#shadowprompts

[becoming-not-became]

Coffee ☕️

Lazy I am not even allureof coffee arousespreferring to dozeto wade back into the shallows of sleep’s shadowprompt me not you warm elixir for me alone can conjure you

[beneathshadowsrp]

SHADOW PROMPT 4: Love is Energy of Life.

Hello Lovelies! In honor of Valentine’s Day, this writing prompt will be about your character’s romantic life! Some characters are not interested in dating, some may identify as asexual/aromantic, so there are questions available in the prompt for everyone to answer.

You can answer this prompt in the form of answering a questionnaire (from your character’s point of view or as you the player writing about them) or choose a question/questions and write a self-para about it. You can write as much or as little as you want, it’s up to you and for character development!

You do not have to participate in this prompt if you don’t want to. But, if you do chose to participate, please tag your post #shadowprompts.

Have fun with it and keep on writing!

What they think their most attractive quality is? 

Their favorite thing to do on Valentine’s day without a date?

How do they feel about romantic comedies? Do they have a favorite? 

Their ideal first date?

What personality traits they find most attractive in others?

What physical features they find most attractive in others?

Your muse’s first kiss?

Your muse’s first crush? Their first celebrity crush?

Your muse’s first romantic partner?

Why did their last relationship end?

What is your muse looking for in their next partner? Partners?

[nickk-robinsonn]

What they think their most attractive quality is? His really, really big...heart. Seriously, he loves to listen as much as he loves to talk. This boy doesn’t have an enemy that I can think of. 

Their favorite thing to do on Valentine’s day without a date? Find another dateless person and go to the movies or something. He would find another single person and be like ‘this can be totally platonic, but let’s go bowling and grab drinks.’ He really doesn’t like being alone.

How do they feel about romantic comedies? Do they have a favorite? He doesn’t really seek them out, but the last one he saw was The Big Sick because he’s a fan of the lead actor. Plus, it’s a true story and Nick loves those.

Their ideal first date? Anything fun and quirky-- a date at the arcade, a sword-fighting class, something that stands out. Then drinks or dinner where they can really talk and connect. Ends in sex. He is who he is.

What personality traits they find most attractive in others? He is attracted to girls with a level of sass and aren’t super open books. He’s attracted to a level of mystery initially. But after that, honesty is a big thing for him. He wants someone who doesn’t play games.

What physical features they find most attractive in others? Brunettes are a soft spot for him, but he loves a girl with a pretty smile. Also, butts.

Your muse’s first kiss? He was in kindergarten. Her name was Shayla and she was in their trailer park. The kids wanted to play wedding and he and Shayla ‘got married.’ He gave her a weed that sprouted a flower and they kissed in front of the other neighbour kids.

Your muse’s first crush? Their first celebrity crush? His first crush was Shayla, then his celebrity crush was Britney Spears.

Your muse’s first romantic partner? After his brief marriage with Shayla, he dated a girl in fourth grade named Adria. He grew up having a new girlfriend in almost every grade of school. He was well liked and interested in girls, but found he outgrew them easily. He likes to be stimulated but always seeks that rush that comes with dating a new person.

Why did their last relationship end? Kind of like the last answer. His heart kept getting pulled in all directions as he met new people and he stopped being so invested in the relationship. It was new enough that they were drifting apart and mutually parted ways.

What is your muse looking for in their next partner? Partners? He needs someone who knows what it’s like to come from a troubled background. He wants someone who keeps him on his toes and every day feels new with them. He struggles with routine in his love life and needs a lot of spontaneity. 

[murphyslawx]

Why did their last relationship end?

Time Period: Circa early 1700s

He was handsome, with dark hair and even darker eyes. His lips had been so full and soft, delicate against the sharp instrument of his tongue. He wielded it like a dagger, using it to cut through the toughest parts of her, revealing a softness underneath that she had long since thought lost. It was strange how easy it was to succumb to him, to let his body cover hers in ways no man was ever allowed to before. It was stranger still when she enjoyed it, thrilled at the press of strong arms pinning her down, rough hands dragging across smooth skin and pulling away layers, both physical and metaphorical. The euphoria of those same lips, that dangerous tongue against the soft shell of her ear, along a pulse point that no longer thrummed with life made her dizzy.

She was stronger than him, there was no doubt about that. He was human, she was something else entirely, but with him it didn’t matter. She didn’t have to be strong, to be powerful, to be above everyone else. With him, she could submit. Allow herself to feel--small, frail, delicate, but never weak. He would take the reins and she would follow along, lovesick and delirious. He held total and unwavering control over her, and for the first time in her long life, Maeve was willing to give it up.

He aged, as all humans were to do, but he never lost his passion. The fever of their love never wavered, never once faltered no matter the atrocities she commited, the lives she took. He had accepted her, body and soul, and in turn she had accepted him. The answer to their problem was simple: an even exchange. No longer would he grow old, weak. No longer would she have to fear the day when she would lose him, too, just like all the others. Instead, they would have eternity to know one another, to love and to cherish each other. It had been so simple. So easy.

But Maeve had been a fool. Blinded by lust, by the quick wit that stunned and surprised her. He had known parts of her that no one else had known, and he used those weaknesses to his advantage. He was a thief, an assassin, and she had unknowingly given an enemy a weapon against herself, against her kind. The fever had worn off, and in its wake it left a clammy sickness, the knowledge that she had been wrong. So terribly, terribly wrong about all of it.

Black blood seeped into the sheets beneath her, staining the pure white with something unholy, shameful. A dagger--physical, real, painful--held her in place as she gasped and choked, that same abominable liquid clogging up her throat and spilling out across kiss bitten lips. What had once been tears leaked from her eyes as the reality of the situation settled in. She had shown her truest self, and now she was being punished. Thoughts danced around in her mind like a macabre ballet, memories of their shared history twisting and turning into something dark. Where there had once been joy and sunshine, she now only felt pain.

Betrayal.

Hatred.

Fear.

Perhaps this was what he wanted all along. Take everything she had to offer him, and then take some more. End it when he got what he wanted. It would make sense. Men, Maeve had learned, were only ever in it for themselves. Their own power, pleasure, wealth, success. Everything else was just fodder. To be discarded the moment they outran their use. The kisses, the promises, and the sweet words had meant nothing. They were tools used by a professional to whittle away at her exterior, to expose the soft, fleshy underbelly and to strike.

There was a decision to be made. He could return with his spoils, take some more from her and maybe finish the job, and she could let him. Or she could gather her broken pieces back together and stitch herself up into something stronger, tougher. She could prove to him that Maeve was not one to be trifled with, that though he had broken her heart, he could never crush her spirit. That it was him who should be afraid.

He had returned, her sire’s prized grimoire tucked underneath an arm and a self-satisfied smirk on his lips. She felt sick, a nausea that only overtook her when it was time to feed, when she saw that look. Flashes of that same grin pressing against the flesh of her neck, her stomach, her thighs. The warmth of it replaced by the coldness in his eyes. “No hard feelings, love. It’s just business.”

Business. She’d laugh if she wasn’t still choking on her own blood. He came nearer, his spoils set off to the side and safe from the mess they had made together, and he put his hands on her again. The sparks of electricity that had once been ignited by his touch were no longer. In their stead, it was gravel. Sandpaper against her skin, catching and pulling, leaving nothing but pain and disgust in their wake. When those thick fingers danced up her torso, jostling the blade in her chest and curled around her blood-stained cheek, she flinched as if she had been struck. His touch was no longer welcomed. It was unwanted, despised, no matter how gentle he remained.

“You have been so good to me, my sweet. So passionate, so giving. Who knows where I would be if it wasn’t for you. You, who was so desperate to be loved.” Rough thumb swiping over the mess of her face, pressing her bottom lip against her row of teeth until the skin split and seeped. The shock of it was nothing compared to press of his lips on hers, drinking in her gasps and pleas. Her blood staining his front, his face. He was drunk off of his own power. He was too far gone to notice the breaking of her bonds.

