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[imthxtgood]

Sorry For Your Loss 01x03: 'Jackie O. & Courtney Love.'

[writing-house-of-m]

Playing Games & Mischief

Leigh Shaw x GN!Reader

Summary: Leigh's sleep talking has you wondering what she could have been dreaming about

A/N: I only got this request when I asked for some ideas last week, which I'm actually grateful for lol Here you go anon, I hope you like it. It is very cute in my opinion 😌 but let me know what you all think!

You have been wanting to see Leigh all day, she was already gone when you woke up this morning. There has been something you wanted to ask her since you woke up in the middle of the night last night. 

Something you think will embarrass Leigh which means you have to mention it for your own entertainment. 

The sound of the front door opening and the rustling of bags indicate Leigh is finally home. ‘Finally!’ You think. You have had to wait for her all day (a few hours). 

Sneaking into the kitchen you quietly walk up behind Leigh and wrap your arms around her, your voice is low when you speak. "Hello wife," you say, pressing a kiss on Leigh's neck. 

You don't think you will ever tire of saying that - 'wife'. 

Leigh greets you back and when you look up to see the full grocery bags she turns her head to peck you on the cheek. She busies herself with emptying the contents of said bags. 

After you place another peck on Leigh's shoulder you pull away giving her some space to continue with what she is doing. 

You stand by her side leaning against the counter and crossing your arms over your chest.

"Mrs Leigh Shaw, my love, my wife, the eternal light of my life." Leigh raises an eyebrow at your antics wondering where this is going to go. “I have a question for you.” 

You don't wait for a response and continue, "Does 'You did some bad things, but I'm the worst of them' sound familiar to you?" You ask. 

Leigh squints her eyes at you confused. 

To clarify, you add sweetly, "What were you dreaming about last night, love?" While grinning. 

It's quick, and if you were anyone else they would not have seen it. There is the briefest look of realisation on your wife's face before she schools her features once more. 

And even though you know she knows you can catch her in a lie, she still chooses to withhold the truth from you. 

"I don't know what you're talking about, babe." Leigh grins back then turns around to walk to one of the cabinets to put some cans of food away. Purposely looking away from you because she doesn't want you to see the sheepish look on her face. 

Oh, she wants to play. Time for a little fun. 

"Sometimes I wonder which one will be your last lie,” your grin widens as you raise an eyebrow. 

Leigh makes her way back to stand next to you seemingly unaffected. 

Being with Leigh for so long means you know all the right buttons to press. So the tone of voice you use is one you know will get a reaction out of her. 

You lean in close, one hand leaning against the counter, the other going to the small of Leigh's back while you speak low, “You know, I know when you're lying. Why must we play these games, Mrs Shaw?” 

Leigh glances over at you from the corner of her eye then sighs, resting her hands on the flat surface in what you think is defeat. 

You're so close to her now you can practically feel the effect you have on her especially with your voice teasing Leigh right by her ear, "Tell me love, what was it you were dreaming about?" 

Leigh turns her head to you, your lips inches apart. You twitch your eyebrow while biting your bottom lip ready for Leigh to fall victim to your charm. 

What you don't expect is for Leigh to reverse the roles. 

"What if I say I was dreaming about you?" It's Leigh's turn to raise her eyebrows and bite her lip. 

"I had you in the palm of my hand,” she narrates sultrily, hand on your chest to push you so that your back is pressed against the edge of the counter. “And you just wanted to," Leigh's hand slowly makes its way up your bicep,"touch me." She finishes as her hands glide up your neck and rest there.

Goosebumps flair on your skin as you sigh, affected by how close she is, her breath brushing your lips. Your eyelids droop as she takes hold of your stings and plays you like a puppet. 

This is not going how you thought it would. 

"Then what happened," you whisper. You're surprised you even get the words out with the way her fingers play with the hairs at the nape of your neck.

"And then," she pushes her body, if possible, even closer to yours. Her soft edges mould perfectly to you while your arms catch up to the instructions your brain is sending out to wrap around her waist. You feel heat radiating from your cheeks and the tips of your ears when she brushes her nose against yours. 

When she leans in, “And then…” you blink slowly waiting for the gap to close. But Leigh pulls away, "And then I woke up!" She slaps your cheek twice then heads out of the kitchen, leaving you standing there in a dumbfounded mess. 

"You can finish with the groceries, I'm going to go shower," Leigh says, her voice bright. She pauses at the doorway to look over her shoulder at you. You, with your wide eyed, mouth agape look of despair, "love." Then proceeds to walk away. 

You rub the back of your neck while you scrunch your eyebrows together, "What just happened?" You sigh to yourself, looking at the items that still need to be put away. Your brain then slowly catches up with the fact you had just been played. 

Freezing for a second, it hits you. What she instructed. And where she is going. 

You scoff as a smirk takes over your face and before you know it you're racing off in the direction your wife just went, "Leigh Shaw, you're going to regret that!" 

When Leigh hears your footsteps closing in on her she tries to run away but you are too quick for her. Leigh shrieks when your arms wrap around her, capturing her like prey. 

You both fall into a fit of laughter stopping a few feet from the bathroom. Turning Leigh around in your arms, she buries her face in your neck to avoid looking at you, playing coy. 

"Nuh uh, let me see those pretty eyes, baby," you say, using your hand to guide her face away from its hiding place. 

When her green eyes meet yours your smile is automatic. You swear you see them sparkle with how much they seem to be shining at this moment. The sparkle you initially think is admiration turns out to be mischief. 

She raises an eyebrow, "So, how exactly am I going to regret my actions?" Leigh asks cheekily. 

"Let's just say, 'You did some bad things, but I'm going to be the worst one of them'." You mock Leigh with her own words from last night, making yourself chuckle. 

In response Leigh rolls her eyes, pushing your shoulder. 

Shortly after, the mischievous look takes over her face once again, "I want to know how you're going to punish me." 

That damn lip bite is going to be the death of you, but this time you are not going to let her win. 

You lift her up with ease and lean in close, your lips barely grazing hers to say, "Oh, I have a few ideas," before closing the gap between you and making your way to the bathroom. 

[therunawaykind]

don't wanna break up again

Pairing: Leigh Shaw x GN!Reader

Word Count: 3.8k

Genre: Pinch of angst? fluff

Warnings: None unless you hate the names Leigh & Danny in the same sentence quite a bit

A/N: Long time no see! (again) writer's block and just simply getting the inspiration and motivation to write have been fucking dreadful these last few months. I dunno what was going on. Hopefully, all things going well this is my slow return to posting regularly again on here. If not then whoops you'll see me again at some stage. Who would've thought Leigh Shaw and Ariana Granda was gonna be my breakthrough for writing stuff not me that's for sure. This is my very loose interpretation of Ariana Grande's 'don't wanna break up again' I saw someone say it was very Leigh x Danny coded then this transpired. I hope I have done this some justice I imagine my writing abilities are a bit rusty so bear with me and I hope you all enjoy!

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If there was one thing Leigh was certain of since Matt’s death it was how complicated and difficult her life had become, ranging from devastating revelations to do with Matt and his teacher co-worker Nina, living with a Jules who is now a recovering sober alcoholic, dealing with her mother Amy with her previous breakdown she had where she moved to Alaska which subsequently led to her breakthrough of wanting to travel and basically just live somewhere else that wasn’t in Los Angeles, that wasn’t home.

In addition to that after Leigh’s breakdown after choosing to leave with Jules to go to Vietnam, she ultimately decided just to stay living in their family home whilst both Jules and her mother left for however long they decided. Leigh also decided to take over Beautiful Beast for Jules until she was ready to come back…if she ever did but nonetheless she couldn’t let all of Jules’ hard work go to waste. And last but not least the absolute travesty that of her and Danny whatever that thing is, it’s complicated, messy and above all else unhealthy all over for the both of them. Not to delve too much into the ups and downs of their….thing the latest situation ended up with Danny punching a hole in the wall of Leigh’s home, to sum it up in a simple phrase “People don’t slam their fists through walls when things are going well.”

