#self-harm mention for ts /

[iqxatlantic]

ft. itoshi rin . ooc! rin . mentions of sae . itoshi sae . gn! reader . angst . not proofread . projection, lots of it .

dating rin was wonderful. he actually tried, he's sweet, can be corny, tries to have a tough and stoic facade but you easily see through it. cute.

and all that hurt you, but it would hurt rin more. you knew you didn't truly love rin for him being himself. you knew you were pretending he was his older brother — sae. the man who had your heart locked ever since you two got together.

you didn't understand why sae wouldn't stop haunting you. you'd wish you loved rin solely because he was himself, not the heavy resemblance.

it confused the teal-eyed boy when he saw how fast you left him when sae came crawling back. he thought the love you both had was definite. something that sae couldn't take from him.

yet, sae did. you left rin as fast as sae left him. so fast, it didn't faze the boy as much. sae will forever be 'more' handsome, more talented, more everything. it was no kidding you'd leave eventually for sae. rin knew he could never hate you two. he knew what his fate was, his tragedy.

to always be left in his older brother's shadow — he would never be able to outshine sae, nor would he ever get his brother's approval. and worse, he could never get you back.

the two people he truly loved, became the two people that harmed him most. rin knew he'd never be good enough. no matter how much he tried — in everyone's eyes, sae was number one.

rin was dying from his self-destructing mindset. but, is it really self-destruction if he believes it's the truth?

— ©iqxatlantic / isaisliterallyhim, 2025

a/n: me too rin, me too bby. i see my reflection in your eeeyyyeeessss... AAAAAA im gonna be honest i wrote ts pretending i was rin LMFAOOO basically isa x reader TRUUST trust but damn, i love rin so much... i want to give him a big hug and let him know im so proud of him and shi GAAWD I LOVE RIN </3 ts was highkey halfassed, im sorry... i will do this again 😔

[winterwhisperz-blog]

*nervous sweat* so !! I finished this fic a bit ago, and since it’s not too long I thought I’d share it !!

It’s the one I hinted at in https://www.tumblr.com/winterwhisperz-blog/777581922827288576/me-writing-my-self-indulgent-ts-fic-my-ts-oc-me this post !!

For context it’s my oc Katsuro’s diary as they recall a memory from their childhood!!! I’m making it a lil series where I write diary entries of each stage of their life ! This is ofc, from stage one!

I hope you enjoy !! <333

The Tales Of A Hound

Warnings: mentions of blood, small religious Imagery at the very end but it’s not major,death.

Notes: The monster in this is not vere !! I know it could be seen like that because of the setting lmao but this is actually a hound-type monster to reference Katsuro’s future title as the hound !!

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I always felt comfort in the unloved. The macabre, the unholy. Sharp fangs and bloody claws drew me closer to a beast than soft white fluff or gentle tongues.

When the pure were in my hands, they ended up broken. An accidental death that no soft creature could sympathize with. The dead and monstrous never broke.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been compelled to reach for the deadly with gentleness.

I love looking into their eyes. The same thoughts would pool in my mind

‘I see you. You hurt thing. You are just like me.’

I didn’t see why the bat couldn’t be as loved as the dove. When I had asked what made them so different, I was told no dove posses a disease so fatal. I realized quickly they saw me the same way.

The monster was a friend because they were like me.

Years ago, a time I hardly remember now, I was taken from the sea and had my feet on solid ground. A village commonly coated in snow, barred with iron to keep out the creatures in the storms. The cold breeze would cause the charms to chime, every door littered with talismans, Wards against the darkness.

They saw me as the first breach of their sanctuary. I remember stares, hollow and dark. I was just as scared as them as they were of me, ironically. They noticed the grey in my skin, and never would hold my gaze. My Sobo explained I was silent for months.

Quietly observing the snow as it fell, blowing on the glass to from creatures with teeth. Apparently I tried mimicking their growls and hissings. I remember the cold biting through my socks as I ventured outside when midnight hit.

I would climb on the tallest thing I could reach, and would answer the crying beast that howled the village into nauseating fear.

It was a comfort. The first time I felt safe enough to speak. I would cup my hands around my mouth and strain my poor neck as I tried to impress even the distant monster in the storm. Eager to please, even then. I’ve had two curses my whole life and that is one of them.

I howled till the sun rose, the village finding me asleep in the snow, huddled near the fences. As close to the outside as I could get.