Weak from hunger and grief, it took more effort than usual to switch their positions, to strike him hard enough to daze him while she struggled to rip the dagger from her chest. She cried out with the force of it, the pain shooting down her spine like fire, lighting up nerve-endings that she long thought dead. She panted when it pulled free, the inky black liquid dripping onto the body beneath her, his fingers spread wide and palms flat against the thighs that straddled him. There was laughter in his eyes, a twist to his lips that showed off his sharp fangs. Weapons she had given him. A bubble of laughter spilled from his chest, deep and rumbling, as he gripped her thighs tighter. “Go ahead, dearest, if you think you have it in you. But we both know I’m leaving here tonight with that book.”

He could throw her off, Maeve knew this. She knew she was weakened, that he had caught her off guard and had bested her, even if she held the upper hand now. He was so sure of himself, so arrogant in the face of the creature who gave him new life. The hurt began to dwindle as the anger settled in, lighting her up from the inside out. It took minimal force for someone of her kind to plunge the same dagger deep into his chest, to grunt as she twisted, using her own weight to keep it embedded deep. Her hair hung in long, matted clumps around her face, brushing against the one beneath her, and as he began to choke he laughed again. His own blood flecking across her face, mingling in with the stains.

“You have no idea what I’m capable of,” she seethed, readjusting her grip on the hilt and twisting, relishing in the grunts and gasps of pain the movement elicited. She could feel the matching hole in her chest slowly begin to stitch itself together, the wound throbbing with the memory of the blade. She would do what he was too proud to do.

She didn’t ask questions. She didn’t gloat. Instead, she shut her mind off as she ripped the blade free and plunged it back down, repeating the motion until she was satisfied with the size of the hole in his chest, the blood splatter that covered her naked body and the rest of the room. With a sharp inhale, she embedded the blade into the center of his throat, stalling the loud choking noises as she pulled herself free and stood on wobbly legs. It was unusual for vampires to keep a weakness so close at hand, but as her foot connected with the wooden table and broke the leg off, she found herself thankful for the oversight. She could feel his eyes on her, and for a moment her resolve wavered. She loved him, even still. She could leave him like this, to escape or to starve, knowing he had been bested by her. She could leave and never look back, forget about him until their paths crossed again in the future. The thought of that brought the nausea back, twisting her stomach into knots at the mere idea of it. She would not be weak. Not again.

He couldn’t speak, couldn’t beg with the dagger in his throat, but she took a sick sort of pleasure at the widening of his eyes when he watched her approach with the makeshift wooden stake. His lips trembled as she grew nearer, and now it was she who was drunk on the power. Hesitation would be a mistake at this point, and in a single fluid movement, she plunged the stake deep into his heart, hard enough for it to splinter and crack in her hands.

There was no sound as his body disintegrated, returning to ash once more. She inhaled once, sharply, when it was all over, nearly collapsing in on herself with the force of her sobs. She allowed herself a moment to grieve, to mourn what she had lost once more, surrounded by the mess of their mingled blood and his ashes. She stood after she collected herself, reborn by the experience and hands permanently stained from what she had to do, and silently gathered up the grimoire, returning it to its previous location. Undisturbed. Untouched. As if nothing had happened.

No one would need to know, and Maeve would forget everything about him. The feel of his hands, the taste of his lips. The vibration of his chest against hers as he whispered in her ear, promising her the world. She would forget his face, and she would forget his name.

And she would never, ever, make the same mistake again.

[xtillinorwood]

What they think their most attractive quality is? She was always complimented on her smile, so she would pick that. She doesn’t think too much about being attractive, just herself. Their favorite thing to do on Valentine’s day without a date? In the past, Mattie always spent Valentine’s Day with her dad. She saw the day to focus on all love, especially family love, over romantic partners. From a young age, Mattie’s dad would buy her flowers and an over-sized chocolate bar; she never liked fancy chocolate. They would give each other cutesy Valentine’s Cards and spend time together after school. When she was younger, they would go to the movies or out to dinner. After college, they would order dinner and watch movies at home.  How do they feel about romantic comedies? Do they have a favorite? She loves watching romantic movies around Valentine’s Day, but she likes the Hallmark Christmas movies more. There’s something more appealing to her about romance with mild comedy than some of the sillier rom-coms. She loves Pretty in Pink, Working Girl, Groundhog Day, and 16 Candles. She always has to watch them around Valentine’s Day. Their ideal first date? Going somewhere fun, like bowling, roller skating, mini-golf. She could play Mario Kart all night long and be happy.  What personality traits they find most attractive in others? She prefers someone who is smart, generous, a good sense of humor, and patient. Really anyone who can handle her innocence and constant questions is a keeper. What physical features they find most attractive in others? She always found the “nerd” characters in movies to be more attractive than the “bad boys”. The simple, humble, intelligent look is more her speed.  Your muse’s first kiss? Her boyfriend, Anthony. It was nothing too exciting for her. They were in college, often busy with school work. She tried kissing him goodbye on the cheek once when he turned and it landed right on his lips. She was so embarrassed she never tried it again. She was thankful he didn’t seem to mind- he found it hilarious how red she turned. Your muse’s first crush? Their first celebrity crush? In preschool, Mattie had a crush on a boy named Theo, but all the girls did. Mattie’s mom set up play dates regularly with Theo because of this. By the time they reached second grade, another friend swept in and won Theo over. At that point boys had cooties so Mattie didn’t mind one bit.  Your muse’s first romantic partner? Anthony Cohen, a premed student from her college. They were by no means romantic, but he was a boy Mattie was very close to. The title of “boyfriend” came up among friends and family, Mattie rolling with it. She did like Anthony; she would have married him if given the chance. But her mind is too innocent for the relationship. Why did their last relationship end? She prefers not to think about the truth of how their relationship ended. Anthony is gone and she tries to live on for him. What is your muse looking for in their next partner? Partners? She’s not looking anytime soon. The wound the last relationship left still feels fresh in her heart. For the past twenty years her father told her she is too young to date, so she feels she is still a baby and should not find a serious relationship despite how old she really is.

[andrew--owens-blog]

W H O    A R E    Y O U?

What should we call you? Andrew or Andy, Drew

How old are you? 25

When were you born? April 14, 1993

What do you look like? Andrew stands at 6′0, 171lbs, he is athletically built with brown hair and blue eyes. He likes to keep his hair short, and nicely cut but sometimes he has his lazy messy hair days.

Do you wear glasses? Or have contacts? He does have glasses but he barely wears them as he prefers his contacts.

Do you have any tattoos? None

Do you have any scars or birthmarks? He has a scar on his arm from a fire after rescuing someone. He also has the brand that the Knights of the New Day gave him.

Any physical handicaps or disabilities? None

How do you like to dress? Do you wear make up? Heels or flats? Boxers or Briefs? Boxers and sometimes boxer briefs. He likes wearing jeans and tee shirts, but he can pull off a suit just fine. Honestly he just likes being comfortable in whatever he is wearing. He likes wearing shoes over sandals, and sometimes he will wear army boots but not very often.

Would you consider yourself rich or poor? Middle class.

Do you have a specific tick or mannerism? He runs his hand through his hair a lot whenever he is nervous. Or sometimes he makes hand gestures whenever he is trying to explain something really important. Sometime’s he will rub his stumble if he is thinking deeply about something.

P E R S O N A L I T Y ?

What is your idea of perfect happiness? “Waking up Sunday morning, with coffee and the newspaper next to someone that really understands me.”

What is your greatest fear?  Andrew stared at the paper for a moment, he was scared of this answer because he knew exactly what it was.The Knights finding out about my sister, and taking care of her. So there was no way that he was going to write that down, instead he skipped the question. 

What is your biggest pet peeve or trait you deplore in yourself? “Not being good enough. My brother was the better hunter, the better son. And I feel sometimes that I’m not good enough and I can’t live up to what he was. There is a lot more, but that is the biggest.”

What is your biggest pet peeve or trait you deplore in others? “People who judge others without knowing their situation or anything like that.” 

Which living person do you most admire? “My mother.” 

Which living person do you most despise? ”My father.”

What is your greatest extravagance? “My car, it’s a 2018 Chevy Silverado, black in color. I worked really hard and saved up for it. And my hunting gear both are pretty extravagant.”

What do you consider the most overrated virtue? “Patients everyone always says that is the best virtue.” 

