#she hasn't responded to the texts i sent yesterday and i am. so worried

[dykeseinfeld]

the desire to text the girl that i'm seeing

[alright-gay-two]

Dicking appointment canceled because of distance and im going to bitch for a minute about my Apollo's curse but it's like. I could have potentially prevented this because when I was sending her bar recs I thought to myself. Beer witch is wayyyy closer to her than all night skate and I'm getting ready to text this when I remember. I have no earthly reason to know this she hasn't told me where in the city she lives I just know that all night skate is way out of the way for her for no damn reason. And there's no good way to quickly be like yeah this bar is closer to you do you want to meet here instead? No I don't know where you live and I promise I'm not a stalker I just know it's closer to you and all night skate although it is the far superior gay bar is way to far for you to reasonably want to travel for a hookup. So I don't say anything because I try very hard to not talk about things I shouldn't know and I send her the address as requested knowing that it's way out of her way but trying not to be a freak. And she doesn't respond after getting the address so im like oh so shes canceling. But I am continuing to try and live my life like a normal fucking human being who doesnt walk into bathrooms and know a girl killed herself there or makes plans for dates or hookups even though I know exactly how they're going to fall through or who doesn't skip past entire chunks of conversations because i already know the background info that you havent actually told me yet because im constantly trying to live my life in a way where I'm not immediately accepting and reacting to information that I have no reason to know will happen. But it always happens. And then I'm annoyed because i already knew but still have to wait. Are you seeing my problem.

Anyway then tonight it's like 2 hours out from when we're meeting up and I shoot her a text and I'm like hey are we still on for tonight? And then she responds actually I have to cancel im having a hard time mentally getting myself ready to go and the bar is 2 hours away on transit so it's like 2 hours there and back and I have to work tomorrow :/ and I'm like yeah no worries because I knew she was going to cancel which is why I texted but. Girl i sent you the address yesterday and you said nothing just tell me it's too far. Or text me to cancel don't wait for me to follow up??? Like. You're lucky I know shit I shouldn't how do you make it through life like this. You know when people get into fights and they're like how am I expected to just know this im not a mind reader!!!! It's the same irritation but I actually do know. I just also think you should verbally say it because that's not a typical state of existence for most of the population