#seasons of blossom bomi's flower

[nanaosaki3940]

Romance Manhwa You All Should Read...

So there are a few Korean manhwa that I have been reading recently. Some are new manhwa which I just picked up to read while the others are old ones that I read before and now I'm re-reading them again. All of them are of modern-setting with the premise of high school or college romance. 🥰🥰🥰

The new ones that I'm reading for the first time -

My First Love Hate

Seasons Of Blossom

Our Secret Alliance

Just Twilight

I Don't Hate Us

Cheese In The Trap

Revelation Of Youth

Operation Name: Pure Love

The Law Of Being Friends With A Male

My Introverted Boy

See You in My 19th Life

The old ones that I've read before and now re-reading them again -

Something About Us

Positively Yours

Marked By King BS

The ones that I haven't read yet but want to get into it -

Romance 101

My Younger Brother's Friends

Rewriting Our Love Story

1 Plus 1

Villain With A Crush

This Must Be Love

Now I wanna talk about some of the Manhwa series that I recently read in the last couple of days...

Our Secret Alliance

Manhwa Status: Completed Troupe: Childhood best friends turned lovers. THE NO. 1 BEST FUCKING "CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TURNED LOVERS" TROUPE MANHWA OUT THERE💘!! PERIOD😤!!!

No, seriously. I really enjoyed reading this series, and OMG !!! Female lead Se-i Yun and male lead Jaeha Kim are so fucking adorable!!! Se-i is a cutie, for sure, and seeing Jaeha as a boyfriend in this story raised my "boyfriend" expectations to an unrealistic height...

Also warning: you'll encounter a soft, bashful male lead here... so beware!!!

Seasons Of Blossom

Manhwa Status: Completed This story has four different parts: Spring, Summer, Autumn, and Winter. And damn, the stories are so good, y'all!!

(This is gonna be a LONG rant here btw...)

I really loved the 1st part of the series "Bomi's Flower" which is the season of Spring. The sweet female lead (Bomi Yun), one of the most popular and studious girls in school, has a little crush on the 2nd male lead (Jaemin Lee), another popular kid in school, but later finds out that her best friend/2nd female lead (Seonhui Kang) also has a crush on Jaemin. But the thing is everyone in their school ships Bomi and Jaemin together as a romantic couple. Seonhui also shows her genuine support to Bomi as a good friend if she ever tries to get together with Jaemin, but Bomi knows that deep down inside her heart Seonhui is hurting by the fact that Jaemin likes Bomi and everyone ships them, meaning her love towards Jaemin is unrequited. So to save her friendship with Seonhui and also to save Seonhui from a potential heartbreak, Bomi gets into a fake relationship with the male lead (Jinyeong Choi), so that Seonhui and Jaemin get the chance to be together... But the thing is Jinyeong is the complete opposite of Bomi. Unlike Bomi, Jinyeong is blunt, ruthless with his words, always has a straight bored look on his face, and has an "I don't give a fuck" kinda attitude. He doesn't fuck around and hates those typical high school dramas and bullshit. Even though he's a gaming otaku and only has two male friends, he's quite famous among the students; guys want to be friends with him because of his game recommendations and girls think he's really cute. Also despite the fact that he's shorter than Bomi in height, my man has balls for sure when it comes to speaking up about his mind or taking action for anything.

This story talks about how opposites attract one another, how to discover and learn new yet unexpected things, how to fall in love for the first time in life and that sweet feeling like falling in love in your youth, and how to break out of your own shell and discover a new side of yourself. This 1st part of the series will give you nothing but fluff, sweetness, and butterflies.

And then later comes the 2nd part of the series, the season of Summer aka Hamin's Flower...

Okay, this one was really tough to get through. Not because the story sucked or anything. It's because of how painful, angsty, and heartbreaking it is. In the 1st part (Bomi's Flower aka Spring), we get to know that the 2nd male lead Jaemin Lee had an older brother named Hamin Lee (the golden child of the family) who died 6 years ago by committing suicide. We don't get much info about Hamin Lee in the 1st part (other than the fact that he's Jaemin's brother) until it comes to an end and the 2nd part begins. The 2nd part opens up with Jaemin Lee and the gang bumps into a 24-year-old art college student named Somang Han who happens to be Hamin's girlfriend from high school. Through Somang's narration and flashbacks, we get to know what kind of person Hamin Lee was, how she and Hamin met and fell in love, and how he spiraled into depression which resulted in him ending his own life. And also through Jaemin, we get to know more about Hamin as a son and a brother and how their parents' rough parenting pushed him to darkness and depression. At first, when Hamin was first mentioned in the 1st part, I didn't think much about him and only felt empathy for Jaemin for losing his older brother. But after getting introduced to Hamin in the 2nd part and learning more about him through Somang and Jaemin's POV and narrations, I couldn't help but bawl my eyes out for him in every single chapter. It got even worse for me since I already knew where the story was going and what was going to happen to Hamin in the end (it was more like the Shinichiro Sano effect from Tokyo Revengers like you know who Shinichiro is and what happened to him but that doesn't stop you from falling in love with him despite him being dead throughout the whole series). RIP Hamin Lee; my heart will always go out to you, forever, always.

