𝙣𝙞 𝙈𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙮/𝘼𝙗𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝘼𝙙𝙫𝙞𝙘𝙚 𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜
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Pick a pile: 1-3
Pile 1:
The Empress R: Recognize the abundance and love you already have around you. Use your Feminine Energy to create more abundance by practicing gratitude and focusing on things that bring you joy. Stop focusing on lack and what you don't have.
Pile 2:
4 of Pentacles: Manage your money well. Your money will be rolling in but it's up to you to stack it up & manage it. Build a stable foundation first. Put money away for emergencies.
Pile 3:
Justice R: Balance your finances and spending. Don't spend too much to where you have little saved but also don't save too much to where you can't enjoy your life either.
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sixthwater · 2 years ago
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Hi everyone! I'm fully now, and here with another pick a card! It's show this time though hehe. I figured it'd be nice to here some encouraging nice words in these unsettling times, so without further ado. . .
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(Left → Right / Pile 1 → Pile 3)
Decks Used: Book of Shadows Vol. 2 Tarot, Astrological, Woodland Wardens, Seed & Sickle, believe in your own magic
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Pile One
Cards: VII of Swords, The Hermit Rx, The High Priestess, Leo, The Hare and Oak Rx, The Snake and Fern, Datura, Clover, Rose, Throne
This energy is beautiful. Having the Seven of Swords pop up might be a little concerning, but in some cases it doesn’t fall in the pile of it’s traditional meaning. In this case, it can definitely be holding your cards close to your chest or pulling/sneaking away from a situation with information. In this case I’d considering it re-evaluation since the imagery looks like sorting or filing through various file cabinets to see what went wrong or what’s missing, and that’s the overall energy here. Aah Trampoline by Kero Kero Bonito is playing and I think it fits your energy. You might be frustrated by your current circumstances, or you might feel like everything is against you, but actually the fact that you aren’t rushing ahead or pulling any shortcuts is benefiting you. It’s a great thing that you’re taking a pause and ‘wiping the slate clean’ on whatever you’re doing, which most likely is somewhat creative or something you’re trying to bring to life. It could lightly be related to a physical make-over but we have Leo here along with a bunch of other cards related to artistic endeavors so. Instead of throwing a fit and just tossing things in the trash or publishing what you can, you pause and self-reflect. What went wrong, how can you fix it, did you possibly miss something? You try to connect with yourself in order to solve this, and you’re willing to start with a blank state. Due to this, you’re going to have blessings come in and be highly rewarded. I don’t see this issue lasting very long, maybe a month at the longest, but for your patience and understanding you’re going to be given everything you’ve hoped for. It’s also helpful that you’re working hard at what you want anyway. You know you’re good at what you do, and you know your limits. You have a pretty healthy ego which will help you in this process. This is pretty straight forward so keep doing what you’re doing <3
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Pile Two
Cards: Knight of Swords, King of Swords Rx, Death, Capricorn, The Spider and Passionflower, The Beaver and Birch Rx, Cornflower, Cherry, Buttercup, Sun
Setting boundaries. You’re becoming more comfortable in your power and becoming more unapologetic with who you are. Nerves by Icon for Hire seemed to be strong here. You’re starting a new chapter in your life but it’s not drastic or anything, it’s just drawing a few more lines in the sand, not letting people walk over you as much or take advantage of your kindness like they did before. There’s a possibility that someone ended contact or a situation made you realize how much your moods are affected by others, and you decided to do something about it after a period of grieving or isolation. Capricorn is about independence or self-reliance, and the woman within the King of Swords is a CEO. You are in the baby stages right now of trying to figure out how to move around by yourself or just moving differently — to bring back the same energy as before but by yourself. There’s a bit of stubborn energy, but it’s not bad. Feel free to tap into a bunch of different things until you figure it out. For this pile I don’t believe it’ll be the standard ‘cozy games to play on a rainy day’ options, but I believe in your perseverance. It could be hobbies that you thought you’d never enjoy or ones that seem boring to you honestly, it might just catch your interest this time around. All in all, your rebirth is just in time for spring…if you’re in the northern hemisphere at least.
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Pile Three
Cards: Queen of Pentacles, III of Wands, King of Pentacles, Neptune, The Skunk and Magnolia, The Frog and Lotus Rx, Buttercup, Pimpernel Rx, Henbane Rx, Expectations
Keeping Your Head Up by Birdy. Your energy is funny honestly. Self-care. Relaxation. Unbothered. Not completely, but you’re not about to stress yourself out over it, the answer will come to you over time. Even in the three of wands, the person is cozied up near the fire seemingly after a bath with some candles. You are ensuring that you are safe and cared for, if not externally then internally. If you are going out, its low key and only with really close loved ones. The majority of your time is doing a lot of indulgent activities to make yourself feel good, because some of it is self-reflective and processing some emotions on the low. You’re becoming more comfortable with yourself and less worried about society and what it expects of you. The trivial things. I feel like it might be a few specific people instead of society as a whole, but regardless. It’s a very balanced and relaxed feeling; there’s active energy here and you’re aware of the work that needs to be done, but you also understand that you can’t constantly be doing shadow work and be on the grind in the physical. Running on an empty tank gets you nowhere. This is such a healthy mindset and you’re being applauded for it. It kind of reminds me of those jokes where you study for an hour and then reward yourself with three hours of television. You might be someone who overworks themselves on the regular or is very hard on themselves so you’ve finally come into an era of figuring out a balance. Taking control over your own energy. Good for you.
