#shes got wheels on her feets because i was equating it to those old tv stands schools had

[alix-sunstruck]

Vee lowkey fun af to draw

[trash-and-recyle-fics]

Slightly gone

“Hey goodnight I’ll see you tomorrow!” Jensen called out as you started to head to your trailer and you waved. You have been on spn for a while now and your character is supposedly on a solo hunt that will last the episode but will let you have some days off in your real life.

You waved back and went to the assigned trailer. Quickly showering off the fake blood and sweat from the day you gather clean clothes and head out to your SUV. Your bodyguard Stephen sat passenger, mainly because you always insisted on driving.

As you get out onto the freeway about 45 minutes away from your apartment a car comes up on your ass. Not slowing down and slightly drifting from side to side in the lane. You sped up hoping to ditch the guy but he kept pace. Soon enough he moved over to the left and started to pass you. It happened all so quick. His rear end hit your front end and the car spun out of control. Stephen has his arm across your chest and you had your back pressed to the back of the seat. Nothing could have stopped the car from rolling and other cars tried to swerve out of the way. You car came to a rest upside down when another car tried to avoid the jam and hit your side of the car head on. The suv went skidding across the freeway and you blacked out.

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“Wait what do you mean accidents.”

“It was a pile up. After the first car hit us the rest tried to avoid our car and one hit her side of the SUV.” Stephen was speaking to your coworkers. Who just so happened to be finished with work for the day. When they found out what happend they left and came to see if you were ok. You weren’t though all you saw was black but could hear everything. People talking, beeping and the rush of footsteps. You couldn’t feel anything. Probably a good thing at that. Soon enough though not just doctors entered your room it was your family. Not your mom and dad they were still in the states and most likely don’t know what happened yet. But your other family. The one you had been with since you were 10 years old. You had been living with your aunt but now had your own apartment. Jensen, Jared , cliff, Stephen and misha were there. The doctors apparently had made an exception for them to come in and visit you.

“Hey Y/N.” It was Jared’s voice but distant.

“We miss you.” Cliff gruffes put this time even more far off. Then you started to feel warm... and light. The beeping started to fade from your ears and the voices went with it. Then you heard this...this crying. Like a baby. The light got brighter and the crying did too. The mumbling of doctors and nurses became present. Then the weirdest thing.

“Is she okay?” A voice echoed through the room.

“She has ten fingers and ten toes. Health is looking ok.” You throat was scratchy and you were cold.

You weren’t in heaven or hell but a new life all together.

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Time skip 15 years

*you have no memory of being born again or of your past life*

“THEN JUST KILL YOURSELF.”

Your cracked out mom screamed. She was screaming at you. She was foaming at the mouth and had her hand in her hair. She hasn’t been herself lately but this, this was new. You ran down the hall and put a bag together just throwing in clothes. You jumped out your window and ran down the street. Your feet hit the pavement at an alarming rate and you didn't stop. You ran past the run down movie theaters and the family owned diners. You kept running. You ran until your lungs burned and until there were no more street lights to guide your way. Just the lonely sound of crickets and the occasional owl. 

By this point in the night it had to have been close to 40 degrees and only a couple cars have passed, the damp air was hard to breathe through and the wet pavement was starting to make your feet ache. The low rumble down the road was barely audible, yet you could see the faint glow of headlights. You readied yourself. you stopped and held out your thumb. You walked into the empty lane and prepared. The car started to slow down and stopped a few yards away from you. you walked up to the driver window and you met eyes with a women. She would have had to be mid 30s if not almost 40. Her dark hair was cut into a pixie cut and her eyes looked concerned. 

“Are you okay?” You meant to lie but instead the truth came out. 

“No.” Tears welled in your eyes as a shiver went down your spine. 

“Get in honey.” you walked to the other side of the car and hoped in. 

“I’m Jody Mills. What’s your name?”

“Y/N.” She nodded. Do you need me to drive you somewhere?”

“I can’t go home.” Seeing your mistake you tried to make it sound less like you were an easy target. Jody must have seen the look on your face. 

“Hey it’ s ok I’m a sheriff. You aren't in danger.” she opened the center console and pulled out a badge. “Why are you hitch hiking?”

“My mom told me to kill myself so I ran. Don’t take me back there i’ll just run again.” She nodded. Obviously seeing your fear.

“Okay but I got two of my own girls at home and I wouldn’t want them to be roaming waiting to get abducted so you are coming home with me. You can sleep in the guest room. If you steal anything though I will arrest you. Got it?” You nodded.

“It’s about 15 minutes away from here. When we get home i’ll get you some clean pajamas and if you want you can take a shower. How long have you been out here anyways?”

