#selfharming!reader x bsd

[prttykittes]

i have sooo many ideas for fluff (surprise because all i think about is smut.) but i feel like dropping them all when that one bsd sh fic is done bc i dont wanna pressure you 😵‍💫

🦋 anon

Tumblr deleted that post, but your request was female reader dealing with sh and Anorexia with Dazai and chuuya! Sorry, I did post it but it got deleted •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀ so I rewrite it!

ෆ Dazai, Chuuya X Female!Reader [you/your/girlfriend]

— Synopsis:: Your boyfriend is hanging out and he notices that your acting different, he wants you to know that he is here for you!

CW. SH(selfh#rm), Anorexia, body issues, hugs, fluff/SFW, comforting, reader wears long sleeves shirt(Dazai) and dress(chuuya), reader has hair in Dazai's

A/N :: Boys comforting you, I hope your doing okay so far, 🦋 anon and anyone else!! Make sure to take care of your sh scars if you have any, don't want it to get infected:3 — written by a minor

[MASTERLIST] — (⁠ノ⁠^⁠_⁠^⁠)⁠ノ works in link!

DAZAI— he was watching you form the bed, your hands roaming around your body, feeling your stomach, hips. He continues to smile while you turn and turn, looking at yourself. "You doing something, beautiful?" He smirks, you smile and roll your eyes. You stop and let out a deep sigh, you fix your long sleeve shirt and turn towards the door. "I am going to brush my teeth, I don't think I did it..." You say, walking out. His smile gets down to a line, that was a lie. You did brush your teeth, he lies down and thinks. Should he go check up on you? He gets curious, I mean if he goes and checks. He would be a good boyfriend for worrying. He gets up and begins to walk towards the bathroom door, the door is closed and he puts his hand on the doorknob. He hears the sink and it's quite loud, he gently opens the door. He looks at the mirror, your not at the mirror but at the bathtub. He sees you slightly bend over, he angles himself so he can see what you were doing. He sees your arm moving, he sees a droplet of red. His eye narrows and he doesn't say anything, he closes the door and goes back in the room, you wash the blood away and bandage yourself up. Walking back and seeing Dazai play with his fingers on the bed, he lifts up his head and smiles at you, you smile back and lay down next to him. "I love you" he says, your eyebrow raises and you let out a chuckle. "Hm? I love you too, Dazai!" You smile and he embraces you, his arms wrapping around you. He plays with your hair while he sniffs it, you were confused. He didn't do this that often, he rubs your back. He kisses your forehead, he gently grabs your wrists, it stings a bit. He brings it up to his lips and kisses it, he mutters, "I love you so much" he continues to leave kisses over your arms and he rubs your stomach. You wonder if he found out, before you could speak up about it. "I am always here for you, sweetheart" he says, kissing your lips. He gives you a hug, wrapping himself around you forever until you both wake up.

CHUUYA— He watches you, turning around to show him the outfit. It was a long sleeve dress just what you wanted, it matches you. You were smiling, he pats your side and kisses your cheek. "You look beautiful" he mutters and rubs your hips. You smile and turn away from the mirror, you were facing him. You didn't like this outfit that much, the sleeves weren't that long and you had to keep pulling it down. He likes it but you weren't sure but the outfit. "Is there other ones?" You ask, he makes a hmm sound and he smiles. "I will go check" he says, he leaves the changing room and goes find some dresses with long sleeves. Your still in room and look at yourself, your hands were shaking slightly, the more you looked at yourself in the mirror, the more weird you look. You close your eyes, your heart was beating fast but then he opens the door. "I found two, love" he says, you smiles and turn to face him. He is holding up two dresses, he smiles and places them down. "Want me to help you?" He asks, you shake your head. You don't want him to look at your bandaged wrists and worry about it. "Nah, it's fine" you says he smiles and leaves the room. You pick up one of the dresses and look it, feeling the fabric and then you prepare to take off your dress. You were taking about too long and Chuuya opens the door, you didn't notice or heard it. Busy trying to taking off your dress then putting on the other dress. He closes the door, which is when you realize. You bite your lower lip, your stomach curls as you begin to overthink. Your hands shakily put on the dress. Making sure that the sleeves cover it. "You can come in now!" You yell out and the door opens, he smiles and softly spins your around. Did he see you or not? You wondered and he kisses your cheek, he hugs you. He rocks you gently, his orange hair in your face. You giggle and push him away gently, he pats your shoulder. "Don't be shy and tell me anything, if you want" he says, with a smiles on his face, you smile back at him. "Sure....just tell me as well" you say and he nods his head, you both do a pi my promise. "We should just get all three of them" he says. "Wha—?"