The 2nd part Hamin's Flower aka Summer talks about some heavy topics/subjects like - dysfunctional families, rough parenting going wrong, dealing with societal burdens and depression, losing your loved ones and dealing with the aftermath, your first tragic love story, handling regrets and dealing with your traumas, how to overcome those traumas, and finally how to let go of your past and move on with life.

Hamin's Flower left me in such a numb and gloomy state that I couldn't read the other two parts (Autumn and Winter), but I'll try to get back and read them sooner or later. Even though I haven't read the complete series yet, I'll still give out a biased statement - I really, really loved Bomi's Flower and Hamin's Flower, and these two parts will always gonna be my favs from this series (doesn't matter to me if Autumn and Winter are better than these two).

Cheese In The Trap

Manhwa Status: Completed The oldest series in this list...

This story... this story... Oh God, where should I begin?!?! I can't believe that I didn't read this until now!! This is a truly mature love story. If you read this wanting a simple light college romance, this is not for you. While there are very cute interactions between the main character and her love interests, it is a very well-thought-out and complex manga - definitely the most realistic I have read thus far. The character development is out of this world and adds a sense of tangibility to the characters that you really don't see in fiction normally. To explain, the important main and side characters in any story are always bound by rules of development to identify them as cogs in a narrative; we have underlying expectations about what the characters might do, or how they might subvert those expectations. But, this webtoon is the study of social relationships and the nature of people. You get to see that there will always be some sort of social hierarchy, that there are meanings and repercussions beyond what you expect to happen in life, and that we all have some degree of victim and perpetrator in us. We all cope and process in different ways, while also continuing and evolving in life the way we know how. Unlike anything I have ever read before.

Also, this story is under the tag of "Psychological Drama" and it's all because of the male lead named Jung Yu. God, I've such a love-hate relationship with him, y'all!! Like I love him but also hate him at the same time. He's mysterious, charming, alluring yet so damn confusing. Also, the fact that he's a sociopath with a bit of a Yandere-ish tendency in him and that he's also obsessed with the female lead (Seol Hong) in a very twisted way??? He's a walking red flag for sure, but then again not... In short, Jung Yu is a complex character and my simple brain just can't comprehend him. I also love the female lead (Seol Hong), the 2nd male lead (Inho Baek), and Seol's two best friends (Bora Jang and Euntaek Kwon). The only important side character I despise is Inho's twin sister Inha Baek (don't ask why; just go and read it for yourself and you'll know why... also I hate those bully characters too btw, just so you know...).

I Don't Hate Us

Manhwa Status: Completed Troupe: Childhood best friends turned lovers.

Another series with "childhood best friends turned lovers" troupe done right!!

The female lead (Wonsu Ha) and the male lead (Jaesu Sang) have been childhood best friends since their middle school days. They had been best friends through high school and college until one day Wonsu got herself a boyfriend. Jaesu has romantic feelings for Wonsu, but she only sees him as a friend and has platonic love for him. Wonsu then breaks up with her boyfriend, not because the guy is a cheater but because they aren't that compatible with each other, so they mutually break up and separate. Wonsu also gets separated from Jaesu because his romantic feelings for her were getting in the way of their friendship at the time, and also her relationship with her ex-boyfriend took a toll on her mentally and emotionally, so she cut off all her connection and simply focused on her studies and graduating from university. Years later, now working in a small yet growing company, Wonsu reconnects with an adult and more mature Jaesu, who now works in a multinational corporation, and that's when sparks and butterflies start to fly left, right, and center. Almost all the characters are likable, the story and the plot are realistic, and overall it was an enjoyable read for me truly.

Also warning: you'll encounter a soft, bashful male lead here... so beware!!! I mean, the fact that despite the bad boy looks and everything, he's so cute like a puppy is fucking adorable, yo!!!

