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she had a family that loved her
#its been so long has always belonged to cassidy#cassidy fnaf#fnaf#no im never forgiving the fnaf fandom#for only portraying her as mean and angry#and demonizing her#she's just a kid :(#please give her more than just “Im so mad”#i know thats all she has in the games#but i dont care#when has canon ever stopped people from getting creative#and giving more personality to someone#i (kind of) do like the idea of her getting so caught up in her anger that's all she starts to feel#but i think showing how she felt before that would be really cool#i never see her portrayed as just. sad and missing her family
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It was a girl. She was a little girl. ↳ Carla Connor + Being the mother she could have been
#thinking about how the people around carla- the people who have known her for almost 2 decades- still dont really know her#they see her as this cold uncaring bitch with more divorces than sense#but god... this woman just. she has so so so so much love to give and how lucky are the few the get to know what that feels like?#she has built herself the family she always wanted but never had- not as a kid not after liam not after losing her baby#and she has this uncanny ability to sort of Know who needs her love the most she just keeps collecting these people#who are weird and lonely and misunderstood and she just opens her arms and makes the belong y'know?#roy cropper said she would have been a great mother but i mean... she has been a great mother All Along.#mygifs#swarla#carla connor#*#dont even touch me rn i had to watch all the miscarriage scenes and i am not well.
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Zenitsu agatsuma has got to be the biggest egg I have ever seen in my entire life
#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#zenitsu agatsuma#nezuko kamado#there’s genuinely no way bro doesn’t have smth going on with his gender#nezukos bamboo necklace is chewlery btw hehe#I hope I was able to capture the expression of like#just genuine tender yearning#it’s something he’s always had the longing for but never quite understood where it came from#or even what it was#just a very empty hole in his body that he could only ever describe as self hatred and disgust even if he knew that wasn’t quite right#I think when they’re older nezuko would rlly help him like#get comfortable w the idea of actually exploring his identity#he’s spent so much of his life just truly and bitterly hating himself to the core#he couldn’t stomach the idea of thinking about who he was beyond the surface level#I think nezuko would make him feel so much more okay with himself and help try to get him to a point of at the very least knowing who he is#it’s a very long road that zenitsu really honestly isn’t sure if he’s comfortable with#but he can’t help but at least try#if not for himself but for the ache of the child inside himself who has so desperately longed for comfort and love and belonging#he wants to know that child who was so brutally outcasted could eventually find a home#he wants to believe there’s hope for himself#Zenko chan I love you so much#she is so important 2 me…..#sorry transed your zenitsu. no yeah we can’t undo it. yeah he’s a she now. sorry nothin I can do.
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the bisexuality spectrum: leverage edition
parker: is bisexual as in she doesn’t really care about things like gender
eliot: can appreciate the differences between the genders because they are all hot in their own ways
hardison: similar to eliot as in he thinks the different genders all have their own attractiveness's
sophie: men can be distinguished but women are Hot. everyone is equal opportunity to seduce in a con
nate: attracted to men, women, etc but specifically tends to find himself in homoerotic nemeses
harry: was in a straight relationship for so long he forgot just how hot men could be until he joined the leverage team (eliot was his bisexual reawakening)
#breanna is an ace lesbian she does not belong on this post#but we appreciate her all the same#the team is and always has been queer as fuck#parker#eliot spencer#alec hardison#sophie devereaux#sophie devereaux headcanons#alec hardison headcanons#parker headcanons#eliot spencer headcanons#nate ford#nate ford headcanons#harry wilson#harry wilson headcanons#lgbt#lgbt headcanons#leverage#leverage redemption#parker x hardison x eliot#leverage ot3#technically#mine#leverage: let’s go steal a queue
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"ultrus is right, i am weak and pathetic" / "callie believes the way she loves is fundamentally repulsive" / "all i ever cared about was being useful someday" . things i think about a normal amount
#these arent the exact quotes ... sols is a lil longer and i dont remember the Exact SR callies is from#also guess who wrote a mini essay in the tags AND THEN TUMBLR DELETED IT#anyway. ultimately . . tldr#sol is scared of being alone and believes that hes weak but also that if he Just works Hard enough he can be good and helpful and belong#and so is the inverse true. when people leave you its because you didnt work hard enough and its your fault#and callie whos been up against rejection her whole life and cldnt understand why except that she loved too hard and it drove people away#and in her moments of most intense loss going cold. overwhelmed by shame. why wld she think it wld go right this time. shldve known better#and maybe somethin abt callie being a poet. who always thought about what the world Could be. not what it is (cyra) or what it will (oliana#but ultimately with this overwhelming feeling that shes fundamentally unloveable and has to stop herself from daydreaming#then calder who. brothers ranger and mother ranger general. a family who is known aroind the ice knife as their protectors.#and the runt of the pack calder kilde. who was small and looked down on and overprotected and didnt dream of being a leader but a soldier.#dreamt of being a shield not a sword. use; and usefulness; in the sense of belonging. i am used because i am so valued and loved#anyway..... i just think duck team all have their . harrowing and peculiar relationship to like. self worth and loneliness#how the way they see themselves (weak/unloveable/small) intersect with how they feel isolated and abandoned and excluded#and how they react to that feeling in their own unique way....#these r just my silly little thoughts :3#noodles in my brain. ehehehe. im . i think abt it a normal amount#ramble tag#(and hey since were here hardwon who thinks he hurts the people he loves and isolates himself from his loved one because of tha-)#*i am escorted off the tags*#naddpod
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Reyna And The Lost Hero
WHEN REYNA WAKES UP, she immediately knows something is wrong.