[tittysuckersworld]

tw!! nsfw and self harm scars! please keep that in mind before clicking the continue read thing. seriously take care of yourselves please

okay for the dazai simps out there, enjoy ;) [also this is a wip so might end up with more finnished peice some day]

[distortedataraxia]

Hi~ can I request yosano x Fem reader. The scenario is like ADA going to a beach with reader but reader secretly se*fhar*m herself so she doesn't want to change and just go to beach with long sleeves and shorts or smth. If you're not comfortable writing it, it's okay, totally understandable. Thank you in advance uwu

Author note : Hello ! I'm really sorry for the reallyyyyy long wait, let's just say i got erm.. Busy? Yes that's totally it - anyways, you might not see this but i honestly still wanted to write it anyways, i quite had A LOT of struggles writing this but i hope i'll improve and that this is enjoyable and that i mostly didn't mess up as theses are important topics here but i kinda did mess it up ahah ^^" I'm not proud of this one at all- I didn't know what you really wanted so i did a one-shot so I hope that's okay to you -

Yosano x selfharmingFem!reader

Character : Yosano

Type : one-shot

Wordcount : 2K

Warnings : suicidal thoughts and self harm

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You can talk to me

It was another day, really, just another day where you would wake up, struggle to do simple tasks, go to the armed detective agency, being a burden, feeling horrible, punishing yourself, and then just trying to sleep at night, the same hell everyday. Sure there are positive things, sure there are fun things that happens , but did you really deserve theses ? Did you really deserve anything good happening to you? Why would you? You were this pathetic, not even able to accept positive things happening to you. Nontheless , why would you even deserve punishment ? Isns't this all just worthless ? Did you deserve anything to begin with?

You entered the detective agency to see everyone's face.. Huh ? The vibes changed in the room, it isn't like the usual, not the same routine where you would just enter to see kunikida working non-stop, ranpo already eating snacks, yosano being bored already waiting for someone to be hurt so that she can treat them, and dazai already on the couch probably thinking about 1001 ways to annoy kunikida or commit suicide. But right now, it seems like they were waiting for something, were they waiting for you? Dazai was clinging into Kunikida begging for something you don't know about "Kunikida pretty pleaseeeee come on aren't we squad fam??? " He begged "In your dreams Dazai, and don't even think about using my money" Kunikida replied, tanizaki turned to you and said " Guys, y/n is here " , they all turned to you, you didn't like this feeling. "Umm... Hello? " You said "Y/n ! You're here, are you ready for the splash of your life? " Yosano said "ehhh.. What?? " You said confused "Oh ? You forgot ? We're going to the beach today, do you have a swimsuit ? " She asked , it looked like your stupid ass forgot something again yayyy .. Wait..the beach ? Oh there's no way you're going there, they are going to see your marks you have given to yourself, they are going to see how pathetic you are, no, there's no way you're going to be more of a burden than you are right now. But you don't know what to say and how to react "umm.. I don't have a swimsuit and i can't swim anyways i'm uh.. Heh.. Scared of water ? " You lied with a voice that showed clear confidence and you looked so certain - no, it looked like no one bought it. "Oh.. That's okay i guess, do you still want to go ? We can still have a lot of fun together. " The pink haired girl asked, you liked her a lot, damn you even loved her, you were tempted to say no because you really didn't deserve to feel theses things and you shouldn't feel them in the first place. But you accepted to go anyways "Yeah.. I guess it'll be fun".

