#seraphiism'24

[syneilesis]

[fic] drowning, and more drowning

drowning, and more drowning

Love and Deepspace | Rafayel (Qi Yu) x Main-Character!Reader | T | 2k words | ao3 link

in the previous life, maybe the next too, we're eternally together. All their lives, devotion is the only lesson that endures.

A/N: For @seraphiism 's 2024 writing event. Quote is from DNA by BTS. The heart is a fish concept is from K-Ming Chang's Bestiary.

I based some stuff on my rusty memories of Rafayel's myths stories. I don't know what I wrote, but I had fun. Divider by @/cafekitsune.

in the previous life [the sea]

I.

Rafayel tasted of sea when you kissed him, that first time.

II.

Outlined by moonlight, he seemed ethereal somehow. A wraith stolen by the sea because it was lonely; retained all its earthly character except for its soil. Almost childlike with his laughter, and his surprise.

This was the first thing you had learned of the sea: its loneliness begets desire.

And this desire had given you a second life. From land to sea, the plunge into the afterlife.

Once, your elders had said that the sea was sacred because of the god that resided in it, but now, looking at this young man with pearl-smooth face, you knew that they could have never been more wrong.

The sea was sacred because its loneliness was too strong, and the desire that came out of it had given birth to this boy-god whose laughter was carefree as the turbulent waves that would drown you the moment you decided to place your life in his hands.

III.

In the days that followed, you learned what becoming a follower meant for Lemuria and her sea god.

“Being your follower is like being in love with you, when you think about it.”

Rafayel dropped the shell he was playing and whirled at you with a scandalized look.

“Why would you say it like that?” A flush bloomed across his cheeks and his ears, which was a darling contrast to his hair.

“But the way you explained it ...” You paused, struck with a thought. “I've never been in love before.”

“Oh, really?”

“Then again, I wouldn't know what being in love feels like, so who am I to say?”

“That's right.” Crossed hands, then a nod. “You wouldn't know what it feels like.”

“I suppose so.”

You turned to him. Rafayel sat across the room, surrounded by his little trinkets. This was what confused you: the weight of a Lemurian bond rested primarily on its god, the one who had more power between the two. It didn't make any sense: Rafayel having to follow your words like a dog pleasing its owner. But, perhaps, that was the point: devotion as vast and deep as the sea itself. Something enormous like this required an equilibrium. Hence: a lesson on selflessness.

You smiled at him. The blush crawled down to his neck, his chest. “In that case, should I fall in love with you?”

IV.

I will gladly give you my heart, if you wished it. This is my vow:

I will be your most—and only—devout follower, worshiping every strand of your hair, your lashes. I will scoop the sand off your footprints and keep them in small bottles. Every step you take leaves traces of sea in its wake. I will cup the lingering scent of salt in my hands, swallow it in my mouth down my throat so the sea stays within me in all its loneliness and enormity. You will be the only truth I will know, and your voice will be firebrand in my bones, eternally beating.

I will love you and only you, my water god my nacre heart, until the end of my breath, and beyond.

I will forever drown in my love for you, if you only said yes.

V.

He fell in love with you the moment you kissed him, and there came his first lesson: devotion as nothing but the willingness to drown.

maybe the next too [the sand]

i.

The desert reminded him of the sea, sometimes. Vast. Lonely. Had a habit of pulling you opposite of where you wanted to go. At times playful, at times rough, but always had a lesson to teach you.

And this lesson, Rafayel thought as he swam to the water's surface with you in his arms, was a cruel one in its stubborn unforgetting.

ii.

You tended to tilt your head slightly to the left when you're curious about something. This was the second thing Rafayel learned about you.

The first, of course, was that your heart could bring back Lemuria. The sea in all its infinity. A god's heart was powerful, after all.

The third: there was longing in your eyes that Rafayel couldn't ignore, try all that he might. This longing felt like an echo, a whisper of devotion made so long ago, uttered by a warm set of lips that almost touched his skin. It felt like fire. It felt like a brand.

It felt like drowning.

This was another thing that the desert and the sea were alike: if you strayed from your path, they would never, ever let you return.

iii.

He did not fall in love, he couldn't afford to. What was the point? He was a figurehead before he was a man, and what could be more important than a nation trying to bring back its home?