On what occasion do you lie? Andy sighed a little bit at the question, he lied everyday about what he did, and what happened to his sister. “Yeah, I do from time to time. Sometimes lying is necessary.”

What is the quality you like most in a significant other? “Being completely faithful. If I’m with someone I’m completely theirs and no one elses. So I expect the same thing.”

Do you have a catchphrase? Which words or phrases do you most overuse? “Oh shit. Does that count as a catchphrase?” 

Who or what is the greatest love in your life? Raising a brow slightly, Andrew shrugged a little bit. “No idea. I don’t really have one? At least not yet.” 

When and where were you happiest? “When my brother was alive back in college, Serena, him and I just hanging out either at the bar or the apartment. It was some of the happiest times in my life.”

Which talent would you most like to have? “Singing cause I can play the guitar but I can’t sing that well.”

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? “Nothing, I like everything about myself.”

If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be? “I would want to be a vampire. If I had that choice and that did happen to me.”

If you could pick up and go anywhere, where would you most like to live? “Somewhere warm, and away from all of this craziness.”

What is your most treasured possession? “My hunting equipment.” 

What do you value most in your friends? “The fact that they can make me laugh without a problem and that they are there whenever I need them.” 

Who is your hero of fiction? “The Green Arrow.”

What historical figure do you most identify with? “None, I guess. Never really thought about it before.”

What is your greatest regret? “Not being able to save my siblings.”

What is your life’s motto? “You only live once, might as well get it while it’s good.”

Would you describe yourself as being an optimist or a pessimist? “A little bit of both actually.” 

Introvert or Extrovert? “Extrovert.”

How do you hope others will see you? “As a good man some day, I guess. Never really thought about it.” 

How are you seen by others currently? “I have no idea how other people see me. Some might call me friend, some might call me an asshole. I don’t know what others think.”

How do you see yourself? “I see myself as a guy who is trying to do the right thing despite what I have been trained to do.” 

How do you react to praise? “I say thank you.” 

How do you react to criticism? “I take it like a normal person but I do not overact with it.”

Do you often make snap judgements or take time to consider? “Little bit of both actually. Just depends on the situation and the heat of the moment.”

Do you think you lead more with your head or your heart? “My head, heart has nothing to do with it.” 

When was the last time you cried? “When my brother died.” 

What is your guilty pleasure? “Chocolate and pizza.” 

When was the last time you showered? “This morning.”

Are you the type of person who talks in the movie theater? “Hell no, I hate those people.”

Are you more of an indoor cat or an outdoor bird? “Outdoor. Love the outdoors.”

Are you a fan of Harry Potter and, if so, what would be your Hogwarts house? “Not really a fan.” 

Do you like superheroes and, if so, which character is your favorite? DC or Marvel? “The Green Arrow is my favorite so DC.”

Did you used to play Pokemon? And if so, what be your starter Pokemon? ‘No, I never could get into Pokemon besides I never really had the time either.”

Star Wars or Star Trek? Or neither? “Neither.”

If you were in the Hunger Games, what would be your game plan? “Considering what the Hunger Games is, I would like to think my game would be to stay alive at all costs.”

If the zombie apocalypse happened today, how would you defend yourself? “I’ve got plenty of weapons to defend myself with.”

What’s the first thing you do when you’re home alone? “The shirt comes off.”

What is the most overplayed song you listen to? “Whatever It Takes by Imagine Dragons.”

Do you believe in a thing called love?  "Sure who doesn’t?” 

Do you believe in love at first sight? “Not really.” 

If you could travel to any period in time, future or past, where would it be? “Future because I’m curious about what it is like.” 

Have you committed a crime? “Depends on your definition of a crime.” 

If you could commit a crime and get away with it, what would it be? “Helping as many supernaturals as possible.”

If you found yourself trapped in an elevator with a group of strangers, what would be the first thing you’d do? “Probably see if my phone works.”

[giannasalsbury]

W H O    A R E    Y O U?

NAME: Gianna ‘Gigi’ Elizabeth Salsbury

AGE:  twenty seven (27)

BIRTHDAY: december 4th, 1991

APPEARANCE:  standing at 5′5″, gianna tends to dress in a certain way that would easily resemble that of a preppy rich girl since that’s how she was raised to be. posh british accent to match. her eyes are a dark brown, almost black color. her hair is cut to her shoulders, tends to be curled and is dyed a caramel brown color. because it’s so short she keeps it down or in a small top knot if she wants to keep it from her face.

GLASSES? CONTACTS? none, she’s always had perfect vision.

TATTOOS? gianna has two tattoos and feels like that is more than plenty for her since she’s quite the little baby. she has her daughters first and middle name tattooed on her left calf with a small angel as well as the words ‘she who dwells in murky waters’ in latin on her ribs - a small homage to her siren ancestors and brethren. 

SCARS OR BIRTHMARKS? gianna has a scar on her right knee from when she was younger and had not exactly been able to handle the change between having a tail and legs, the end result being tripping over and falling onto some sharp rocks by the waters edge.

HANDICAPS OR DISABILITIES? none.

STYLE OF DRESS: like stated before, gianna has a very preppy rich girl vibe even though she’s a grown woman in her late twenties. she wears a lot of plaid/tweed skirts and her shirts are always fitted to her body but not so much that it’s obnoxious. when she wears dresses they’re very simple with minimalist patterns and she’s almost always wearing a pair of heels - the one exception being when she plays with her daughter in a park or in the house which is when she chooses to wear flat sneakers or TOMS.

STANDARD OF LIVING: upper class.

MANNERISMS & TICKS: when she starts to get worried about someone that she cares about but hasn’t heard from in a while, gianna tends to get a bit frantic and bakes excessively until she gets the news she wants. this often has left her with several dozen cupcakes in her home and nobody to give them to - until she gives them away.

P E R S O N A L I T Y ?

What is your idea of perfect happiness? “Perfect happiness to me is probably moving back to England and getting a small cottage in the country where Nikkie can run free and not have to worry about the bigger things in life. Also a place where I can be free to let my tail out without any sort of scrutiny.”

What is your greatest fear? Gianna hummed softly, head tilting down as she looked at her daughter sat beside her playing with her phone, “Something happening to Nikkie. I know that it isn’t likely but the person that ever lays a hand on my angel will be in for quite the awakening,” she mused darkly, eyes showing rage at the mere thought.

What is your biggest pet peeve or trait you deplore in yourself? “I can be a bit too overprotective of people that I’m close with which isn’t exactly benefiting me. It has been something that has broken friendships for me in the past so it’s a work in progress. But, is it truly wrong to care just a bit too much for others?”

What is your biggest pet peeve or trait you deplore in others? “Nosiness or fakeness. There is no need to ask about others buisness if you have not been approached by the person to have that specific chat. Fakeness is rather self explanatory, I believe.”

Which living person do you most admire? "Mary Berry, one of englands top bakers.”

Which living person do you most despise? "I don’t believe that it would be in my best interest to talk about hating others since hate is too strong of a word,” Gianna mused with a firm nod but the image of her daughters father was very clear in her head despite refusing to answer.

What is your greatest extravagance? She tapped her hands together as she tried to pick one specific thing in her life that she would deem the greatest of all, “I can’t say for certain but I do have some rather expensive jewelry which in itself should be considered extravagant. Even if I don’t wear it.” 

What do you consider the most overrated virtue? “Self-discipline. I don’t believe that a person should always follow a specific standard and not give into temptation because temptations are around every corner. Once you start to focus on all of those little details, you lose yourself.”

On what occasion do you lie? Gianna’s face was flat for a moment before a bright smile crossed onto her lips, head shaking slightly, “I don’t. I’m the most honest of persons and haven’t any shame in stating so.”

What is the quality you like most in a significant other? "This is a rather pointless question because a majority of the time, one could wish for so many things and then find that the person you fall for has none of them,” She paused, leaning back in her chair, “But I suppose loyalty would be a heavy quality as well as affectionate because that person would have to deal with not only me but a toddler who deserves all the affection in the world.”

