#seriously none of yinz have this?
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slavicgerman · 9 months ago
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kittleskittle · 7 months ago
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look all i'm saying is that if yinz are going to continue to whine and harass people for shipping aloy with male characters, you gotta reserve some of that energy for the guerrilla devs themselves when they have this art hanging in their office:
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wish I didn't need to make this post and potentially invite Drama but I am sick to fucking death of my friends being harassed over this and i'm not going to stay quiet while that's happening.
also this isn't meant to be an intentional flex but devs and former devs have continually - and I mean post bs dlc - liked my aloy/nil art on social media, including the official guerrilla account liking one of my pieces of niloy art on insta, so idk what to tell you other than please just try to keep to yourselves, and if you don't like something, click away!!
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captainskyson · 5 years ago
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Random get to know me stuff
from @owlfindmydream - I figured, why not? Yinz can do one if you’d like, too.
what was your last…
drink- Water.
phone call- My boss.
text message- Wondering about the airplane circling our neighborhood in the middle of the night.
song you listened to- What Have I Done by Dermot Kennedy (thanks @giles1522 for the Giles feels on that one ;} )
time you cried- After the last two years, the fact I have to think about this question is a great sign lol. Maybe when I watched 1917?
have you ever…
dated someone twice- I’m assuming this means as going back to someone at a later point in time, as opposed to “gone on a second date”... and no.
been cheated on- No.
lost someone special- Yes. Two somewhat recently, which bites.
been depressed- as I have dysthymia, this comes and goes, unfortunately.
gotten drunk and been sick- To the point of getting sick, only once. Tequila. It took me a loooong time to drink tequila again after that, haha.
in this year have you…
made a new friend- Yeah!
fallen out of love- Nope.
laughed until you cried- Probably, this happens to me kind of easily. I’m known for getting the giggles, on occasion.
met someone who changed you- I prefer the term “inspired”.
found out who your true friends are- Not necessarily within this year (it’s only March after all), but I am lucky to know I have dear friends.
general-
do you have any pets- Yes, plus I’m a lucky “aunt” to my friends’ dogs, too ^_^
do you want to change your name- Nope.
what did you do for your last birthday- Can’t remember. My planner says “PA” but that could either mean Pennsylvania, or work. Ha! Clearly it wasn’t that interesting of a birthday.
what time did you wake up today- 0600
what were you doing at midnight last night- Reading fanfic, probably. Ha! I should have been sleeping, especially with the DST change.
what’s something you can’t wait for- When I’ll have the time and funds to travel again.
when was the last time you saw your mom- This morning.
what are you listening to rn- Now it’s on Beloved, by Mumford and Sons... which means I’ll likely be reading a certain fanfic when I’m done with this. XD
have you ever met a person named tom- Hmm... oddly, only one!
what’s something that gets on your nerves- When people in a conversation or debate talk over one another - I think if people did more listening, real listening, there would be a little less chaos in this world.
what’s your blood type- I’m not falling for this trick, vampire.
nickname- Don’t really have one.
relationship status- Defender and supporter of Jeffrey Mace. Haha
zodiac sign- Gemini
pronouns- She/her
fave tv show- Oh, God. I have to pick one?
tattoos- One, currently, but I have plans for more. It’s Irish text.
right or left handed- I’m ambidextrous, actually! But I primarily choose to use my right hand when it comes to things like handwriting, holding a baseball bat, throwing a ball. Interestingly, I’m a lefty in hockey, though.
first…
surgery- Something called Pyloric stenosis; I was a wee babe, less than a year old. I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed, as well.
piercing- None.
best friend- My first best friend was my cousin, a year younger than me.
sport- First sport... running? First organized team sport was softball. I’d played many different ones over the years though, until I had joined band in school and that was that.
vacation- Can’t remember. It was probably a trip to Florida, but the earliest one I can remember and also remember enjoying was a big extended family trip to New Mexico.
right now…
eating- Nothing, though I’d had tomato soup and grilled cheese a few hours ago.
drinking- Water.