The rumors spread like wildfire after that apparently. That my Sobo had welcomed in a demon child. One that was calling in only more disturbance and chaos.

A dying world needed no more monsters.

And maybe, they were right. Since after just a few months, a demon breached the fences and wards. Entering the village with snarling jaws and massive paws.

It did no more harm than causing fear. And I could see that it came only because it was hungry.

I came across it one night, tearing into a sheep inside a farmer’s shed. It turned it’s large furry head to me, red clinging to its teeth. It approached, snarling, massive compared to me. Its jaws were open, but instead of biting, it merely roared in my face.

The breath tickled my cheeks, the sound making me laugh. It was just like any other cold, frightened dog. And though I pitied the dead sheep, I knew that sheep too would tear into me if it had the proper teeth.

I knew hunger, and I knew what it would do to you.

I roared back at the demon, trying once again to sound impressive. But I couldn’t help but laugh until I had tears.

The demon followed me for days after, I think. Though I don’t remember it straying too far from the corner of my eyes. It showed its face to me only when the moon was full, or when I was crying.

I had been bullied a lot during that time. I used to think it was because of my haircut but now I know it was because I was a creepy child who befriended the demon terrorizing our village…And also because of my haircut. Gods was it hideous I have no idea why my Sobo wasted an artist’s time sketching it out.

I looked like a SOUP BOWL. Ew.

Anyway, I digress.

(The attacks, however, did indeed dwindle as it followed me)

I remember escaping the fence one day, traveling deep inside the frosted woods. It was there I came across a meadow, strewn with the corpses of goats and deer.

My demon was in the midst, bloodied and huffing. It turned toward me, that was the first time it spoke.

“Will you run now? After you have seen me?”

It approached like the first time, fangs gleaming near my face. I was silent, as I often was—and tipped closer, kissing the tip of its bloody snout.

I knew it was hungry. And that it was angry. Lonely. That it wasn’t loved like the deer or the sheep, the goats and the rabbit. It wasn’t loved. So its hunger was not solved by how much it consumed, or how much it tore and raged.

You can die from hunger, and you can die quicker if you are not loved.

So, I did what I felt strongly to do. I loved, I opened my arms and gave the demon the love the church gave to the lamb.

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[callaiadio]

YES FINALLY DID TS!!!!

This is my new oc, made specifically to be a character I use in @messymoonmad stuff. I jst live the whole suitors design and story thingy, so ye!

Anyway, I have the Angst and story +traits down here if u want to read 👀 oh, TW! Implied/mentioned SA, self harm as well.

Let me try not to yap. Dimitrios, their name derived from Demeter due to his mom being devotee/priestess for Demeter. He doesn’t remember much from when he was a kid, other than a creepy uncle and glances of his mom’s blurred face.

(Five year with his mother. Two years of complications, now seven years old.)

Having come to Ithica (pre Twar) after his mom’s passing, cause unclear but Demi has their suspicions. Starting to feel like he was a boy, and not concerned with but definitely noticing the discomfort in being called a girl.

(3 years of living alone/on the street. Eventually taken in by a friends mother for two year.)

Having been a young teen when arriving at the palace (during Twar), originally kept around to clean or help run errands. But once they got older they’d switched to tending to the garden, and being a general servant. A young adult by now.

Rewind to a couple of years back—working in the palace, as a young boy. Always wearing their hair out, a little more friendly, and way more feminine- you get the point. Anyway, able to get away with sneaking out at night. Part of their usual routine.

Making his way through a night market, about to go back to the palace but being grabbed. Dragged to a woody area. Possible a garden, or forest. Able to hear the sound of people talking and laughing. But unable to hear anything else.

They couldn’t remember if they screamed. They don’t remember any pain, just panic. The man tried, but they fought back. They kicked and scratched until they managed to run away.

Finally collapsing in the palace garden, hiding away from sight. Too shaky and scared to check where the blood running down their leg was from. It was just a scar… and lots of others. Their thighs now forever marked by him. Thankfully that was all that was marked. The bruises elsewhere were temporary.

Rewind back to the present. Suitors started moving into the palace, Demi was forced to take on more duties. Eventually able to simmer it down to taking care of children (belonging to suitors or maids/servants), gardening, and occasionally cooking and cleaning.