Do you have a catchphrase? Which words or phrases do you most overuse? "That would be a solid ‘no’ to the first question but as for the latter, I likely use the word ‘love’ too much. I tend to call everyone I meet that but that’s mainly if I don’t know their name. Once I do, it’s more so in a caring manner.”

Who or what is the greatest love in your life? The siren smiled as her daughter quickly got to her feet, jumping up and down as she repeatedly said ‘me, me, me!’ because she couldn’t disagree. “She already answered for me.”

When and where were you happiest? Thinking through her life, Gianna remembered a moment from when she was in high school; “I think one of my happiest times was when I was in year twelve. I was in a relationship with this boy who my parents didn’t know about so we’d snuck off to go for a walk in the woods. Oliver had told me that he wanted to show me something special he had done so I was more than curious to see what it was. He was always a cheeky little thing so he had me guessing the entire time until we ended up next to this oak tree right by a stream. He literally made me climb a tree so we could sit on a branch just above the water but on the tree park itself he’d carved ‘Gianna & Oliver’ with a heart around it.” She paused, eyes looking down as she shrugged, “He was killed a few weeks later.”

Which talent would you most like to have? "Oh!” Gianna chimed as she leaned forward in her chair, “I’ve always wanted to know how to do a handstand. I’m not the most flexible person but gymnastics has been a fascination of mine since I was a child.”

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? "Not a thing,” she spoke confidently, “I am very proud of who I am and have worked ridiculously hard to get to this point in my life. Changing one part of myself would defeat the purpose of all my hardwork - something which I’d rather not think about.”

If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be? "I feel like this sounds a bit strange but I think I would want to be a cruise boat. Think about it, I would be able to be surrounded by water - which is already a huge part of my life now - and I’d be able to see the world almost every day until I get sent to a ship yard.”

If you could pick up and go anywhere, where would you most like to live? “Egypt, possibly. I’ve always been fascinated by the Pyramids of Giza and Egyptian mythology so it would be a chance to actually see it first hard. I don’t think I’d be there long but it would be nice for a few weeks at a time.”

What do you value most in your friends? “trustworthiness. It gives me a sense of calm knowing that the people around me are ones that can be trusted with anything i might have on my mind as well as being around my daughter since she needs the best influences possible.”

What historical figure do you most identify with? “I can’t say that I identify with her but I’ve always had a deep amount of respect for the late Princess Diana. She was actually someone that I tried to emulate when I was younger even if it was only for a few years.”

What is your greatest regret? “Before I say this, I can not stress enough how much that Nicole has nothing to do with this. She is the best thing to have happened to me and nothing is ever going to change that,” she stated briefly before looking down the make sure her daughter still had headphones on, “But her father is probably my biggest regret. I never would have expected him to just... leave at the sign of a big life change knowing that I was going through my own issues. I don’t know if I would even do anything if I saw him again but he was a waste of time. He was only good for giving me my baby.” 

What is your life’s motto? “Everything's better with a little chocolate”

Would you describe yourself as being an optimist or a pessimist? “I think I’m more of an optimist with slight pessimist tendencies depending on the situation. Some days I could be all for see the bright side of things but others are just not really up to those standards. A very one day at a time kind of situation.”

Introvert or Extrovert? "A mixture of both since it mainly depends on the day.”

How do you hope others will see you? Her eyes widened ever so slightly as she took in a breath, “Well,” she began trying to gather her thoughts, “I hope that they see a very caring woman who is doing her best to provide a good and healthy life for her daughter without any aid from others. Perhaps they see a friend and someone they can come to and talk if they need to be heard. I definitely expect them to see one of the best pastry chefs because if not I would like to see who could possibly be my competition.”

How are you seen by others currently? “I... don’t know?” She murmured, face twisting slightly since there wasn’t a way to truly know how to answer that question aside form asking everyone she knew individually. “Perhaps I’ll make a little box and place it outside my home for anyone who enters so they can leave me a little note saying how they see me. Otherwise, I can’t think of any way I can would know.

How do you see yourself? “I don’t mean to toot my own horn but I see a very dedicated mother who loves her child unconditionally, a talented pastry maker who is definitely not at her full potential where she currently works but lost all chances of having her own buisness years ago, a kind person who wishes to care for others and help them feel comforted and safe. That’s only a few of the things I see in myself. I could go on but the boredom would likely set it once I got past twenty.”

How do you react to praise? “How else? Remarkably! It’s always lovely to hear about people liking something that I’ve made because it genuinely make sense my heart warm and fuzzy. Knowing that I could use my talent to bring a smile onto another’s face is exactly why I wanted to become a pastry chef in the first place. That and my love of all things chocolate.”

How do you react to criticism? “What criticism?” She questioned, far too prideful to even accept the fact that not everyone was going to like her or her desserts, “I’ve never received any in my life.” Lies. She just refused to remember any since they affected her ego too much from overthinking the smallest of details.

Do you often make snap judgements or take time to consider? "Typically, I try to take time to consider but sometimes one can’t avoid making snap judgements since people and situations often times warrant that over the other. If I do happen to do so, I try to go back and see if it’s something that I was right about or not.”

Do you think you lead more with your head or your heart? “Heart. I have no idea what it even means to lead with your head since it’s never been in my nature. Everything I’ve ever done has been because my heart has told me to do it, that it was the right thing.”

When was the last time you cried? "Oh wow,” she declared, fingers tapping against her chin as long nails tried to recall if she’d even cried in the last year. “I think the last time I really cried was when I actually had Nicole. I was overcome with so many emotions - far more intense than any normal human mother can experience - that I cried for hours. I was also scared but that’s a story for another day. If you mean a simple tear, it was when Nicole got sick a few months ago with a simple cold.”

What is your guilty pleasure? "I’m not entirely sure if you mean in general or with food but if we’re talking about the latter, I think that it’s going to be breaking up fresh baked brownies and throwing it into vanilla ice cream followed by melted nutella and sprinkles,” she paused, feeling embarrassment creep onto her face, “It’s not something I do often.”

When was the last time you showered? “What?” Gianna asked, bewilderment and offense laced in her tone as her eyes narrowed.

Are you the type of person who talks in the movie theater? “I actually make it a habit to avoid going to the movies because I unfortunately am this kind of person,” she frowned slightly before perking up, “But in my defense, I only go to the movies with my daughter so I have to talk to her to make sure that she’s actually okay.”

Are you more of an indoor cat or an outdoor bird? “A part of me wants to really say that I love the outdoors since my life is meant to be spent in the water but I also want to say that I am more of an indoor person since sometimes I don’t particularly want to leave my home. So... both, perhaps?”

Are you a fan of Harry Potter and, if so, what would be your Hogwarts house? "Oh my lord,” Gianna groaned with a small pout, “I was actually such a huge fan of Harry Potter before I moved to the states but it seemed to simmer away when people started to show how nasty they could be. But if I do recall correctly, I was certainly a hufflepuff.”

Do you like superheroes and, if so, which character is your favorite? DC or Marvel? Gianna deadpanned, eyebrow raised, “I’m not the most versed in superheroes nor do I ever plan to be. I think the movies are interesting - at best - but the lack of diversity in most of them is just killing the appeal. To me.”

Did you used to play Pokemon? And if so, what be your starter Pokemon? "I actually only found out about what Pokemon was recently when I was searching for things to watch on Netflix. It looks darling but I have no idea what a ‘starter pokemon’ is. I do really love all the water ones, they’re precious!”

Star Wars or Star Trek? Or neither? "My father was a very big star trek fan so I guess I’ll choose that one even though I’ve never seen either of those series since they’re far too long.”

If you were in the Hunger Games, what would be your game plan? Gianna blinked a few times as she slowly tilted her head to one side, “You do realize that I can quite literally sing people into trances and murder them with my nails, correct?” Not that Gianna would ever dream of doing that kind of thing but if push comes to shove, she would. No hesitations.

If the zombie apocalypse happened today, how would you defend yourself? Now was one of those moments where Gianna felt so many regrets, a hand went to her face as she shook her head, “Did you miss what I just said or were you never paying attention to begin with?”