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hwnglx · 3 months ago
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Your ideal partner reading for Felix really surprised me, as it's quite different from other readings I've seen on him (which most seem to include some sort of mix or variation between shy and sweet for his ideal type) Could you explain it more in depth, since I'm not very we'll versed in tarot? 😅
hi love ᡣ𐭩 i asked my cards again because it's been more than a year since i did the reading, and they more or less clarified what i saw before.
quoc+kiosw, 6osw&de
yongbok definitely likes a more mature partner. he wants someone who is more mature than him, has a better understanding and more control of their emotions and can therefore help him work on his toxic and unhealthy habits.
felix is an immensely sensitive person who deals with a lot of insecurities, and subconsciously tends to self sabotage a lot. whenever i read for him, i always get very tense and nervous energy. he's so so self conscious and constantly in his head worrying about doing everything right, hugely perfectionistic and self critical guy. because of this, he's in need of someone more confident and stable in life, who can help him understand himself better, be kinder to himself, make him feel loved and cared for, calm him down.
he's the type to need a lot of support and reassurance from people in order to feel like he's doing well, which is why it's more beneficial for him to surround himself with empathetic people who are honest and direct in their expression. meaning he's likely to feel more drawn to someone who is open about their affection towards him. he thinks someone is very attractive when they embody the qualities he lacks.
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clairdelunetarot · 10 days ago
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Initials : SB
Age : 18 yrs, 10 months
Rising sign: Aquarius (according to vedic astrology)
Your question:
How can i improve my focus and love for studies? My cgpa is stuck at 7.5 out of 10, and i feel burnt out whenever i think about studies. My goal to be a rank holder with a cgpa above 9.5
What can SB do to improve their focus and love for studies?
I didn't even start to shuffle but after reading your context and as a tip, if you want to radically raise your score considering that your current score is 7.5 out of 10, you will end up shooting yourself in the foot. You should be more practical and rational about your current situation. Setting such a high bar for yourself without even being able to get out of 7.5 is not the best solution. You should focus on reaching a 7.8 and if you want to be ambitious, maybe an 8. It is not bad to dream big! At all. But you should take small goals, go step by step. When you get to 7.8, set a goal to get to 7.9 and so on. In other words, set realistic goals babe. 
But that's not what you came for, let's see what the cards say: You have a spread that is mostly pentacle suits. They reinforce what I told you: be more practical. To be more specific, be more practical in your daily academic routines. One of them could be what I told you. Currently you feel that you lack more interest, you have apathy and you are dissatisfied with what you are achieving. But I see you mostly in a cycle. You may be comparing yourself to others (big mistake if that’s so). Although you are not quite deep in this cycle at all. The fact that you have sent an ask to get out of it confirms that there is a part of you that wants to get out of it and WILL get out of it. The obstacle you present is one of disappointment and sadness because you are not able to establish a solid foundation to improve your academic performance. You feel you don't have the stability you should and you refuse to see another point of view. But your best solution is to establish what I told you, a better routine. Start with a study schedule that suits you. If you can't stand 40 minutes in a row with 25 minutes of rest, make it fit you: 10 minutes of study followed by 8 minutes of rest. Are you a visual learner? Draw your notes in a notebook. You struggle with organizing? Create a study plan beforehand. What are your strengths? Are you good at retaining information at longer periods? Then instead of 40 minutes try 55 minutes of studying. Stop focusing on comparing your achievements with others, it should be comparisons with your own self. No more looking at how much your classmate scored versus you. Look at how much you scored versus last time, is there an improvement, what things did you feel helped you and what things did you notice that didn't? If you feel that feeling of wanting to compare yourself imagine a yellow bubble around you and every time you want to compare yourself to others you repeat to yourself in your head: "This progress is mine, no one else's. I'm working on me, and what I'm doing is mine. I am working on me, and on what I can achieve, I am not going to compare myself". You repeat it as many times as necessary while you imagine yourself expanding that bubble until you feel a sense of tranquility. The more you say it with more trust in your words, the more easily the bubble will expand. And then focus on what you can control in that moment. If you’re not that spiritual, try the CBT technique: challenge your thoughts. Thoughts create emotions -> emotions influence behavior and behavior influences thoughts. It is a cycle. There’s a free Harvard course for this! Be mindful with yourself and learn how to improve that resilience against burnout. And by all means, create smaller goals that will help you build your confidence little by little. A simple “Let’s finish this homework first” and then going to your teacher and asked them what you could have done better makes a huge impact. That’s how the burnout can stop too. Do not go thinking that by the next semester you are going to have a 10. You must go little by little but consistently. Do not give up. Nurture this slowly. Because that's the only way you're gonna make it.
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