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Shaaay

Mister jeon jungkook telling the members about mama jeon when he met her

"I think we need to change the spin move in the second chorus," Jimin said to the members as they took a short break from filming their newest music video. "I'm noticing that it's too hard for me to get to my mark in time and I keep bumping into Jungkookie."

"Well, the three of us are the only ones who change position in that chorus and I don't care about moving it," Hobi said. "What are about you, Jungkookie?"

Jungkook, who hadn't even been paying any attention to his hyungs, was completely focused on his phone, smiling as he typed.

"Jungkook?" Jin chuckled, waving his hand in front of his face. "Are you there?"

"Oh, sorry hyungs," Jungkook gasped as he looked up from his phone. "We can take the spin out, it's fine with me."

"Who are you talking to over there?" Taehyung wondered with a smirk. "Anyone special?"

"No, just a friend," Jungkook replied.

"This wouldn't happen to be the same friend you snuck into the dorm the other night, would it?" Yoongi wondered.

"Yoongi hyung, that is so unfair!" Jungkook huffed. "I never said anything about all the times you snuck your wife into the dorms before you got married."

"That's because no one would've believed you."

"Yes we would have," Namjoon spoke up with a laugh. "We all knew about that, hyung."

"Whatever," Yoongi huffed.

"More about this friend though," Hobi said. "Who is she?"

"Her name is Y/N and we used to go to school together," Jungkook explained. "We've kind of been dating for a while now."

"How long is a while?" Jimin wondered.

"Like, three months," Jungkook replied.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Namjoon asked. "Is it serious?"

"I'm not really sure and that's why I didn't say anything," Jungkook admitted. "I really like her though, so much and I want it to be serious."

"Have you told her that?" Jin questioned.

"No, I don't wanna ruin what we have going."

"Having conversations and clarifying isn't gonna ruin it," Yoongi explained. "Better to know and have an understanding than to wonder. Talk to the girl."

"I'll try," Jungkook nodded.

"I wanna meet her!" Jimin exclaimed.

"Me too," Taehyung agreed.

"And tell her embarrassing stories about me?" Jungkook scoffed. "No thanks."

"That's our jobs as your hyungs," Jin smiled. "Sorry, not sorry."

[nmoreprples909090]

Tkpddddddd dua hari shooting bareng. Trus sempet liat2an walaupun ngga ngobrol banyak sih kamu say hello duluan ke aku xixixiix dan pake acara nawarin daun minti di h1 sama es milloooowwwwww di h2 tapi aku ndak mao…. agak bingung juga sih pas ditawarin daun minti, like.. hee? napeee? wkwk kocak deh masnya...

Trus kamu juga nolongin aku buat cari palu buat belt sembari agak lari gitu, aku denger sih kamu ngomong: disitu ga ada orang ga ada orang wkwkwkkwkwkwkwkkwkwkw…. AAAKKKKK!!!! kenapa ga manggil nama sih btw, heran gw ampe skrg jujur dia ga pernah manggil nama gw sedikitpun like... whyyyy.. emang gatau ya seumuran, masa iya sih gatau.. kayanya pun udh pernah gw mensyen kalau seumuran gt lho like i mean... whyyyyy.........

Dah gitu malemnya abis tugas, dia wa pula nanyain ada hape dummmy ngga siapatau keselip di baju2 eikeu tugas, monmmaap ni kayanya ga ada dan mang bener sih ga adaaaaa….. apa dia ngadi2 doang ya biar chattingan, tapi affa iyaahh wkwkwkkw geerr abiss eikeuu....

oke, case closed karena pas gw bilang ga ada, dia pun udah ga respon lagi. YOWES.

yauduk yakan tu shoot kelar jumat, sabtuminggu mene ketemu, nah senin mulai deh pen banget gw ketemu, eh tak terlihat jg batang hidungnya.. huu sedih.......... senin wes tootosssss...

nah tadi nih ketemu lahhh dong kannn tuh ya ama dia, kaget banget tiba2 dia udh keliatan batang hidungnya pagi2 di fkt. aku shocked. lhooo jambreddd, lagi sekangen ituuuu, lagi pengen dia udahan deaktipasi akunnnya, eh muncullll wkwkkw SO HAPPY.. ternyata dia tugas Tlkpdddd.. wwkkwkwk dududuud syenenggg...

sebelom tlkpoddddd, dia smpet bilang: eh maap ya waktu itu ad kesalahan teknis, hpnya dah ketemu... aku ngerti sih tp aku bales: hah apaan ya?

dan dia jelasin.about dummyhp, trus dia say thanks jg , ok then,....