“I understand,” you said, tremulous smile captured by the moonlight pooling over you both. “I am yours, Rafayel. My heart is in your hands.”

The correct answer was to take it—your heart. It was the only way, you and he knew it. You were handing him what he needed on a silver platter. He only had to take it.

His hand twitched for your offer. Then it trembled.

Then it clenched so tightly it left indentation that would last for days.

A long, harsh exhale poured out of him.

Rafayel closed his eyes. He only prayed that he would not regret it.

iv.

“Rafayel, will you let me come with you?”

There you were, rumpled as windblown laundry, chest heaving from so much running. Too much running—just to catch up to him. Your voice cracking with each shout of his name. It was almost endearing, if not for the maw that opened inside Rafayel's ribcage.

You shouldn't be here. He had let you go and left behind the only thing that could grant his wish. It was a lesson on selflessness and he had learned it—painfully so and with great sacrifice.

But you—

You.

He wanted to laugh. He wanted to cry. He wanted to scream. Was this how drowning truly felt like?

“Rafayel, please.”

What else could his answer be? There was only one option left to take.

v.

The desert was vast and lonely, just like the sea. And still Rafayel walked on, one foot in front of the other, towards a place that could give another answer to his question.

Beside him you followed, a little tired but whole. Devoutly whole.

we’re eternally together [the vow]

1.

In one life he's a lost soul and you found him amidst the battering waves, pulled his hand up and saved him from being completely adrift.

In another you don't remember him, and it hurts but that's all right—he's going to make you fall in love with him like how he has with you, like a foolish dog devoted to its one and only owner.

After all, in the game of waiting, Rafayel has already emerged the victor.

2.

Sometimes, there's a shadow in his eyes that you glimpse in his quieter moments. But he's good at hiding it, surprisingly. If it weren't for the first time you caught it—by accident, and just in the periphery—you'd never thought that Rafayel could possess such capacity for darkness.

It saddens you somehow—that bitter slant of his gaze, the sardonic tilt of his mouth. It's most obvious when he talks about his past. Around his past, when there's something he doesn't want you to know.

There's still a lot of things you don't know about Rafayel.

But that's okay. You're patient, and Rafayel's not ready yet. You'll take whatever he'll give you—and that's enough for now.

3.

“There's a saying,” you begin, “that the human heart is a fish.”

Rafayel doesn't pause in his sketching, the scratch of pencil on paper studiously unceasing as you talk. He hums, though.

“Do Lemurians have fish hearts too?”

That makes him stop. Over the sketchbook Rafayel's eyes are twin whirlpool states of baffled and unamused. You tamp down the urge to laugh at his expression.

“If Lemurian hearts were fishes,” he finally says, “then we'd be dull as any actual fish in the sea.”

“You're being mean to your brethren.”

“Where did you hear that, by the way?”

“Oh, in another country during my last mission.” A seagull swoops closely by the window, and Rafayel goes back to his sketch. “They say that the fish-heart yearns to swim outside your mouth, so you should never, ever let it.”

“And why is that?”

“Because once it does, it will touch the air, and it will die.”

Silence. It may appear that Rafayel has stopped listening to you, but you know that's not true, because there it is again: the shadow, bracketing his narrowed eyes.

Rafayel's heart is a fish. And he can never reveal it. Because to let his heart swim out of his body means to display the most vulnerable parts of him. And for Rafayel, being vulnerable is dangerous. You may not know his whole story, but you can draw a partial image from the scattered puzzle pieces he inadvertently—or willingly—leaves behind.

At times like this, you think of the idea of devotion—the unconditional commitment of one to another, the totality of its embrace. Perhaps this is how you are—how you will be—with Rafayel, devoted hand and heart, body and soul. Maybe not now, but somewhere in your veins, in the marrow of your bones, the certainty exists. It is inevitable.

“I think mine is a fish,” you say, carefully watching him for any reaction. “So you have to promise me—that when it escapes you have to catch it, okay?”

He doesn’t say anything in return, and the strokes of his pencil are what’s left of the ensuing silence.

4.

In your dreams you've begun to learn of the sea's language.

Long, rough waves but short, playful ripples. And always—always—lilting loneliness.