Though, they’d never admit it, they yearned to be a parent. Maybe never of their own child, they couldn’t do what was needed for that… but maybe another’s. Although that was just a thought.

Now they continued to work. Honestly hating the suitors at first but remaining somewhat neutral. Not on anyone’s “side”. Definitely wanting to be around the suitors, only for the reason of how purely wild they were. They were all masculine and burly, if not they were guys in different fonts, but you could mostly tell they were all guys. Something Demi yearned to have.

Keeping to themselves, but befriending others they saw hanging around the suitors, the girl even dating a suitor! Or- maybe, they sometimes had a hard time understanding things that weren’t spelt out for them.

Unsure if they’d get bashed for being… well, being the way they were. Feminine, smaller, weaker. Before they hadn’t really thought of gaining muscle but now they definitely were moving around more, just to somewhat not seem pathetic compared to the suitors.

But this was all in their head, because outside they seemed totally stoic. As if they didn’t give a damn about the suitors or anybody else. Their expression little to none. Basically a blank face. It was better than what they could’ve done on their own, because it gave them a confident demeanor. Making it look like they knew what they believed and stuck by it.

Of course praying for that day they get to casually slack off like they’d seen the other do, and drinking with the suitors. But of course having a fear of them, for obvious reasons.

Anyway that’s it for now, THANK U IF U READ IT 😚

[dam-peace]

Just read your getting warmer snippet and oh boy 💀 I don’t know if my sensitive ass can handle T but imma try anyway 😭. If MC can be anywhere near as sensitive as me there will be a lot of tears I’m sure. I do appreciate you making them same sex available even though you didn’t have to. I honestly think a same sex MC fits well with Ts route considering the whole “no sinning” thing. Very interesting stuff, can’t wait to see how this proceeds.

I'll definitely input as many options as I can so the MC can fully express themselves. You'll be free to cry at times if you so feel to do so, but I won't be held responsible for how T.Maxwell chooses to deal with a super sensitive MC 😅🫣

Also, having a wider range of gendered MC's definitely adds flavour to T.Maxwell's route for sure. Given as you mentioned, the whole "No sinning" thing 👀

However, what makes for good writing might not always be what's good for the MC's peace of mind 😭 I don't want to spoil anything, but I will say that every MC, regardless of gender will struggle immensely when romancing T.Maxwell.

To the point where anyone who willingly chooses their route, I always joke and say it's a form of self-harm 😭😅 (even though I, too, would do the same because I love a dominant grump 😩)

And players get a little taste of how hard it is to romance T.Maxwell in their "A Warm Evening & An Even Hotter Touch" side story. And that's not even the half of how bad Tobias/Tahlia's episodes can really get 😬 I was literally telling my beta testers yesterday that Kaedent needed a giant like E.Struijk on the team for more reasons than one and T.Maxwell is one of those said reasons 😅

But anyway, as I was saying, every player will struggle when romancing T.Maxwell. Hell, even befriending them won't be the easiest 😅 but MC's who identify as non-binary or are the same gender as T.Maxwell will find it a tad bit harder than those who are the opposite gender to Tobias/Tahlia.

But guys, I promise you the reward at the end of this long, arduous and dangerous task of romancing T.Maxwell truly is the biggest payout because when Tobias/Tahlia is in...oh boy, they're ALL in 👀😏

[panvnsleake]

rant thing..... yeah. our irl friend on discord thinks we're faking ts and now theyre mad but we're super sure about it ourselves? why are they trying to tell us how we're supposed to be when we dont even chat with them that often. like it was just now and this was their exact words. "not ts hoe self diagnosing without research as a minor 🥀" only because they saw our status was plural. we didnt mention anything else. uh. pleaseeee dont assume this kind of stuff. we did do research in fact. (also "ts" means "this shit" not "this"💔) honestly thought we could trust them because they were supportive of everything else we've done but okay one new person not to trust. blocking them probably because we're scared of them. also theyre a minor as well so why are they acting like theyre not 🪫🪫 just some stupid rant thing its like midnight... also because we got into a whole nother fight with someone else. we might end up unfriendjng everyone except para on discord. plus we only got it to chat with them anyways but yeah another yapfest great. tmi but we're nervous and it feels like we're about to puke /srs. crazy how we lost like. 2 online friends at once but they were like skin tags. they did more harm than good -🌾