The one positive and healthy yet still slightly complicated thing in Leigh’s life which happened unexpectedly was well… Y/N. Granted one of the only aspects that made it complicated was the fact you were her “student”, you both met due to you attending Leigh’s classes at Beautiful Beast, the friendship, and conversations which ended up evolving into more flirtatious conversations did just happen out of nowhere unexpectedly. The downfall of the whole friendship between you both was when Danny surprised Leigh at the entrance of Beautiful Beast one night to take her home…then you caught Danny kissing her which again took Leigh by surprise. That night and predicament in question had truly shocked Leigh because from what she knew and understood during that time, it was during one of her and Danny’s off moments, their pause a break essentially.

But in good Leigh fashion the second she saw Danny she started overthinking and thought she interpreted something wrong or missed a certain something, whilst simultaneously thinking this was Danny offering an olive branch and showing her they really can make this work, they can be good and healthy for each other….how wrong she was. So understandably from then on you started to distance yourself and pull away from Leigh after that by not talking, hanging out or texting as much. Unbeknownst to Leigh any hope you had of having some sort of relationship with her plummeted very quickly after that. 

Leigh knew whatever they had going on wasn’t good for either of them and would never last, it was a cycle they couldn’t break….well she couldn’t break. It was a lifeline for them both, the last small bit of connection they both had to Matt in some way. On one hand, Leigh had this negative and toxic relationship that she couldn’t leave, she couldn’t escape it. Somehow it always kept dragging her back in no matter how many times night and day it had her distraught, crying and attempting to soothe herself. On the other hand, Leigh had this seemingly hopeful, positive and healthy relationship she could have with you.

But before she even tried to give that relationship a chance she had to try to get out of this fucking cycle she couldn’t seem to get out of and no matter how hard she tried. Whenever she asked Jules for advice on the relationship, much to nobody's surprise always went something like this. 

“Leigh you need to end this thing with Danny and go no contact with him at least for some time, this is not healthy for either of you. I mean come on Leigh he punched a hole in the wall at our house. Let me remind you when I was living with you Leigh after mom left, just how many times I’d hear quiet sobs from your room, you talking to yourself to make yourself feel better and reassure yourself everything was going to be okay, that everything was gonna be fine. And I couldn’t get in because 1. You’d lock the door, 2. You wouldn’t respond when I asked if you were okay and lastly, when you did,  you’d just say you were fine, you were okay. Once one of you starts to feel happier and healthier the other drags the other one down simply just by being around.

I know you don’t want to go through another break-up or heartbreak….but you’re doing it to yourself constantly by staying in this with Danny or maybe…. You keep going back to this thing with Danny because you don’t want to hurt him and his heart completely. And if you do fully disappear from his life because to him you're his last link to Matt and right now you know full well you are leading him on and have him believing you two can have some semblance of a future together no matter how complicated it may be. I know this is a weird way to word it but… I think you know Matt wouldn’t want or like Danny to be experiencing this level of hurt and anguish as much as he is, not even specifically with you just with anyone.

But let’s not forget just how much you did hurt Danny initially when he was staying away from you and you wouldn’t let it happen. You forced your way into his life because you needed him to love you. Who knows maybe some ways down the line in the future when you’re both fully healed or at least somewhat…you two can be friends and have that last link to Matt. But also do remember that doesn’t mean you have to stop contact with Matt’s mother…. You can still have a link to him in some shape and form.”

That’s what she’d deal with, she knew and understood completely what Jules was saying yet she couldn’t bring herself to do it….unfortunately. She wishes Danny would end up being the person to end it but the chances of that happening are slim to none. But with the possibilities that awaited her on the other side of things…she knew what she had to do, end things with Danny then she had to get the friendship with Y/N back to what it was, and she had to show you that you weren't going to be just some rebound, that she saw a future with this relationship she saw it going the distance. 

When she thought about the aspects of the relationship she had with Y/N the only way Leigh could describe how she felt…was how she felt when she was with Matt. With you, it finally felt like Leigh had gotten the best and good part of herself back that as Leigh put it Matt had taken with him when he died. It felt like she could finally breathe again and live her life to the fullest. Fortunately for Leigh yet quite sadly when the friendship between you both was at its best Matt left her alone, and Leigh’s recurring what she would consider nightmares of Matt and Nina living out the life she lived with him finally stopped.

Now all she had to do was start the process and uncomplicate her life which starts with talking to Danny.

As Leigh anxiously approaches the door to the apartment she knows so well, she nervously wrings out her hands and fingers. She had texted Danny the night before asking him if would it be okay for her to visit in the morning to talk to him, as Danny eagerly agreed to her calling over she realised at that very moment he was expecting a very different conversation. She hesitantly starts knocking on the door muttering to herself “You can do this, you can do this. You have to do this for yourself, Danny and everyone else in your life but most importantly you and Danny.” After a few seconds, shuffling could be heard behind the door as Leigh took a deep breath in, in an attempt to calm herself down and get all of her feelings under control.

Once the door opened a weak nervous smile spread across her face, Leigh quickly scans Danny trying to figure out how he really is, as she sees him start to step out and lean in to give her a quick kiss but before anything of the sort can happen Leigh quickly steps in and gives him a quick hug as she states “so is it alright for me to come in?” as she smiles quickly at him. Danny’s face scrunches up in confusion as Leigh quickly pats his stomach as she steps past him into his apartment, he lets out an exasperated sigh and throws his head back slightly and he turns around to walk into his apartment closing the door behind him. 

When Danny finally turns to face Leigh he can’t help but notice her looking around his apartment and the constant nervous fidgeting with her fingers, her hair and her neck. He sighs to himself “Alright Leigh what is this about you said you wanted to talk.” 

Leigh jumps slightly as she spins around to face him “ I- well- yeah you’re right I did, I did.” rubbing her now sweaty palms off of the side of her jeans and slowly sits herself down on Danny's sofa. Taking a deep breath in and bringing her hands up to her mouth “I- I can imagine from the way I’m acting and just how difficult it is for me to start this conversation and say what I actually want to….that you already know what this conversation is about and where it’s heading.” Hearing a quiet sigh beside her Leigh glances quickly out the side of her eye seeing Danny leaning forward slightly with his head down and forearms leaning on his knees. “But Danny this thing has to be stopped, I- we’re both hurting each other continuously whether we realise it or not. I mean need I remind ourselves of the punching a hole in the wall situation.”

That got a small chuckle out of Danny as he shook his head slightly clicking his tongue. “And I mean it wasn’t just you Danny, I forced you to be around me when you didn’t want to, in our own little ways, we were selfish when it came to this situation. Now I know I stated and promised you before that I would never have a life that didn’t have you in it…but whilst we’re both still healing and dealing with our grief that obviously still hasn’t gone anywhere. We do really need to not be in each other's lives anymore, no contact, no talking in any shape or form no stupid lil emoji texts anymore.” 

Biting his lip and sitting back Danny exclaims “But Leigh that’s EXACTLY what you’re doing, you’re leaving, you’re having a life without me! You obviously think and believe you don’t need me!” 

“I’M NOT LEAVING YOU, I’M NOT HAVING A LIFE WITHOUT YOU”

“LEIGH THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT YOU’RE DOING CAN YOU NOT HEAR WHAT YOU’RE SAYING” 

“DANNY!” scoffing to herself and shaking her head as she calmly states ”See this, this here exactly happening right now is why we need to take a step back from each other. We can’t even have a normal conversation without blowing up and ending up yelling at each other. The only time we aren’t killing each other is when we’re having sex and- and even then since we had that conversation in that casino resort we both know Matt is still weirdly on our minds during that. I- I think no matter how much we try or maybe want some sort of actual loving relationship with each other…it’ll never work. The only thing we ever can be to each other is friends.” Leigh shakes her head and licks her lips slightly “Just a friendship. Because we are hurting each other and ourselves from the inside out. We have to heal by ourselves, without the other in our lives and move on. And hopefully at some stage down the line whenever we’re both happy and healthy we can get back in contact with the other.”