In one of those dreams, you're a follower of a sea god; in another, a princess whisked away by a vagrant assassin.

But every one of them—every one of them—involves drowning in some form. You plunge into the sea to devote yourself to a god; you plunge into the desert to devote yourself to a vagabond. The sea's lonely whispers permeate, diving inside your flesh, making a home between your bones, around your heart.

At first, you did not understand its words, but through repetition, you've picked up some of them: follower, heart, drown, truth,

yes

The first complete sentence you've learned:

loneliness begets desire

The most recent:

rafayel, please

When you wake, your mouth tastes of salt and sand.

5.

Rafayel turns up at your doorstep at precisely the beginning of sunrise, sweaty and panting. His hair is a mess, bangs clinging wetly to his forehead. His clothes are disheveled, as if he's braved a thunderstorm and survived. His eyes are a little wild, manic, sleepless, but ardently luminous.

“I lost,” he says in between lungful gulps of air, “but in a way I still won.”

“Rafayel, what—”

You don't get to finish: Rafayel grabs you and slots his lips into yours.

So this is what it feels like, falling into the sea.

Rafayel kisses you like a man drowning: desperate and dying and you're his lifeline that he has to hold onto.

When he lets go, his eyes are closed and a smile teases at the corners of his mouth.

“I guess between the two of us, it's only me who's the fool.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I'm tired of waiting. Lesson learned. I lost. You won. I always lose, when it comes to you.”

The smile unfurls fully, and finally—finally—he answers the question you've asked a thousand lives ago:

“It's still a win, so yes. For you, it's an eternal yes.”

my water god my nacre heart, this is my devotion, my forever vow to you, and only you

[seraphiism]

─── 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐇𝐈𝐈𝐒𝐌'𝐒 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓

✧ ˚ · . welcome to kay's 2024 writing event! this is essentially the same as the '23 event! i had a lot of fun planning it out and reading everyone's fics, so i figured i'd go ahead and post this year's event much earlier (ง ˙ω˙)ว this is intended to be small, no pressure community event ( •̀ᴗ•́ )و essentially, the premise is to pick a quote from this post and write a fic revolving around said quote! i hope everyone will find one they'll enjoy integrating into their story (･ω･ﾉﾉﾞand i hope you have fun writing your story!

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✧ ˚ · . guidelines !

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✧ ˚ · . quotes !

╭┈ 𝐯𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐨 𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬 ✧. ┊ 𝗯𝗶𝗼𝘀𝗵𝗼𝗰𝗸 01. ' there is no place for you in paradise. ' 02. ' nothing ever scared me so much as saying goodbye. ' 03. ' you sacrificed, you endured, and when given the chance, you forgave. ' 04. ' time rots everything. even hope. ' ➺ CLAIMED ( @astolary ) 05. ' what can i do with this one, aphrodite? '

✧. ┊ 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗮𝘀𝘆 𝘀𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀 06. ' i'll be here. i'll be waiting for you. if you come here, you'll find me. i promise. ' ➺ CLAIMED ( @hivvernal ) 07. ' nothing worth fighting for was ever won without sacrifice. ' ➺ CLAIMED ( @keqism ) 08. ' things fade with time, as do many things in this world. but there are some things that we cannot let disappear. ' 09. ' what can i do? what do you want from me? if i can't live or die, what do you want me to do? ' 10. ' be careful. don't let hatred take over. '

✧. ┊ 𝗽𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗴𝗶𝗰; 𝗽𝘁. 𝗶 11. ' are you capable of loving anyone at all? ' ➺ CLAIMED ( @thomine ) 12. ' i'd rather you relieve my heartache. it's become so acute lately, like my heart expires. ' 13. ' don't come near me. we both know how it is. no escape. ' 14. ' yes, my love, you are the bravest. ' 15. ' you are correct. i am a destroyer. ' ➺ CLAIMED ( @hivvernal )

✧. ┊ 𝗽𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 16. ' i'm glad i'm going before you, even if it's sooner than either of us would like. ' 17. ' some will gaze into your lines and paint to seek a deeper meaning. what will they find? ' 18. ' if there is fire in their hearts, we must pray for rain. ' 19. ' it is but one trial after the other, but i will persevere. mark my words. 20. ' an eye for an eye. you may have condemned me, but in doing so, you damned yourself as well. '