Terus akhirnya gw lanjottt deh tugas tLKPdddd, padahal rencana mah pulcep terlebih keuangan udh sakratooll.. bener2 kosong shaaay, MINUS!!!!! OEMJI....

ah tapi kan akhirnya beneran ditungguin ni ama aku ampe kamu kelar tugas xixiixxixix udah gitu pas pulang masi kangen, pengen gitu pas turun apa gmana ketemu lagi ehhh beneran dong motor kamu ada di belakang. Dua mobil di belakang aku xixixiixxix ceneng lageeee

EL 31.85 DE EkKssssss

Laaaffffft aaaaaaaa

Ya udah aku ikutin kamu ternyata kamu drop temen kamu ke mitra trus jalanin motor lagi, gatau markir apa ngga tapi intinya aku cenenggggg bisa papasan gituu ihi BESSSTTTT. namun ku memilih, jalan pulang lah yaa lewatin mitra aj, ngantuk shayyy, takut keburu macica mukhtar jg yakan.. so that's all.....

Xoxoxixiixxiixxiixixixixio

Aakkk tidak!!!!!! aku suka lagi. sama kamu. :”)

GIMANADONGGGKKKK :(

[arlydarkfire]

HI SHAAAY

[tallskinnyvanillalatte]

Season 3 Shay References

So, I wanna keep track of all the times Shay is referenced or mentioned or whatever in season 3. Because I feel like they handled her death very well and I wanna have it written down somewhere.

3x01: Shay died right at the beginning of the episode. We fast forward six weeks. She's mentioned at 51 a couple of times. Dawson visits her "plate". Severide hasn't been at 51 ever since, he returns by the end of the episode and goes to their apartment with Casey where they clean out some of her stuff. He mentiones he can't continue living there, so Casey invites him to stay at their place for a while. Severide finds the contract dvd he recorded with Shay and watches it, crying. Dawson has been seeing counseling for the past five weeks but never said anything. This time, she talks about how she had traded places with Shay and Shay ended up standing in the place Dawson should've been standing when Shay was hit. She breaks down crying. Oh, we also get several flashbacks. Shay and Dawson in the ambo before their last call together. Shay joining 51 and meeting Severide for the first time. Oh, and Gabby is wearing Shay's necklace already, but it's not addressed yet.

3x02: This is the first episode without Shay. The recap shows us Shay's death again and Severide's "Come on, Shay! Fight for me, Shay!" really gets to me. Severide returns to work and Boden asks him how he's doing and suggests grief counseling to him. Severide insists he's fine. There's this moment where they are leaving the station and Severide sees the back of the new paramedic Sylvie for the first time and it reminds him of Shay. The blonde ponytail, she really looks like Shay from behind and Severide just stares at her for a second or two. Bb:(. Back at the station, Sylvie introduces herself to Severide and sits down next to him. He just talkes to her briefly and goes somewhere else. It's as if she reminds him too much of Shay to actually deal with her. We see Severide talking to Erin Lindsay from CPD who's "so sorry about Shay". While Dawson and Casey are having sex, we see Severide at a bar all by himself having a drink or two. Like, to show that he's maybe not so okay and still struggling. The next morning, we find out that Severide never came home that night. Dawson suddenly starts tearing up and crying. She says that the first thing she thought when she woke up was 'I can't wait to tell Shay'. Casey tells her that Shay helped him pick out the ring and that she was really happy for them. God I'm also in tears because that scene is so pure and so realistic, you know, tearing up out of the blue because a simple thing reminded you of someone. "Staying at 51 after losing Shay - I wouldn't have wanted it any other way", Dawson says. Newhouse's daughter is at the station asking Severide about the pictures and we get a close up on a picture which shows Severide next to Shay. We get a somber look from Severide and emotional music. At night (I don't know which night, is it the next day? Who knows.) Severide is at Molly's with the other guys and way too drunk again. Sylvie arrives and it gets super awkward when Severide touches her face and her hair and goes "It's crazy, right? I mean, I can't be the only one who sees that." Herrmann is clearly uncomfortable and Sylvie is just confused. Severide changes topics and orders more drinks but Herrmann tells him he's had enough. It gets so sad because the music is kinda sad and Herrmann is really worried and tells him he's had enough to drink and Sylvie wants to get him a cab and at the same time, Severide is like "Come on you guys, I'm having fun". It's like... he's the only one that doesn't see how much he's actually hurting. Or maybe he is but he's trying real hard to push that feeling aside. I just wanna hug him. Next day back at the station, Herrmann asks Casey if Severide is still living with them and says that Severide had been sleeping at the station again, second time this week. The final scene of the episode is between Severide and Lindsay. Apparently, they were supposed to go out together but Severide didn't show up because he was getting drunk at a bar. Lindsay tells him that she'll be there for him as a friend and that she's been where he is. Kelly tears up and goes "She was- she was my best friend" god I'm crying again. They hug and it's the first time we see his actual feelings in this episode.