IM SORRY TO HEAR THAT, BUT YES, BLOCKING THEM WOULD BE THE BEST THING TO DO. YOUR REAL FRIENDS ARE THOSE WHO ACCEPT YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE -CG

[starrypawz]

So I was thinking a bit about Linkin Park recently since essentially they are like my emotional support band that carried me through my teenage years and beyond and I listen to them constantly basically if I had to be honest and find it interesting how they basically swung into a more outwardly political bend/protest music for their albums released between 2007-2014

Minutes to Midnight: The title is a reference to the Doomsday Clock and the album is actually quite a noticeable 'Fuck you Bush' album with two particularly noticeable songs, Hands Held High (Iraq war/Conflict in the middle east) and Little Things Give You Away (Hurricane Katrina)

I think it's just generally their 'angriest' album with a degree of that being sort of self directed anger and frustration and also just general themes of regret but also a desire to like move on from past mistakes and do better it's ultimately just a little hopeful like it's early days and it's big emotions and complicated topics you can't quite grasp yet all you know is you are waking up and getting angry but you're maybe not quite sure at who or why you just know shits wrong.

Thousand Suns: This album is just broadly about the horrors of nuclear war/nuclear apocalypse and uses samples from Oppenheimer, Martin Luther King and Mario Savio (which this was actually my introduction to the 'bodies against the gears' speech) and I'd broadly class this one as a protest music album this is the album of like very loudly expressing your disapproval and starting to direct your anger outwards rather than inwards you are learning . There's still anger here but the sound is softer

Living Things: I'd say less of an outright target/theme compared to MtM and TS but it is generally a protest song album, lots of just general 'fuck the system' energy like wanting to hold those who harm accountable like this is an album of frustration really like of railing against systems holding you back as you can't quite break through yet and you're hurting. The sound here is very different broadly it's a noticeable departure from old Linkin Park

The Hunting Party: Like LT I think this album has like less of a focused theme, but I'd class it as protests all the same I think if MTM is anti Bush and TS is anti nuclear war this is... I think just broadly an anti war album if you look at it.

Like it's an album of frustrations again against systems that held you back and systems that made you complicit in harm and have also hurt you those themes of self directed anger and outwardly directed anger come through and I think it's... a lot of precise directed anger as it's sort of... that earlier angry sound you find in their early but more refined, a little softer like by this point you know anger is a tool and you know how to wield it properly and you want answers and you're taking someone to task like you're going down this fucker is coming down with you for what they did. The sound here is like between the two styles it's refined

Also I'd say that the band has always had something as Hybrid Theory and Meteora have that like angry thread of protest but I think it was more... adolescent like that kind of 'yeah fuck the man/the system' that was really popular in a lot of early 2000s music and from 2007 it felt more focused towards specific targets.

Also not to mention how a lot of the songs have themes of like anger against the self, and the frustration of knowing something is wrong with you but you don't know what.

Basically the band grew up I think.

And when you look at it it does sort of follow that pattern of being young, you get angry, you want to yell at the man but you don't really know what the man is and then you learn what the man is and you get angrier about it and want to do something and realise the structures you're stuck in that are holding you back and how they've maybe made you commit harm and you're angry at yourself but you're more angry at the people up top who mislead you and now you're taking names and taking people to task

[lulusaquariumm]

Do you have any other rules for requests that you haven't already mentioned? Stuff like specific characters, subjects, or readers you will/won't write about? How many characters can we ask about per request? Will we get less headcanons if we ask for more characters? What about nsfw, if you'll do it? Any particular rules or leanings on that? Feel free to mention any thing else. Sorry about the all questions. Just want to make sure before sending anything in. Thanks and have a great day!

Hiii^~^ thank you for asking me!

For specific characters I won’t write for the obvious stuff is characters that are still minors in their universes and some specifics are characters like mori from Bungo stray dogs and characters like him just since I don’t feel comfortable with it but other characters specifically are like dabi/touya, shigaraki, and Kikoru from Kaiju no 8 and I think that’s it off the top of my head

Characters I can write for

All haikyuu characters, all of the mha characters post ts, kaiju no 8 for all of them, and stuff like that with the fandoms I listed on my about me that also has my info and rules^.^

You can ask for as many characters as you’d like but depending on if I feel like I have ideas for them I might not include them due to not wanting to mischaracterize/having not met them yet in that series but it won’t affect how many you’ll receive

Subjects I won’t write for

Anything to do with self harm, scat or piss kinks, and just like overly creepy if it has to do anything with death

I do both nsfw and fluff/angst I don’t have any particular rules on it

Only other thing is if I don’t get to ur ask quick I so also have school most days so it might take a bit <33

[courier-nix]

2/3/7/11/52 for fallout oc asks?? 👀

Coming right up!!!

