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Artfight attack I did for w0lf_muttz! Loved getting to design him a character! Jackalope... dragon... thing...

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I HAVE ONE MORE TO FINISH AND THEN I AM DONE DONE DONE WITH REFERENCE SHEETS AND CAN FINALLY DO SOME REAL ART. Anyways, this is Jett, I think she'll be pretty popular with the Tumblr crowd.

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"...You know we'll have a good time, then."

Random irrelevant side character has been spinning around in my head for so long that I took it out on this drawing.

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Hello Tumblr. Despite popular demand against this, I have returned and am still posting reference sheets. God save us all, here's fancy pants rich mcgee, Spencer's best friend.

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Redid my pfp just in time for Pride Month with a flag I haven't gotten the chance to celebrate yet. It's no big secret that finding yourself is the greatest joy in the queer community. Sometimes, we do that by learning new things, and sometimes, we do it by taking things back about ourselves.

I did both this year.

I identified comfortably as a trans man for about five years, and it was only until a cold winter's evening early this year that I turned to my friend with benefits and said "I think I might be genderfluid" after a sequence of events that was most certainly not for daytime television. I adopted the label with little to no difficulties, and life continued on as normal.

Then, my partner at the time and I broke up. I was still reeling from a recent unrelated assault, and even though I was the one who ended the relationship, it didn't make things any easier. That same friend with benefits, who'd always known about my partner due to me being a practicing non-monogamist for about two years, was in my corner the whole time. I couldn't have asked for better company during those times. One thing led to another, and we admitted our love for each other, deciding shortly after that no one else would be joining in anytime soon.

I don't regret my time as a binary trans man or a non-monogamist. If anything, I cherish those years, as they left me with appreciation for ways of being and ways of loving that I may have otherwise never fully understood.

I guess there's no moral to the story other than sometimes you're going to say the right thing, then keep going and going until you find it's the wrong thing. That's the beauty of being queer. The world has spent eons being wrong about something it never even tried to comprehend, I can be wrong for a few years about something I've always been trying to comprehend.

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Old version under the cut

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Sorry for subjecting you all to reference sheet hell, but I'll be damned if I don't actually work on my characters.

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Spencer now has an official comic design! Yahoo!!!!

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FURSONA REF IS HERE WAHOO

He's Marlboro Menthol's unofficial mascot

Old versions under cut

We've come a long way lol

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Despite the ending, the moon still shines.

My end of an art trade with a good friend of mine (_memory.media_ on insta, maxs.mayhem on TT) featuring their oc, Vincent! Had a lot of fun doing this :)

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Felt like I should post this. AF attack for Ollie_draws (artfight handle) that I'm pretty proud of!!!!

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I am so late to this hello but YAY ARTFIGHT REAL add me for +1 ShaBoingBoing in your inventory

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I AM DONE WITH THIS MADNESS (for Dirtbags). All of these refs have been going on my artfight as well, I'll do the intro for that next :-))

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The original sin was freedom, yet mankind never learns.

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Super Duper Ego

Nothing burger ramblings under the cut

This is it. This is the lowest I've fucking felt. You broke me, you fucking broke me and uet I STILL feel bad. I told you over and over again that I knew the capacity to be a good person was in you. Despite you never even paying attention to me when I came over. Despite you leading me on and on and on physically and emotionally. Despite the fact you couldn't even remember basic ass things I told you about. I endured a LOT of humiliation for giving you the time of day and you were still such a fucking bitch to me. I pray this sudden absence of mine gives you no hope for the future because that's an accurate fucking prediction if you don't change your fucking ways. Get that stupid sunken stare away from me. Never come back.

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NIGHT AFTER

When the yoinky sploinky was so good, it gave you a gender crisis. Idk I wanted an excuse to draw a femme version of him.

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Neither friends nor dating but a secret third thing (feeding off of each other's emotional validation)