3x03: Molina from another firehouse is at the hospital badly injured after a crash between 51 and their firehouse. It's bad. Severide is the only one who doesn't go inside the hospital. "I can't do another funeral for a line-of-duty death, man. I just can't." It's just a short scene but really heavy. Last time he was at a hospital, Shay died. There was also this scene where Boden mentions that Severide goes on 48-hour-blackouts after his shifts which sounds like this is new and Shay related. But I'm not sure I understood it right.

3x04: We're on episode four already. Most tv shows have already forgotten about the characters they just killed off, Shay's death is different. Severide is at a bar again, having drinking contests with some random dudes. Apparently, he's had six drinks. The bar keeper won't let him drive home, so he takes the subway. There's a shooting and he chooses to dive right into it. He rescues a woman and comes up with an idea and she's wondering if he's a doctor and he goes "My best friend was a paramedic. She drilled this kind of stuff into me." "Amen to her." Shaaay <3 "Kelly Severide doesn't seem to be in a place where he can offer much help", Boden just said to Mills because Mills asked him if Severide had mentioned his situation to Boden as Severide had offered to help him out. Boden later talks to Severide about how he's been handling everything and whatnot "I know that losing Shay was hard but do you really think this is how she'd want you to get past it?" "Please don't" ugh <3 Basically, Boden tells him to get beyond this and get better if he wants to keep his job. A while later, Casey tells Severide that he doesn't care what he does after his shifts but that people in this house count on him. "You know what I can count on? Nothing, no one." God it's killing me. Back at their home, Dawson and Casey talk about Severide. "How bad is it?" "He's slipping away." We see Severide who goes to the hospital the woman from before was treated. He talks to Kendra who says "We all miss Leslie so much" I know me too bb. God, it hurts. Me as a viewer am hurting and this is such good storytelling because they aren't just ignoring Shay's death and moving on, they are dealing with it. At the end of the episode, Severide and Casey enjoy a cigar together. First, Casey talks about losing Hallie, about how he's still grieving and then how Severides needs this house. Ugh I wanna hug him. Last scene is between the woman from earlier and Severide. She brings him cake. "I need to meet this paramedic friend of yours." "Uh, she's actually, um... She's dead." "I'm sorry. ... She's here. I can feel her." Where are my tissues?

3x05: Severide is at work, hungover, puking. A little while later, the other guys at the fire house mention how he's looking for drinking buddies the next night. "in the wake of Shay's death" I'm too lazy to type up the whole conversation but Boden just mentioned Shay to Herrmann. At the end of the episode, Severide is at Molly's drinking with some guys from work, he suggests a Vegas weekend.

3x06: After a call where a mother lost her child (child protective services) Sylvie wants to help the mother but Severide is pretty harsh and tells both of them that their job ends on the scene and that Sylvie shouldn't follow up. It's weird and you don't really understand what it's about (well, I didn't). Until Sylvie confronts Severide and he goes "Shay got overly invested with someone she met on a call. Guy ends up blowing his brains out. You never know what's really going on." So, at the end of the episode, Severide is in Vegas on his Vegas trip, alone because everyone else had canceled. He meets a woman and they kiss and ah I just remember this vividly but she had also lost someone recently and they both kinda help each other get over it?