I’m about to- Read a fic, go to bed.
listening to- This was asked already, but since my shuffled music has continued to play, it’s now Love You More by Alexi Murdoch.
waiting for- Finishing this up so I can go to bed, haha.
want kids- Maybe. I’ve always felt mediocre about kids, but within the past year I’ve found myself doing the Diana Prince “oh, a baby!” more often... which scares me a little. LOL
want to get married- Yes, or at the least a committed partnership.
career- Television.
which is better…
hugs or kisses- Hugs! I love hugs and I can get depressed if I go a long time without physical touch (like, the non-romantic kind of touching), though I respect that other people aren’t always touchy-feely. Kisses are a-plus, though, from certain people. :D
lips or eyes- Eyes, for sure.
shorter or taller- Taller, for me. Though not TOO tall - I’m short haha.
older or younger- Better in what sense? If we’re going for the attractive attributes theme of this section, then older, always. I’ve always been that way. If I end up marrying a person my own age, everyone who knows me would be shocked. XD
romantic or spontaneous- I can’t have both?
nice arms or nice stomach- Nice arms, a soft tummy! The perfect cuddler. <3
sensitive or loud- Sensitive, I guess. I don’t like loudness, especially male voices. A verbally abusive childhood screws with ya that way.
hook up or relationship- Relationship, always. I never do hook ups.
trouble maker or hesitant- Hesitant only in the sense that I like to plan well in my trouble-making... :]
have you ever….
kissed a stranger- Not a stranger, no, but I’ve kissed people I’m not in a relationship with, for stage/camera.
drank hard liquor- Yes. I’m a big fan of a good Irish whiskey after a long week. Or a well-poured Guinness, which is not hard liquor, but needs mentioning.
sex on the first date- Not unless that date is one of like, three specific celebrities where there are extenuating circumstances LOL. In all seriousness, no. That leans too closely into “hook up” territory, and as physical touch is an important love language for me, I’m particular about these sorts of things.
broke somebody’s heart- I think I did, accidentally, in high school. And maybe unknowingly in college? But I’ll never know for sure about the later one - I transferred away and he hasn’t talked to me since. Oops. Sorry.
had your heart broken- Yes, a few times, both romantically and non-romantically.
been arrested- Nope.
fallen for a friend- Yes.
do you believe in…
yourself- I don’t think as much as I used to. I need to work on that.
miracles- I do. Not in the “I’ve been to heaven and seen God and now I’m back!” sense, but, I do believe every-day little things are happening all the time. And every now and then, big things too. Modern prophets and a near-second-coming, though? No, thank you.
love at first sight- Not quite... but something close to this, yes. I tend to fall in love with people’s hearts before I do their physical presence.
santa claus- No, I think I always knew Santa wasn’t real. But as a kid I was still a fan at Christmas time and liked “getting presents from Santa” and all that jazz.
kiss on the first date- Maybe, if it was a really good date! Especially, if it was with a certain celebrity... LOL. Gotta have that smoochy chance where I can get it. XD
angels- Same idea as the miracles thing; not like the TV “Touched By An Angel” or whatever, but I do believe there is a spirit world and there are angels and there are demons.
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musicprincess655 · 5 years ago
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Hey Itsuki,
You didn’t respond last time, and I kind of hope it’s just because I didn’t take it that seriously and not because you’ve already blocked me. So I’m trying again, and this time, I’ll do it properly.
I’m sorry. I should’ve said that to you a long time ago. I’m sorry I hid things from you for so long. I wish I could say I don’t know why I did it, but I do. I was scared I was going to lose you. Kind of stupid, right? I lost you anyway.
So, yeah. I’m sorry. I fucked up, and you deserved much better.
Mei
Mei stared at his email in disappointment. He’d sent his message days ago, and there was no response. No indication that Itsuki had read it at all.
So he really had been blocked, then.
Still, Mei had expected this from the start. He’d hoped for better, but this was exactly what he’d thought would happen. It didn’t mean he had to change his plans. He still had things to say to Itsuki, after all, even if Itsuki would never see them.
He opened a new message.
Dear Itsuki,
I guess this is it, huh? You’re not listening. I didn’t really think you would. So I’m just going to say whatever I want. I’d say tell me to stop if you don’t like it, but you won’t, will you?
You never did, now that I think about it. You pushed me back on the field, but I don’t remember you ever telling me no when we were together. Is that just because you were okay with everything? Did you feel like you couldn’t? If that’s true, I guess that’s something else I have to apologize for. I know I have a lot of things to apologize for. Give me time. I’ll get to them. I still have my own pride, though.
You’ve never been to America, have you? You hadn’t when I knew you last, but maybe you went after I left. I’m almost sure you’ve never been to Pittsburgh, though. How do I describe Pittsburgh to you? It rains all the time, for one. Like, seriously, all the time. I don’t know how the rivers don’t flood the city from all the rain (spoiler alert: sometimes they do). It’s louder here than it is in Japan, but I think that’s true of just about any American city. The accent isn’t quite what I expected. I guess the accent here isn’t in movies a lot. They call it the “yinzer” accent. Apparently you can say “yinz” to mean a group of people. I’m determined not to pick that one up.