You know that deep-seated feeling of wrong, wrong, wrong you feel when something is deeply off, somewhere? That’s how she feels, and Reyna has no idea how she can even describe that.
When she wakes up, her head is on the shoulder of a girl with brown hair, said hair tickling her face. Reyna pushes it out of her mouth and sits up, blinking slowly as she takes her environment in cautiously.
A few dozen teenagers talk, sleep, play music, or eat each other’s faces in front of her. Reyna glances around and comes to the magical conclusion that she’s in a bus, from common sense.
“Reyna, you okay?”
Reyna glances up and feels her mouth go dry. The girl she was sleeping on is very pretty. Her hair is cut at different lengths, her lips are chapped, and her eyes seem to flicker between green and gold as she watches Reyna with worry in them.
“I, er-”
“Alright, cupcakes! Listen up!”
The man that stands up in the aisle had a thin goatee and a sour face, like he’d just been told he got the grand detention of cleaning the toilets. His scowl has Reyna’s shoulders instantly pricking up straight.
One of the kids calls out, “Stand up, Coach Hedge!” Reyna has half a mind to slap him for such public disobedience and stupidity. Shorter people are more liable to kick your feet out from under you.
“I heard that!” The coach’s beady eyes scan the bus and fix on Reyna. Reyna’s shoulders tense impossibly further, her lips settling into a neutral line and eyes widening faintly-dangerously. It’s an expression her face seems to settle into instinctually.
His scowl deepens, and he looks away, clearing his throat. “We’ll arrive in five minutes! Don’t lose your partner, don’t lose your worksheet, and if you cause any trouble, I am sending you back to campus on this bus in a bag.”
Reyna instantly glances down and fishes about her backpack. A case of stationery and a worksheet with…
“What’s today’s date? What’s the worksheet? Who’s my partner?”
The pretty girl furrows her eyes but answers the question, points out the worksheet-in her backpack, thankfully-and apparently, she’s Reyna’s partner.
Which would be fantastic if Reyna hadn’t forgotten her name.
“Jeez, get hit with amnesia much?”
The boy that grins at her from the seat in front can only be described as the person authority picks as most likely to cause trouble. It’s his slouch, the mischievous twinkle in his eyes, and the smirk on his lips.
Reyna suddenly has a deep urge to dislike him.
…wait, what did he say?
“What did you say?”
“Aww, dream bad jokes while in sleepyland?”
“No, that word. The…ammesa?”
“…Amnesia? Dude, mispronouncing words now too? Not like you, that smack on…the head…did you bad…”
Now the boy and girl look at her with concern.
“What’s my name?” the girl asks.
Reyna’s eyes flick about her clothes. Faded jeans, practical hiking boots, a thick jacket. No name or convenient tablet-
A stab of pain shoots through her skull and Reyna bites her lips hard enough to draw blood. It’s her only reaction.
“Okay, dude, I finally admit you have a sense of humour, okay? Stop it, this ain’t funny.” The boy reaches out to flick Reyna’s arm. She stops him with a hand on his wrist and he pulls back with a sharp hiss. “Geez, go easy!”
“Leo,” says the girl. “I don’t think she’s joking. Can you say my name? Do you know where we’re going? Who you are?”