What’s the first thing you do when you’re home alone? A laugh left Gianna’s lips since the concept of being home alone seemed far too foreign for her to handle. “When that miracle of a day happens, I actually tend to worry about how Nikkie is doing or I’ll try to tweak some of my recipes so that they can do better. There’s also those rare occasions where I just sleep or go out to socialize with others.”

What is the most overplayed song you listen to? "What that Drake song? The one that is getting people in trouble because they’re dancing next to a moving car?”

Do you believe in a thing called love? "If it’s with the right person, I don’t see why not?” She stated before continuing, “I don’t, however, believe that love should be a word that people throw out like it’s nothing. Consequences can happen and lead to the unexpected, which is why I advise many to be picky with their standards. Take the time to truly know if it’s worth it.”

Do you believe in love at first sight? “I don’t,” she reported with bluntness draped in her tone, “But I do think that some people are destined to have a connection from the moment that they meet. Either it is meant to carry on to a more romantic plane or stay in a platonic one. In short, I do think that there is someone for everyone. Some are more blind than others, some refuse to accept it, it’s all a long process. Not an instant worth.”

If you could travel to any period in time, future or past, where would it be? “I would truly love to see a world where everyone can live in peace and harmony with each other like a society should. Granted, I would never want to leave but it would be nice to know how it was achieved.”

Have you committed a crime? "I was undeclared for quite some time and I am keeping certain secrets about the status of someone close to me so you could say I have. Though to me? I have done no such thing.”

If you could commit a crime and get away with it, what would it be? "I would never willingly commit a crime unless it was sparked by something. Also, speaking about crime could lead to implications in the future which would be rather trivial. Especially when laws would not work in my favor.”

If you found yourself trapped in an elevator with a group of strangers, what would be the first thing you’d do? “Fucking hell, I hate elevators,” Gianna whined as she visibly looked uncomfortable at the questions, “I would probably be too busy having an anxiety attack to even realize that there were other people there, if I’m frank.”

[astridxreyes]

W H O    A R E    Y O U?

ASTRID REYES

AGE: 28 APPEARANCE: Astrid rarely wears makeup and, when she does, she wears a bare face kind of "no makeup" makeup look. She likes fashion and likes experimenting with clothes, but often is seen in more plain jane clothes in an attempt to blend in (ex. t-shirt, jeans , sweaters, white sneakers). GLASSES/CONTACTS? She has glasses that she occasionally wears, but only to help her blend in as a "human" who needs reading glasses. TATTOOS? She has a matching tattoo with her friend Liv (who she accidentally turned into a harpy) that says "to infinity" across her rib cage (here); A couple of watercolored little birds on her right collar bone (here); stay gold tattooed across her left wrist (here); a tattoo that says 'but without the dark, we'd never see the stars' on her left upper thigh (here); a little anchor on the back of her neck (here); and a little elephant on the back of her ankle (here). SCARS OR BIRTHMARKS? Astrid has a couple different scars on her body. She has some scars on her hips and her wrists from TW: self harm; Her left wing doesn't tilt exactly right and a has a scar across from it; she has a tiny little scar that can barely be seen across her right temple. RICH OR POOR? Astrid grew up in poverty and although her adopted family is very wealthy, she lives a lower middle class lifestyle not wanting to borrow money from them. SPECIFIC TICK OR MANNERISM? She fidgets with her hair when she's nervous, often switching up her part from one side to the other or fidgeting with the hem of her skirt or shirt as she talks to people; she also has a tendency to rock back and forth slightly on the balls of her heels and nibble on her bottom lip.

P E R S O N A L I T Y ?

What is your idea of perfect happiness? 

“I don’t really know if I believe in perfect happiness anymore, but I guess if I had to pick I’d say that moment when I just forget where I am. When the world around me fades away and I just can exist without the past or... fear of the future.” If she had to pick a specific moment, she knew it would have been when she was flying, high above the trees, far away from any source of people whom she could hurt, where she could just sing to her hearts content, letting the wind kiss her cheeks.

What is your greatest fear? 

Being found out, being sent to prison or even worse, transferred. I’d be lying if I said it didn’t scare the shit out of me, excuse my language, to be sent somewhere- anywhere- away. But, I think the part of me that scares me more is what would happen to my family- the Reyes who took me in when they didn’t have to- and my friends like Liv. I did this to her, I scratched her. I turned her. I ruined her life and, because of me, she might end up spending the rest of it behind bars. And Damien- he already lost so much. I wonder if he’d even look at me again if I ruined what was left of his family, Astrid couldn’t help but think. But, she wouldn’t ever dare mutter it out loud.

What is your biggest pet peeve or trait you deplore in yourself? 

“There’s kind of too many to list. But, I guess if I had to pick I’d say just not feeling able to be myself? Or even really knowing who I am? I sometimes see other people around my ages, fooling around laughing and letting loose. You know, those people who are the focus of every group they’re apart of, who make you laugh out loud and are just magnetic? Those people who everyone can’t help but be drawn to? I see them and I get jealous, so freaking jealous, because I can never be like that. And it’s not just because-” Because she was undeclared. “I just- sometimes I feel like I’m drowning in my own body. In my own skin. Like no matter who I’m around or what I do, I’m on edge and petrified of being myself, of letting people in, of getting hurt again, of having someone take something of mine that wasn’t theirs to take. I hate that I don’t feel safe, that I haven’t felt safe since I was like 10 years old and will probably never feel safe again and- and I hate when I look at these bright amazing people, I know deep down that I’m not one of them and I probably never will be, I guess...”

What is your biggest pet peeve or trait you deplore in others? 

“I don’t know? I don’t really know if there is one. But, maybe being entitled? Those people who feel like the world belongs to them and everything is for their taking even if it’s not?”

Which living person do you most admire? 

“I have two. My mom and dad. My adopted mom and dad. They took me in and gave me everything. Not just a home, but a family even if it was far from easy. They’re kind of the coolest people in the world and I don’t know what I’d do without them.”

Which living person do you most despise? 

“I don’t know if he’s alive anymore, but...” Charlie...

What is your greatest extravagance?

“College? I only went for a year and a half before it was just too much to keep paying for on my own, but it’s definitely the most I’ve probably ever spent on anything.”

What do you consider the most overrated virtue? 

“Maybe faith? I don’t just mean in the ‘higher power’ sense. I mean just hope. Believing that everything is going to be okay, even if the world is falling apart at the seams?”

On what occasion do you lie? 

“I kind of lie everyday, now-a-days. About who I am? Where I came from? But, I guess I lie the most when I tell people ‘I’m fine’.”

“What is the quality you like most in a significant other?

“Optimism? Or maybe humor? If someone can make me smile or let my walls down, they’re a-okay in my book.”

 Do you have a catchphrase? Which words or phrases do you most overuse? 

“Maybe ‘Gosh Darn it?’”

Who or what is the greatest love in your life? 

“Fiyero Tigelaar. And if you know who that is, then you probably know why.” She’s a little theater nerd and fell in love with singing and the stage.

When and where were you happiest? 

“The first time I flew across the lake. I kind of had a whole Harry Potter riding a hippogriff, moment. It’s was pretty awesome.”

Which talent would you most like to have?

“Shapeshifting would be pretty cool, but I’d settle on getting over my stage fright?” Or singing without the possibility of accidentally paralyzing someone or knocking them out... Kind of puts a damper on being a broadway star and all.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? 

Being Declared without having to go to jail, would be pretty cool? She couldn’t help, but think.

If you could pick up and go anywhere, where would you most like to live? 

“Just get me anywhere in Europe with a backpack and I’ll be happy.”

What is your most treasured possession? 

“My Hello Kitty backpack. It’s silly and cheesy, but it’s all I’ve got from before I ran away, so...”

What do you value most in your friends?

“Faith, trust, and I have yet to find someone with pixie dust, but that would be cool too.”

Who is your hero of fiction? 

“Elle Woods. She got into Harvard. You know, not like it’s hard or anything.”

What historical figure do you most identify with? 

“Amelia Earheart. She was the first female aviator to fly solo across the Atlantic Ocean and she just never let anything hold her back. I don’t know if I’m anything like her, but I want to be.”

What is your greatest regret? 

“Not getting out fast enough when Charlie... when I was turned.”

What is your life’s motto?