Leigh smirks as she sways from side to side “Cause I can’t lie Danny I think we’d be pretty kick-ass friends together don’t ya think.” She grins as she nudges Danny with her shoulder, clearing his throat and nodding “Yeah- yeah I think we would be. And I can’t lie I get what you’re saying I understand hell I see it completely. It- it is just a difficult thing to let go of even if it is just for a little bit.” 

Biting her lip and rubbing Danny’s arm “I get it, Danny I do believe me but you still have your mom. You both can get through this together because it was just as difficult for her to… You are all she has left. And I’ll- I'm staying in contact with her or at this stage more like getting in contact with her more considering she still is my mother-in-law or ex-mother-in-law anyways specifics isn’t the important thing here.” 

Danny laughs slightly and nods “Yeah, yeah she’d like that.” Both sit back against the sofa in silence basking in the reality of what now has to be undertaken the reality of it hitting them simultaneously. Rubbing her hands anxiously up and down her legs as she slowly drags out “rigghtt I guess- I guess I better go now and leave us both to our journey of healing, growth whatever you wanna call it.” Leigh laughs as she mumbles to herself “god I sound like my mother” She walks to the door with Danny right behind her as Leigh opens the door she turns around and smiles at Danny as they both embrace each other in a hug for the last time till…who knows how long. Both pulling away slowly and giving each other a subtle nod as Leigh steps out through the door as it closes behind her softly. Leigh takes a deep breath in, the grin spreading across her face going unnoticed by her as she starts to descend the steps of the apartment building.

Leigh was never nervous or anxious when it came to teaching her exercise classes though apparently today was the exception, as she anticipated your arrival. Leigh smiles moving back and forth on her feet as she greets all of the students walking in through the door to her class, anxiously waiting to get a glimpse of your bag, shoes or something as you come through the front door. Considering since you distanced yourself from her she’s noticed you haven’t attended classes all that regularly. Leigh’s eyebrows raise in anticipation as she sees the front doors open happily letting out a breath she didn’t realise she was holding as she saw a glimpse of your bag and shoes come into view. Giddily she lets a grin spread across her face and she nervously picks at her nails seeing you approach the entrance “Hey Y/N it’s nice to see you again, I’m glad you decided to attend and come today.” 

Taken aback by Leigh's greeting and striking up a proper conversation with you after so long did genuinely take you by surprise but couldn’t stop the smile on your face “Hey Leigh, yeah I can’t lie I missed attending these classes I’m sure I’ll get back on track from now on.” Both smiling at each other as you walk past her into the class much to Leigh’s amazement you turn around and say to her “Leigh if I can just say you look great...you just look happy and healthy. Whatever you’ve done or are doing keep it up it suits you.” With her mouth wide open Leigh messily nods and stutters out “I- I will- I-  Thank you very much, I will be sure to keep it up.” Leigh turns around to the door to hide and mutters to herself “Idiot”.

Much to her relief though the class was a success and she didn’t stumble or trip over any more of her words whenever she got closer to you throughout her class as she moved around the room. After the class finished Leigh quickly grabbed her towel off the floor wiping the sweat off of her as she said goodbye to everyone, in her peripheral vision she could see you deliberately taking your sweet ass time packing away all of your stuff. Biting her lip she attempted to suppress the smile taking over her face. 

As she said goodbye to one of the last students she sauntered across the room towards you as she started fiddling with the towel around her neck. “Sooo Y/N” you glanced up at her as you were putting on your shoes “What's up Leigh?” 

She smiles at you abashedly as she scratches her head “I just wanna say sorry and give you a quick apology for anything I said or did that created that distance and made us pull away from each other. Because- because for that length of time, I really did miss seeing you and your face around here but I’m glad to see you back now.” Nervously scratching the back of your neck “Yeah umm I just-” shaking your head slightly as you let out a breath “I just had some stuff I had to figure out and work on to clear my head a bit and- unfortunately, sadly to do that I kinda had to step away and distance myself from you and well all things relating to you. But I- I think I’ve figured it all out now.” 

You can’t help but notice the hopeful glint in Leigh’s eyes and smile “Oh really? A positive figure it out I hope?” 

Grinning and nodding confidently “Yeah- yeah it does seem that way.” Both of you stare at each other smiling to your heart's content as both of your eyes scan the other person. You clear your throat as you can feel the heat rising to your cheeks and glance around the room “Anyways I should probably head off and leave you to clean up the place or whatever it is you have left to do around here.”  Leigh absentmindedly nods her head but ultimately starts panicking as you pick up your bag and wave goodbye to her, she quickly sprints after you saying between breaths “Or or- or albeit this isn’t a very nice offer for you to ask-” you raise your eyebrow at her “What is it, Leigh?”

“Um, do you wanna hang out here with me and help me out around here if you aren’t busy? I just- I’ve just missed hanging out and talking with you and thought this might be a nice way for us to catch up.”

“Y’know you are right it isn’t the nicest or most glamorous offer I’ve ever heard but I have missed talking to you Leigh so I’ll stick around and help my favourite fitness instructor out.” 

Leigh whips her head around to face you and stumbles slightly as she starts moving the spare barres placed around the room “Wha- what do you mean favourite fitness instructor? I’m your only fitness instructor.” Smirking over at Leigh as you roll up the extra yoga mats “That you know of, could’ve tried out other places whilst I was MIA” 

“HEY!” Leigh exclaims as she throws a cloth at you 

Laughing at her reaction as you catch the cloth “I’m messing, I’m messing you would be correct, you are the only fitness instructor I know and one that I go to.” You hear a quiet yet stern “good” in response as she goes back to cleaning, laughing and shaking your head in the process.

Since then you and Leigh have practically been inseparable, it was as if nothing had ever happened. She had explained to you fully what went and was going on with her and Danny currently..more like what wasn’t going on. Even though you had said to her repeatedly she didn’t have to that it was none of your business. But you reassured her it was for the better, she made the right decision, she’s doing better because of it and you could only hope the same for Danny. Leigh now had you over at her house….for what she told you would be a quiet night in with both of your favourite takeout foods and as many movies and TV shows as you both could handle.

Which now that you were here was not the case at all. Leigh had gotten the bright idea, the brainwave or as she put it a breakthrough. She felt that the whole house needed to be redecorated and refurnished as it reminded her of sad, difficult and complicated times and she couldn’t stand being reminded of those moments any longer. So who were you to say no to helping her out yet again. As you were sat on the floor dismantling all of the old furniture with Leigh, you saw her peak her head out from the other side “Again I’m sorry about this, it seems like none of my hangouts recently are that exciting and it involves you always having to work.” You laugh and shake your head “Leigh honestly it’s okay I really don’t care what I do as long as it’s with you. But hey it’ll be a nice bonding time for both of us, be a little glimpse of what it’s like if we were to ever live with each other I guess.” You scratch your head and hurriedly get back to dismantling the furniture as you realise what you said. “Did you just say living together?” 

“Psshhh me say that? No never? Must’ve heard things, Leigh.” 

“Mhmm okay sure.” What you didn’t notice was Leigh moving over to you slowly on her knees but jumping slightly as you felt her place her arms on your shoulders in an attempt to get you to raise your head to look at her. Glancing up at her you see the silly little smile on her face “I may not be ready for that yet but I’d like to think we’d end up living together at some stage in the future.” 

Staring at her wide-eyed “R-really?” Leigh grins and nods her head as she whispers against your lips “Really.” Grinning at each other as you both lean in to place kisses on each other's lips which quickly turn into little pecks as Leigh slaps your thigh “Alright let’s get back to work this house isn’t gonna refurnish and redecorate itself. And this furniture certainly won’t dismantle itself.” 

Chuckling to yourself you playfully salute towards Leigh “Aye, aye captain.” 