3x07: Severide tells the group about Brittany (that was her name), I had already forgotten that they actually got married lmfao. The team is... slightly confused but (pretending) to be happy for him. They acknowledge that he's happy but... Boden and Herrmann talk, Boden goes "Who has his ear? Who can get through to him?" and Herrmann looks all sad and says "Shay". Brb sobbing. Friendly reminder that we're on episode 7, six episodes after Shay's death, and she's still mentioned and they are still dealing with her death unlike Chicago PD other shows where a main character can lose their daughter and be okay the next episode (yes, still bitter). Later, everyone meets Brittany. Dawson and Severide talk, Dawson goes "Hey, are you okay?" "Yeah, I'm better than okay, I'm great." "It just seems like ever since- ever since Shay died, you've been avoiding..:" "Why can't you just be happy that I'm happy, Dawson?" "cause I'm not sure that you are happy. And I think- I think maybe that you're hiding and I know that Shay wouldn't want that for you." "Yeah? You think she'd want you putting your wedding on hold forever?" "No, that's completely different." "Look, some people, they get married when they know it's right, however quick it is, and some people, they put it off. Maybe you're doing what's right for you and Matt. Just, before you accuse anyone of hiding, check and make sure you're not doing that yourself." I need a minute. At the end of the episode, we see Brittany and Severide outside a bar, Brittany had been crying and goes "Sorry, it just hits me sometimes" "I know. Me too." "You saved my life, you know that?" "We saved each other." I'm not sure they both understand how lucky they are. They both found exactly what they needed at this point in their lives. I haven't see the rest of that storyline yet (last time was years ago, so I don't remember too well), so I guess I'll write more on that when I get to it.

3x08: There's only a little Shay reference by the end of the episode. But I'll have to start at the beginning. There's this huge helicopter crash and everything is crazy. Brittany texts Severide several times but he doesn't reply cause he's on shift. She even shows up at the scene and asks about him. We later see she's been texting 37 times. Severide and Brittany have this huge fight about how she can't just show up at a scene and how everyone else's wives don't do that, either. They quickly make up and after their makeup-sex, they are in bed and Brittany explains how her sister died in an accident a while ago and how she needs to remind herself of that and how no one understands it like Severide. Severide glances sadly into the distance and looks at a framed photo of him and Shay (he's living with Casey and Dawson, so when he moved in, he actually put up a photo of him and Shay, I need a minute).

3x09: Brittany visits Severide at work because 24 hours without him are too long. "I don't think I've seen any pictures of Shay." "Down at the end of the hall." "Will you show me?" They head to her picture. "You never talk about her." "You never talk about Kathleen." Ah, Severide, avoiding the topic again. Later, he shows Brittany around and goes "I learned as much about protecting people from Shay as I did from any instructor at the academy. ... That's her badge." We see her badge. 6827. Darden's is there as well. "Shay was intense. She'd do anything to protect the people she loved." "I wish I had known her." "Me too." God I wanna bawl my eyes out because I miss her so much and her death actually hurts. "I wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for you. I couldn't even come down here to see this until now." At the end of the episode, they are at Molly's and Brittany says that she needs to go home. "Before I met you, I was doing whatever I could to keep Shay out of my head. Went out drinking and partying every night. That was my escape. But then I met you. And the thing I realized is... I'm your escape. And as long as you're here with me, you're not gonna go home and face your family. But that's the only way you're gonna get through this." Later: "I don't know if I'd be in one piece today if I didn't come home from Vegas with you." THis is so huge. Like, admitting that he was so close to just breaking. And how badly he struggled with Shay's death. Okay, the episode is over and the Brittany thing is official over now, I guess. So let me just write a paragraph on that. I think they both really helped each other and it was supposed to happen exactly like that. They basically were on the same page and openly talked about it when they weren't anymore and when they were able to talk about it. They both had lost a loved one and were struggling to deal with it. Like Severide said - he didn't know if he'd be in one piece today if he hadn't met Brittany because he'd been in a downward spiral and Brittany helped him get out. It basically was the same for her as well, only that he needed to get away with him in order to face reality back home. Both were really lucky because they met the person that could help them but it wasn't toxic or anything. Severide's grieving process was supposed to exactly happen the way it did - hit rock bottom first and then get better with the help of someone until he was able to help himself. I don't know, I think their relationship was beautiful and meaningful. They both were on the same page and needed the other. I'm not sure how the fandom thinks about this storyline but I liked it, even though I rolled my eyes plenty of times because their love was just too much for me. Anyway, we're in episode 9 and I'd say that Severide is over Shay's death now which doesn't mean that he won't grieve anymore but he can grieve healthily now, if that makes sense.

