#seunhwa x avery

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for @celestialshearts ( to avery )

he’s been doing his best to avoid avery—because clearly, he needs to; because clearly, he doesn't want to be around seunhwa right now. he's been wracking his brain for what he could have possibly said or done and coming up empty every time, and it certainly doesn't help that avery is denying that anything's wrong. but they're not stupid. they know. they see the way he looks at them now, and it fucking hurts. tonight, especially. so he slips out for some fresh air and to cry a little in private, but of course they follow him outside. he tries to turn away just enough for them to not see the tears in his eyes, but he knows it's useless; it's definitely obvious when he speaks. "can you just......tell me what i did?" they say, quiet and trembling. "you don't need to keep bullshitting me, i know, and i, i didn't mean to, whatever it was, but i'm sorry, and i wanna fix this. please, avery. just let me fix this, i'll do whatever it takes."

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to be honest, seunhwa is expecting just about anything but this. maybe he said something cruel without realizing. maybe a friend said something untrue about him, but avery believed it for some reason. maybe, like he’s been so worried about, they know about his stupid crush, and it’s making them uncomfortable. he’s so ready to hear about a mistake he’s made that avery’s words just freeze him, tears trickling down his cheeks as he turns to look at his friend.

"......what?" they whisper, heart dropping. "the person i......avery, i don't.....who are you talking about?" how could he be jealous of himself....unless he thinks they like someone else? seunhwa's utterly lost, pulling their sleeves over their palms to wipe away their stupid fucking tears. “who are you jealous of?”

avery hadn't intended to come across so irritated to seunhwa, hadn't intended to make them think he was angry at them, but knowing he was likely interested in someone that wasn't avery himself brought out something bitter and jealous in him. he knew he didn't have the right to feel that way, they weren't a couple (as much as he wishes they were) but still! feelings were weird. so he just kept denying anything was wrong, hoping the mess of emotions bundled up inside would sort itself out, until avery realised just how badly he screwed up. now here he was, seunhwa hurt and trying not to cry in front of him, and it was all avery's fault.

"it's...complicated okay? i'm sorry, you don't need to be upset just..." avery stopped, taking a deep breath. could they really just admit their feelings right now? it didn't feel like it was the right time for all that, but they knew seunhwa. knew they wouldn't let it go until avery told them the truth. "i'm jealous. not of you, but...the person you like." // @entityforged