#she's fully v v close to another breakdown and it makes me so fuckin sad

[idolatrism]

You have bags, and I'm not talking about the Gucci kind.

♡ ⠀ JOCELYN & MADDY / @princessofsteel

brunette rolls her eyes slightly, attention immediately turning away from maddy to gaze at her reflection. fingertips gently run over her skin, beneath her eyes. a step towards the mirror, though it isn't necessary. she's not sleeping; tedros had told he that if she didn't sleep, if she drove herself to the cusp of what had once ruined her life, she would be able to truly create. but all she feels is exhaustion, a desire to sleep but she knows if he finds out... if she sleeps without his permission, he'll take away every talent he's blessed her with. she is nothing without him. leia couldn't see that, she'd been tossed aside. even dyanne was wary, she'd lost her spot as a dancer. maddy is the last thread to sever before she only has her saviour... but if he's all she needs, why is she still so desperately clinging to the other girl? "i can't sleep, maddy. you know that." she stands up, turns around and forces a saccharine smile as she approaches the ravenette. "but it's okay, because it makes my music better, it makes my music what it's supposed to be... fucking art!" hands move to cup the other girl's face, no care for boundaries. "c'mon, come with me to the club, we can get some uppers, i'll be fine.... you aren't going to sabotage me like everyone else, right?" a soft laugh, she bites her bottom lip. "do you think i'm going crazy too?"