✧. ┊ 𝗽𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁; 𝗽𝘁. 𝗶𝗶 21. ' life is never easy. you take that lesson to heart. ' 22. ' you can fight for something right and still choose the wrong way to do it. i swore i would never let that happen again. ' 23. ' you can't run from your past forever. ' ➺ CLAIMED ( @decadentfantasy ) 24. ' the things we don't want to see-- we ignore it as long as we can for everyone's sake. ' 25. ' love is the only reason to do anything in this life. '

✧. ┊ 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗹𝗳 𝗮𝗺𝗼𝗻𝗴 𝘂𝘀 26. ' our stories used to be simple. we had a beginning, a middle, and an end. ' 27. ' sometimes, we have to find our way through life on our own, grasping and fumbling through the dark. ' 28. ' you're not as bad as everyone says you are. ' 29. ' i just want you to be careful. i almost lost you once. ' 30. ' when we suffer, we do it in silence, and the world likes it that way. '

╭┈ 𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬 ✧. ┊ 𝗯𝘁𝘀 31. ' where there is hope, there is always hardship. ' 32. ' in the previous life, maybe the next too, we're eternally together. ' ➺ CLAIMED ( @syneilesis ) 33. ' from the very beginning, my heart runs to you. ' 34. ' i can't show you a ruined part of myself ; once again, i put a mask on and go to see you. ' 35. ' the morning will come again ; no darkness can last forever. '

✧. ┊ 𝗱𝗽𝗿 𝗶𝗮𝗻 36. ' i'm losing my mind, but i think i'll be alright. just hold my hand, you'll see. ' 37. ' don't worry, i'll find a way to come back. i always do. ' 38. ' i lost myself under the sun ; i got too close and now i'm burning. ' 39. ' i wanna see the world with you, oh darling. ' 40. ' and as we draw our goodbyes, i'll be patient for your words, but you told me you had nothing to say. '

✧. ┊ 𝗺𝗲𝗴 &𝗱𝗶𝗮 41. ' you’ve got to weigh your wars ; make sure you're not fighting for nothing. ' 42. ' you've become more than i could have become for you. ' 43. ' you've got to act like god ; you rule the world, you give the word. ' 44. ' if all that you take from this is courage, then i've no regrets. ' 45. ' but if i could tell you one thing, i would tell you i'm not leaving. ' ➺ CLAIMED ( @bornofchalk )

✧. ┊ 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗰. 𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗶𝘀𝘁𝘀; 𝗽𝘁. 𝗶 46. ' you're living in your mind and nostalgia holds you in dark places. ' ┊ banks 47. ' i couldn't save you, but at least i say i tried. ' ┊ banks 48. ' i'll embrace you and take care of you ; i'll wash you with alcohol and forgive your sins. ' ┊ bibi ➺ CLAIMED ( @ex-tenebris ) 49. ' honestly, i didn't think about how we didn't say goodbye, just 'see you very soon.' ┊ laufey ➺ CLAIMED ( @rqnvindr ) 50. ' god, i'm so lovesick. what have you done to me? ' ┊ laufey ➺ CLAIMED ( @syneilesis )

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[thomine]

thomine's masterlist

i only write for genshin playable characters on this blog.

FULL TO-DO LIST in no particular order.

unfinished series (see below)

seraphiism’s 2023 & 2024 entry

thesteambird’s uncommon acts of love

thesteambird’s secret santa

spotify requests (2)

slo’s dynamic galore (2)

prompt requests (11)

june’s music event

2023 wips (11)

2024 wips (21)

series: each series has their own tag & post

clarity & confessions | very slow updates 8 various characters. 1 to be rewritten.

au august 2023 | slow updates 31 various character. 17 written.

angstpril 2024 | slow updates 30 various characters. 3 written.