Reyna wants to open her mouth and speak.
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Who am I?
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Reyna.
I’m Reyna.
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But who am I?
I’m Reyna.
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BUT WHO AM I?
“I…I don’t know.”
#someone help me find that post that compared Jason to Annabeth and Reyna to Percy#because that post made incredible arguments as to why Jason is parallel to Annabeth and Reyna has better parallels to Percy#but even if those parallels don't work for this it's fine#because someone like Reyna getting kidnapped as opposed to Jason? fun#either way I'm not wholly sold on my Reyna characterization#because the entire time I was writing this I was telling myself; she doesn't remember anything#and she has spent the last two-more years in a military camp#she will not know why her first instinct is always to look around and analyze her surroundings#she will not see anything out of the ordinary at first#because Reyna is very used to waking up in entirely new foreign situations and adapting#so she doesn't even realize she's not supposed to be there. Because of course she is. Wherever she is she makes it hers.#She makes it so that she belongs.#drafts#random day random piece#heroes of olympus#pjo hoo#rrverse#reyna avila ramirez arellano#reyna ramirez arellano#reyna pjo#piper mclean#leo valdez#the lost hero#coach hedge
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MiqoMarch Day 23 - Midnight
With their intended voyage into the void only a few days out, Arsay thought it the upmost importance that she steal her partner away to Kugane, that they might share one more fond memory together should things not turn out the way they plan in the thirteenth. It was as they crossed the very same bridge the miqo'te had once sat on together two years prior when Arsay gifted Y'shtola with a bracelet matching that of her own. A token of endearment which, Arsay confessed, she would have given to her fellow scion back then, had nerves not gotten the best of her. While their relationship has undoubtedly changed since the initial purchase of the jewellery, the sentiment remained the same. Y'shtola was someone who Arsay loved dearly and she will forever be grateful to have the seeker's life intertwined with her own. No matter where their free spirits took them, they would always hold each other in their hearts. A promise Y'shtola was more than willing to keep. She slipped the the string of beads around her wrist without a second thought. They were never to come off, not even when the two decided to delay their return to Radz-at-Han in favour of a private bath at the dead of night.
#miqomarch#miqomarch 2024#ffxiv#y'shtola rhul#y'shtola x wol#wolshtola#arsay nun lore#arshtola#thanks to nhaneh for the body mod#i had to do some insane fov to get the moon and them in the same shot so sorry for the distortion#forcing arshtola lore into this prompt since idk when Ill ever get around to gposing the actual scene#this is between 6.1 and 6.2!#endwalker patch spoilers#i had the idea that arsay bought the Dai-ryumyaku bracelets from a vendor between 4.3 n 4.4 when shtola is off to the doman enclave#and arsay is like hey wait you should let me show you around kugane on the way over!#a fun friend date that ends with shtola finally accepting she has a crush on arsay and its terminal#and arsay having a single moment where she starts reflecting on feelings & thinks maybe she missed hanging out w/shtola more than she shoul#only to quickly butt that idea out of her head and continue being super normal#arsay notices these matching bracelets with red and purple string and shes like oh they are so cute and they look like#they belong in a pair it would be so sad if they were ever split up unexpectedly#i know ill buy them and give one to shtola wouldnt that be fun!#so she does that and then cant bring herself to give yshtola the damn thing because she starts second guessing herself#so arsay stashes the bracelets away and she started wearing hers later under her glove#fast forward to two years later and arsay finds the other one in one of her bags#and now shes dating yshtola and they are about to go somewhere super dangerous#what better time to tell your gf how much they have always meant to you#and what better way to do it than with a gift and some words spoken from the heart?#it was a little unconventional since arsay didnt really have marriage on the mind but it was a proposal in a sense#WOL posting#Arsay Nun
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POV: Minthara watches you as you openly flirt with someone else.
You shiver your timbers as she quickly reminds you of who you belong to and the consequences that will come if you continue to think otherwise as you are sorely mistaken.
