#self awareness is SO futile!!! and it gets you nowhere i guess!!! 🤪

[kendallroygf]

kendall’s family makes me so incredibly sad because ultimately his active emulation of logan and desire to have and maintain the top job clashes with his relationship to rava and sophie (+iverson). and this is a family born out of genuine love! something 20 something year old kendall really wanted. comparing how deeply in love he was with rava in early s1 to how he criticises and disregards her in s4. he forces her to be the ‘nagging bitch wife’ which is not what she wanted to be and not who she is. and still she cares so deeply! the first thing she asks him is if he’s okay and he continues to brush her off and it’s so clear that she wants him to let her in and he won’t. and it’s like. how long can she possibly keep doing this? like the issue with sophie facing racism from some random atn supporter and kendall’s response being. well why was she there. he truly will Never get it. kendall has seriously never thought about how being the ceo of a far right racist media conglomerate would be a conflict of interest when adopting a brown child. like the idea that kendall’s wealth would somehow shield sophie away from a system that’s institutionally racist when effectively a large part of it is atn that’s churning out and propagandising this shit. like to sophie that means it’s basically coming from kendall himself. it makes perfect sense that she’d find safety and support in a group that opposes atn and subsequently her father because ultimately all kendall is doing is pushing her further and further away. she will grow to resent him so deeply if she hasn’t already i fear and it will entirely be kendall’s fault . like i think a big part of kendall’s storyline this season will be him continuing to isolate himself and push people away and in terms of his family he’ll be left with nothing..