“If you’ve seen Warm bodies-”

Would you describe yourself as being an optimist or a pessimist?

“Optimist. I’d say I’m a glass half full type of person, but I drink water too fast to have half of anything left.”

Introvert or Extrovert? 

“Introvert aka a not so closeted loner... I really should get that on a t-shirt.”

How do you hope others will see you? 

“Hooman?”

How are you seen by others currently? 

“Nice? Which I kind of hate by the way. I mean being nice is great and all. At least, I’m not the devil or anything, even if our pastor might disagree if he-” learned the truth. “But, in my experience, nice is kind of the go-to-word to describe someone you know nothing about.”

How do you see yourself? 

“Like Tracey Turnblad shoved inside a scrappy filipina body.”

How do you react to praise? 

“Last time someone complimented me, I’m pretty sure I flailed my arms and made a sound that could best be described as an awkward dinosaur noise? So not great.”

How do you react to criticism? 

“I thrive in it. My self-esteem loves being taken down a notch. But, in all seriousness, I try to prove them wrong and often end up doing something I’ll probably regret like doing a weird rollerblade dance routine to Stayin’ Alive. Clearly, one of my finer moments.”

Do you often make snap judgements or take time to consider? 

“I’d like to think I’m a rational thinker, but... did I mention the Staying’ Alive boogy dance? On Roller blades?”

Do you think you lead more with your head or your heart? 

“Bu-dum, bu-dum, bu-dum...  I was trying to make a heart sound and the second I did, I instantly regretted it.”

When was the last time you cried? 

“When half of the ice cream in my cone fell on the ground. What? It was a very traumatic experience.” Even, though she knew it was actually when her parents asked her if they could adopt her. Happy tears.

What is your guilty pleasure? 

“The Bachelor franchise. It’s like watching a car crash. It’s horrifying, but you can’t look away. That or singing to show tunes in my car at the top of my lungs when no one’s watching or sitting in the taco ball parking lot eating a quesarito while... also listening to showtunes. And then I end up ordering dominos and make the deliver guy knock on my window like I’m doing some shady drug deal when in actually it’s just for cookie brownies and those parmesan bread knots... I have a lot of guilty pleasures.”

When was the last time you showered? 

“This morning and every morning like a hygienic person?”

Are you the type of person who talks in the movie theater? 

“No. Unless it’s a horror movie. Then, you’ll find me curled up in my chair, peaking through the cracks in my fingers covering my eyes, screaming at the characters not to go in the room and asking them why in the world they’d be asking if anyone’s home when they hear a creepy noise upstairs, as if the killer is just going to respond with ‘oh hi love! I’m just making myself a sandwich. But, don’t worry. I’ll be down in a giffy to kill ya.’”

Are you more of an indoor cat or an outdoor bird? 

“I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane-” (Cue Five for Fighting - Superman) She’s an outdoor person.

Are you a fan of Harry Potter and, if so, what would be your Hogwarts house? 

“Honey badgers don’t care.” She’s a huge Harry Potter fan and a Hufflepuff all the way.

Do you like superheroes and, if so, which character is your favorite? DC or Marvel? 

“Yes! And Kitty Pryde aka Shadowcat.”

Did you used to play Pokemon? And if so, what be your starter Pokemon? 

“Yes! And in the versions I’ve played, Squirtle and Piplup.”

Star Wars or Star Trek? Or neither?

“Both?”

If you were in the Hunger Games, what would be your game plan? 

“Hide?” Hide until I get caught and then fly up real high or sing until anyone who tried to attack me gets stunned so that I can escape?

If the zombie apocalypse happened today, how would you defend yourself?

“I’m a goner anyways, so...” ZOMBIE HARPY HERE I COME!

What’s the first thing you do when you’re home alone?

“Slide across the floor like I’m Tom Cruise in Risky Business while singing ‘What Dreams are Made Of’ into a hairbrush like Hillary Duff.”

What is the most overplayed song you listen to? 

“Defying Gravity or Satisfied. Can you tell I used to be a theater kid in High School?”

Do you believe in a thing called love?  (cue the Darkness song…) 

“I believe in a thing called love Just listen to the rhythm of my heart There's a chance we could make it now We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down I believe in a thing called love Ooh!...

too much?”

Do you believe in love at first sight? 

“No. I believe in lust at first sight, but when you think about the cliche disney fall in love moments- Prince Charming couldn’t even recognize Cinderella when she didn’t have a big ball gown on and, in Snow White, which also was Prince Charming funny enough... he was kind of a stalker and necrophiliac? And yeah... I don’t know if I want that personally.”

If you could travel to any period in time, future or past, where would it be? 

“I’m kind of happy now, to be honest. Even though I wouldn’t mind reliving the early 2000′s again?”

Have you committed a crime? 

“Who? Me? Nooooo.... Never....” I’m literally undeclared so... you do the math?

If you could commit a crime and get away with it, what would it be? 

I’d like to continue being undeclared without being caught, thank you very much.

If you found yourself trapped in an elevator with a group of strangers, what would be the first thing you’d do? 

“Panic? I’ve seen Tower of Terror and I have no want to be the little girl in that movie.”

[bonafiderarity]

Shadow Work - Day 7

I am doing shadow work reflections from the TikTok page of HealingPretty.

Name things you are proud of about yourself - be it how you are, things you have achieved, done...

I like who I am. Sure, I have days that are hard. But I like that I am smart. I like that people like me. I like that I try to stay humble and real. I like that I know how to have relationships with different people. I like that I am observant and I notice things. I am proud that people trust me. I'm proud of my story. I am proud of my trajectory. I get really scared when I think about what I could have been. Who knows! The possibility of my life, if I had not been adopted, it's really scary.

And look at me now. I am in my own apartment, typing my shadow work and listening to Moana on Ambient Worlds. You know? Its like I am here and I know who I am. I like that feeling. I like that I am confident and I'm not lost. Again, we all have our moments. But I am glad of my good moments. I am hopeful. I am patient (as patient as I can be) and I am strong.

When I think of "what have I achieved" I always think of accomplishments. Awards. Graduating things. But I think my biggest accomplishment is just standing confident in myself. I am me.

[ameliaxdiaz]

SHADOW PROMPT 3: IT’S GOOD TO BE HOME

What does the place look like? [Images up above]

Where in town do they live? In a little house off the beaten path facing the woods (not too far from the trails)

What kind of place is it? It’s a house that she is renting

How long have they lived there? 6 months

Do they have any roommates/live with family? Do they keep a stowaway in their attic? Nope. She lives all on her lonesome 

Do they have any pets? Not in less you count her 

What is the layout of the place like? How many bedrooms or bathrooms does it have? Does it have a parlor? A living room? A library? A skylight? A hot tub? A ocean view? How big or small are the rooms? There is 1 bedroom, 1 bath, 1 living room, a small kitchen and a little backyard.

Do they own it or rent it? Rent it!

Is there any history or rumors surrounding the place? Any ghost stories or famous previous owners? Nope. The little house is fairly new and there has only been a couple other renters before her. She’s cuban. She doesn’t mess with ghosts and can be superstitious. 

If there was a fire and they could only save one item in the space, what would they save? A leather jacket. Lia doesn’t have many items she holds onto, especially not from the past, but the one person who had been kind to her in a time when her world was falling apart gave it to her. And for that, she’d make sure to go back in to get it. ( @mateosanroman )

Which room or place in the space is their favorite? And how is it decorated? The living room. It’s tiny and fairly empty, with limited furniture and a couple boxes she still hasn’t gotten around to unpack (she’s a terrible procrastinator). But, in it, is a splatter paint wall she created during her founder’s day charity date and every time she looks at it, she can’t help but smile. ( @jasminedmorris ).

[beneathshadowsrp]

SHADOW PROMPT 3: IT’S GOOD TO BE HOME

Hello Lovelies! For the month of September, the writing prompt will be on your character’s home! Where do they live? What does their favorite room in the house look like? Do they live in an apartment? A house? A RV? A boat? You can learn so much about your character from the way the way they are at home and how to chose to decorate their space. You do not have to participate in this prompt if you don’t want to. But, if you do chose to participate, please tag your post #shadowprompts.