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#minthara#minthara baenre#evil murder kitten#she has given all of herself to you#shown you her greatest fears and vulnerabilities#something she never does as it would always be used against her in her past#she put a lot of trust and faith in you that you'd never hurt her#she has given you her full devotion and loyalty and the promise that she will never stray#and you throw yourself at someone else?#right in front of her???#is she not good enough for you?#how dare you!#apologize to your evil murder kitten right now and tell her you love her in which she will not say it back#you belong to her and she belongs to you
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“claudia joined the coven what was louis supposed to do” idk defended her against the people making fun of her?? believed her when she told him his new boyfriend had just threatened her instead of dismissing her?? i love louis as much as the next person but that man has been failing claudia like CRAZY
#also worth pointing out that louis was perfectly capable of defending himself against the coven but when it came to claudia it was crickets#santiago hates louis to high heaven but even he did more to stand up for claudia than him#i love louis but too many ppl are still letting that man off the hook#he has proven time and time again that he will always put his boyfriends first#and when he realises this it is going to be too late#yes claudia decided to join the coven maybe because she wanted a sense of community??#it’s not asking too much that she might think her brother/father would stand up for her#the fact that claudia was humiliating herself every night in that dress shows how desperate she was to belong#that girl has not known a moment of peace in her life and all of the men around her have done the bare minimum#claudia and madeleine need to run the minute she gets turned i said it#interview with the vampire#iwtv spoilers#claudia de pointe du lac#louis de pointe du lac
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doomed by the narrative :´(
Bonus Elzar realizing that he can protect her all he wants but he will never be able to save Avar from herself
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#poor babies :´(#also i refuse to draw Elzar with a beard#don’t hold it against me#anyways back to my agenda#the fact that they are always depicting Elzar as the one most likely to fall#but Avar would be so much more interesting tbh#also she IS doomed by the narrative#almost every villain in phase 3 has beef with her#the hutts and general the Nihil and Lourna and fucking Ro#anyways maybe I’m wrong maybe we’ll get a Happy End for them#elvar#also yes im back with The symbolism of halos#and those weird hands belong to people who have died because#angst#me when I have to do so much work stuff but I sketch my silly little space wizards instead#star wars the high republic#the high republic#elzar mann#avar kriss
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Call me delulu or my own bias but nothing will make me believe that Amy is a fan of Taylor Swift. And I can relax when I remember the Twitter takeovers are not 100% canon and I know you would say "don't think to much it's only for jokes lol" but if we are gonna make jokes with the characters act least we should do it well...
It's funny 'cause... You want me to believe Amy rose, a big supporter of the environment like the 98% of the cast, would idolize the most carbon-polluting celebrity, with emission that surpass the average person? 😭 (yeah I know, You would say you are talking this seriously but this is my fave character and seeing this is UHHH frustrating and 95% of Tumblr is about topic that can be in this category)
#amy rose#sonic the hedgehog#idw sonic#sonic adventure#sega#sonic adventure 2#sonic 06#sonic fandom#shadow the hedgehog#i can't with this fandom#sometimes#i feel i don't belong here#like if my opinions were not well received in the fandom#or how i don't agree with the general pov of shadamy#abd of sonamy#like no#amy is not better when she supress her feelings#and shouldn't be the mature girl#that girl has her heart in hee sleeve#she would always say her pov and i love her for that#taylor swift#taylornation
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Elain, wearing a black dress
Cassian and Nesta:
#acotar#elucien#elain archeron#cassian#nesta archeron#yall acting like cassian has always been fashion police#he has never given a fuck about what she wears#why would sjm suddenly make him give a shit about her fashion#nesta also thought it looked awful on her#its giving#elain does not belong in the night court#it sucks the life out of her
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and like, despite the deliciously shippable couples it has, Twinkling Watermelon is not a romcom, it’s a fantasy coming-of-age. the theme is family, the main relationship is between Eun Gyeol and his father and while their respective romantic storylines are crucial, they’re not central.
which is nice, on the one hand, because it offers a slightly different (and beautiful) kind of story, but then because instead of being [main couple] > [second couple] it’s [son and dad] > [son’s gf and mom], it ends up letting down Eun Yoo and Cheong-ah a bit and leaving their resolutions a bit rushed / open ended (you know, like how in other shows you’ll see the second couple standing together at the main characters’ wedding but no actual, solid resolution).
so the final scene of the show is primarily a bonding moment and a resolution for Yichan and Eun Gyeol, and you don’t get much of Cheongchan and a very quick last-moment wrapping up of Euneun (and like. what happened to our girls in the years in between?? we need answers!)