3x10: I’m expecting a lot less Shay references from now on because Severide is doing so much better than a few episodes ago. It’s nothing, but we briefly see something on the wall (idk how to call it) that says “Ambulance 61″ and Shay’s and Dawson’s names are written on it. It’s like a badge.

3x11: Oh my God I’m screaming. At the end of the episode, Dawson, Casey and Severide find a newspaper article on the fire that killed Shay. “Paramedic killed in fiery inferno”. There’s even a picture of Shay and it says that she was 35. I’m pretty sure the episode continues on PD but let me check. This timelime is pure gold for that. Huh, it doesn’t really say anything about a two-parter - just that this is part 2 and 3x10 is part 1 (with Mills and Brett being abducted). And 2x11 of Chicago PD is about something else. Huh. Well, I guess I’ll find out when I continue with 3x12.

3x12: We see the newspaper article again, you can read it if you pause the stream. Doctor Arata treated Shay, they tried to revive her but her injuries were too severe. Boden described Shay as an exemplary paramedic. “Leslie Shay made the ultimate sacrifice and will never be forgotten. The pain felt by those of us lucky enough to work alongside her is immeasurable.” brb sobbing. Oh and then it says that people brought over gifts and flowers and meals for “the grieving firefighters who describe Leslie Shay as not just a co-worker and friend, but as a sister and a hero.” And another article with a line that I don’t get: “Paramedic Leslie Shay, 35, suffered a severe blow to the head as he worked to save an unidentified person in the warehouseblabla”. He? Is that a typo? lol “That’s what the Chaplain told me after Shay died”, Dawson just said (I’m too lazy to go back a few seconds but it was about how one life isn’t more worth than another). Severide takes Dawson with him to the place “where Shay died”. Severide tells her that she should just say it if she’s not ready to go there yet. Well, anyone asking if I’M ready to go there??? “This is where we were”. Dawson has teary eyes while looking down where you can still see the marks of a body. She starts crying, Severide touches the floor and I, well, am a mess. Dawson tells Severide that they switched places because she wanted to show Shay that Shay could do it without her. “She was my partner for 5.5 years and his best friend”. Godddd I just wanna sob forever, her death is one of the worst character deaths ever. “He was there for me when I needed him”, Dawson just said this about the Chaplain who was there for her after Shay died. By the end of the episode, Dawson and Severide find evidence for the fire being arson and thus Shay being murdered and the murderer still running free.

3x13: Megan, Shay’s sister, visits 51. Goddd this whole episode is so emotional and painful, how do I get through it. .. it’s strange to think about her name being Megan Shay. Like, Shay is their last name (if she isn’t married that is) but Leslie Shay was always called  Shay, so this is her name. Megan stays with Dawson and Brett and at night, they drink wine together and talk about Shay. They share a funny story and then it gets all sad and emotional “God, I miss her”. Ugh me too. Megan joins Brett and Mills on a call where someone attacks Sylvie with a knife (she’s not hurt though) and she’s freaked out because she realizes how dangerous Shay’s job was and how Shay never talked to her about it. There’s this super intense scene where Severide and the Captain working Shay’s case meet the possible arsonist on the street. He tells Severide how it was a shame that a paramedic died and how her name was Shay and that she was so pretty and photogenic. Severide just stares at him and wants to follow him when the guy turned around. Ah it’s so intense because you’re just waiting for Severide to punch him. Back at the station, Herrmann shows Megan around and gets so emotional when talking about Shay. “We miss her, Megan. She was the heartbeat of... We all move on, right? But we never forget. Not a girl like Shay.” God it’s so emotional because Herrmann is so quiet and emotional and that just speaks for itself.  There’s this memorial service for Shay at the station where the writing on the ambo (which apparently still exists today) is revealed. God I’ll just sob my way through it. “There are no words that can fill the whole she left.” gross sobbing. 2014. That’s 8 years ago but it still hurts so much. Dawson says a few words. Earlier, Boden asked Severide to say a few words and he agreed, but he didn’t say a thing here. God, this memorial service is so emotional, I’m just in tears. The episode ends with Gabby calling her brother because they won’t investigate Shay’s death any further, so she’s hoping that Antonio can do something about it. Now this is the episode that continues on Chicago PD, 2x13. Well, I guess that’s what I’m gonna watch next.