Americans are friendly. I was warned about that coming in. Some people suck because they hear my accent or see my face and that means I’m not one of them, but most people are really nice. I think I fit in here. I can be as childish as I want in public and no one tells me to stop. People just ignore it and keep going. I’m definitely not the weirdest thing they’ve seen today. So take that! I never did have to grow up.
Write back soon :p
Mei
Mei didn’t have long to dwell on the emails, though. It was time to go back to practice.
He walked onto the field to catcalls of traitor! and betrayal! and felt a grin stretch across his face. Being back on his home field felt a little like holding court, and the insults and jeers were friendly, welcoming. It had taken Mei a while to get used to the idea that Americans loved insulting their friends, and to learn to distinguish when it was friendly and when it was serious.
With all the grins coming at him, with the arm around his shoulders and the hands slapping his back, this couldn’t be anything but friendly.
“You son of a bitch, you stole the medal from us!” Stallings complained with his arm around Mei’s shoulders. “Don’t you have any sense of loyalty?”
“Obviously I just wanted to throw you specifically under the bus,” Mei shot back. Stallings laughed, moving Mei’s whole body with the force of it.
“You’re so hard on your catchers. I hope you gave those Japanese players a hard time,” he said. “They might have won the medal, but they had to put up with your bitch ass for months.”
“I am a delight,” Mei said.
“Come on, be nicer to Narumiya,” Vázquez cut in. “It’s no fun being main pitcher if I didn’t beat him fair and square for it.”
“Speaking of which, I’ll be taking that mound back now, please,” Mei said.
“Careful, you’ll let that gold medal go to your head,” Vázquez warned with a fond smile.
“It’s gone to my head the right amount.”
“Alright, alright.” The pitching coach had come over to break them up. “Everyone quit harassing Narumiya. We still have practice.”
Mei ran himself ragged trying to catch back up to everyone else. He’d been playing at a high level in Japan, but it wasn’t the same as being on this team, and the season was in full swing. No one was waiting for him, and he wouldn’t make them.
He was so exhausted when he got home that he didn’t even check for a reply he knew wouldn’t be there.
Dear Itsuki,
For the record, this feels a lot like a diary. I’m writing to someone who never reads the letters. Maybe I should just invest in a journal and save us both the storage in our inboxes. But I don’t think I’m going to do that.
I’m really trying to enjoy the last of the sun here. Summers aren’t all that different. It’s not until the autumn that the rain starts and then it doesn’t stop until summer comes back. Well, it stops for the snow, but that doesn’t count.
Did you ever learn how to drive? I did. You really can’t live in America without driving. Public transit sucks, and most places are hard to walk to. A lot of neighborhoods don’t even have sidewalks.
I can’t imagine you like driving all that much, if you ever did learn. You were never that good at sitting still. I remember you on the bus to games, all keyed up and restless, and I remember the only way you made it through the ride home was because you were asleep. I love driving, though. I love being able to get in a car and go anywhere, no strings attached. Sometimes just the knowledge that I have the power to get up and go is what makes me stay. Like I have an emergency brake or something.
Sometimes I do just get in the car and start going, though. I’ve found some cool stuff that way. America is a big place, and no one person can ever see all of it, but the only way to try is by driving. I wish I could show you sometime.
Mei
They got knocked out of post season play early. It wasn’t all that surprising. They built their team on the backs of Mei and a few other young players. Remove one, and the entire team shakes. At least they made it to bracket play at all, or so they told themselves.
The entire team crammed into a bar to drink more than is reasonable, and Mei couldn’t help feeling a weird kind of parallel. He’d drunk himself silly after winning a gold medal at the Olympics, but here he was after a loss, nursing a beer. He was disappointed by the loss, but he was already planning for next year, for how they could come back. This was fixable.
A woman came up to flirt with him, and Mei just couldn’t feel any interest in taking her home. Now that he knew exactly what kind of wound he’d been patching with the band aid of one night stands, he couldn’t go back to using them to get out of this. It just didn’t seem worth the effort.
He still left the bar more drunk than he’d been in weeks, and instead of drunk calling his ex, he drunk emailed an ex that wouldn’t be listening anyway.