oneshots: view all writing practices: view all

❀ = fan fave | ✦ = author fave | 𖦹 = teen & up

[ / ] = romantic | [ x ] = up to interpretation | [ & ] = platonic

⠀

ANEMO | kazuha, heizou, venti, wanderer, xiao

kazuha [ x ] an angel always falls on its feet / 1.2k / day 8 of au august 2023

heizou [ / ] like a ripple in a pond (ao3) ✦ / 5.1k [ x ] the unseen ❀ / 800 / day 17 of au august 2023

venti [ / ] ready, aim, fire (ao3) ✦ ❀ / 1.2k [ x ] unfolding reputation / 1.5k / day 6 of au august 2023 [ / ] the wind must blow the windmills (ao3) / day 2 of angstpril 2024

wanderer [ x ] in the nick of time / 1.1k / day 2 of au august 2023

xiao [ x ] beneath the surface / 1.1k / day 1 of au august 2023

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CYRO | chongyun, freminet, kaeya mika

chongyun [ / ] for your sake (ao3 only) / 3.2k [ x ] flash of fun / 1.5k / day 11 of au august 2023

freminet [ x ] floating under pressure 𖦹 / 1.4k [ x ] in pairs ❀ / 1.4k

kaeya [ x ] only fools are satisfied / 800

mika [ x ] through thick or thin / 600 / day 18 of au august 2023

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DENDRO | alhaitham, baizhu, kaveh, tighnari

alhaitham [ x ] the duet of one's heart ✦ / 1.4k / day 7 of au august 2023

baizhu [ x ] the tug or nurture / 1.1k / day 9 of au august 2023

kaveh [ / ] i care more to be loved / 5.4k [ x ] present moments of yore / 1.4k / day 4 of au august 2023

tighnari [ x ] reaching out ❀ / 1.9k [ x ] foolish logic / 1.5k / day 5 of au august 2023

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ELECTRO | cyno, fischl

cyno [ x ] limbo / 900 [ / ] truthful rumours ❀ / 1.3k [ x ] the start of something magical / 1.2k / day 23 of au august 2023

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GEO | albedo, itto, zhongli

albedo [ & ] to wish on sea foam / 900 / day 12 of au august 2023

itto [ / ] say it, love (ao3) / 1.5k / day 3 of angstpril 2024

zhongli [ / ] the things we hold so dear 𖦹 / 1k / day 24 of au august 2023

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hydro | ayato, tartaglia, xingqiu

ayato [ x ] i know you know i know / 1k / day 10 of au august 2023

tartaglia [ x ] sheep in wolf's clothing / 900 / day 3 of au august 2023

xingqiu [ x ] search in vain ✦ / 1.6k / day 21 of au august 2023

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PYRO | bennett, thoma

bennett [ x ] a sight to behold / 1.5k / day 19 of au august 2023

thoma [ / ] a lovely lonely night / 1.7k [ x ] at least it's something 𖦹 / 1.6k [ / ] sincere sins & serious schemes 𖦹 / 2.8k / day 13 of au august 2023 [ / ] the 10 year bet (ao3) / 1.9k / day 1 of angstpril 2024

[arkhammaid]

wip poll game!!

rules: make a 24-hour poll with the names of your wips, let it run, then write one sentence for every vote the winner got!!

ty for the tag 🫶 ( @aimixx & @baeshijima )

no pressure tags: @rarepears , @auraxins , @keqism , @k-zu , @marbelcrossovers , @seraphiism + everyone else who would like to join!!

[itsyaboikibbi]

The seraverse story will mainly delve into seraphi’s journey to other countries on the planet, Caradoc and Segenam accompany her on these journeys as well as people she’ll meet on the way.

These are the countries around mewni, if anyone wants to think of a name for one of them or a possible race/species design message me and I’ll tag you along with drawing or reblogging your design, you can even make oc’s for the countries or for members of seraphi’s ship! Thank you to anyone that wants to partake!

1- Mewni

2-

3-

4-Asmos

5-

6-

7-yospodak

8-udral

9-

10-

11-Froysil

12-stoejal

13-dotrium

14-wuclor

15-Aprad

16-Driok

17-

18-

19-

20-leshoyria

21-

22-

23-Lustrestian Stiyw

24-logyl

25-

26-Treuca

27-Druatho

28-

29-Ocrya

[obscene-tevene]

tag game!

get ta know me tag

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

This tag game brought to you by the illustrious @cottonballwithmustache

LAST:

1. Drink: Iced Coffee 2. Phone call: ....well I work in reception so... XD 3. Text message: Princess Seraphi. 4. Song you listen to: Mind Brand - Kuraiinu ver. 5. Time you cried: uh... last week? I think?

