#sending soooo much love your way thank you again for the message!!! 🙏

[awakenthebeing]

Here me out:

Piepoe and Keppino but their stacked like the pancakes.

Keppino wouldn't know much about stacking like pancakes but she'd very much enjoy the softness of Piepoe!!

[mypastellittleworld]

I think i will post sth just to tell people that this account isn’t die (yet) 👍

This year I watched a lot of stages and every stage made me feel like i can see myself when i was young. That personality had long lost from my memories but watching butais… i came to remember why i’ve always love “the stage”.

It can’t be changed that i lose desire to stand as a performer. I ran away from my past but i knew one thing: i never hate “stages” and i’d never be.

I love lightings, bgm, decorations, and every single movement of stages. I just… love them so much. I’m more than 100000% sure that i no longer suitable to perform but… you can’t deny your inner thoughts, right? I love stages and i still do. Butais proved me that.

I wonder what im gonna do in the future. I do have plan but it’s not like sth that i can do now so maybe i need more time. I asked myself every morning whether im doing fine or not. Everyone around me seems to be happy since they got to do what they wanted. They’re tired but fulfilled. They got their own “thoughts” while i’ve always acted according to what my parents wanted me to do. I didn’t think about my heart much since i didn’t have another choice other than obeyed my parents.

I’m tired of everything, but not the stages i’ve always being told to forget it.

So… i wrote this because i’m happy to know that at least i’ve my <own> thought. If Shu wanted Mika to live as a doll like my parents told me to do what i must do, my life back then should be considered as a doll as well. I did tell myself that it’s okay to abandon my feelings as long as my parents still love me, but in fact it wasn’t. I realized later that my heart has been broken into countless pieces which i can’t even fix them. I just gathered them together and continue my daily life because my parents told me i must not abandon my responsibilities.

In enstars, Shu wants Mika to become human while Mika starts to learn how to love a human-side of himself. I can related to that. I mean, my friends want me to stay true to my feelings and my life is my life. I can do whatever i want that it won’t trouble others. Somehow… watching these butais made me understand myself more than before. I threw away my imagination and dream to satisfy my parents, but i know now how much those fantasy precious to me.

I just want to say that i’m happy to see a lot of people start to love watching butai or stage play. There are soooo many of us who have lost our ways but you might found sth laying deep within your heart by watching stage plays. No matter how much i want to say thank you, it won’t be enough.

I hope lots and lots will open their hearts and watch stage plays. Its magic can turn your whole life though! 🤣

I’m mumbling nonsense once again but i guess no one read my blog so maybe it’s fine(?) hahahaha

If any of you want to talk to me, no need to feel scare and send me a private message! I don’t think i’d get notification fast enough to reply instantly but i promise i will answer every single thing you asked.

Truly, my pastel little world right? ;D

P.s. EVERYONE PLEASE LISTEN TO HAJIME AND SHUN NEWEST DUET BECAUSE ITS AMAZING

Ryouhei-san is just… (　˙-˙　)(、._. )、(´；_；)ノ♡ haaaaaaahhhhhhh T T

P.s.2 You need to use VPN to login into Spotify and stay connect until you decided to stop listen! If you live outside JP and your account is premium, you can’t use that account since they knew that we’re being an outsider. It’s fine to use some of your leftover-email to login though. Just don’t forget that your VPN must stay CONNECTED!! 😂

Now go and listen!!! IT’S A MUST!!!

Light & Dark (Hajime + Shun duet)

When I got a chance to watch TsukiSta 14 rabbits kingdom, i promise that im gonna be crazier than today 🧐🙏