“I think I left around ten.” 

“Geez kid it’s two in the morning.” 

“Oh.. I walked awhile then.” 

“Yeah you did.”

The car slowly goes forward and you buckle in. The radio was on and Jody was tapping the steeling wheel. Sleep was heavy in your eyes and body but you just couldn’t let go. As you pull into the driveway there was a truck with big letters saying sheriff on it and another car. A bit older but still drivable.

“Comm on.” You slid out of the car every movement wanting to just lay down and sleep. Jody unlocks the door and lets you in first.

In the couch was a girl with blonde hair watching a movie.

“Who are you?”

“Claire. This is Y/N. She is staying with us tonight.” She just nods excepting the fact there is a random person in her living room.

“I’ll get you some clothes the bathroom is down the hall you will see it.” You head down to the bathroom and stare in the mirror. Your eyes are red and puffy, your hair stringy and greasy. You were damp from mist and sweat. Jody knocks on the door and hands you a stack of clothes.

“I have some dinner on the table for you shower and come on out to the kitchen.”

“Hey uh thanks. For uh not kidnapping me.”

“Well your welcome but if I ever see you doing that again I’ll take myself out of the equation and get the cops involved.” She said it with a smile and shut the door.

While in the shower the warm water washed away the sweat and chill from your skin and got the dirt from hair. The raw memory was fresh. Not easing from your mind, not going anywhere. It was haunting you and there was nothing you could do.

“Hey Y/N. You ok?” When Jody knocked it snapped you out of your trance.

“Yeah be out in a minute.” You turned the water off and scrambled to get the pajamas on. As you walk to the kitchen Claire is no longer on the couch and the tv is off. Jody sits alone at the table and was eating. She to was in pajamas. You sat down next to her and started eating. The more you ate the warmer you felt. Not physically but like you were safe. Not happy but content.

“So I will wash your clothes tonight and you can sleep in the guest room but what is the plan for tomorrow?”

“The plan?”

“Yes the plan. Are you going to run again or are you going to stay. Those girls, I adopted so I wouldn’t mind you stayin too but you got to let me know.”

“I mean..”

“Are you still in high school?” You nodded.

“Okay well how bought you stay here until you graduate and go to college?” Before any words could leave your mouth. She nodded like she made her mind up.

“Okay. So it’s settled.” Jody picked up your plate and put it in the sink.

“Go on get to bed. I’m the morning we will go and sign you up for school.” You rose from your chair not really knowing what just happened.

The room was plain and had not much in it. A dresser a closet and a bed. It was good enough for you. You laid on the plush bed and fell into a coma like sleep immediately.

HEYY OKAY SO THIS IS PART ONE!

might make it into a short series...

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[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

Y'all in the village that have seen me recently

I apologize, y'all will just have to bless this sweet darling heart

My eyes have become super sensitive to the sun and I have to wear sunglasses (i got $250 worth of contacts with my stimulus check -- 12 boxes including one free sample due to the brand i purchased being discontinued suddenly and my prescription being out of stock - contact lens.com, i highly recommend. I did send inal a photo of my valid prescription) Usually I'm extremely picky and don't buy the lightly tinted lenses. But Wal-Mart had them on sale and usually that's all they sell. Usually i get mine from eBay and spend hours if not days searching for them cute and dark, zooming in the photos to see how the tint is reflected, refracted and if i can see through it. Usually sunglasses are very honestly shown for some reason.

Anyway so these are so thin I forget I am wearing them!

So, I'm all parading in Wal-Mart in purple sunglasses and all in the drive thru like an I don't care diva!

I don't know the origin, yet. Or where it came from... If it was just an agreed upon practice by international law or if it's just me. Idk.

But i think its rude to hide your eyes when speaking to someone. Like its not something conscious. I didn't sit around deciding it was a pet peeve or some law, but when i was a waitress tossing pizzas out the drive through pick up line or just a casual shopper -- people in sunglasses and not lifting them or removing them always bugged at me and irked me suspicious.

So I've been all parading around completely unaware because I've had to wear regular prescription clear lenses for so long that I'm used to the weight of glasses, especially in public because that's the only time I wore them. They just became part of me

And the tint is just see through light -- like the same color of my regular daytime light in my bedroom that every one says is dark. And a light bulb does illuminate. I'm very vampire dungeon darkness.

So I just wanted to apologize that i been all looking like Miss Princess don't care.

I always refused to buy light lenses because i thought they didn't work or weren't worth it. The sun here is so strong. But they do definitely help and are so comfortable i don't know they're in place.