3x14: At the beginning of the episode they briefly tell us what happened on PD - that the arsonist was caught but killed. I watched the episode - Dawson, Megan and Boden appeared, Kelly unfortunately didn’t. “just like Shay” - the Captain just mentioned Shay quickly when talking to Severide about how people could’ve been killed if they had stood a few inches elsewhere. “Don’t. Don’t use her name like that.” Ugh yes, Severide being protective <3. The Hawaiian themed party. Wasn’t there a backstage shot of Lauren German and Taylor Kinney dressed to the theme? That’s the one I was talking about. Plus, I went throught he Lauren German tag on my blog and there’s images of Lauren reuniting with Taylor in 2019 and also some reunions with Monica and ugh do I miss them all together. Back to the party. “I’m sorry about Shay” - that was the chick, the Captain, I don’t know what her actual function or name is or whatever but she was there during the arsonist storyline. “She would’ve loved this.” Oh yes she would’ve. At the end of the episode, Severide takes a dvd from his dvd box (there’s many more, so care to watch another one of those soon, Severide?) and watches a video with Shay where they are celebrating Cinqo de Mayo and making drinks. Ugh this scene killed me once more. (plus the scene of Boden’s dad dying but that’s another story).

3x19: We didn’t get a Shay reference for a while which is fine because the grief storyline is over, but we do see the writing on the ambo every now and then. 3x19 is the episode that serves as backdoor pilot for Med. It’s funny to see the Med characters on Fire and to see who actually made it on the show (there’s a Hannah Tramble who never appeared on Med iirc). It’s ironic how they also struggle with flu patients and someone blew himself up who said that he had something that was worse than Ebola. Well. This just seems so ironic in 2022, who would’ve thought back then. Severide was badly injured during the explosion (he was the one to take down the guy), Will even wanted to black tag him. As Severide is being treated, he hears Shay’s voice (”Kelly!” and “That we promise to be there for each other, always, no matter what.”) and sees her beautiful face. Ugh it’s killing me. He crashes shortly after and they have to intubate but then he’s stable for now. He later sees Shay again, there’s several images of her just flashing through and he hears her laugh.

3x20: Severide is being released from the hospital where he sees Dawson and Brett who just finished a call. They tell him about this crazy call and Dawson goes “Shay would’ve loved that” to which Severide replies “Yeah. She would have.” Guys, I wasn’t ready for this reference, I thought 3x19 was the last piece of reference we’d get this season.

3x21: “This reminds me of Darryl and Shay.” Dawson just mentioned Shay when she talked to Boden about a guy from a call who might be suicidal because he feels responsible for the fire he started but he doesn’t know that it wasn’t his fault.

... those are all the times that Shay was mentioned on the show in season 3 or that her death was dealt with. I basically spent the first half of the season crying non-stop but I think they wrapped up her death very well. They didn’t just move on. They let us (and the characters) grieve. Heck, they even gave her a permanent memorial by having her name written on the ambulance. I don’t watch the show anymore, but there have been references to her in later seasons as well. I like that :’)

[llovelykenobi]

In case anyone wasn’t already aware, @fahrenheit39 is literally the Roger to my Freddie

[innosen]

unprompted asks / always and forever accepting ! 

@taskfocused​​ said:  what kind of universes in literature she's read that she wants to live in? and how do you think will she live in that kind of world/universe? what is a world/universe that she definitely does not want to live in no matter what? and why?

it’s    chihiro’s    dream    to    walk    around    a    fancy    castle    with    perhaps    a    princess    or    a    prince    friend    by    her    side    !    while    she’d    find    it    super    cool    to    be    a    princess    herself,    she’d    be    content    to    have    a    princess    or    a    prince    as    a    friend.    she’d    want    to    know    how    they’d    live    their    daily    lives,    she’d    want    to    try    out    tea    parties    with    them,    hide    as    undercover    citizens    to    visit    gardens    or    marketplaces    with    them    /    avoiding    royal    guards    along    the    way    ,    and    the    like.    she’d    like    to    experience    what    a    fancy/royal    living    is    like.    

if    there    was    any    world/universe    she    definitely    does    not    want    to    live    in,    it    would    be    those    scary    apocalyptic    worlds    you’d    see    in    horror    movies.    she’s    absolutely    scared    of    having    monsters    or    zombies    chase    her    /    hurt    her    family    and    friends.        additionally    ,    she    absolutely    has    no    idea    how    she    would    survive    in    such    a    world.    she    wouldn’t    know    what    to    do    first,    who    to    call    first,    and    what    to    prepare    if    something    like    those    movies    would    happen.    

