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bixels · 5 months ago

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So I l’ve been getting into your ko crisis story lately (it all sounds rlly awesome btw) and i was curious - you’ve said in the tags in a previous ask that ash is comphet, so is that gonna play a major role in her character arc/journey in any way?

Yeah, the story basically covers her journey of redefining her identity as a queer Asian-American disabled woman in a sports-entertainment industry, which is a media landscape that specifically targets, exploits, and fetishizes people like her.

#ask me #itsthequeercryptid #i don't have much more to say on this cuz as of right now it's in like. early early development process and i'm not a queer woman so #i don't have much authority to say how i want this part of the story to go. even if it's my story i don't wanna set anything in stone yknow #but like. ashley's arc is realizing that she's been performing to appease people both in and out of her life. as both a daughter and a #pro boxer. and that she shouldn't have to force herself to be someone she's not. which in the story continuously hurts her #she doesn't need to validate her existence and find worthiness as a disabled and queer woman #especially to other people #one story beat i drafted is that ashley nearly gets s/a'd by a potential agent (keep in mind the project's inspired by psychological dramas #thrillers like utena and perfect blue) and it's one of the first big moments that causes her to have a crisis of identity #growing less and less comfortable in her skin - both organic and nonorganic - as she realizes how her body is perceived/ exploited/#/objectified as a vehicle for inflicting and absorbing violence. both physical and sexual. especially by men #and near the end of the story the beat is reflected/flipped when she comes together with noora and it's gentle and intimate #but again this is all very iffy. i'm not sure how appropriate this would be as a male writer.#i'm waiting to work with other writers who are more knowledgable on this before moving forward with anything

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