Dear Itsuki,
Since you’re not listening anyway, I’m allowed to say this: I still care about you. A lot. And maybe that’s not fair, because I’m the one that ruined everything, but it’s still the truth. I have to love a memory, though, because I don’t actually know who you are anymore. That might be my biggest regret. I don’t get to know the adult you grew into. I just have to love the teenager you used to be. Maybe you’re a really cool adult. Maybe you suck. I don’t get to know, though, and I have no one to blame but myself.
We lost in the playoffs. I bet you can see that without me telling you. Maybe you don’t follow American baseball at all, though. So. We lost.
Mei
Mei sighed as his phone gave him another low storage warning. He knew he should delete some of his sent emails, but instead, he’d been making sure none of them got deleted. It had been months without a word from Itsuki, and it was stupid to hold onto them, but they weren’t just for Itsuki. They were for him too, and he wanted them.
Knowing that Itsuki wasn’t reading them had been a freeing experience, in a way. Mei didn’t have to perform for anyone, and he wasn’t. Slowly, he’d let his walls of pride come down until he was spilling his guts into an email server, and it helped. A little. He was more honest with himself now, and even if it didn’t hurt less, maybe it would over time. Maybe this was a necessary pain.
Dear Itsuki,
I think what I miss most is your friendship. I miss sitting around doing homework together. I miss playing that idol game you used to like so much. I miss being on the same team as you, and being in a battery with you. I miss all the stuff we had before I was ever interested in kissing you.
Is that stupid? I’m all heartbroken over you, and what I want back the most isn’t a relationship. Although, to be fair, apparently everyone’s into recognizing platonic friendships are as important as romantic relationships now, so maybe it’s not all that stupid.
You were one of my best friends. Maybe my best friend. Even if I never get your love back, I wish I could have that back. It meant the most to me. You were important to me. I never told you that outright, and I wish I had. Even if you’d never wanted to kiss me or anything else, you still would’ve been important to me. I regret breaking that the most.
I miss you.
Mei
That was the hardest thing to admit, because he had to admit it to himself. He missed Itsuki. He missed him like a limb. He missed the effortless battery they’d had, the way Itsuki couldn’t keep his hands still on the bus, the way he’d argue with a senpai even while he respected authority to a ridiculous degree. Mei had loved him, and maybe still did, but the most important part of Itsuki, to Mei, had always been their friendship.
Mei strategically deleted other emails in his inbox to make room for his archive. He wasn’t giving up all these letters to Itsuki, not now, and maybe not ever. Maybe someday this wound he’d torn back open would be healed for real, and then he could delete these and finally let Itsuki go. But for now, he was still trying to stitch himself back together, and he was trying to do it the right way this time. All he could do was hope that it would be worth it, in the end, that knowing and healing would be better than the willful ignorance he’d forced himself into for eight years.
Time was supposed to heal all wounds. Mei hoped it would heal this one.
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fiveknivesdates · 5 years ago
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Starting fires wherever we go
Camilla
The rest of the floors pass in a blur. Shira showed me the training rooms and the cinema, the gardens and the hangars. She even showed me an entire floor that is just a maze. She told me that the Maze can be changed into different settings, like a cave system or city plan.
“Are we done now?” I ask as we enter the elevator again. We had just been inside the hangars, which Shira had told me were the last floor. I couldn’t wait to get my hands on my stuff again, and then go to sleep.
“Not quite,” Shira said with that usual cheer in her voice that reminded me of a more chaotic Erika. “We would be bad hosts if we just let you go to bed without dinner, n’at”
It was the first time I really noticed that Shira had an accent with the slur of words and that. I couldn’t place the origin of her accent. I am only really familiar with the English my mom used when I was younger. I realized that I must also have an accent when speaking English, and it was highly likely that I had inherited my mother’s Italian accent. It made me close my mouth, afraid that Shira or one of the others might suspect that I had deeper roots than just being Danish. Italy was my secret, it was my plan B if everything else failed. I couldn't give that away to any of them, and especially not through something so stupid as an accent.
Shira didn't notice my silence but continued. “I am sure that some of the others will show up, so it’ll be a chance for you to get to know the others”
She looks at me, waiting for something. A reply, a nod of my head, anything to acknowledge what she said. I continue staring ahead, waiting for the doors to open. As soon as they do, I step out into the Kitchen and Common Room. Erika, Zeph, and Aiden are all sitting by a dining table, talking quietly together. A girl that I hadn’t seen before is standing by the kitchen, possibly making the food. Her back is turned to me, but still, I can see something elegant about her, it's in the way she holds herself as if her feet aren't touching the ground. Her hair is such a light shade of blonde that it looks white. She is wearing a white dress with a silver belt, and her shoes look like porcelain. She moves around the kitchen with grace, her pale hands poking around in the cabins
Shira sits down by the table, so I follow her reluctantly.