My First Love Hate

Manhwa Status: On-going Troupe: Childhood best friends turned lovers

This one came out this year and so far I'm really enjoying it. Just like the previously mentioned series above, the female lead (Eunha Kang) is relatable, funny, smart, studious, strong-willed, and whatnot. The male lead (Seungmin Ha) is Eunha's childhood best friend since elementary school but they stopped hanging out with one another ever since he became a delinquent back in high school despite the fact that they went to the same school and were in the same classroom. Years later, Eunha got into a prestigious university in Seoul and later learned that Seungmin was also at that university!! Not only that, he also stopped being a delinquent for good and suddenly started dressing up like a nerdy college boy. When Eunha asked what he was trying to do, Seungmin simply replied that he was returning back to his old self again and wanted to reconnect with Eunha... But things got a bit spicy all of a sudden when a tattoo-bodied 2nd male lead named Ryu Seonhoo walked into the scene and Eunha had to tutor him for the GED test on a regular basis...

Also warning: you'll encounter a soft, bashful, puppy-like male lead AND 2nd male lead here... so beware!!!

Just Twilight

Mahwa Status: Ongoing Troupe: Strangers to friends to lovers

I won't say anything about it... JUST FUCKING READ THIS SHIT ALREADY!!!

If you're a fan of another famous manhwa series called "Positively Yours", then you'll also love this series since it's written by the same author. The female lead (Junyoung Yun) is literally my spirit animal and the male lead (Beomjin Kwon) is such a husbando material, y'all... like, just look at him!!!

That's all for now... I'll make more Korean manhwa recommendation posts again very soon!!!

My manhwa recommendation list posts - Link 1, Link 2, and Link 3.

[777yjw]

YOUTH BLOSSOM 🪷

sypnosis :: L/N Y/N, the IT girl of Decelis Academy, has always been expected to date Hwang Intak, the IT boy of Decelis Academy. They were both off-limits for everyone but each other and every single student at Decelis Academy knew that. However, this expectation is challenged when her best friend Pham Hanni, suddenly announces her "secret crush" on the same guy as her?! Y/N can't tell if she's lucky or not when one day during cleaning time, her fellow classmate Yang Jungwon, offers to fake date her and get Pham Hanni off of her back about her own crush on Hwang Intak after the supposed confession that happened.

(Heavily inspired by the webtoon "Seasons of Blossom" Bomi's Flower)

pairing(s) :: gamer! jungwon x IT girl! reader, slight IT boy! intak x IT girl! reader

genre :: non-idol au, high school au, smau, opposites attract, fake dating trope, strangers to lovers, minor love triangle, fluff, angst, romance, slice of life, crack

featuring :: Wonyoung - IVE (faceclaim), Enhypen, Hanni - NewJeans, Keeho & Jongseob & Intak & Soul - P1Harmony, Hikaru & Youngeun - Kep1er, etc.

warnings :: swearing, kys/kms jokes, [the rest will be posted with the chapters]

status :: ongoing! [starting april 7]

NOTE :: this smau does not at all, reflect what the idols would be like in real life. this is 100% FICTION and they are written how they are for the sake of the story.

authors note :: hello hi this is my first smau and i'm very excited to start it! first chapter should be posted within a week or so :3

CLIQUES :: star girls 🌟 / W wingmen 💪 / league 🤢 players / extras

EPISODES

Ep 1. ungrateful ass BITCH [smau + written]

Ep 2. BREAKING! [smau + written]

Bonus Ep. jake's emo streak

Ep 3. sunoo detective era

Ep 4. y/n notice x1!!

taglist is open! send an ask off anon or comment under any chapter to be added!

TAGLIST :: @ifearjwn @iaaah @aki1e @ensrfm @whippedforbeomgyu @enhafika @artstaeh @weyukinluv @astrae4 @woncheecks @enhy4me2

[ilostthingss]

Seasons 𝗼𝗳 𝗯𝗹𝗼𝘀𝘀𝗼𝗺

Am I too late in this? I started reading Seasons of Blossom, finished Bomi's Flower and now I'm on Hamin's Flower.

Bomi's Flower felt so comforting... The start of youth and that innocent love... But honestly, one thing I never get in webtoons like this is how they fall in love so fast. Like, Jinyeong never really talked to her, he just saw her from afar. Is it even possible to fall in love like that? All I can see is he see that Bomi tries hard to be nice, sometimes it's to a very discomfort extent.