[nitasilmey]

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Aku ingat 3-4 tahun lalu saat aku mulai inisiatif nabung lembaran 20 ribu. Itu banyak yaaaaa dengan penghasilanku yang kalau ditotal cuma sekitar dua setengah juta, bayar kos sendiri, makan sendiri, bensin sendiri, lalu kalau dapet 20 ribuan harus dimasukkin celengan pula. Kadang sakit hati kalau dapat kembalian dua lembar 20 ribuan 🤣 tapi seneng juga karena celengannya mulai terasa padat.

Tapi emang dasarnya orang miskin ya, begitu celengan penuh ya langsung dijebol buat beli sesuatu. Nggak bisa gitu punya tabungan yang awet buat dana cadangan apalagi investasi kwkw. Alhamdulillah dengan tabungan 20 ribuan sudah kebeli HP Android 2x dan laptop seken RAM 4GB.

Laptopnya masih awet sampe sekarang, ditempelin stiker jiyuu no tsubasa. Kadang suka mbatin coba dulu duitnya nggak ngepas banget ya mungkin bisa dapet yang speknya lebih bagusan, yang desainnya lebih ramping dan enteng. Sekarang umpamanya mau ganti laptop yang bagusan sih bisa bisa aja, nggak perlu bobol celengan juga.

Tapi ya buat apa, ini juga masih ada :)

Entahlah mungkin karena terbiasa susah kali ya jadi rasanya mental juga tahan banting sama keadaan dan barang-barang seadanya. Kadang takut zhalim juga sama diri sendiri (karena sebenernya mampu tapi sayang aja gitu beli baru), tapi nggak sih, insya Allah belum di tahap yang nyiksa diri sendiri gitu, I know my limit.

Sepekan lalu aku cerita dikit-dikit tentang motor seken baruku (motornya seken tapi baru beli paham lah ya) ke someone. Aku nggak cerita duluan, dia yang nanya, setelah selesai ceritanya dia nanya lagi: apa rasanya beli motor sendiri?

Kwkw pertanyaan apaan tuh, aku jawab sambil nyengir "ya biasa aja sih, motor yang sebelumnya kan juga beli sendiri, seken juga, ini udah kedua kali, nggak gimana-gimana"

Sebenernya beli yang pertama juga nggak gimana-gimana.

Responnya: "gila sih lo keren banget, bayangin coba, beli motor sendiri!!"

Nggak, aku nggak geer dipuji begitu, aku kan emang beli apa-apanya sendiri, and has been like that for seven years 😭 there's always a struggle behind me buying something, kwkwkwk.

Cuma aku tetep bersyukur, aku termasuk yang Allah kasih kemudahan untuk menjalani hidup. Entah ya orang melihatnya gimana, aku sendiri merasa sangat cukup.

Tapi bohong sih kalau dibilang aku nggak kepengen apa-apa lagi, ya honestly aku mau punya rumah sendiri buat naro buku-bukuku yang udah nggak ketampung lagi, ruang belajar yang lega, mobil buat kabur ke pegunungan kalau lagi galau, apalagi ya, udah kayanya sih.

Cuma segitu aja kepengenku ya Lord emang dasar orang miskin, bahkan nghayal aja nggak bisa tinggi-tinggi karena pengetahuanku terhadap luxury things cuma sampai situ 🤣

Kemarin malam aku nemu diagram tingkatan jam tangan mewah kwkwkw bahkan Rolex dan Mont Blanc yang gue rasa merk mahal banget baru nyampe tingkat high belum prestige. Lalu tadi siang nemu lagi tingkatan brand mewah; Gucci, Prada, itu cuma accessible core shaaay, di tingkat teratas ada Leviev dan Graff. Asli, kalo nggak karena Netflix buat dokumenter tentang Simon Leviev kayanya sampe mati juga gue bakal ignorant sama merk Leviev.

