#shes just a cheap little sg but i love her anyway

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me: hey have you seen my bass?? my beautiful bass? my cool sexy bass? what about the coffin case? have you seen it? did you know it's lined with red velvet? do you want to feel it?

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I’ll try not to try to write about every single detail but here’s the weekend as shortly as I can manage it which is probably still gonna be pretttty long x)

Ok so I travelled to Budapest on Thursday afternoon, picked up my sister there and we went to Vienna together where Anna picked us up from the train station. We went back to our hostel together which was in a pretty faraway place and it’s a very... uh... minimalist place x) No but seriously it was 11 euros a night so it was crazy cheap and even though it also looked cheap it wasn’t That terrible.

Our assigned beds were already taken so we went on to find new ones but the room we picked first had this weird guy in it who got almost naked as soon as we arrived and was generally very creepy so we changed rooms again and we ended up with this one guy from the Caribbean who was pretty cool and so we had our place.

On Friday at around eleven we met with the one and only Ines ^^ and she treated us to coffee and cakes at Café Diglas which was _heavenly_ ^^ We also talked about so much stuff from TV shows to politics, it was the best I think just the four of us could single-handedly solve the world’s problems.

AND SHE GAVE US CHRISTMAS PRESENTS?!?!?!? IT’S A BATH BOMB AND A BUBBLE BATH LIKE OMG?!?!?! FROM LUSH AS WELL!!

We had to say goodbye to her cause she had some stuff to take care of so she couldn’t come with us :(( But she did lead us to Lush which I think was a form of revenge cause I spent like all my money there x) That place smells AMAZING.

Thennnn we went back to the accommodation and went to the venue at arouuuunnnd 5PM. Luckily there were only 40 people there (I know this cause some girls were giving out numbers so the order of getting inside was fair but I think that quickly went tits up anyways, nice try, girl with the number 2 on her hand).

Giules and Jonny came a bit later cause their train got cancelled and Sara arrived even later than that cause she even got lost in the meantime x) We were already being let inside when she found us, like, literally three metres from the door, it was kinda cool from the outside but it was probably less cool for her x)

Inside we could still be front row from the side which was fine by me cause I could lean on the very very edge of the stage but then a girl in a wheelchair and her friends asked us to give them space so we did. Which was fine but I had nowhere to lean and well... uh I’m feeling it, let’s say it that way.

The first opening act were The Airways, they were kinda cool but not enough to make me forget that we were about to see NOTHING BUT THIIIIEEEEVVVES and the second band was The Xcerts who were kinda cheesy for my likin but alright. AND THEN. THEN THE SPECIAL BOYS ARRIVED.

Oh man... contrary to how I usually do it I won’t write about every single detail in every single song (I’ll write an umm “professional” review for my blog anyways) but oh my god they were amazing. I umm, actually can’t talk so much about like... the band as a whole... cause umm... I may have been like completely transfixed by Conor so... I think the others did well, I mean the guitars sounded nice, drums were on point, Joe’s hair is still great, Dom is still a handsome motherfucker from what I could see but I mean... fucking... Conor... that guy is holy shittt...

He was on top of his game the whole way through. Like... I never like to criticise singers for skipping difficult notes or taking songs a bit lower cause these guys are doing gig after gig with only a few resting days and their voices have to survive the whole tour which is usually months-long so it’s understandable but Conor was just powering through the whole thing like the frikken champion he is.

I’m Not Made By Design was an AWESOME start and I loved all the new songs, obviously, but the highlight for me was of course Soda and I just have to say... like, it’s a special kind of feeling to scream “I don’t wanna be myself, it’s making me so unwell” with a room full of people and the band I adore. Also in my review for Broken Machine I said that on the album I was kind of expecting Conor to change from falsetto to ~full voice and sing the chorus like that at the end but I was okay with him not doing it, and it’s still true but he did it at the show and holy shit it’s just as beautiful as I thought it would be.

I was kinda bummed out that they changed Hanging to Hostage, like I love Hostage but Hanging is my new bae so :[[ oh well. Drawing Pins was so cool to hear as well as Trip Switch ♥♥ Excuse Me surprised me cause I didn’t remember they were playing it but ofc it’s a single so...

I think we did well as an audience, at one point Conor couldn’t say what he wanted to say cause we kept chanting and cheering, and he got all giddy and emotional, it was really cute ^^ There were some bants after Hell, Yeah where he kinda messed up and then Dom told him something and then Conor was like “what a cunt, Dom just asked me “was that an artistic key change?” cause I fucked it up” x)

He played Free Fallin’ as well which was cute af cause beforehand he was like “I’m gonna play one of my favourite songs... it’s not one of ours cause that’d be really self-conceited” or sg like that. He’s so tinnnnnyyy I still don’t know how he can make those noises, geez.

Overall the crowd was amazing, I thought we were loud and enthusiastic, the middle of the masses were more than happy to oblige when Conor asked them to open up the pit (the girl next to me looked at me so alarmed I was like “no, no, I’m not gonna do it, you’re fine, I don’t like moshpits either” and she just laughed like “oh ok I don’t want to do it either” x))

My voice was fucking gone by the third song, jesus, I had to like, clear my throat after every song and then consciously adjust my vocal cords so my cheering doesn’t come out as Morgan Freeman yelping. And at one point I just stopped singing melodies and it was like the same note on every syllable, it was fun, my throat fucking hurts you guys x)

And then Particles happened (Conor sang the whole bRIDGE I’M DEAD) and Amsterdam too and then the show was donezo.

We said goodbye to Giules and the others and went back to the place and well, we went to bed... :[ The next day my sister left in the morning for a work thing so it was just Anna and I ^^ We went to Haydn, which is an English cinema, and watched Thor which was hilarious and really cool. The whole cinema was cool, there were all these posters around and like, all this old movie stuff like camcorders and projectors, it was very atmospheric.

And thennnnn after another break we went to meet up with Giules & Co. again and by this time I was fucking _exhausted_ and in so much pain but I still wanted to spend some more time with them so we went out for coffees and pastry which was very nice, we had a little chat, and then we went back to the hostel. I wish I had a normal body instead of a garbage one so I didn’t have to think about how much more I can take and what my limits are even when I’m planning to have a good time but oh well.

Then today morning Anna and I left our tiny bed buggy hostel and I got on a train then I came home. And now I’m sad. Agnes by Glass Animals came on shuffle on the train and I was ugly crying under my scarf, it was pretty disgusting. And tomorrow of course it’s back to work time. Oh boy. Two more weeks until winter break that’s all I have to survive.

I wish I could say, and I can because it’s true, that this weekend and luckily many of the memories similar to these that I have could help me like, through these tough times but as we were hanging out with Ines, and Giules and the others, and I spent like the whole weekend with Anna, it’s just making me that much sadder that the people I’m with at work are so different than me, and how much I just don’t fit in here.

Anyway I won’t lament on this any longer but it stings a little still.

So this weekend was GREAT, I only wish Ines could’ve been with us the whole time ♥♥ Well, next time she will because next time we’re seeing Editors together in April :3 

Now let me try to fix the audio on my new laptop and listen to Soda and cry a lot. Maybe it’s not working because it wants to keep me from crying to sad songs x)