#which is… not a complaint necessarily#like yah the main characters are Eun Gyeol and Yichan this we know and it makes sense that the ending would be mainly about them#but it does feel like they swept some stuff under the rug for the girls when their stories were just as interesting#like we have the euneun kiss at the end and the very very last scene also belongs to Eun Yoo which is nice#but it’s also like okay wait! how did we get here? how did she realize the truth? what’s her life like now that everything has changed?#there’s definitely like. hints and subtext but I do wish we’d gotten more#and that’s the main couple. the second couple… I mean. they got married obviously#but we KNEW that from episode 1#that was always going to happen and I think it would’ve been nice to just have a bit more of them together at the end#though we do have Yichan speaking about her and making her blush that was cute#like. I’m not *complaining* I’m just saying that that’s where the weakness of the ending lies#it doesn’t have enough time so it sacrifices Eun Yoo and Cheong-ah a bit (especially Cheong-ah)#I feel like I’m not making sense atp just rambling and talking in circles but you get me right?? you understand my feelings#and heck I haven’t even MENTIONED Se Kyeong. no one knows what happened to her fr#elly's posts#twinkling watermelon#day 230925 of twinkling watermelon obsession
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Trying to remember where I first encountered humanity as a horror to see if this has a root the same way you can trace literally all of my thirst for fictional characters back to WITCH, but ngl I genuinely cannot remember anything like that.
#like you know. usually if something becomes human the narrative depicts it positively#like this is a good thing this is teh goal yay yippee#and that's great of course#love that#but everybody knows that i keep a collection of characters whose main conflict is humanity (horror) vs their nature#the example everyone likely knows is The Last Unicorn. and I saw the film adaptation when i was like 5 so maybe that's the root#but the thing is i... didn't realise the true horror of it until i read the book#so that shouldn't be it. but yes TLU is a classic example of humanity being the body horror AND the psychological horror#the unicorn was not meant to be a human. its nature isn't to be a human. it doesn't know human emotions. but it does now.#fully against its will and against the laws of nature it was changed into a she and now she is just like us and every day she looks#at her hands with horror and the hideous caricature in the mirror does not become less nausea inducing no matter how much#time passes. the repulsion gives only when the mind does. who are you really? what are you really?#and then she turns back but it ahs changed her. she will live knowing love and empathy and the fear of death.#she'll never belong anywhere and she'll have no kin. she's no longer human and no longer a unicorn.#sorry that got long because it's fucked up and depressing. but yeah that's like the prototype. the other wonderful classic#has got to be Viser I in Ani//morphs but honestly all Ye//erks are inherently this trope?#but a bit differently because they actually AREN'T that different from humans but their society shaped them into being#very different and the real horror is in realising that you have been very human all along. against your will.#the horror is just the same as if someone forced you to become a human because; well; what is the difference really?#perhaps it's even worse. i mean; the knowledge that you have always been like this; that has to be horrible; right?#and the other members of this beautiful collection aren't exactly classics but I love collecting them anyway. favourite niche fucked up#thing for real. for the uninitiated currently the other ones are Var//ney from Castle//vania (a mix of both of the above technically.#since he's something that is fully separate from humans YET his nature is actually human to the point that a character comments#on it and the kicker is he's fucking right! he's more human than many a vampire used to be. the humanity is inherent but he's very human#against his will and he'd deny being like humans at all. separating himself from humanity but hey! someone forgot that mirrors#are a thing! and they might not reflect vampires but they reflect what's within and boy your words are bullets shot in the dark corridors#of a funhouse and when they hit those funky panes of glass the one bleeding is you. you better check your mouth is dry#before you open it with a grin and stare in shock as blood pours out next time#another example is Gray from Dreamcatcher. yes i continue to ignore those few sentences at the end that completely ruin all the themes#and the last example is The Wi//nged Li//on. for obvious reasons. I'd say that's a mix of Gray and TLU
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there’s this one comic ae’ve been trying to find that ae’ve only ever seen two pages of, but it’s a pretty unique concept so y’know. you’d know it if you saw it
basically, it’s a sea grunks era comic where the stan twins come across the hand witch again. they strike a deal with her, essentially trading her ford’s hands for a five-fingered pair of hands. ford’s ecstatic at first, talking about how he’s ‘normal’ now and he can go buy gloves now and…he falls silent and looks to stan with just. such a sad expression. and stan’s goes ‘i knew you’d miss ‘em. let’s go get our sixer back!’