[gingiesworld]

Y/N: You're not going to be sad forever.

Leigh: What?

Y/N: I intend to make you smile everytime I see you. (Walks into the door on their way out.)

[wandasaura]

Someone messaged my blog and starting asking about Wanda scenarios and then being really specific saying like 'how would she pop a balloon' and I was like wtf who thinks about that and then they were like saying they've msged other Wanda fic blogs and got some 'creative answers'. Idek whether to block them bc it sounds lk fetishy and I don't I do not mess with that

-🐟

sorry but i know way too much about pregancy/birth and i fully just envisioned them asking about soft!obstetrician!wanda coaching you through the process of placing a foley balloon to induce labor 😭 like imagine kodachrome lizzie x sfyl lizzie vibes… that’s obstetrician wanda 😭

clearly this is why that person asks that question cause why the hell was this my immediate thought in like full visual detail

[xylophonetangerine]

"Hawk Tuah girl is going to jail for this!"

Financial crimes are literally legal if you do them with cryptocurrency and that's why crypto is good actually don't you know. SFYL

[wndaswife]

OMG that anon reminded me of how obsessed I am with Jane banner…. Truly would let that cop do anything to me (she would!). Prob the most dom character Lizzie has ever played lmao

i found some interest in daddy kinks lately and should use either jane or sub wanda to explore!!!! her and leigh shaw take the cake for dom lizzie characters (haven’t seen sfyl yet tho)

[tmrrwppl]

A friend turned me onto the idea that manic pixie baby daddy is the love child of manic pixie dream boy + Peter Pan syndrome, AND my brain made another option...

And Russell entirely encapsulates this Manic Pixie Peter Pan. And you can see this FULLY on display throughout the entire episode of Sorry For Your Loss as he's confronted with this fact. (and throughout the series with ups and downs in development, but SFYL is the biggest example of it).

And Clari encapsulates the polar opposite of Peter Pan Syndrome, Wendy Darling. The one who still sees the whimsical but is also realistic and takes on the load bearing responsibilities.

Another example of how Russ and Clari are yin and yang and stuff okay bye.

[iconslizzie]

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[lizardshouse]

Sorry For Your Loss [2x02]

[imthxtgood]

Sorry For Your Loss 01x03: 'Jackie O. & Courtney Love.'

[writing-house-of-m]

Walk out

Leigh Shaw x Reader

Warnings: Not edited

Word count: 651

Summary: Everything works out for Leigh eventually

A/N: Based on this request. I don't know why people always want Leigh to be sad...

"Don't you dare walk out that door!" Leigh shouts at your back while you have one hand on the door handle.

You sigh defeatedly and turn back to face her, "It's already over Leigh, you won."

"So after everything you're just going to walk away?" Leigh asks.

You sigh then turn your attention back to the table you walked away from. It's a little embarrassing that this is happening in front of Leigh's mother and sister.

"What do you want me to do?"

Jules looks back and forth as she shares some of her popcorn with Amy who is doing the same. Maybe you should charge them for this entertainment.

"It's not like I'm going to flip the board. The rest of my money is there, you can take it all, I'm going to go watch TV," you say.

Before you can turn to leave again you hear Leigh laugh, "Come on baby, don't be a sore loser and sit with us for the rest of the game," she whines. Her clinginess recently has been a welcome change. "Just declare your bankruptcy first," she finishes with a giggle, Jules and Amy joining in.

You playfully roll your eyes, making your way back to your seat. Gathering all your money and property you distribute it according to the rules before monotonously saying, "I declare bankruptcy."

Leigh smiles at you, biting her lip. She leans over and kisses your cheek whispering a smug thank you into your skin before picking up the dice.

"The three of you are always conspiring against me in this damned game," you say looking around the table at the three women.

"We have no idea what you are talking about," Amy remarks in fake seriousness, taking a sip of her wine.

"Yeah, you're sounding a little crazy there Y/n," Jules adds.

You scoff at their playfulness and know you have a long night ahead of you before this game ends.

When the game does finally end you notice Leigh's discomfort as she tries to get up from her seat.

"Here, let me help," you say, moving to Leigh's side. You hold her hand to hoist her up while your other hand stays on her waist to keep her balanced. "I told you, you should have gotten up to stretch throughout the game."

Leigh's arms wrap around your neck, "Yeah, but then I wouldn't have been able to do this now," she says, before kissing your cheek.

"You're such a flirt Leigh Shaw," you chuckle before placing your hands on her swollen belly. "I wonder if this one is going to get that trait from you."

"Well, if not from me then they'll get it from you. Besides, it will be better than how competitive you are during board games."

You tighten your arms around Leigh's waist, "It doesn't matter if you're seven months pregnant, love, you still have to pay rent," you squint your eyes at her. "And you're saying this like you're not competitive? Who was it that wouldn't let it go when I said the wrong weapon out loud even though I had it right on my checklist, last week?" You question, with a raised eyebrow.

"Yeah… This baby has no chance," Leigh jokes, making you both laugh.

"Alright love birds, you can go home now. The cleaning is done," Jules jests.

You look over to see the table has been cleared of the board game and the snacks that were littered all over it.

Amy says her goodbyes telling you to drive safe once you make it to the front door. Jules does the same before watching you walk to your car.

That night, after you have fallen asleep with your arms securely wrapped around Leigh and her bump and your heavy breathing is the only sound in the silent room. She sighs in content because things finally worked out for her.

[therunawaykind]

Green Eyes - Part III

Pairing: Leigh Shaw x Reader

Word Count: 6.8k

Warnings: Fluff, Angst, mentions of suicide, curses, declarations of love, jealousy, heartbreak.

A/N: First story post this year! This part has been anticipated for quite some time...the request/info by when-wolves-howl was very detailed (I love it keep it coming) hence the length of this part. All that's left to say is I hope you enjoy it. This wasn't meant to be posted till next week but I decided to be nice...something else was gonna get posted today but I changed my mind. You all have that to look forward to next week

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After that unexpected meeting of Leigh and Jules, it was quickly decided between the three of you…well realistically two of the three that Leigh would stay with you in this apartment. Jules was just happy to have her own space finally. And well Leigh she was just excited to be around you continuously now, you couldn’t lie you were feeling very excited and giddy to have Leigh around you again but you had to keep up the facade of not caring. After finally packing all of Leigh’s stuff into the boot of your car the last thing you heard from Jules was “good luck with putting up with her 24/7.”

“Jules you’ve seemed to have forgotten I did this every day for 4 years. Which may I add college is much worse cause everyone just goes wild and lets loose.” you nudge Leigh’s shoulder “I’d like to imagine she’s calmed down slightly from all those years ago.” Both Leigh and Jules scoff and roll their eyes. “Yeah good luck with that Y/N/N.”

You glance at the two sisters as you hug Jules and mumble “make sure to keep in contact with us or well…just Leigh on the regular.” You feel her nod subtly as you lean against the car and let the sisters do what they need to. As you purse your lips you walk around and get into the driver's seat and tap against the wheel as you think through everything. You have to leave here eventually, focus on your career again, both you and Leigh get used to the idea of this relationship? Dating? God, that’s another thing you both need to discuss properly. Being in the spotlight…unless you can keep it hidden as long as possible knowing it would be overwhelming for you both. You’re so in your head the door opening and closing didn’t even register until you got punched in your arm “hey singer, where you at? You spaced out on me.”

You laugh at the nickname as you put the key into the ignition “I was just contemplating all the stuff I have waiting for me when we inevitably have to leave here and go back to America.” Leigh stares at you intently and smiles softly “Well if I can be of any help to you for any of those things let me know.” As you stop at a traffic light as you tap the beats against the instrumentals of your music…the music playing was Leigh’s decision. “Well, quite a lot of that stuff has to do with you or well involves you in some way.” as you glance at her quickly you see the worried look on her face “oh God Leigh it’s nothing bad it’s just that we need to have a proper discussion about what this situation between us. Not one that involves us being intoxicated or us hungover, a completely sober discussion. As well as figuring out this whole new dynamic between us and with the added aspect of me being constantly in the spotlight and being watched by fans, paparazzi literally everyone because it’s gonna be a lot and I don’t want it to overwhelm us so soon and ruin our potential.”