Have fun with it and keep on writing!

What does the place look like? [Feel free to include pictures]

Where in town do they live? [This can be a made up address, a description, or any way you’d like to explain it ex. On the water, on the outskirts of town, in a culdesac, an apartment complex etc.]

What kind of place is it? [M.A.S.H.? aka Mansion? Apartment? Shack? House? etc.]

How long have they lived there?

Do they have any roommates/live with family? Do they keep a stowaway in their attic?

Do they have any pets?

What is the layout of the place like? How many bedrooms or bathrooms does it have? Does it have a parlor? A living room? A library? A skylight? A hot tub? A ocean view? How big or small are the rooms?

Do they own it or rent it?

Is there any history or rumors surrounding the place? Any ghost stories or famous previous owners?

If there was a fire and they could only save one item in the space, what would they save?

Which room or place in the space is their favorite? And how is it decorated?

[bonafiderarity]

Shadow Work - Day 3

I am doing my shadow work with prompts from the TikTok account healing pretty.

What is your definition of success and failure?

That is a little difficult for me. I think there are mainstream influences of success and failure. Money. Appearances. But I take those with a grain of salt. When I hear this I think of my parents. They support me always. I have never felt like a failure with them. I am thankful and lucky for that.

For success, it is for sure the idea of taking risks, being brave, how many people you reach, and doing something meaningful. For failure, I think of being basic. Valuing basic things. An important life is a life that is only lived for yourself. Not being aware of the bigger picture.

Describe the feeling of them.

The feeling of success is a feeling of joy. It feels like I am helping people. It feels like a student understands something because of me. It feels like watching someone able to succeed because of something you did. It feels like I understand my worth and value and I use it to help others.

The feeling of failure if feeling stuck, honestly. I kindaaaaa feel it now. I don't feel as much forward movement in my life as I'd like. It feels like being idle. It feels like time is running out. It feels like I am not doing what my parents want me to do. It feels like I am scared. It feels like fear.

Where do you think you got these ideas about success and failure?

I think my parents. I respect their path and I trust their path. They want me to get a Ph.d - which I'd like to do. They'd like me to go into administration - which I'd like to do. It's not that feeling of "they want me to be a business woman and I don't want to do that, I want to blah blah". It's not that. It's that they see my potential and they want me to reach it. And I agree with them. I also get the ideas of myself and past experiences. I remember feeling regret. I am worried about regretting not doing things. So its both a feeling that my parents have modeled for me and also a feeling that I have experienced and didn't like.

Also, I think because I have older parents, I have seen regret and it scares me.

[bonafiderarity]

Shadow Work - Day 2

I am going to be following the shadow work prompts from the TikTok account Healing Pretty.

What do you need to forgive yourself for?

How could you be softer to yourself regarding that topic?

Write a letter to yourself sending forgiveness and understanding to yourself.

1. What do you need to forgive yourself for?

I try to act right and live a life where I am honest and don't hurt others. I don't want to act out of spite. I try not to lie. I really try to be an honest person. Of course, we aren't all perfect. But those times and moments where I have failed in my own standards kind of haunt me.

I have hurt my parents. I have said mean things to people in my past relationships. I have said mean things to E, C and H. These are the moments that haunt me.

I think, with my parents, in the past, I have been manipulative, selfish, and unloving. Things happen, I'm a child. You really can't take things back, which is hard. Time moves by so fast and people always tell you that. But you don't really understand it until someone is gone and you can't make up time.

With my past relationships, I have tested people. I think because I want to see if people will stay around me despite all my crazy. Oh, yea? You love me? What about NOW? It's a trust thing I guess. I don't trust that they really feel that deeply about me, so I push it and push them so they will prove me right. So, I have said mean things. I have pushed people hard. I have hurt people. I have acted outside of myself. Seen myself do stuff that I wouldn't say is characteristic of myself. Controlled people. A lot of control and ego.

2. How could I be softer to myself?

In terms of my parents, I think kids are kids. I am a child. I can show appreciation in different ways. One day I will honor my parents by being a good parent. I will be as good as them and better than them. The bar is set high, so to be better than them is going to mean some little kiddo is going to have an awesome parent. My relationship with my Mother is still growing and evolving. I still have time to show appreciation. I can start with meeting her friend and letting her have a stressless relationship after Dad.

In terms of past relationships, man. I truly believe the right person brings out the right parts of you. E and I were young, I was still learning a lot about myself. I acted in a certain way because I was still experimenting with myself. I can be softer with myself because I am older and wiser. I am not that Alex anymore. With C, things don't work out because they're not for you. He helped you but unintentionally hurt you in a lot of ways. Again, you were young. You have grown and reflected so much. Pain causes growth, unfortunately. You don't like who you were with him. With H, damn. Be kind with yourself because you had a gut feeling and you stuck to your guns. And when you didn't, the universe stepped in. You didn't like who you were with them either. You shouldn't be with a person that it is so easy for you to hurt them. Red flag no. 1.

3. Letter to Self

Dear you,

This is important. You, yourself know that you need to do this work so you can heal from your past. You haven't had a particularly crazy past. But things are holding you back. You have this fear that you are stuck and you are just LIKE this, you know? But no one is perfect. You don't want to be perfect, but you don't want to hurt people. I think you have to be patient and just be hard on yourself...in a soft way. You are an amazing person. You are also a smart person. If something is coming up, it's not for you, and that's okay. All these past situations didn't work out for a reason. It's not because you're a monster, you know what parts were your fault. You own up to them. You're not afraid of yourself. The right person will see the things you struggle with and they'll help you. The same way you help EVERYONE, someone will be able to help you. And it will inspire you to help yourself! I don't know how this became just about relationships. But anyway. I LOVE YOU!

[bonafiderarity]

Shadow Work Day 1

I am going to be following the prompts from the TikTok account HealingPretty.

What unhealthy attachments (things/people/places) do I hold onto?

What am I scared of letting these attachments go?

What do I gain from ending these attachments?

THINGS

An unhealthy thing that I am attached to is, right now, my dating app.s They make me feel unwanted. They make me feel base and weak. They make me feel judged. I think I also have an unhealthy relationship with my scale. I currently can't find it and it's driving me nuts that I can't judge myself. I am scared of letting go of my dating app because they are evidence that I am desirable. Outside validation. If it doesn't match what's in my head, is it real?

With my scale...I'm afraid to be unaware of my outside matching how people perceive me. The weight. The number means if I am attractive or not.

I gain no superficial judgment. I gain myself. My self-esteem and real connection. I gain the ability to heal without a doubt. My positive thoughts are uninterrupted by strangers.

PEOPLE

Past boyfriends. I think I have removed myself from them but recently I can't stop thinking about them. Sometimes I am scared of letting them go because they are evidence that I am lovable. They are evidence that people like me. That I am wanted. I think all these things about myself and are proof that I am right. Or that it is true. They are proof that anything negative I think about myself is wrong. If I let go of those attachments is my time wasted? Am I left at square one? There is also an element of power that I am afraid to let go of. I am afraid to let go of them because it means that my existence isn't important. I'm afraid to be unimportant. Uninteresting. Unneeded. Alone.

What do I gain? I gain freedom. I gain myself. I gain a fresh start. Growth!. Acceptance that I was different in each of those relationships and I will continue to be different in my future. I gain a future.

I am different. I am stronger and smarter. Those relationships weren't failed. They weren't for me. They were just what I was going through.

[beneathshadowsrp]

It’s that time of the month again for the Full Moon! Thanks to your guys’ wonderful feedback, we’ve decided to make the full moon a starter prompt instead of a plot drop or an event. So what does that mean?

 It means that starting now until Sunday, August 26th (which is when the full moon actually is) at Midnight EST you can create starters in the starter tag or make private threads related to the special features that come with the full moon. You do not have to participate in the Full Moon starter prompt if you don’t want to, but the Full Moon is a way for any character in the rp to create a fun new starter (especially for the species that have different powers or abilities during the full moon) and we’ll detail how below. Basically, this starter prompt is just a reminder of when the full moon is and is an aid to help you hopefully get starter ideas. Please continue your ongoing threads and reply to existing starters. Even after the #shadowfullmoon starter thread deadline ends, you can still continue your character’s conversations. Just please don’t create any new full moon threads or starters until the next full moon. Also, if you have any questions about this reoccurring prompt feel free to shoot us a message.

