#shed lose all her marbles lmao.

[blueprint-han]

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[rmoskowitz]

Your Best American Girl | songs for Rory pt. 1

    Ten introductory songs, summarizing Rory Moskowitz 

honestly i love this challenge so much i’ll probably do 90 of these for every mood in existence...also the songs really don’t go together in hindsight lmao 

1. Your Best American Girl (Mitski)- Rory’s blog title and a dope ass song ! I honestly love the song for personal reasons, but I think it really frames Rory; American yes, but also she isn’t your American Girl - gay, steeped in Eastern European Jewish history, raised with a different story, and a different relationship with the country, then the kids around her. On the hill, with All-American Boys and Girls, she can try to masquerade as one of them (and did) but she’s shed that side of her, in favor of something else. Mitski is singing about a boy, but in Rory’s context, it’s her and her country - she can love her country, but will it ever truly love her back? 

“You're the sun, you've never seen the night But you hear its song from the morning birds Well I'm not the moon, I'm not even a star “ 

“Your mother wouldn't approve of how my mother raised me But I do, I think I do And you're an all-American boy I guess I couldn't help trying to be your best American girl”

2. Same Drugs (Chance the Rapper) 

Rory and her ex - the dramatic transformation her wife undertook, changing herself, for what? The woman Rory knew, entirely abandoned - working through their former life, former love, and despairing over the woman her ex has chosen to be. 

Where did you go? Why would you stay? You must have lost your marbles You always were so forgetful

What did you do to your hair? Where did you go to end up right back here? When did you start to forget how to fly? 

3. Windows - Angel Olsen 

Won't you open a window sometime? What's so wrong with the light? What's so wrong with the light?

4. If I Could Write (Sam Phillips) - Also Rory and her ex, and also Rory’s interactions tag - when her heart isn’t inflamed by anger or sadness, she can reflect on their relationship, and the aspects of her that are strengthened by it being over. She is also resolute in her emotions - highlighted in certain lines- overall, just a beautiful bittersweet lovesong that captures the love and loss 

I took your ring that never comes off and put it on Sorry to lose you, sorry to keep you after you were gone Nothing is small, nothing is unexpected

Desire's the element that I can't fight Dream is the arm of God Girl's looking for themselves in your eyes I'm looking for you

5. (8 Circle) Bon Iver

To walk aside your favor, I'm an Astuary King I would ask you where it came I'll keep in a cave, your comfort and all Unburdened and becoming

6. Lady Lazarus - Sylvia Plath’s recording of her poem. So fucking chilling - encompassing the engrossing, dark aspects of Rory 

Herr God, Herr Lucifer   Beware Beware. Out of the ash I rise with my red hair   And I eat men like air.

7. Fuck with myself (Banks) - Because no one can fuck with Rory, the way she fucks with herself 

I used to care about what you think, baby You words burn me in the third degree And baby now look what it's come to 'Cause my love is the one, my love is the one

So I fuck with myself more than anybody else 

8. Criminal - Fiona Apple 

I've been a bad, bad girl

9. Begging for Thread (Banks) 

I got some dirt on my shoes My words can come out as a pistol I'm no good at aiming But I can aim it at you

10. Gimme (Banks) - ** I do love Banks with all my damn heart. Gimme reflects her post-Wright assassination mindset, in the aftermath of Rory’s committing her most foul crime, but gaining the greatest reward of her life. She’s hungry for more - to cement her legacy, and Julian’s. The weight of guilt is easily smothered by adopting a nefarious persona; a heightened version of her diabolical leanings, and tendencies. With Wright gone, only the election stands in the way of Julian achieving all they’ve dreamed of. Julian’s going to win the election, if it kills someone (else). 

You can call me that bitch

Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve

if you made it this far - opinions on wind beneath ur wings for rory and julian jajajaj