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice:  Yeah... I didn’t know when to let sleeping dogs lie. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it:  AHAhahahaha..... 8. Been cheated on: I don’t think so. 9. Lost someone special: My little furbaby. May she finally rest in peace. 10. Been depressed: Currently. Anti-depressants make my world all shiny. :D 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Yesssss. It was embarrassing. And hilarious. 

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14:

Teal

Royal Purple

Sky Blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes! Thank you SLBP fandom :3c and Evan too. Come back Evannnnn :C

16. Fallen out of love: I don’t think I ever fell in love. ...Unless otome husbands count.

17. Laughed until you cried: All the time. Princess Seraphi makes raids fun! 18. Found out someone was talking about you: I don’t care enough to find out. 20. Found out who your friends are: uh... 21.  Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Nope.

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Most of them I think. I don’t remember who’s on my FB anymore. 23. Do you have any pets: *loud pained sobbing* 24. Do you want to change your name: Sometimes. I mean... Gabe is a nice name... 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I don’t remember. I know I was travelling at the time. 26. What time do you wake up: About 7am-ish. Not that I roll out of bed until about 8am XD 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Playing Ever Oasis. That game has taken over my life. D: 28. Name something you can’t wait for: PAX AUSTRALIA!!!!!!!!  29. When was the last time you saw your mom? Just then. We work in the same office, she’s my boss ;;;; 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: That I never gave up learning Japanese. I’d be fluent right now, or at least close to it. 31. What are you listening to right now: Meteor - Hatsune Miku V4x ver. 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom come back! 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: The idiot circus I have to deal with at work. Like for real I get that tax is hard, but go bitch to the accountants. I’m just the desk monkey. 34. Most visited website: tumblr. followed by youtube and then probably ebay. 35. Mole/s: I have.... 3? 4? 36. Mark/s: One giant birthmark on my ass. 37. Childhood dream: Astronomer and a teacher. 38. Hair color: Dark brown with a bleached fringe. 39. Long or short hair: short and shaved on one side. 40. Do you have a crush on someone: ...yes.  41. What do you like about yourself: My boobs? Can I say that? 42. Piercings: One helix, three lobes on each side and a tongue piercing 43. Blood type: No idea. 44. Nicknames? Gabe, Hey yo, Luna 45. Relationship status: Currently married to my DS

46. Zodiac: Capricorn 47. Pronouns: She 48. Favorite TV Show: Uh... I don’t watch TV. 50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: Never. 52. Hair dyed in different color: My fringe used to be pink... it’s now a pale straw yellow. I’ve gone bubblegum pink, green, purple and blue before as well. 53. Sport: I played volleyball and indoor hockey in high school. 55. Vacation: I just... want to stay home for Christmas this year. I’m sick of travelling. 56. Pair of trainers: I borrow my dad’s if I ever need them.

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: Nothing 58. Drinking: Iced Coffee 59. I’m about to: ...go back to work XD 62. Want: My bed and my DS 63. Get married: One day. 64. Career: Children’s librarian or a games programmer 65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs! 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: Taller 68. Older or younger: Older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Uh.... 71. Sensitive or loud: Loud. I’m emotional enough. 72. Hook up or relationship: not really interested atm? 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Troublemaker. Variety is the spice of life.

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: Yes. I was drunk. 75. Drank hard liquor: Yes. Again, drunk. 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: All the time. >.> 77. Turned someone down: Yeah 78. Sex on the first date: ....yeah. 79. Broken someone’s heart: I dunno. 80. Had your heart broken: I... no. 81. Been arrested: Nope. I’ve been pulled over for an RBT several times. 82. Cried when someone died: Yeah. 83. Fallen for a friend: Worst. Mistake. Ever.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84: Yourself: More than I used to. 85. Miracles: Ahahaha no. 86. Love at first sight: Nah. 87. Santa Claus: I’m not sure if I ever believed in him? 88. Kiss on the first date: Sure. 

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: Princess Seraphi.  91. Eye color: Dark Brown 92. Favorite movie: I... don’t watch movies either ;;;;

....I don’t know 20 people.