Makanya lucu banget manusia kalau sombong tuh, padahal di atas Gucci masih ada Leviev. Padahal di atas bumi masih ada langit, lalu masih ada atmosfer dan galaksi. Yang bisa manusia sombongkan ya sesuatu yang sebenarnya masih dalam limit manusia itu sendiri. Dan malu-maluin banget kalau limitnya cuma sebatas iPhone tapi sombongnya ke mana-mana 🤣

Nanti di surga akan ada kenikmatan yang tidak pernah dilihat mata dan tidak pernah terbayangkan di pikiran. We thought we, humans, know everything. Tapi Allah yang tak terbatas ilmu dan kekuasaannya sudah menyiapkan sesuatu yang bahkan manusia boro-boro punya, tahu aja nggak. Allah pun mampu menyiapkan lebih dari itu. Milky Way berisi 8 planet: 1 berhasil ditaklukkan, sisanya misteri. Sementara itu di luar sana ada 2 miliar galaksi lainnya, entah berapa triliun planet lagi, bahkan tidak semuanya terdeteksi satelit, we just know they are there. We just know we have our limit to reach them.

Limit. We are full of limits.

3 tahun lalu limitku mentok di empat juta, aku nggak bisa beli laptop yang lebih mahal dari itu, bahkan meskipun cuma nambah 50 ribu. Hari ini, well, alhamdulillah jauh lebih banyak, tapi ya belum apa-apa juga, semoga limitku nggak turun lagi.

Semoga apa yang terbatas ini selalu Allah ridhai dan berkahi. Limit is just a number btw, kalau Allah tanamkan kecukupan di hati angka-angka itu tidak berarti :)

[sunaluvs]

Shaaay, congrats on your competition! What was it about? 👀

thank u so much lovely 🥺💘 it was trivia-based with topics from biology, chemistry, physics, calculus, & history!

[martinnecas]

Don’t ever accidentally send @bradkeselowski a screenshot with your address because she’s too nice and will send you something for your birthday

Don’t ever accidentally send @chaseelliott a screenshot with your address because she’s too nice and will send you something for your bday 😭😭😭

[btsqualityy]

shaaay i was reading that drabble anon of jin and reader's first sleepover because it makes me so soft, I was wondering if jin also goes to yn's house? has he ever slept there or does she always stay at his place?

He does! Her place is a little smaller so she prefers to stay at Jin’s but they used to go back and forth 😌

[bi-aragorn]

Shaaay 💕

HI JOOOO <3

[sphericalcrush]

Sibuklah menjaga akidah dengan terus memperbaiki diri dan relasi. Karena Allah akan menghadirkan seorang yang tidak hanya membersamaimu namun juga menghadirkan dirinya untuk keluargamu. Karena menikah bukan hanya soal pasangan namun memperpanjang tali persaudaraan berbalut kuatnya keimanan.

Sefruit pemikiran. Kalo nggak nyaman sama keluarganya, diri kita nggak mampu adjust atau menjadi bagian yg keluarga calon butuhkan. Yaa usaha lebih dong shaaay. Jangan menyerah.

[shayochism-moved2]

@magma-mouse​ appeared:

"Shaaay!" Kiwi is gonna run over and give her a hug. She missed her friend as well.

     “And jus’ where ‘ave  you beeeeeen?”

     She’s hugged. She doesn’t mind too much.

[tallskinnyvanillalatte]

1x11 of Chicago Fire always makes me so emotional. Shay just got taken to the hospital and Kelly arrives a second later. Like, he’s the first one to get there. He made sure to get there as fast as he could when he heard what happened. And then he’s in tears because he doesn’t know how bad it is. God I love their friendship so much, he cares about her so much.

“You really scared me, girl. Don’t do it again.” Ugh I’m already feeling the pain of the season 2 finale.

“You’re my girl. You know that?” God if there’s anything I  miss about watching Chicago Fire, it’s Herrmann and Cindy ugh I miss them.

“I really don’t know what I would’ve done if anything happened to you.” God I just wanna bawl my eyes out because of what happens in 1.5 seasons.

[llovelykenobi]

But the fact that Rami emphasized the lisp with Josh....he is dedicated af to his work, no matter what it is💕💕

Oh my god absolutely Rami Malek is a national treasure and no one will ever convince me otherwise

[destiniesincorrectquotes]

Aerin: Shay, I need to talk to you.

Shay, reading: No, go away.

Aerin: It's important.

Shay: I don't care.

Charlie: Shaaay!

Shay: Leave me alone.

Roman: Could you listen to us for just a moment damn it!

Shay, turning a page: No thank you.

Audrey and Tae, hesitantly: Uh, Shay?

Shay, immediately looks up: Do you two need something? Are either of you hungry? Do you need me to get you something? I could do it, seeing as I'm not busy right now.

Everyone: .....