So you went to the beach with them, with... Long sleeves ! That's definitely not suspicious.. But you were used to lying so despites the fact they were detective, it'll be okay right? Ahh i swear to god y/n if you messed up again-

" Y/n ? Why are you wearing long sleeves ? " Yosano asked curious, you looked at your feets embarassed , "um well I... All of other clothes are in the laundry you see.. Eheh " You lied again "you should of told me sooner, i'm sure i have a spare shirt for you " She said you direclty replied without hesitations wich might have aroused suspcions "no no no ! It's fine it's fine don't worry! I'll be okay ! " Yosano seemed hesitant but said "hmm.. Okay, if you say so " She didn't seem convinced but she let it flee, and there we go, you're being a burden again! How awesome ! Congratulations y/n ! What an acchievement ! Could you ever acchieve something that wasn't negative? I mean sure you did succeed in some missions, but the others would have done it better, you're wasting their time, why can't they see it? Why can't they see what you see? You walked silently, head full of thoughts, honestly, it wasn't even worth to talk, you would just waste their time again, why were you even here in the first place ? Why did you wake up this morning? Why are you keeping this up? No no... You shouldn't free yourself from everything, you should feel more pain, you should stay in this hellish place and suffer, but is it worth it if you're being constantly a burden? Suddenly, something shook you away from your thoughts "hey hey y/n ! Race you there ! " Ranpo said a big smile on his face - oh hell you're being too obvious, of course ranpo figured you needed to think about other things than what you're actually thinking about, so to avoid any other suspicions, you akwardly run to race with ranpo to the beach wich seemed to be not really far from you, arrived there, ranpo won the race - there we go, you're being ridiculous again. "Now you owe me a chocolate bar ! " He declared "whaaaat? " You said "rules are rules " He said "but i didn't agree-" You started to defend yourself but got interrupted by Dazai yelling "OOOH ! THE WATER IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND PROFOUND ! THIS IS PERFECT FOR A DEADLY TRAVEL ! " As he gets grabbed by kunikida as he said in a calm tone "there are kids and families there, do not force trauma into their brain just because of your suicidal fantaisies" Dazai complained "awww you're so mean kunikida-kunn.. " Kunikida then let dazai fall on the ground as Dazai immediatly starts to play around with the sand and declared, stars in his eyes "KUNIKIDA I KNOW! bury me in the sand ! This way the kids won't see me right ? " Kunikida stopped to seem calm and his glasses broke again as he yelled and started to shake dazai "I'M GONNA KILL YOU YOU BANDAGE WASTING MACHINE ! " Dazai replied without any hesitations "YES PLEASE STRANGLE ME WITH YOUR DELICATE FINGERS KUNIKIDA" wich made kunikida angrier, things were starting to get a bit weird in there -

A lot of things were happening at the same time, Atsushi was with kyoka building sand castles, Dazai was messing with Kunikida left over neurons , Kenji was... Taking care of a cow ? Honestly, you weren't even surprised at this point.Finally , Yosano and ranpo were having a fight consisted of splashing water at themselves, and you were just there, alone, sitting in the sand as the worthless persson you could be , they were all having fun without you. It's cool for them. It's not like you deserved anything more anyways, what do you expect ? This was already too much for you, you started to feel an urge. If only you could just live a normal life without all theses thoughts , without being a burden in the first place. Why did it have to be you? Why did you have to have this happy, lucky and blessed life? Why weren't you grateful? So many people wish to be in your shoes.. So why not them? Why did it have be you out of all people ? If only you could do something about it, if only there was a magic wand to erase this you and replace it with another completly different person. You're a complete mistake, why did you even face this world ?

The members were starting to go up to you and were proposing stuff to do with you and you declined - Really, you just didn't feel like it, and who said you deserved anything good to happen to you anyways ? God y/n you're being too obvious today..

After the 365th time of you declining any activites , you feel a hand in your shoulder behind you, the person said "hey y/n are you okay? Are you hurt anywhere ? You know we can still go back to the agency so that i can treat your wounds" You felt weird at her voice, did she knows about your wounds?? You jumped a bit - Oh no this can't be good , wait maybe it's not what she meant calm down- "Ah ! Uhhhhh... No no i'm good ! " You said sounding yet again, very convincing. Yosano thinked and then she said "Na you're coming with me y/n " She said grabbing your arm "ouch-" You said out loud by accident "oh, did that hurt? I'm sorry" She said as she stopped grabbing your arm and held your hands instead , making you blush, something in her voice was sweeter than usual and her holding your hands seemed more relaxing.. You were a blushing mess and so you decided to look at your feets as you walked. It seemed Yosano had something to tell you - she wasn't wearing a swimsuit anymore, she was wearing a normal outfit meaning she was planning to talk to you and you didn't even notice that, were you thinking that bad? I guess you were.