in the off chance ae never find it and the comic never went beyond that, it’s still a really interesting concept and ae like the direction they seemed to be going with it and ae think it’s worth sharing with you all regardless ^^
#ae always love when stories don’t go ‘oh no ford hates his hands full stop’ cause. c’mon#it’s so much more in character and has so much more potential if he’s actually extremely attached to them#ae mean think about it-#he seeks out gravity falls because it feels like he belongs there more#he decorates his journals with large gold symbols traced directly from his hands#he had a large paper with his handprint alongside stan’s taped on their childhood bedroom wall#the first thing he does when coming out of the portal is splay his hand over the symbol on the journal before picking it up#he didn’t have to do that. he chose to do it#it’s not something he truly hates. he just hates the treatment he gets for them#(and all that makes mabel’s ‘six fingers! that’s a whole finger friendlier than other handshakes!’ comment so much nicer than it already is#(she’s single-handedly holding up the world and we love her for it)
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we've talked a bit before about how obsessive scully is, that she's a zealot. and i was thinking about this when i posted about signs & wonders. it's how i think about her with mulder — specifically the idea that mulder is a (her) prophet, the way her faith shifts to him. she follows him, protects him, believes (in) him. the way that, in the show, he's objectively right so she's right to take his side. it's reinforced even as they're "punished" for it. is this what you mean or maybe something else i haven't really considered?? what scenes/episodes do you think this plays out most? (as always, love anything you have to say especially about scully <3)
yeah that's basically what i've been thinking about...but like, when you posted about signs & wonders, this was the ending dialogue that you shared:
Mulder: If this was some sort of test looks like I failed. Scully: I'd say if it was, you passed with flying colors. You're alive, aren't you?
and i think it gets bypassed a lot of the time how reductive "believer/skeptic" is, in that these are roles that they play but often not really who they are. mulder isn't actually a believer, per se. he's trying to be, and it's extremely fragile and difficult ("you think believing is easy?"). scully is a natural devotee. she's catholic, born and bred, and feels most defined in faith. not just a belief: a completeness, a trust, a reliance. "based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof." (dictionary definition)
it's been addressed throughout the series, that despite her job as the skeptic, the one demanding evidence, she does not feel the need to prove what she believes in. she tells him that she believes in miracles, even if they can't be witnessed. when he asks what she would do to prove the existence of god, she says that she doesn't think about it. she doesn't think it can be proven. believing isn't difficult for her, isn't fragile, isn't frantic.
but "zealot" means "uncompromising," someone who fanatically pursues their beliefs and convictions. and it isn't belief in god, or dedication to the mission, that scully is violently committed to. signs & wonders is a religion-based episode, where they don't catch the killer. he safely moves to a new city to continue his work. but scully sits in “blessing, tennessee” and calls it a win, simply because she can say anything to him at all.
(collateral damage by audries: "he tells her he loves her, and she thinks someday she’ll tell him that the rest of the world is collateral damage. she’ll tell him that her prayers are selfish and that she is not the saint he thought, the savior he expected. she thinks she’d destroy the world for him, rather than save it, if it came to that...they’d wanted her to love the whole damn world, but she won’t. she wants it all narrowed down to one man in a dim basement and the way he falls asleep with his head in her lap, his restless hands and warm insistence and the way his coat gets darker and darker as he leaves her behind.")
it isn't steady, rational, commitment to her god or her family or her country ("i left behind a career in medicine to become an FBI agent four years ago because I believed in this country"), that she gives her last rights to on her deathbed. that she froze for in the artic, that she inked into her skin. it isn't to save the world that she gives up her child. her job. her home. her identity. and runs.
people tend to think of mulder as obsessive and myopic and that's true, it's hard to always be seeking. to always be following is terrifying.
#prophets and converts#love you and i love to talk about scully i just hate how everyone else talks about her#lol#what did i used to say? there's grief in being starbuck?#asks#signs and wonders#it's so hard on her because he DOES want to save the world#and it's part of why she is so dedicated to him#but as we've discussed before he isn't ever going to actually belong to her#it would actually probably be easier to prove the x-files and end the conspiracy than it would be for scully to ever see him still and safe#in iwtb when she says that she does NOT chase monsters anymore and she does NOT go into darkness anymore#'we're not fbi anymore mulder. we are two people who come home at night to a home.'#and he says 'this is who i've always been' and she says that's why she's scared#and she's a devout believer who has searched her whole life for something righteous to devote herself to and she does see him as a prophet#but all it does is leave her chasing something into the dark forever#and in iwtb she says that it's why she's scared AND that it's why she 'fell in love' with him#who up......................our-ing their boros
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