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clotpolesonly · 6 months ago

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there's something really tragic about how the whole dreamer trilogy kicks off because Declan wants to look for his birth mother

the catalyst for the whole series is that, in the holding pattern that is their life, Declan breaks first

and it's because he still doesn't feel like he belongs or is wanted in his own family, even in peace times, even when he and Ronan have laid down their weapons and made some effort to patch things up

for once, he wants something for himself, and he takes the initiative to get it, and it all snowballs and backfires so horribly that when he gets to the end of the line and Matthew is dead and Ronan is dying and the world is ending and his mother doesn't even want him, he can only look back and say that it's all his own fault

and there's no one left to tell him he's wrong

#Declan Lynch #the tragedy that you are #TRC #TDT #tags by me #it shatters my fucking HEART that the very first time we see him break #the first time he actually sheds a tear in the entire series #is when he finally finds Mor #and she tells him that she would choose Fen over him #and not just that -- context matters -- she tells him that if boudicca made her choose between Fen's sweetmetal #and PERSONALLY KILLING DECLAN SLOWLY #she would prioritize keeping Fen awake #all the doors Declan opened and all the balls he started rolling in the hopes that she would love him more than the Lynches did #that she would feel like family in he way his actual family never managed to #and that is what he gets in the end #all this chaos and destruction and death only to find that she doesn't even love him either #it was for nothing #his brothers are dead for nothing #FUCK man it's fucking brutal alkdfjgh #anyway

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