I do love how Bomi feels comfortable around Jinyeong and sometimes goes out of character with him. And I get why she eventually falls for him after spending time together. But to think how Jinyeong already fell for her tho... Idk maybe love really does just happen in a moment ig.

It ended well for them tho. Now I’m wondering if Jaemin and Seonhui will get more story development... Also, I kinda love the height difference! T_T

As for Hamin, ik how it’s going to end... but I’ve read a few chapters and seeing someone like him take his own life... Wow! I’m already heartbroken. Idk how I’ll keep reading without crying my eyes out....

[monokelp]

Seasons of Blossom: Summary Review

**Spoilers Ahead!

Seasons of Blossom was a wonderful read. Everything in it tied together neatly, and actions and events that happened in the past affected what happened towards the end. I think Bomi and Jinsong were cute. But they were the only season of the story. Bomi’s Flower, which represents spring, is the opening season that we start off with in the webtoon. Part of it is because I don’t really care much for high school first love romances since I’ve consumed so much media that has the same premise. The only “difference” about this love story is that the girl is taller than the guy in the case—not a very commonly used trope, but it’s still not that impactful in the grand scheme of this story. I would describe Bomi’s Flower, as being very similar to what you would find as the main plot in a shojo manga or typical fake dating, high school set, misunderstoodlove story. This is not to say that I hate Bomi’s Flower, but more so that there were parts of this story that better resonated with me. 

Meanwhile, Hamin’s flower (Summer) was so heartbreaking to read, and it made me sob. The feeling of pressure weighing down as the eldest child and trying to protect your younger siblings from having to meet the same expectations your family expects of you—I don’t think anyone could have blamed Hamin for his choice. I think the most gut wrenching thing about Hamin’s flower, was that we were reading everything that led up to his death. We, as readers, knew what was going to happen, but it was a bomb with a timer that no one knew would go off. I love how the entire series places a very big theme on understanding that someone choosing suicide can hardly ever be counted as one person’s fault. If it’s one’s person’s fault, it was also anyone else’s fault that the deceased met that day, or the weather, or the clothes they wore, or place they were in. Everything would have been at fault. Grief was also something very prominent, and Somang, Hamin’s classmate and love interest, is such a strong and kind woman. She has had to keep living without ever knowing how Hamin felt about her until Jaemin gave her Hamin’s diary, which detailed how much Hamin cherished her and wanted to reach out but couldn’t. The way she grows up and does her best to help people through art is also wonderfully done, because she was able to give Jaemin, Hamin’s younger brother, a piece of Hamin to remember him by. 

As for the rest of the series, Gaeul’s flower (Autumn) was also a favorite of mine because of Subin, to be honest. And also for the fact that it focused on those in college rather than high school. I still find there’s a lack of representation of media that is geared toward or written with college students involved in the plot, so this was something I really liked about this webtoon. I loved Subin and Gaeul’s relationship probably the most. But I think the unfortunate thing is that if Hamin were alive in the series, Gaeul wouldn’t be. Because Gaeul only stayed alive for the sake of Somang, who was dealing with Hamin’s death. She couldn’t allow herself to die when Somang had practically nobody to rely on. Had Hamin stayed alive, Gaeul would have offed herself, knowing that Hamin would catch Somang in his arms. I also loved, loved, loved the development of Seonhui, Subin’s younger sister, and her classmate, Jaehyun. I mainly started “Seasons of Blossom” to witness their development, but I’m glad I ended up being able to read about all the other wonderful parts that the story had to offer. Seonhui and Jaehyun were important in the sense that Seonhui was able to find someone who made her feel special, and so she was able to move on from her crush on her childhood friend, Jaemin. Jaehyun also found someone whom he didn’t necessarily have to be a mediator for all the time; if anything, he likes to start things with Seonhui because she reacted cutely. Jaehyun being raised around three sisters also made sense as to why he knew how to handle things so well. The height difference was also super cute! 

Lastly, Dongchae’s flower (Winter) was mainly an accumulation of everyone working together like cogs in a clock to prevent him from doing the same thing as Hamin. Everyone played a part in making sure Dongchae was okay and that his bullies didn’t get away with the trauma they created for him. Dongchae’s flower was a very good arc but also a good conclusion that encapsulated all the main themes we learned from the other flowers. 

Bomi’s Spring Flower focuses on blooming love and friendship. Hamin’s Summer Flower tells a tale of grief, acceptance, and pressures set upon kids by their parents to achieve success. Gaeul’s Autumn Flower details the consequences and aftermath of bullying and the concepts of forgiveness and consideration. Dongchae’s Winter Flower then encapsulates the story by showing how community and connection will be one’s strongest weapons against declining mental health and suicide contemplation. 