So you both walked in silent in the streets as yosano held your hands. Finally, you both arrived, she oppened the door of the treatment room for you as you stepped in, a little scared of what's about to come, hoping she only wants to talk to you about anything trivial, you always avoided treatment to avoid revealing your cuts - it was kinda hard but somehow you always managed to avoid treatment. "So.. Why did you bring me here? " You asked , as she entered the room and closed the door. Yosano then said "Y/n..i need to check something, can you roll up your sleeves please? " Oh no this can't be good how could you escape this situation ? You already felt like you were about to shake "umm.. What do you even need to check? " You asked "Don't worry i won't judge you, just trust me. " She responded, in a serious yet gentle tone. She knew she definitely knew and there's nothing you can do about this situation, just show your pathetic self to the one person you love, feels great. You slowly roll up your sleeves as you start shaking , yosano take your arm carefully and look at them examinating them. "I-I'm sorry" You apologized "don't apologize y/n it's okay.. It can be that hard " She said making you reply ; "b-but it shouldn't be - I-I'm just that pathetic-", you started crying, yosano replied " Don't say that y/n.." As she went to hug you and say "and let me tell you one thing y/n.you're not pathetic, you're probably one of the strongest person i met, you never failed to amaze me. " You didn't understand " H-how-" was all you could say as yosano was rubbing your back "and you were always fun to hang around with" She decided to say "you don't have to deal with this alone, you can talk to me if anything is bothering you y/n, that won't bother me the slightest bit" She continued "we love you for who you are y/n and we'll always have your back , do not forget that" She finished, you continued crying silently , you were tired and didn't know what to think about so all you said was this one sentence "yeah.. Thank you", you stopped the hug and whiped away your tears. " Do you want to go clear up your mind and go shopping ? " She asked wich didn't really surprise you "no.. It's okay, i'm tired.. " You replied "you can rest in one of the bed here" She said as you went to one of the bed and lied down" Do you need anything else? " She asked "actually.. I'd like uh... Cuddles? " You replied a bit embarassed "hm? sure " Yosano reacted as she smiled and went to cuddle with you as you both fell asleep like this, let's say the next time you woke up was quite interesting as it was when your boss was in front of you surrounded by your colleagues. Such a fantastic way to start another hellish day.. Or maybe after this it won't be that much of an awful day and it will all slowly and finally change?

[simpforchuchu]

BSD 3

-Dazai

Kissing hcs

with s/o with Proriasis

with reader who left them because she lost her leg

with reader who is Dazais Counterpart

forgetting their s/o's bday

how they react to learning their sis is a high ranking member of the 7th Agency

Female version

How would they react when they find out you are pregnant

With a diabetic reader

With reader who likes to be organized

-Ranpo

Kissing hcs

How would Atsushi and Ranpo react to a person who wants to be a writer or a journalist

their s/o makes them their lunch

-Atsushi

How would Atsushi and Ranpo react to a person who wants to be a writer or a journalist

Atsushi's lover finds out he is a weretiger

With his old friend

with reader | back to the orphanage

Female version

trying to kiss you

Reader who kisses him out of the

their s/o makes them their lunch

Atsushi being suprised by his s/o on his birthday

Atsushi x his s/o who feels lonely

-Kunikida

their s/o makes them their lunch

With reader who likes to be organized

Drop the gun!

-Kenji

Some cute fanboy hcs

-chuuya

with reader who left them because she lost her leg

with s/o with a hypnic jerk

with s/o who hanged their pic on wall

with reader who is afraid to show her emotions

with reader who is afraid of yelling

with reader who is Dazais Counterpart

forgetting their s/o's bday

how they react to learning their sis is a high ranking member of the 7th Agency

Female version

Big Bro Chuu and teenage reader

Big Bro Chuu and kid reader

Chuuya comforting his daughter who is insecure

How would they react when they find out you are pregnant

Chuuya x s/o who is obsessed with Sanrio Plushies

With a secretary s/o

Taking care of his sick lover

Stay by my side

-Aku

Kissing hcs

how they react to learning their sis is a high ranking member of the 7th Agency

Female version

Trans Male BF who thinks he is shitty person

-Mori

with daughter who is 15 and looks like Dazai

with reader who calls him Rintarou

-Odasaku

with reader who he is struggling to confess to

General dating hcs

with teenage girl/boy

with reader who left them because she lost her leg

with reader who is struggling with selfharm

with s/o who wants to do make up to him

with reader who is Dazais Counterpart

With writer reader

With a reader who has the same ability with Poe