So I care but my eyes hurt a lot. And the contacts kind of made it worse. Like when I take my non insulin diabetic shot, after 10 to 20 minutes I can feel it go into the back of my eyeballs and it feels so good!!

Its not a super pain or uncomfortable and its more when I don't sleep or am upset. I guess my pupils dilate weird

Which my eye doctor before the last, I was on Percocet and well the same 13 prescriptions as well as a few more for pain and so on. And he told me to be cautious as my pupils don't dilate proper due to "being so heavily drugged"

So who knows. I just try to avoid light.

And these sunglasses help and I don't know I'm wearing them. So I'm not hiding behind a mask and cute tinted sun glasses. I'm just protecting my eyes and preventing pain.

Like i say. The pain is from the brain to indicate a problem. So there's a problem Idk how to diagnose and verify or solve. So.

Its not intense just pressure and an auto response to avoid light. Like my kid turns on the lightbulb and I'm all its so fucking bright!!!! Although now the florescent burnt out thank God because that gave me migraines. And I got an LED. But the choices ar the dollar tree were limited to be 60 watt equivalent when I prefer a 40 watt or 30 even.

So I notice the intensity in my eyeballs changing in response to the light

When we lived in Alabama and we were about to move to NYC and my parents had always said Florida would be our next stop.

And i developed an allergy to the sun. A real allergy to the sun. It's a rare condition. My skin would marblize a red color and I would begin to feel faint and/or throw up if I was in direct sun.

It was right after Denise had become Zulululu.

And so I still have remenents of the non contagious disease. Although I was kept from school for 6 weeks... Like my legs if get hot then they get itchy and the sun irritates my eyeballs.

So I always buy sunglasses but I don't always wear them but have them available.

My daughter has the blue light blocker AND the progressive lens so that in the sun they turn to a light see through sun glasses. Zinnie.com I think I spelled it wrong m allong with a basic pair of clear glasses with a anti reflective coat for like $5 I paid about $70 for both. Never had any problems with Zinnie and even leaving them in a hot car was no problems. But a pair from firmoo I paid extra for the anti reflective coat and the lens coating melted in the car. So I'll never ever buy from them unless its a keep in the house pair. Wearing contacts and losing one on the beginning of a road trip where i was expected to drive -- it fell out my eye and ripped - it was old. And I didn't know or think about it and i had no back ups!! So i had to suffer the whole week. Migraines and all.

So in my luggage I keep a pair of contacts or glasses even when it's in storage. I keep a pair of glasses in my car in case of emergency. And firmoo completely failed me.

I've bought half a dozen or so from Zinnie. I call it Zin-knee-uh although it's probably just Zin-knee.

And noooo problems. Even with the advanced lenses which do work and are great.

Because I wear contacts, I don't want to invest in a good pair of glasses but my daughter solely wears glasses so I find it important to protect her eyes.

I get the anti-reflective coating -- the mid level due to at night lights. Without corrective lenses, lights look like Ferris wheels.

I literally can't see shit but 6 feet in front of me. I guess other people are not much different so. Like can y'all see a person 100 yards away? Like no? Right? I can see shadows and shit but I can't recognize people with my eyeballs until they're all up on me.

My uncle always says I'm gonna need a scope to shoot at night. -.-

I'm not quite Mr Magoo but I'm lucky as he is. Thankfully. (He's a cartoon, check him out. He's in YouTube)

And so my drastic apology for blatantly running around in sunglasses all rude and shit. Is done.

Also, while I'm talking about companies -- avoid PANTENE FOR COLOR TREATED HAIR. It strips rhe color out and is complete crap and the worst ever.

Herbal Essence and Loreal Elive are both fantastic to keep color treatments in.

I thought it was just our hair but ive been using PANTENE and my kid Herbal Essence and I see the difference.

Also I like my hair curly. And lantern curly didn't do shit. But Herbal Essence Twisted always has worked great. Not my personal favorite scent but tolerable.

Y'all what i need is a curly and color treated hair shampoo and conditioner at an affordable price. I've searched African American products and haven't found any with those labels. So Idk.

My scalp and hair is ultra dry due to scalp psoriasis and i can go a total 3 months of no washing without looking oily.

So i love African American products and buy them proudly in secret for myself! But i notice their bottles are smaller and more costly.

Except i found a leave in oil for only $3 which i use when i don't dye.

Foreign oils can strip hair color quite well as well as dandruff shampoo.

So I'm always cautious about leave in oils and lotions.

But PANTENE is a FAILURE.

Its my main switch. I use herbal essence and PANTENE and Loreal. Its a fact using the same conditioner and shampoo leaves a certain coating on the hair to cause it to be limp and flat and dull.

