#selfship: nellumi

[namazunomegami]

43, 45, and 47 for the ask game. I hope you’re having a wonderful day and I apologise if not.

43. Who would give their life for the other without a second thought?

Well… I think most of the characters I selfship with are the kind of “I would sacrifice the world for you” type so they’d take someone’s life rather than offering theirs. And that’s the reason I love them so much 💕

45. Can they fall asleep without the other?

Another prompt that’s somehow universal for every ship: we can.

The real question is tho: can I fall asleep WITH them?

Usually when I’m at sleepovers or any other situation when I can’t sleep alone, in the way that I like (so basically lots of natural light coming in, no pants, water/phone/nicotine in reach) I basically won’t sleep. Maybe just a few hours but that’s gonna be a light sleep. Obviously I feel the need to be aware of my surroundings, especially if I don’t know you well.

So if I feel sleepy around you, have a lil power nap or pull a full 6-7-8 hours deep slumber with YOU in MY presence, that means A LOT. I trust you, I feel safe around you, I know you won’t do anything bad to me when I’m in the most vulnerable state a human being can be. Congrats.

Illumi is gonna be an honourable mention here: the guy barely sleeps, but he likes watching me in a creepy unsettling way but you can get used to it after a while.

47. Does either of them have a secret that could potentially ruin their relationship?

All of my guys have committed atrocities and I still love them so, probably they can’t surprise me. Compared to them… I don’t have anything that can be a deal breaker. Maybe that I still stalk most of my exes socials lol. Yumichika for example is not happy about that and we always circle back to the “how could you waste so much time with such an ugly guy” talk.

I’m happy that you’re here, nonnie 💕 I’m always giggling and kicking my feet when somebody visits my inbox.

[namazunomegami]

11 and 24 for the ask game please

11. Do either try to hide their emotions if upset? Can the other still tell?

I’m usually upfront about my feelings in general. Like… most of the times I just let them all out, especially if I had a stressful day at work (I work in retail so you can imagine what I’m going through), it’s easier to vent and go on a rant about customers.

But if the problem is within the dynamic of my relationship I usually let it sit for a while. I don’t let my emotions get in the way so I can approach the problem in a diplomatic way like “Look, this is a problem, it upsets me, let’s sit down and work out a solution that benefits us.”

I like to believe that I can perfectly hide my emotions but most of my blorbos can read people well. Geto is naturally perceptive, in a way that it is scary. He can figure me out based on the subtle details. He knows that I peel the skin off my lips or around my nails when I’m stressed. That my jaw is constantly clenched when I’m angry. That I tend to stare off the distance when I’m shaken. His perception is just insane. Sadly he’s the type who doesn’t like to talk about his feelings and he hides them too well. Even though that I know my way around people he manages to outsmart me lmao.

Shinji is highly attuned with people’s emotions so it’s mostly just intuition that comes from years of working with people. Not as insane as Geto and he’s very upfront about his problems.

Illumi is gonna be a funny exception here because he fails at both points and doesn’t care about feelings in general.

24. Who’s more likely to give the other a massage?

It’s me. Surprisingly I’m very good at it. Just to quote my mom, I have “golden hands” and my grip is crazily strong compared to how delicate (and honestly pretty weak) I am.

Geto despite being the perfect specimen for a good massage, rarely lets me working the homicidal mania out of his tense muscles. But he does feel better after my treatment. And I can get a good feet massage in return. He can’t touch my back tho because his grip would just rearrange all the vertebras in my spine and not in a horny way.

Illumi should never be allowed to give a massage because he would accidentally kill me. Again, not in a horny way. And it’s kinda futile to start working on him, he’s too much of a superhuman to feel anything.

Shinji doesn’t like back massages and he’s just too skinny, there’s not enough muscle to work with. But I regularly massage his hands to ease the strain from doing all the paperwork. Yes, you can massage people’s hands just ask my mom. He needs a lil bit of convincing to return the favor but it feels awesome.

The only one who I would ever let to touch my back and neck is Yumichika because he’s very gentle and skilled. It’s kinda like a bonding ritual between us. And he actually owns oils that can be worked into the skin. But if he can’t get compliments while he receives a massage he’s going to be pissed. But really… who wouldn’t compliment the guy for simply being alive and blessing the whole world with his beauty?

[namazunomegami]

Which one is more protective? Who needs to be ‘protected’?

Hmm… I think this prompt goes well with Geto but also with Illumi, since he’s the most extreme case of being protective out of my selfships.

I’m not that type of person who gets into trouble but I like feeling myself safe around a partner. It’s definitely not an easy task but that’s a quality that I actively look for in relationships. In fact, it’s a must have if you want to be blorbo of mine lmao. At least have a soft spot for someone.

Geto wants to protect me from… myself. The intrusive thoughts and everything that comes with being one depressed traumatised bitch. He refuses to acknowledge the fact that he needs the same from me.

But in Illumi’s case… well, he’s insane, he’s sick in the head. Being a Zoldyck spouse is not fun and games. His ways of protecting is… controlling, borderline humiliating. But in this house we enjoy and endorse humiliation in all way shape and form 🙏🏻💗