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[gay-otlc]

I met a new therapist for the first time and I made her gaydar go off. She immediately got queer of gender vibes from me. One of the first things she said to me was "so is [redacted] the name you want to go by, or...?" because she figured there was a good chance the butch in front of her didn't want to use my feminine deadname (she was right but I didn't tell her). Also she asked my pronouns and I told her "he and she are both fine" but I was so caught up in the fact that she recognized my immense transgender swag that I forgot to ask her not to use those pronouns when talking to my dad, but it's probably fine.

The funny thing is. I was trying to look cis today. When I got dressed this morning I was in my "trying to convince myself I'm a cis girl" era so I was doing my best to present like a monogender woman. And I still looked trans. Rip.