Leigh grins as she nods slowly “we’ll figure it out we’re gonna be a power couple roaming the streets. As for you in the spotlight and this new dynamic between us, we’ll get through it and as I said I’ll help in any way I can so it isn’t all on you. Also, I don’t want to ruin our potential either. We’ll be great Y/N.” She places her hand on top of yours and squeezes it tightly. Before you know it you are pulling up to your apartment you turn off the car and turn to Leigh “if you want you can just head in and relax I can carry up the bags and boxes.”

“Have you lost your mind I’m helping it’s my stuff. You haven’t locked me down yet Y/N.” you hear the mischievous giggle as she gets out of the car and you roll your eyes.

//-//-//-//-//-//-//

It had been a few days since Leigh had moved in with you and both of you were figuring out this new dynamic between you again. So far everything was smooth sailing, though Leigh did have days where she was up and down you couldn’t blame her. You were purely just ignoring everything you’d have to deal with when you go back. Today between the both of you decided not to do anything touristy and have a full-blown lazy day. However, you both knew you kept pushing off and ignoring the big elephant in the room between the two of you. That you both agreed had to be discussed and talked about. It could be seen from the corner of your eyes Leigh was fidgeting with either her fingers or rings an activity she did when she was anxious or nervous about something. As for Leigh, she could see your knee bouncing constantly so, of course, she knew you were freaking out. In unison, you both turned and said “we need to get this talk over with.”

You both turn facing each other putting both of your hands out to be able to hold each other somewhat while still being able to see each other's faces. As you start rubbing your thumb over one of her hands she does it on your other hand. You both smile at each other softly as you notice. You clear your throat “okay so we both know this relationship is gonna be very different from everything we’ve ever experienced before. There will be eyes on us a lot of the time but we can try to keep it to ourselves privately for as long as we can if you want. This will be a big step for both of us but I want to make sure we go at your pace so you don’t get overwhelmed.”

Leigh takes a deep breath and squeezes your hands slightly “I understand fully why we are doing this at my pace over everything to do with Matt, every revelation that may be revealed once we fully commit to us as a couple and the guilt that may come with that. But Y/N this is just as new for you as well. This whole celebrity lifestyle, won’t just be me getting these guilty feelings when it comes to our relationship and when it comes to Matt. So yes we will be taking this whole situation slowly but listen to me. It is not just for me it is for you as well. When it comes to my past rather messed up decisions of relationships or even hookups I have felt so guilty thinking that I have been betraying Matt in some way. Which in a sense is ridiculous, but also I felt that hugely with Danny…. But I also think that is due to Danny being Matts brother and me convincing myself that Danny was some sort of link to Matt or just something of the sorts do you get me?”

You nod as your eyes dart all around Leigh’s face taking her in. “I think we both know this won’t be the last discussion in regards to us, maybe it won't be as serious but we’ll have to check in with each other in regards to everything and make sure we’re okay and communicating with each other healthily.” You hear Leigh start laughing to herself you raise your eyebrows at her and wait till she collects herself. “Sorry..sorry I’m just laughing because if you a songwriter who writes lyrics and uses words on the regular can’t communicate properly to me. And me a writer for articles and a column cannot communicate properly to you then we really have no hope in this relationship.” You stare at her mouth agape as the realisation hits you and you slowly start laughing as you sit back on the couch “wow we are doomed if we can’t even talk to each other right. It would be funny if that was our downfall, not being able to talk to each other right.”

Leigh smirks as she places her hand on your cheek and rubs it “we’ll be great we’ll get through this we’re Y/N Y/L/N and Leigh Shaw we got through so much in college. We were the ultimate duo together and now us together as a couple we’re gonna be unstoppable. Actually, it’s gonna be like Y/N Y/L/N and Leigh Shaw power couple alert the ultimate power couple of all power couples.” you can’t help but grin as Leigh continues on rambling on her tangent with her hands moving and waving all over the place. It’s been so long since you’ve seen this Leigh out in the open and it’s only hit you now how much you’ve missed her. God, you can’t wait to write more songs if it is her they are going to be about.

//-//-//-//-//-//-//

It’s been a few weeks since the first initial discussion and everything between Leigh and you has been smooth sailing so far. You haven’t been around each other 24/7 because you didn’t wanna be suffocating each other by being around each other constantly. So while you were doing your own thing of helping out some natives, Leigh would be spending some of her time with Jules to see if she would have any news from Amy on her travels and how Jules was getting on with her family here.

Leigh doesn’t know what possessed her to ask this today but she decided to ask Jules about how the long-distance relationship between her and Tommy was doing. The second Leigh had the question out of her mouth she saw Jules’ face drop and she knew she fucked up. She looks down slightly and purses her lips “okay what happened Jules what went wrong?” Jules couldn’t help but scoff and shake her head at the thought of that relationship. She ran her finger around the rim of her mug “it would be easier to say what didn’t go wrong. Which wasn’t a lot, there were just constant arguments, us well more like her not communicating properly to me.”

“What were the arguments about Jules?”

Jules looks at Leigh hesitant to answer as she fidgets more with anything she can and looks at anywhere but Leigh. “Well uhhh she kept asking me when I was coming back to Los Angeles even though we kind of discussed it before I left that I may not go back depending on if I liked it here.”

Leigh smiles slightly “and let me guess you love it here, you probably prefer it here rather than living back in Los Angeles.” Jules stares at Leigh with her lip between her teeth as she nods hesitantly “is that a bad thing? Do you hate me for it?”

Leigh leans back and shakes her head “Jules it's most certainly not a bad thing, it sure as hell makes a lot of sense that you’d prefer it here after all. Also no it does not make me hate you for it. Does the idea make me a little sad that I won’t be able to see you on the regular? Sure it does totally I mean you’re my little sister for crying out loud. But I get it also means Y/N, mom and I have an excuse and reason to visit Vietnam a lot more often. But from my time here I know, you will find someone else here who will love you so much better and the way Jules Shaw deserves to be loved. And I mean the people here aren’t too bad looking Jules, you have an ocean full of people.”

Leigh hears the slight distaste in Jules’ hum when your name is mentioned. Leigh narrows her eyes and stares Jules down as she wets her bottom lip. Leigh leans forward onto her knees “what’s with the unsatisfactory hum when Y/N’s name came up?” Jules clicks her tongue as she thinks about how to phrase this thing she’s about to say she certainly doesn’t want Leigh to jump to conclusions and blow up. Everyone knows how fast Leigh can blow up and get defensive about someone that is hers. Jules exhales as she runs her hands down her face and she leans against them. “Right Leigh you have to let me say what I’m about to say you can’t blow up at me because I’m about to say something about you, your person and your relationship because frankly, it is just the timing of it all.”

Leigh crosses her arms over her chest and arches her eyebrow as she bites the inside of her cheek staring across at Jules waiting for her to continue.

“It is just I am so jealous of you and Y/N’s relationship what you two have from what I’ve seen these past few weeks…hell scratch that ever since we ran into them. It has been nothing but perfect discussing and actually communicating with each other, spending time away from each other so you aren’t suffocated. Clearly finding out and prioritising each others love languages which seems to be touch for both of you by the way as well as yours being words of affirmation. It is just everything that I want and because of the breakup with Tommy deep down I hate Y/N for being such a perfect partner towards you because that is what I want…what I so desperately want and every relationship I get into falls to pieces. Whereas with you… no offence Leigh you do absolutely nothing and is handed these amazing relationships on a silver platter that goes for both Y/N and Matt. Whilst I am doing nothing but searching for that person….my person. Whilst you’ve found your person twice now.”