“What do you think of the Pyramid?” Erika asked. She was sitting in front of me, with her hands folded neatly on the table.
“I like it” I lie. The only thing going through my mind is how much I want to leave and go back to my room.
“That’s good to hear,” She smiles genuinely. “You must be hungry then. Morrigan, won't you tell Camilla what’s for dinner?”
The girl with the white hair, Morrigan, looks over at me with gray eyes, up and down as she judges my worth.
“Pie with roasted chicken on the side,” She said with a smile that showed of her perfect teeth, her face radiating fake all over.
“Dips on the chicken,” Zeph says quickly, eyeing the oven.
“You are disgusting,” Lynn says simply from behind me. I had not noticed him joining us. I looked back and forth at Zeph and Lynn, but none of them said anything further. Morrigan sat the food down on the table and everyone began taking a piece of the pie, except Zeph who only took the chicken.
“Don’t mind Zeph,” Erika said to me, clearly noticing that I was still staring. “The only kind of meat that Zeph eats is chicken.”
“Is it a diet thing?” I ask, mostly to make small talk.
“No,” Zeph cuts in, mouth full of chicken. “It's cause it's fucking delicious”
“You are literally going to die of poisoning,” Lynn said
I looked at Erika for an explanation, but she only shrugged.
The conversation never died at the table. Shira and Aiden talked the most, and they talked loud, laughing and almost choking on their drinks multiple times. Zeph and Erika talked with Shira and Aiden from time to time, but they seemed more interested in asking me questions, all of which I avoided or ignored. Sometimes someone would ask Morrigan a question, and she’d answer politely, still with that edge in her voice. It was clear that Morrigan felt somewhat distant towards the others.
Lynn was situated between Morrigan and Zeph, and he kept glancing over at Zeph and his roasted chicken.
“So Camilla,” Erika started. I tensed, waiting for her question. “How come you are so good at English? Not to be invasive or anything, but you did drop out of school early”
I shrugged, making something up in my mind. “It just came naturally. Maybe it's a power or whatever. How come some of you have accents? Where are you all from?” I narrowly changed the subject and gave myself a mental pad on the shoulder.
Erika simply smiled at me, which didn’t make me feel good. I was beginning to suspect that she wasn't taking me seriously. “Both me and Shira are from America.”
“I’m Canadian,” Aiden said, not hiding the fact that he must have been listening to our conversation. “We are kinda like the American Trinity.”
“I voted for ‘American Gods’,” Shira said. “You know, like the book, but apparently it's an unsaid rule that we should not compare ourselves to gods.”
“But your accent?” I asked Shira, who then began laughing. Zeph and Aiden both joined her, with Erika smiling along and the two others just staring at them.
“Americans have accents. Erika has an accent too, she just hides it” Shira shrieked, trying to stop laughing.
“As if Erika has an accent,” Aiden yelled, “You were fucking unintelligible when we first met you. All yinz and n’that. That! That was an accent like I’ve ever heard one”
“And you don't think you talk a tad bit funny, eh?” Shira teased right back. They continued going back and forth until I realized that I was no longer a part of the conversation I had originally started. I looked down at my food.
“Shira is from Pittsburgh,” Erika told me with her gentle voice. “They tend to talk rather funny there”
“What about the others,” I asked, trying to ignore Shira and Aiden’s loud and friendly bickering. “Where are they from?”
“Morrigan is from Sweden, so don't try to curse at her or anything in Danish. Lynn is from Australia, though I think he might also be Irish, I don't know, he never really talks about it. Adi is German.”
“And what about Zeph,” I asked, glancing over at the guy who was slowly chewing his chicken while smirking at a fuming Lynn.
Erika just shrugged. “Dunno. Somewhere in Europe?”
“Oh,”
“He used to be a Drifter,” Erika said, then explained when she saw my look of confusion. “A Tethered person who isn’t part of the Organization. There are quite a lot of them, actually. They usually operate on their own in territories. Both North Africa, Alaska and parts of India are controlled by other Tethered, which makes it extremely dangerous for us to enter those zones since Drifters tend to be quite territorial.”