*Note: As per any major plot, during a full moon starter, if you want to INJURE your character, KILL an NPC (human or Supernatural),  or any other MAJOR plot related occurrence, YOU NEED TO MESSAGE THE MAIN FIRST TO ASK FOR APPROVAL. (You will most likely have your plot approved, but we just need to keep track of which major plots are happening on the dash. That, and we will be posting a recap after the full moon, detailing the major plots that occurred like two characters fighting or a NPC human dying etc. So, we need to know for that reason as well).

So what can you write a starter about for your characters?

In town, people often refer to the full moon as “The Changing”:

During a full moon, there is a town curfew. After 10 pm on a full moon, all humans are expected to stay inside for their own safety. Anyone under the age of 21 is required by law to stay inside, while everyone older than 21 is highly encouraged to. Often organizations will host lock ins at local pubs or churches. Go out at your own risk.

During full moons, for all supernaturals, use of powers after curfew is fair game. As long as no humans are physically killed during the “Changing”, everything else that occurs on the streets (not in sanctioned buildings and houses) is fair game with no punishment by law (including, but no limited to other forms of violence on either side- human and supernatural alike).

For our hunters, now is your chance to hunt throughout town without any consequences by the law.

For our werewolves, your character will be shifting. You don’t have to write a shifting starter if you don’t want to. But, if you want to have your character be forced to turn and be set lose on the town, now is your chance to!

For our witches, now is your chance to create starters and threads with those extra full moon abilities that you gain.

For our vampires & succubus/incubus, your character can have an intense desire to feed during the full moon and an urge to quench their thirst with the others around them.

For our Harpies/Sirens, your characters can have an intense desire to sing. Also, for newer harpies and sirens, they’ll sometimes have difficulty hiding their true form. You’ll often see sirens take to the water and harpies flock to the sky.

While most shops and stores are closed on the full moon:

The Hellmouth will be open for supernaturals to eat at and, abiding to the curfew, won’t allow humans in for the duration of the night. There will also be a strict “no harming others” policy while inside the establishment.

All Saint’s Hospital will stay up and running. If you work at the Hospital, you will most likely be having a shift sometime during the night.

Procaffination Cafe will be having a lock in Movie Night where they play re-runs of all the classics (while the actual movie theater/Level Up! will be closed for the evening seeing that the owner is a declared werewolf).

Flannigan’s will be having a Scottish pub style lock-in. There will be music from a live band for part of the night and people can gather around and drink with the pub owner until the sun comes up.

The Muttropawlitan stays open to help heal hurt werewolves who wander in and in the basement they have an area where werewolves can be locked up during the shift, so that they don’t run lose around town and hurt someone.

Dusk Till Dawn Inn will, also, stay open with their basement working as an area where werewolves can be locked up during the shift, so that they don’t run lose around town and hurt someone. Additionally, they will have discounted rooms for anyone needed a place to escape to during the full moon.

The House of Grace has a lock in where humans can gather around reading hymns, singing psalms and playing an assortment of boardgames. The church pews will be replaced by cots and, there will, also, be a large selection of food provided such as an array of baked goods and pastries from the Pie Hole and little Debbies snack cakes.

Both speakeasy-style clubs, Neverland and Saints & Sinners, take to the streets. Humans who are 21+ party outside, experimenting with drinking, drugs and other narcotics out in the open, while supernaturals parade through the streets doing the same. Free booze is often provided.

Supernaturals lounge freely on Radley’s front and backyards participating in pack meetings and other events.

The Falls are a magical hotspot, so during the full moon, if you character takes a swim, if they’re supernatural, they might find themselves getting a boost a power and, if they’re human, they might find themselves acting a bit tipsy.

*Note: If you are the owner of an establishment and want your establishment to participate in the reoccurring events during a full moon or be open during a full moon feel free to message the main and we will add you to the list!

[ameliaxdiaz]

SHADOW PROMPT 2: PEN PALS

PARTNER: RYKER WAYNE RELATIONSHIP: PACK MATE

@righthandryker

Who is your partner’s name? Ryker Wayne

If you could pick out a photo of them that you best think fits their personality what would it be?

^Cause he’s a boss :)

What was your first impression of this person? “At first I was sort of um... cautious about him? With him being the first supernatural Sheriff and all. But, then after I started talking to him and getting to know him, I thought h-he was sweet and kind and very welcoming!!”

If you could describe their personality in 3 words what would it be? “Charming, Compassionate, and Authoritative”

Do you think your personalities mesh well together? Do they compliment each others? Are they opposites to one another? “I- I think he’s a lot more um... w-welcoming off the bat? It takes me longer to warm up to people. And I think he’s more c-charismatic and I- I guess more c-concerned with the laws since he is a beta and at the police force and all? I think we are opposites in a lot of ways. But, I don’t think that’s necessarily a bad thing. I’d say we get along. And I do feel like I can open up to him which I don’t feel like I can do with many people.”

If you could assign this person’s aesthetic a theme song, what would be? Five for Fighting- Superman (Not Easy)

If you were to assign them a high school superlative, what would it be? “The Golden Boy”

How do you think you and this person would get along? What kind of relationship/interactions do you think you would have? “A fairly good one? One where h-he has my back and where we s-support each other’s decisions?”

What are things you have in common with this person? “I think we both play pretend sometimes? Try to act like we’re more okay with t-things, than we maybe are underneath?”

What are things you don’t have in common with this person? “A lot. I mean, just the fact, that he’s a cop and I- I’m technically an ex con.”

What are things you’d want to go know about them? “I- I’d like to know more about his past, maybe? Whose the man behind the badge?”

If you could ask them or tell them anything at all without any repercussions, what would it be? “I-I don’t know. What’s the worst thing he’s ever done, maybe?”

If you could go on vacation with this person, where would you go? What would you do? Would it be a success or a disaster?  “I- I don’t know? Some kind of car road trip maybe? And I think it would be a success? Even if we got stuck in the mud or something, I bet we’d have fun!”

If you were in a life or death situation with this person, would trust them to save your life? “Yeah. I think I would. Not only is he the town sheriff, but he’s in my pack, and he seems like the kind of guy would do anything to try to save someone.”

If they were going to bake in your kitchen, would you trust them not to burn your house down? “Um... yes?”

If you had to place this person in a Hogwart’s house, which one would it be? “I think he’s a ... Gryffindor, definitely.”

If you had to pick out their fiction doppelganger who would it be? “I want to say Captain Holt from Brooklyn 99, but it would probably be more like Clark Kent?” (OOC: Going with a Superman theme here lol)

If you had to pick out a fictional or non-fictional relationship to represent your interactions together, who would they be? “Oh. I- I don’t know. Peter Parker and Harry Osborn? Terra and Beast Boy? Sebastian and Annette?”

If you were to text this person right now, what would the message entail? Txt: Hi! Thnx for the coffee <3 Maybe we can do it again sometime?

Do you find this person’s personality attractive? Why or why not? “Yeah, I mean, of course. Have you met him? He- he’s the type of person who makes you t-think that maybe the world isn’t as bad as it sometimes seems.”

If you had to be stranded on an island with anyone, would you be content being stranded with this person? And how would you rate your chance of survival (1 out of 10 with 10 being the best chance and 1 being the worst)? “I’d be pretty content, yeah, and 10/10 for survival?”

If you had to pick or a quote to represent your relationship/interactions with this other person what would it be? “How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.” — Winnie the Pooh (OOC: idk why, it just made me think of them :) )

How would you two fair living together? As roommates in the same room? In different rooms, in the same building? As neighbors? “I think we could be good roommates. But, probably better neighbors. I- I kinda prefer living on my own?”

If you were to write a pen pal letter to them, reaching out for the first time, what would it say? Would it be written by hand? By email? Sent by Owl?

It would be a handwritten note on line paper:

Ryker-

I don’t deserve it or probably even you, but, I just wanted to say thank you. Thanks for being here and for listening.

- Lia :)