Leigh's eyes widen at that statement not what was she expecting at all to come from Jules’ mouth.

“Right okay…that….that was a lot to take in Jules. Give me a minute to just get my bearings. I understand why you are so annoyed and quite jealous about my and Y/N’s situation but I can assure you our situation was and is very different compared to you and Tommy’s situation. And I do really hope you know that Jules because whilst you two were arguing about long distances, moving back to where you realistically really don’t wanna be and not being able to communicate right is infuriating. But with me and Y/N we’re lucky we don’t have the distance but bare in mind I didn’t have any contact with them for however many years. I didn’t hear from them after my wedding, they weren’t there for probably the hardest and most difficult moment in my life. However, I think I prefer that they weren’t there because I don’t think I’d want them to see me in the mess that I was. But now we have a completely different situation Y/N is like a huge celebrity now who is being watched constantly who has fans that would probably die to be in my position right now. But it’s something we’re gonna have to work through together and as long as it’s with them I’m perfectly okay of the hardships we’re gonna be put through. As for the jealousy, I get it the failed relationship after a failed relationship is disheartening. But Jules I’m telling you don’t seek out and search for these people. It will end up as it does with me and end up falling into your hand like a silver platter and it will feel like the nicest and most rewarding thing in your life.”

Leigh scoffs as she thinks back to what Jules said “as for amazing relationships Y/N I can attest for…Matt on the other hand with some of the things Danny told me about Matt and Nina and how they both in a sense fell for each other. So I don’t think that relationship was so amazing. Also, let’s add in the fact I realised on my wedding day after Y/N performing I had feelings for them this whole time. Yet I still stayed married to Matt knowing I loved someone else. So I guess me and Matt are both fucks up in ways. So again no not amazing.” All Leigh knew next was that Jules hurled herself at Leigh for a big sisterly hug and cuddle as she started to cry into Leigh’s shirt finally letting the heartbreak of the breakup out, after hiding it for so long.

//-//-//-//-//-//-//

Today was one of the days that you and Leigh considered a relaxed easy day, which consisted of the longest walk ever or at least some sort of exercise for a long amount of time. Since it was clear just how much Leigh was missing her hiking or exercise classes back in LA. Fortunately for you, Leigh found a small wall to sit on by one of the beaches here. The two of you just enjoying the breeze blowing past the both of you as you had your arm thrown over her shoulder. Her head was resting on your shoulder whilst she quite lazily held the hand that was hanging over her shoulder.

As the both of you were sat in a rather comfortable silence you couldn’t help but space out. Thinking and considering all of the things Leigh was missing at home, hell she was even missing out on her work and you knew she couldn’t stay here much longer. You knew she wouldn’t let you pay for her things she’s too stubborn and would make the argument that it’s money you’ve earned it has nothing to do with her. You knew you had to have the conversation about going back to LA sooner rather than later, it was selfish to keep her here for this long just because you didn’t wanna go back to the celebrity lifestyle. You subconsciously started rubbing your thumb across her hand.

Leigh pats your cheek “you spaced out on me sweetie.” You clear your throat and look down at her as a grin automatically spreads across her face, the sparkle in her eyes as the sunsets. At that moment you were fully entranced by her eyes, you sat back and turned yourself towards her and held out your hand “gimme your phone real quick I wanna take a picture of your eyes.” Leigh looks at you as if you’ve gone crazy “Y/N really?”

“Yeess really you knew and know photography was and is one of my favourite hobbies.” Leigh scoffs and groans acting as if she hates this choice and reluctantly hands you her phone. After a few seconds of fiddling with a few camera settings on her phone, you position her facing the sun as you jump off of the wall. As you place the phone camera right by her eyes to get a good picture, you pause and look at her. “Okay, I’m gonna take a few pictures, just a few of your eyes normally to show just how amazing they are. Then I’ll say something to get that proper goofy, fuzzy smile that I love where your eyes squint so if you ever show people they will know you are truly smiling.” Leigh nods her head at you as she watches your passionate side come out.

After a few minutes of you taking different pictures ever so slightly different you’re onto the goal of getting her squinty eyes. You stand in thought for a few minutes as you look at her “I cannot wait to get back to LA and write so many songs about you, for you and just everything because I absolutely adore you, Leigh. And as much as I know I’m going to be your sounding board when we get back to LA and you go back to work. You are just as much gonna be my sounding board. When it comes to my lyrics and music.” Exactly as you finished you saw a huge grin take over her face.

You couldn’t help but smile at the pictures you were taking, after another few minutes of random things being said between the two of you. You jump back up on the wall beside her and hand Leigh her phone back. As you were focusing back on the waves in the water and just everything about the beach, you completely missed Leigh going through the photos and posting the ones she liked the most on Facebook and her Instagram adoring the fact that you took them, especially even after all these years how good you still were at photography.

Without thinking you grab Leigh’s hand and clear your throat “I know this is probably a discussion that has to be had or maybe this will be a simple easy conversation, but I think it’s time we go back to LA to real-life to reality. I can’t keep avoiding and pretending this celebrity life doesn’t exist and it’ll just leave me alone. And it’s rather selfish me keeping you here when you have your work, friends and just life back in LA.” As you turn to look at Leigh she’s already staring at you with the softest eyes ever as she nods slowly as she looks at the water for a minute. “You’re right we do need to go back and face reality. I do think we’ve been hiding out here long enough. I mean how much longer is it gonna be till someone comes across us here.” You both turn to stare at each other as you rest your foreheads against each other. “Then I guess it’s settled then. Maybe later when we get back we can look at flights but also don’t you have to talk to Jules about it?”

Leigh very subtly shakes her head “nope over the disaster of a breakup with Tommy she’s staying here for a while….God, I don’t even know how long but she wants to try out Vietnam’s love life and see how that works for her. I may or may not have had something to do with that.” Leigh mumbles out the last bit of the sentence, you couldn’t help but laugh at her honesty. “Honestly good for Jules she deserves it and I can see in her that she prefers it here anyway.” Leigh nods as she grins, she grabs your hands as she starts to stand up and pulls you up with her. “Home?”

You grin and nod “home.” As Leigh goes to walk away you pull her back and spin her into you as you place your hands on her cheek and kiss her passionately. Leigh can’t help but melt into you as her arms drape over your shoulders as she hums into the kiss. She’s taken by surprise when you deepen the kiss by nipping at her bottom lip and slipping your tongue into her mouth. Her hands grab onto the back of your top as you both hum at the sensation of the kiss, not really having a kiss like this between the two of you before.

However, whilst the both of you were lost in your haze of lust and love, a tourist…possible paparazzi who hadn’t even seen Leigh’s social media posts had come across the both of you at the beach. Just close enough to make out your face that it was actually you. They couldn’t help but take pictures of the two of you posting it everywhere and anywhere she could, whilst simultaneously sending it to everyone and anyone.

Soon after both you and Leigh had come back to the real world to hear her phone ringing. You both looked at each other trying to get your breath back both furrowing your eyebrows at the sight of Jules’ name on the phone. As Leigh answered the phone Jules could be heard panicking saying “there are pictures of the two of you all over the internet, someone has either found out where Y/N is or they have just randomly come across them. But luckily it’s really only Y/N that can be seen in the picture. Leigh is just a black shadow.” As soon as you hear that your head darts across the open area looking around seeing if there is anyone out in the open as you nibble on your bottom lip. As you finally drag your back to Leigh you see her staring at you softly with a small smile, both basically having a silent conversation with each other as you both nod simultaneously knowing that you have to get home sooner rather than later.

//-//-//-//-//-//-//

Needless to say after that whole ordeal your whole life and being descended into chaos. It got to the stage the second you reached LAX airport it was swarmed with paparazzi outside waiting for you. Once you saw all of them whilst standing with Leigh making sure she got out safely was your first concern. You knew she would be getting home with you so you sent her off with a security guard to bring her to your blacked-out car whilst you dealt with these idiots that have nothing better to do with their lives.