“But Zeph was a drifter?” I asked, “For how long?”
“I don't know, like thirty years or something.” Erika wondered. “He teamed up with Javier in like the forties and they both joined the Organization in 1977.”
Everybody by the table went quiet at the mention of Javier’s name, and a few even turned to look over at Zeph.
“Who’s Javier?” I asked, maybe a bit too oblivious about the situation in front of me.
“Javier was the best thing that ever happened to this place,” Zeph said quietly, then laughed and ran a hand through his thick, dark brown hair. “Sorry, I just. I don't know. He died four years ago. Killed.” Zeph said with force. “He was killed four years ago”
I honestly didn’t know what to say. I knew I should properly offer comfort, but I barely knew Zeph nor this Javier.
“I am sorry,” I tried, but even I could hear that I wasn’t, that I didn't really care.
“It's okay, I am fine now,” Zeph said. “I just wish we had found out who killed him and Miriam.”
“It’s not like it could just be anyone,” Aiden said, glancing over at the other side of the table where Morrigan and Lynn were sitting.
“Only Tethered people can kill Tethered people,” Erika told me, trying to put the conversation back on track. “We are immortal unless someone takes our immortality, which takes a lot of power to do”
She clearly failed in keeping the others civil, because Morrigan shot Aiden back with a. “Why are you so quick to make up assumptions?”
“Because you never liked Javier and were clearly jealous of Miriam,” Aiden accused
“You don't know anything,” Morrigan yelled, getting up from her chair. Her silver-gray eyes were blazing with fury. “How dare you accuse me of murder. How dare you say to my face, in front of everyone, that I was jealous of Miriam. Miriam! She was my friend, Aiden, but clearly you don't know what those are, seeing as you always just third wheel on everyone else” Everyone was quiet for way too long. I was about to open my mouth to say something, but then Aiden got up too and said with a calm I knew he was faking. “Thanks for dinner, Morrigan. It’s always a pleasure to hear your opinion”
Everyone followed him with their eyes as he left, his footsteps ringing loudly through the room.
“Morrigan,” Erika said disappointingly. “That was not very nice”
“He had it coming,” Morrigan answered airily. “He should know not to throw accusations around at dinner. Better wait till after dessert with wreaking havoc in the family”
Nobody said anything again. We all continued to eat or dinner and soon we moved onto dessert which was a soft chocolate cake that Morrigan had also made. Her cooking wasn’t anything extraordinary, but still it felt like the best meal I had ever had.
It wasn't until we were halfway through dinner before Shira said “I really hope we have it wrong. That it's not one of us, but someone or something else.”
I fell down onto my bed as soon as we were done. My brain was still buzzing from being around so many new people, and my vision was blurring slightly at the edges. Still, I couldn't sleep. The conversation between the others kept replaying in my mind. If I had understood correctly, two people had been murdered, which meant a murder was on the loose. It seemed kind of unsafe for my well being to stay in a place where there had been two unsolved murders. I knew how hard it was to end someone else’s life and I didn’t trust anyone who could do that to another human being.
I knew I had to leave before it was I who was dead.
Still, I knew I wouldn’t. I didn’t trust a single person here, I knew it was dangerous, knew that I could just leave right now and find someplace in the world, and then live peacefully for hundreds of years, but I was just beginning to learn about this new side of myself that I had never known existed. I wanted so badly to learn how to use my powers, I wanted that rush of power I felt when I was running or when I was swimming. I wanted to feel alive and to feel well, and I suspected this was the only place I might learn how to feel those things.
That’s why I came up with my plan. It is a compromise that will let me stay, while also making sure that I wouldn’t be in danger for longer than necessary.
The plan: Find the murderer. It sounded unrealistic in my own ears, but still, I needed to try. It was the only way my own paranoia would let me stay in this place.
It was the only way I could live with myself.
I closed my eyes. Determined to do this and do it well. I needed all my walls in place, I needed to be able to be objective, to never get too close to the suspects, and they were all suspects. I needed to think quickly, but if there was anything that I was, it was fast. Faster than everyone else.
With my eyes closed, the only thing I could hear was my own heartbeat, fast but steady, never slowing down, never giving up. I heard as much as I felt two screams from far away, and just as the third was about to be unleashed, I woke to the quiet of my new room.
On my bedside table is the book that Shira had given me. A page for each member of this place, a page for the two people who are dead, and quite possibly also a page for the one who killed them. Now I just had to figure you who could have done it <- Previous chapter // Next chapter ->
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