TAG: @dean-winchesters-right-nipple, @zacroix, @honeybeelily, @antivanbrandy, @thedaydreamingotaku, @otomehideout-indecentconfessions

....I legit can’t think of anyone else. I’m sorry if I’ve missed you! orz

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rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

@gardenquartet tagged me, so im just copy pasting this from them, i tag @seraphie, @rosevinyls, @smol-septic-tim, and @gaymermutual

the last:

1. drink: i was slurpin some water 2. phone call: i called my gran to ask if i could drive her car once i get my drivers license 3. text message: my gran on my phone, but rob @rumblejanes everywhere else 4. song you listened to: the entire heathers soundtrack 5. time you cried: mayb two weeks ago? 6. dated someone twice: ive never dated anyone, let alone 2 ppl 7. kissed someone and regretted it: nope 8. been cheated on: id have to date someone for that to happen 9. lost someone special: in an assortment of ways 10. been depressed: finger guns 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: i tried to drink beer once, and immediatly freaked out and didnt do it, so no

three favorite colors:

12. blue 13. pink 14. yellow

in the last year have you:

15. made new friends: irl? nope, online? yes!! 16. fallen out of love: i dont think so 17. laughed until you cried: i feel like i did 18. found out someone was talking about you: m dont think so 19. met someone who changed you: i mean, clem makes me afraid to check his blog, and all my mutuals on here make this website a much happier place for me 20. found out who your friends are: i mean, i have 3 irl friends 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: non

general:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them i think 23. do you have any pets: i have a dog here, and two dogs at my grans!! 24. do you want to change your name: legally? yeah 25. what did you do for your last birthday: nothing, it was kinda rlly bad 26. what time do you wake up: 10-2 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: playin ovw 28. name something you can’t wait for: being a father 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: a couple of hours ago 31. what are you listening to right now: uhhhh i was listening to heathers 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: tommy? yeah 33. something that is getting on your nerves: losing 34. most visited website: tumblr 35. hair color: green, it was blue 36. long or short hair: short-ish 37. do you have a crush on someone: yeeeeeeeeeeah, i mean i have crushes on anyone who even looks at me so 38. what do you like about yourself: i like how i can make my friends smile 39. piercings: my ears 40. blood type: who knows this dude 41. nickname: abe, gaybe 42. relationship status: single rip 43. zodiac: im, a sag 44. pronouns: he/them 45. favourite tv show: uhhhh i guess voltron? 46. tattoos: im weak and 15 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: does the dentist count? 50. sport: i like playing sports w my friends, but i dont like watching them or playing w other ppl 51. vacation: ive gone to florida and new york, but never another province 52. pair of trainers: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh running shoes that my mom gave me

more general:

53. eating: uhh last thing was a swiss roll 54. drinking: i drank water last 55. i’m about to: fall asleep 56. waiting for: kennedy to give me an update on the cottage (ken if ur reading this, u better give me an update) 57. want: uhhh this? 58. get married: only for the right person 59. career: comic artist?

which is better:

60. hugs or kisses: depends on the person, but i think hugs are the main choice 61. lips or eyes: hhhhhhhhhhhh eyes 62. shorter or taller: same height 63. older or younger: i feel like if ur a week younger then me, ur a baby so 64. nice arms or nice stomach: this is back erasure 65. hook up or relationship: relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: me? hesitant, my future (?) s/o? troublemaker i think

have you ever:

67. kissed a stranger: kinda 68. drank hard liquor: nope 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: ................. ive lost sunglasses? 70. turned someone down: yeah, i Regret 71. sex on the first date: nope 72. broken someone’s heart: i hope not 73. had your heart broken: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 74. been arrested: im a safe boy 75. cried when someone died: yeah 76. fallen for a friend: i fall for everyone i meet, what do u think u awful questionnaire

do you believe in:

77. yourself: sometimes? 78. miracles: fuck no 79. love at first sight: like at first sight? sure i guess 80. santa claus: i wish i did 81. kiss on the first date: i mean, only if both of u r comfortable w it 82. angels: no

other:

83. current best friend’s name: nelisonnedy 84. eye color: uhhhh brown 85. favorite movie: i just watched power rangers, so im going w that