So it's always been recommended to use a clarifying shampoo and conditioner for a week then go back to the reg.

The same effect or nearly the same effecf is done by switching brands. So that's what I do.

PANTENE is now out of the equation.

Tio Nacho is a fantastic shampoo and conditioner. My daughter's hair was always unruly. Curly and just wild no matter what. And tio nacho is the only brand,to tame her to look like a human and not a wild lion. But I haven't found color protecting and it's $8 for only 12 ounces and so I find that expensive.

I buy the huge 27 ounces for $7. So.

But I would buy it for her. It helped calm the oily and wild mane.

My friend brushed her hair once and she was so surprised m she said that was like warm butter, lol. Because she always had wild corkscrew curls and some random straight ones she looked a wreck 24/7.

Truly I didn't mind I knew the truth. But tio Nacho has some miracle up in it. Swear.

PANTENE doesn't even have ordinary skills it claims to have m

So we may put Aussie in our loopm we use Tressemme when the cash flow is low.

I used to do live advertising and did the 3 minute Aussie miracle conditioner and that was always nice. The formula changed and it's not as wonderful as it used to be but its average. So i haven't had them in our loop.

Dove we don't like. Hers gets oily and crazy and i don't like the oil stimulation it causes. Idk maybe it's good but ... It makes me feel ick. Which is sad because I really wanted Dove to work.

PANTENE was my first "luxury" shampoo and conditioner i bought myself because i was raised on V05 and if I was lucky and Denise was nice, Suave. She literally bought the cheapest. And never bought extra conditioner and So i had to ration it. So my first self purchase on my own was PANTENE. But it is now a failure. -.- and lives are ruined and especially hair dos.

So now i used to buy my ex V05 ha!

And i have an emergency bottle of Tressemme 32 ounce under my bed for color treated. Conditioner.

We buy conditioner 4x more than shampoo. Because we coat it all --scalp to ends -- brush it. Then i rinse the heavy coat i soaked in while watching tv and smoking then I give it a light coat on the ends again and rinse.

Shampoo we just use one handful and not two or three and it foams up and so we don't need as much.

Like i use 2 - 3 pumps on my scalp of shampoo then one maybe two on the ends. The scalp i scrub the ends I rub.

Like now i have to dye again so I'll use a dandruff shampoo and I'll end up scrubbing all of my hair and use like 1/4 a 12 oz bottle. To get any deposits and leftover film and so on off all the hairs so they absorb the dye better. Then no conditioner. Or a light coat to detanglr and comb and rinse quickly without a deep soak. Then sometimes i gently apply shampoo again without a good scrub. Just run it through to remove the conditioner. But not to allow tangles.

Im not an expert or anything but hair care is serious around here and Idk why PANTENE is trying to destroy mine and succeeding.

I spend $50 every 2 months on just hair. For two.

One girl with a Mohawk and my long to the waist hair.

Two sides of her head are shaved every 6 weeks and she gets the same bottles as i do and then she's all "i need more" 0.o. Honestly she washes hers more often than i do.

We have our own buckets of shampoo and conditioner. Nathaniel either uses it or poisones it so we have our own large Easter buckets. And we store our towels in my room too. Then we have a 3rd bucket in case i buy in advance or like now give up on a bottle we were trying out. Save it. For days of emergency. Running out or so on

But we do borrow from each other if one or the other is low we take from each other to use.

We have different body soaps and different hair needs sometimes. Like i want curly and she's all nah. Or she has Tio Nacho.

We come from a 3 bathroom house so we're used to having our own product. Let me say it that way. But we always are good about sharing if necessary.

But she actually has more demands for bath stuff than I. So like her loofah and her body wash and all that isn't used by me and she knows its only all her Because I have my own bucket.

I cater to my kid. I Like it seperate too because her stuff is more expensive. $7 body wash and mine is $3 if i buy it. Otherwise i use shampoo. I do have hair in my armpits after all. And so i see hers and im all hmmm let me try this and yeah... "Idk how i used half a bottle in one bath" so it is more expensive!! So

While I'm buying 2x the shampoo and conditioner to supply 2 buckets -- in fact i am not spending more. If we shared the bottles as a person would expect, then we would go through them faster.

2 people in one bottle

Vs 2 people in 2 bottles.

So I have to purchase less often than if we shared but I have to purchase more bottles.

So in reality i pay the same price but the schedule and cost load is different.

Like if im out of conditioner, i know she will be at some point so i buy two bottles. And it waits until she needs it. Unless i need shampoo, too.

Then if she if she needs the shampoos then we buy all over again.

The cycle of life told in shampoo and conditioner.