Super excited someone asked for some!!! Some Dead Money spoilers ahead but not much. Okay so here they are:

2. Which faction(s) did they join and which did they destroy? Why?

So far Nix has joined the Kings and the Followers of the Apocalypse. She loves everything they stand for and wants more people to receive the aid and safety they offer. She also has a growing soft spot for the King that helps. Although she's the NCR's favorite task girl, she was originally going to support Mr. House until she got pulled to the Sierra Madre. Now, she's an independent New Vegas believer, after seeing what rich "well intentioned" men who only care about what they want can do to the world. (She also would not be able to bring herself to kill the BOS despite the fact she doesn't really like them.) She refuses to join the BOS after what happened to Veronica. Nix loves the Boomers and is untrusting of the Strip families and the Great Khans, but can play them like the fiddle when she wants. She hates the Legion and plans to wipe them out with Boone.

3. What is their S.P.E.C.I.A.L.?

S 5

P 6

E 5

C 7

I 7

A 6

L 5

She got the strength implant from Usanagi so she had an easier time holding heavy guns.

7. Do they have any mental illnesses? How do they cope?

The two main things is PTSD and anxiety. For PTSD, it can vary from hearing an alarm go off and she thinks it's her bomb collar, to she gets flash backs to the terrible things she's done that she feels guilty about. Nix's anxiety mostly manifests through abandonment issues and being alone. She doesn't quite understand why she's that way since the shots to the head made her lose a good chunk of memory, but she does know her grandma had to raise her because her parents couldn't. She is an anxious attachment person who MUST be friends with everyone and MUST be liked by everyone otherwise she feels like shit. She's strongly affected by guilt and anxiety.

So this ties in strongly with The Hollow Men by TS Eliot, whose line I stole for the title of my fanfic featuring Nix (Not with a Bang). The poem discusses people affected by war who know that they are broken and lost souls but are unable to do actions to better themselves or the world. Nix is constantly trying not to be a hollow man and is trying to make sure her companions don't end up like one too (especially Boone). But that hollow feeling is persistent and a battle on its own she has to deal with.

The last thing I'll mention is she does get violent outbursts but they're few and far between and they cause her immense guilt and shame after. She doesn't know if she's always been that way or if the shot to the head caused it, which makes her more upset.

11. Their biggest flaw? Do they recognize it as a flaw?

Nix's biggest flaw is self-doubt and indecisiveness. When there is a clear right and wrong answer in Nix's mind, she knows what to pick. Morally grey areas tend to make her indecisive because "what if so-and-so no longer likes me because of this? What if I can't lead like I'm supposed to? Will this cause more harm than good?" Etc. She knows that it's a flaw, but as of now, she doesn't know what to do about it.

The Sierra Madre changes that!!!

She becomes a bit more hardened and decisive after she sees herself doing everything right, but still ending up with Dean dead. (She honestly thought everything went great with him and didn't realize how fragile his ego was.) She learns who she wants to back in the next Battle of the Hoover Dam. At this point, I haven't planned the next arch of her story much, but she does end up more violent and those violent outbursts more common.

52. Are they good at disarming traps or do they constantly miss them?

Oh, she sucked with traps at first. She wouldn't even see them. She'd hear beeping, look for the source, and then get launched. Bear traps were the only ones she could normally notice. Trip wires and landmines she would tend to overlook. Once she got to the Sierra Madre, she started to slow down and pay attention, especially since so many other people needed her to survive. By the time she got into the casino, Nix was a pro at disarming or stepping around traps (some may say she had a light step now lol).

Here's a quick doodle of Nix getting launched and Lily rushing to catch her since you made it all the way through!!!

[lyricalthoughtsies]

Hey! If you find this account, no you didn't.

I'm all seriousness, Hello! I'm a new song writer who uses this blog to keep track of random lyric/title ideas

Just as a quick tw, this blog will contain mentions of eating disorders, self harm and possibly other triggers.

Lyric inspo: #my muse(ic)

Lyric ideas: #line tho(ugh)ts

Title ideas: #song namesies