#seroquel my beloved

[ineffectualdemon]

I connected the dots!

I was like "holy fuck. Why is it so hard to sit down and actually write like I want to. This used to be so much easier"

I'm not taking antipsychotics

My fic writing boom coincided with going on antipsychotics

My "writers block" coincides with coming off them

I have to learn how to get myself to sit down and write despite my yo-yoing moods

Because honestly? Lot easier to focus and write when I'm stablised by chemicals

[digiblueslush]

Last night for some reason when my sleep pills were kicking in I wasn't trying to sleep right away and I came up (or maybe not, something similar probably already exists) with a new religion idea for some reason?? and I didn't have anything outside of my usual nighttime meds so it was an interesting experience, but I thought I'd like to share what I thought of even though I don't think I'd believe in it and its not fully fledged

So its based off of the concept of heaven and hell in christianity, that theres a "good place" and a "bad place", but it shares something similar with the idea I think of buddhism?? where its like if you perform good in one life you're reincarnated into the next rung of the enlightenment ladder closer to nirvana?? but the idea i was thinking up was instead of pure reincarnation, it like if you started of earth and did "good" you'd go to the "good place" but the "good place" would also have a same scoring system for morality and if you still did "good" you'd go to the "great place" but if you did bad, you'd have to redo life on earth as punishment or something? and same thing for the "bad place" where if you started on earth and did bad, you'd be sent to the "bad place" and there you'd have another set morality scoring system that if you did good you'd be sent back to earth as a reward, or if you did bad at the "bad place" scoring system, you'd be sent to the "terrible place". And that would happen for every "sorta reincarnation" where its a constant sorting system until there is a place you are consistently mid at the scoring system. then you just sorta stay there and thats your true afterlife.

I don't really know how deities would work and like the whole, who determines scoring systems or whatnot, and I don't actually believe in this but yeah. when I fight my sleep meds when I take them at the right time, i also have extremely deep philosophical thoughts lmao

[accordionlover]

seroquel my one true love. seroquel my knight in shining armour my pookie my smoochums. seroquel i love u i am kissing u mwah mwah mwah

[libraford]

Psychosis, or as I like to refer to it: a micro vacation... that sometimes becomes a crossing-the-Gobi-on-foot full blown adventure. Exciting! Seroquel my beloved.

Gonna see if the birth control handles it first, but I kind of started the progestin journey during time of significant emotional disregulation so it's kind of hard to tell if it's doing anything.

[only-knives]

i hate seroquel and am glad im close to getting off it, but my addict brain really misses being completely and utterly incapacitated every night even when sober. it made going to sleep so fucking easy. 25mg isnt enough. i need to be semi comatose.

but i dont get a free pass for drug abuse just bc its seroquel and im prescribed it and technically id be fine if i took 50mg instead. that's not how this works. we are going to be accountable for our own health and wellbeing and not roll back on years of trying to get put on an actual sleep med. not today addiction

sorry for monologing tonite i just uninstalled tiktok for the bajillionth time and remembered i can broadcast whatever thoughts i want on our beloved tumblr dot com

anyway 3 more hours til 149 days. i'll wake up around 10am still a sober man 😊

[morbiidseclusion]

used to be really afraid of antipsychotics, but now its like

seroquel my beloved save me from this hellscape

[ghoulodont]

well im not sure exactly what was happening 2 months ago when i made that but i wanted to say as of recently im doing a lot better and im back on meds that work with tolerable side effects (my beloved & beloathed seroquel) and things are normal.

whats interesting to me is that thinking is easier in some ways but harder in others. it feels like theres an artificially imposed structure to my thoughts. they can no longer branch out organically. i have to stay in a box. and im worried thats going to make it harder to write but i havent really tried because im not inspired by anything. or maybe its going to make writing less interesting because for me part of the joy of writing is constructing something intricate. things arent intricate anymore they are just plain and easy to accept. which is good for paranoia but bad when youre intentionally weaving a web.

what im trying to say is that i think my writing has always been a product of psychotic thinking and im a little scared im going to lose it in favor of things like being able to have a job and being able to go outside without getting scared of people and all of that. i wrote beta lactam in may which was when this episode started. and i guess ive been medicated off and on since then but this feels like im finally stable and maybe a little like a door is closing

[chistery]

400mg of seroquel my beloved

[heartshapedhackjob]

Beloved tumblr Friends today I got 6 hours of sleep last night and I took my dog for a beautiful little walk this morning in the sunrise also I am no longer on Seroquel my Seroquel era is over 💞💕💌💓

[corpus-incorporated]

Sometimes genuine advice can come across as incredibly tone deaf when someone has a medically worse version of a common problem. Time management hacks for neurotypicals work for them but not for the person with adhd, and suggesting those hacks to them will only frustrate them further. The insomnia hacks for those who don’t have chronic sleep issues, the decreasing blue light, the not doing things an hour before before bed, etc etc etc will not fix the whole problem for those who DO have chronic sleep issues. When people suggest these things, say we shouldn’t rely on medications, that it’s unhealthy, don’t understand that these are not just mild inconveniences. Take them seriously.

[valiumvampire]

Quetiapine my beloved…..I miss my seroquel self. I was so tranquil all the time. It’s a shame it made me gain 30+ lbs and made my attention span go to shit though

[holeymolars]

god bless seroquel my beloved

[odball]

seroquel hangover my beloved

[lilworms]

seroquel my beloved

[eraserhead-baby-girl]

Effexor and seroquel and Xanax my beloved but they’re so expensive and I don’t have insurance lol

The US healthcare system is so dystopian

I live in the uk so it’s just a standard £9.50 per prescription - but if its any comfort we can’t get Xanax here so gotta make do with Ativan

[ghoulodont]

i need to start working on my mental illness fic again. the longer i avoid it the more intimidating it seems and i think im getting over the barrier i had for a while which was the thinking too much about my diagnosis. im feeling much more stable than i have been in a while. thank you my beloved seroquel its good to have you back