You gave her a quick kiss goodbye as you shoved on your sunglasses and pulled the hoodie over your head. “God I didn’t miss any of this.” as you walk through the exit trying not to get blinded by all the flashes and ignoring all their stupid comments as you walk briskly to your car hoping you whatever God you’d be able to hide Leigh enough so she doesn’t get involved in all of this. When you finally reach the car you basically jump into the car as fast as possible. The second you get in you let out a deep exhale and put your head against the headrest and you hear Leigh chuckle softly. “Home it is time to get us home.”

//-//-//-//-//-//-//

It’s been a few weeks since you’ve come back you had to begrudgingly have to have two separate phones one specifically for work and one for your personal life. You were bad enough responding to people on one phone and now having two was a nightmare. It was your hell, Leigh couldn’t help but laugh at your struggle all you’d hear from her was “you know for someone who is so gifted musically and technologically you suck at this.” The sad thing was you couldn’t disagree you did suck when it came to this aspect of your life. But as promised as you said in Vietnam to each other you were her sounding board and she was yours for this new musical endeavour of yours. Both of you agreed to not raise any more suspicion about Leigh you’d change up your sound a bit for this album. Which she easily agreed to as long as the song was still about her…she didn’t care, so who were you to deny her of that.

Here you both were on a regular occurrence relaxing in your house, Leigh lying back on the sofa listening to the slight changes and twinks you’re making on your music. While at least one of your hands is in contact with some part of her body at all times. Leigh really couldn’t think of a better way to spend her days. You both were slightly stunned when you heard a knock at your door, Leigh stared at you rather bewildered and mouthed “who is it?” You shrug and stare at the door, Leigh watches you as you place your laptop on the coffee table and get up to approach the door. Leigh dashes forward and slaps your arm and whispers “are you an idiot? You can’t just open the door anymore to anyone! Do you actually realise who you are?”

You stare at her mouth agape “what else am I supposed to do I can’t let you answer it if it’s one of those idiots who have nothing better to do with their lives?” Leigh steps back and lets out a breath as she gestures her hand to the door for you. You look at the door again and clear your throat “who is it?”

“It’s Danny…Danny Greer.” Your jaw drops and tense slightly, Leigh looks between you and the door. She knows and is well aware of your dislike of Danny and how you are convinced he still has feelings for Leigh. She is just convinced your crazy there’s no way Danny still likes her…they were so bad for each other. You glance at Leigh at nod your head towards the door as you grab your laptop and walk up to your office to work on your music, however, you weren’t dumb you left the door open to listen to what they were talking about.

Yes okay, maybe you were jealous of Danny and his feelings towards Leigh, you were scared. You were scared because there have been disagreements and arguments between the both of you about your celebrity status due to the fact you both can’t go out and do normal couple things. So yes you were terrified Leigh would realise she could have that normality with Danny even if they were rather bad for each other. As you were typing on your laptop you could hear some mumbles from the two of them talking. All you were hoping for was they wouldn’t get into another argument from the snippets you heard about their last argument it ended with Danny’s fist through a wall and them sitting in a hospital together.

You heard the shrill of Leigh’s voice when she exclaimed “Danny! Oh my God, I cannot believe you. I cannot believe I was calling Y/N stupid and crazy for trying to convince me you still had feelings for me.”

“Leigh it’s true I do love you and you have to know that both Y/N and Matt did and do not deserve you. I have been by your side every step of the way whether you like it or not. Where was Y/N when you needed them most.” that statement can’t help but get Leigh’s breath caught in her throat. Okay, you were gone when she needed you most but she knows you couldn’t stick around seeing her married to somebody else when you loved her. Whilst also getting away from this newfound fame. “Danny yes you were by my side but we were grieving we needed each other to depend and lean on and look where that got us. You slept with your brother’s widow and I slept with my dead husband's brother. We were using each other because in some weird messed up way we reminded each other of Matt. Which made us happy for a little while-”

“You still haven’t answered or told me that you do or do not have feelings for me, Leigh.”

“Oh my God, Danny are you delusional. Of course, I don’t have feelings for you anymore I thought that was clear when I finished whatever I was doing with you and it became even more definite when I took time for myself in Vietnam. Especially now that I have a loving partner right upstairs. That has known me much longer than you ever have or ever will.”

“Right, Right the escape to Vietnam where you ran into Y/N the same Y/N that performed on your wedding day. The same Y/N you didn’t hear from anymore on that day. Funnily enough, also the day where after that performance happened you acted strange and different after that.”

“Danny what’s that supposed to mean it’s not like I knew they were there in Vietnam. I do not know what you are trying to imply but it is ridiculous.”

As you hear Danny about to say something again you get up from your chair and walk down the stairs “Danny I think it’s time you leave.” you continue walking as you approach Leigh and Danny “I think you’ve overstayed your welcome.” You glare at him as he scoffs and shakes his head as he mutters “always the knight in shining armour huh.” you glare at him as you cross your arms over your chest, waiting for him to leave. “This isn’t over Leigh, I’m not finished here, not finished with you.”

Leigh tilts her head and scoffs “we are done here Danny, you had no right showing up here unannounced anyway. Get this into your head. I will never reciprocate any feelings for you anymore. Whatever we had or whatever you think we had is gone, dead and buried.” You see Danny look between the two of you one more time as he leaves through the door.

//-//-//-//-//-//-//

The change between you and Leigh was noticeable since that encounter with Danny. You both hung out just as much if not more. As if trying to portray to each other you both loved each other dearly without having to say anything. But you both secretly knew what was going on inside both of your heads the guilt of having Matt in your mind since that night, albeit your feelings and guilt were totally different from each other it was something you’d both be able to help each other through…if you both just simply talked and communicated healthily like you both said you would all those months ago in Vietnam.

You both felt like you regressed to the worst versions of yourself.

All those days Leigh had away from you she was convinced the best part of her died with Matt, yet when you showed back up in her life you slowly started giving that piece of her back again. That is when it hit her all at once like a truck. Did….did she not love Matt completely and fully. Without her knowing was her love actually split in half between you and Matt. Oh my God was it her fault…was she the cause of Matt’s death…did she make him that unhappy that she drove him to go to that peak of that hike and….NO… no she couldn’t have…right? She needs some way to discuss this with you but… how do you discuss and talk about these things regarding your dead husband with your new partner. God, why did this have to be so difficult.

Why did you have to write that stupid song back in college… why couldn’t you just tell her you liked her in college and we wouldn’t be in this mess. Why did you have to perform it at her wedding and make her realise literally everything. Was what Danny implying right did she subconsciously join Jules in going to Vietnam in hopes of running into you and starting a relationship. Possibly a relationship that should’ve been created years ago. And most importantly why did that fucking song have to get so big, why did it have to make you so famous. God famous and celebrity status don’t even get Leigh started on that.

As if the timing couldn’t be any better in Leigh’s spiral you walk through the door. You throw your keys into the bowl as you automatically say “Hey babe.” Leigh rolls her eyes and tries to keep her scoff as quiet as possible so you wouldn’t hear…but it wasn’t quiet enough. You lean against the counter as you stare at her “what is it Leigh talk to me? We both know our attitudes and actions to each other have changed over the last while and we know since when.”

You notice Leigh scratch at her eyebrow something she does when she’s nervous or about to hate where a conversation is going to lead. She takes a deep inhale “Y/N there are so many things spiralling in my head. I don’t know where to start.” You keep quiet to let her get everything out “I feel guilty about the possibility of me not loving Matt completely and to my full potential. Because it was during your performance when I realised my feelings for you..well not just realised but they came to the front of my mind again. Then it got me thinking about when I left to go to Vietnam did I go with Jules in hopes to find you even though I had no idea where you went. Was me not loving Matt fully the cause of his death did I make him that unhappy he resorted to potentially killing himself. Was I that bad of a wife, I was here so angry at him for crushing on his co-worker Nina when I was doing that exact same thing. I was a hypocrite albeit I only found out when he died but he should’ve been the one yelling and arguing at me not me arguing at him. I have never felt like I betrayed Matt more than I did now. And Y/N don’t even get me started on your famous, celebrity status because we can literally barely do anything. WHY…WHY DIDN’T YOU JUST TELL ME BACK IN COLLEGE OR EVEN JUST SHOW ME THE SONG AND WE WOULDN’T BE IN THIS MESS.”

Leigh takes a deep breath as she tries to calm down “I mean right now these past few months how do I know you are not just in this relationship to be able to write song after song about me and then when we inevitably break up. You STILL get to write songs about me heartbreak songs but still songs about and to do with me!”.

You stare at Leigh wide-eyed as she attempts to get her breath back after her rant. She places her hands on her hips as you run your hand over your mouth and exhale. “Right.” you clear your throat “okay. Leigh, I want you to know you are not the only one dealing with these feelings. The guilt of me performing on your wedding day has been eating at me for so long now. As much as I didn’t wanna basically proclaim my undying love for you through song on your wedding. I could not and I mean could not deny that man of me performing at your wedding no matter who I was to you. He wanted your favourite artist to sing your favourite song. As you two newlyweds danced to the song. I could not deny him of that wish and ask. I feel so bad when I get into this mindset I feel dirty, I feel like I shouldn’t be around you because I basically serenaded you at your wedding-”

you chuckle dryly “I mean really Leigh who does that.” You see a small smirk on Leigh’s face as she mutters a quiet “you. You do that.”

“As for this famous celebrity status…Leigh do you really think I wanted this. I mean… don’t answer that. I know I studied music and songwriting in college, sure I was on the journey to performing and everything. But I never expected it to get to this level. As for you even assuming that I am just with you to make money out of you to write song after song about you is low Leigh. That makes it seem like you don’t know me at all. Would I ever do that to you? Jesus Leigh that is utter insanity, I know you spiral Leigh but this is a whole new level of spiral.”

You take a deep breath as you make sure you’re staring at Leigh for this next statement you’re about to make. “I will say this as many times as you need me to Leigh. I will reassure you however many times you want me to. I am with you because I have loved you since college and that has not wavered all these years. You Leigh Shaw are my muse. You are Y/N Y/L/N’s muse and that will never change. You have me so whipped and wrapped around your finger it isn’t even funny. But this..this discussion or argument we had right here, right now. We need to work on this, us talking and communicating. So we don’t bottle it all up and explode like we just did. We joked about this months ago about how if us two considering our jobs fail at communicating it’ll be ridiculous and we’ll be doomed. But look what just happened to us. We. Need. To. Talk. More. ”

It’s only now you notice the silent tears going down Leigh’s face as she nods and stares at you. This is a Leigh you’ve never seen looking so small and fragile. This must have been tearing her to pieces. You hear the smallest of whispers leave her mouth “can we have a hug or cuddle now, please? I want my Y/N/N back I don’t like these stupid arguments. You can’t help but let out a wet teary chuckle as you nod you lift Leigh up as you walk over to the couch and lie down with her on top of you. Her head is placed on your chest as you rub her back continuously. Leigh kisses your chest at the exact time you kiss the top of her head, as Leigh whispers to not disrupt the calm feeling around the room “I love you Y/N Y/L/N”

You grin against the top of her head. “I love you too Leigh Shaw.”

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[gingiesworld]

At My Worst

Chapter Four

Leigh Shaw x GN! Reader

Warnings: Fluff

18+ MINORS DNI

Taglist: @username22345

I had never saw myself being as happy as I am in this moment. Knowing that the person who has carved their name on my heart sees their future with me.

Y/N was looking through jewellers with their best friend Nat. Looking for the perfect ring for Leigh.

"This is the fifth shop we have been to." She groaned as Y/N chuckled.

"I couldn't find a nice ring." They told her as she scoffed.

"I have seen hundreds of nice rings. My retnas are permanently burned with how sparkly they were." Nat told them. "You are just extremely picky." She poked them as they continued to look.

"I want it to be perfect for her." Y/N told her honestly.

"She has been married before yes?" Nat questioned as Y/N just nodded in confirmation. "You do realise that she will say yes regardless of the ring. Especially with how you two have been over the past year."

"I just." They sighed as they gazed at their best friend. "I love her so fucking much and I want her to be happy with the ring she will wear for the rest of her life."

"She will be happy with it, as long as it is with you." Nat told them, which helped them pick the ring after a full day of shopping. The two decided to head to a bar and have a drink. "So, how do you plan on doing it?" She asked them as they smiled. Proceeding to tell her their plans.

When the day finally came, they were dressed in their best suit, the ring securely in their inside pocket as they knocked on the door to the Shaw Residence.

"Y/N." Leigh beamed as she saw them stood there, nervously holding a bouquet of her favourite flowers. "These are beautiful." She smiled as she admired their nervous form. Almost like they were taking her on a first date again.

"I uh are you ready?" They asked her as she nodded with a smile. They held their arm for her which she took with a bright smile.

"So, where are we going?" She asked as they drove.

"Just for a nice date under the stars." They told her with a smile, driving further up towards the observatory. When they parked up, they had gotten out and opened the door for Leigh before she could do it herself.

"It's a beautiful night." Leigh whispered as Y/N smiled at her.

"It is." They whispered as they walked with her to the spot they had set up. She smiled as she noticed the already set up picnic.

"Have fun!" Was heard along with the sound of an engine.

"I apologise, Nat helped me set this up." They confessed as Leigh smiled.

"I'll be sure to thank her." She smiled as Y/N poured the the sparkling soda. The two soon shared conversations as they ate the food that was packed for the two of them.

"I uh, I want to ask you something." Y/N started nervously as Leigh smiled at them endearingly. "I uh the moment I met you, I never realised I needed you in my life, but my heart did. My heart knew that it beats in perfect synchrony with yours. It's like you carved your name on my heart and there is no shaking you. Not that I want to because I am so deeply in love with you Leigh that it hurts. It's a good hurt because I know that I can feel something so pure, so emotional and I don't ever want it to stop." Y/N got on one knee as they reached inside their pocket. "Leigh Shaw, would you make me the happiest person and marry me?"

"Yes." She whispered with tears in her eyes. They slipped the ring on her finger before she pulled them in for a bruising kiss. Her arms wrapping around their neck, pulling them closer to her as the kiss deepened. "Take me home." She whispered as they nodded. Packing up and leading her to their car.

Leigh kept looking at the ring on her finger as Y/N drove to their apartment. The drive soon coming to an end as Y/N got the basket and opened her door for her. The tension between the two was thick as Y/N placed the basket down as they closed the door to their apartment.

"You have no idea how happy I am." She whispered as she caressed their face. Her eyes gazing deeply into their own before she kissed them tenderly.

"I love you Leigh." They whispered as she guided them to their room.

"I love you too." She whispered before she removed her dress. "Now make love to me." They didn't need telling twice as they kissed sensually as they guided her back on the bed. The two soon getting lost in the pleasure.

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Leigh was helping her mom and Jules decorate the christmas tree as the ring shone in the winter sunlight cascading through the windows.

"So how was it?" Amy asked her with a smile.

"Perfect." She smiled. "Everything about it was perfect."

"You look happier." Jules stated as Leigh nodded her head.

"I am happier. I don't remember ever being this happy in my life." Leigh admitted. "Not even with Matt."

"I guess Y/N is your set in stone." Amy smiled as Leigh nodded.

"They most definitely are." Leigh whispered as she gazed at the ring on her finger. Excited for the future that is to come. Her future with Y/N by her side.

[causeitswhatjesuswouldfreakingdo]

Leigh Shaw in Sorry for Your Loss | 2.08 (x)

[authenticitybylilac]

GOD uses even our mistakes for his purposes.

So don’t be afraid to try and fail, it develops your character and prepares you for what’s yours that lies ahead.