If there is one webtoon that I would recommend that isn’t solely a romance or only for aesthetics, I would recommend “Season’s Blosson” to anyone who wants to be served a multitude of life lessons all encapsulated in a beautifully written webtoon. 

[tearsofreader]

guys i think the tomatoes my mom bought can talk and walk??????

[narglesnthings]

PSA that if anyone else feels the intense need to discuss Seasons of Blossom, my inbox is ready and available

[tintinswebtoonselfcorner]

he tiptoed... how cuuuuttteeee🥰

[rarqh]

walking tomatoes y'all

[leaving-fragments]

it's been a while since i cried from reading a story but hamin's flower in the seasons of blossom webtoon had me in tears multiple times

[daymoony]

reread all of seasons of blossom to prepare for dongchae’s flower bcs im Thinking that its gonna be like a culmination of every single thing that has happened in the other seasons (bomi’s, hamin’s and gaeul’s)

[shewholovestars]

When did it start? When did the 'me' that didn't have many interests other than games and friends, start to have feeling like this for you?

All of the sudden, my new point of view always had your smile in it.

Choi Jinyoung// Seasons of Blossom: Bomi's Flower

[alatusxiaoo]

hellooo, im the anon who wrote before abt reading seasons of blossom (bomi's flower specifically), so rn i just started reading hamin's flower wish me luck bc i know what im getting myselftl into🙁

aaaa this has been waiting in my inbox for a while, im so sorry i haven’t noticed! >.< i also saw you’ve already read it in the other ask,, i just hope you prepared your tissues back then while you were digesting that heartbreaking piece of art :””)

[reniqt]

HELLO omg,,,, i just wanted to say i Love your writing soso much 🤭 your jungwon timestamps 🥹🥹 ALSO your riki smau omfg. i came across it and was like ?? what a coincidence bc i’ve been planning a smau based on bomi’s flower (seasons of my blossom is my favourite webtoon fr.) so i read bully from nowhere and i’m in LOVE. i think the way you’re combining the elements of hamin and gaeul’s flowers is so creative!! sorry for rambling i am just a fan 😵‍💫

to make a long ask short!! i love your work and would love to be added to your permanent taglist if possible 🫶

HI !! <33

omg?? 🥺🥺 this is probably one of the most precious asks I’ve ever gotten:(( to think people actually acknowledge the fact my riki smau is a combination of seasons of blossoms,, makes me?? so happy??? and RIGHT🫶 that webtoon always had a special place for me <33 but I can’t thank you enough for how grateful I am to have such an adorable fan. 😭LIKE I LOVE YOU ALREADY??? I’d love to read your upcoming smau if you ever plan on it !!! :) and don’t apologize, hun, it’s been such a long time since I’ve ever gotten such a sweet ask AHH. thank you so much :(( 🤍

[ragnvdnir]

I am back Lady Ein 💖 I just wanna ask if you have any manhwa recommendations 👀 i've been meaning to read some when i'm bored 🤭 Well, how are things going on your side? 👁️👁️ Did Ayato come home already ?? 🤔🤔🤔 If you have played the Irodori Festival event too, what do you think of it? 🧐🤩🤩

— your most loyal advisor and servant, 🍰.

welcome back my dear loyal strawberry shortcake 😻😻😻

actually the reason why i only replied to this now is bc im trying to remember the titles of those manhwas🤡🤡 but here are some of the manhwas i love (even though i didn't finish all of them)

How to get my husband on my side — idk if u saw it but i spammed my blog with this manhwa bc i love it. probably, this is my current favorite of all isekai manhwa ive read. its still ongoing so im reading the novel rn bc i cant wait.

Beware of the villainess — i dont remember when was the last time i read this but if i have to be honest, this is the funniest manhwa ive read. melissa (fl) is so funny i swear, and nine (ml) is so cute

Positively yours — this is one of my fav modern manhwa. i just love the couple sm. its a lighthearted one, not too much of frustation and stress. just prepare for falling inlove with dojoon(ml) bc i am sure i was not prepared. he is such a husband material, the ideal man *chef's kiss*. im actually planning to write a fic inspired from this one and diluc as the ml bc idk dojoon's personality fits this red man👀

seasons of blossoms — oh lawwd, you gotta prepare yourself emotionally and mentally at this one. i swear, im telling you and warning you, the season 2 (hamin's flower) made me run out of tissues, ive cried for days bc of it, my heart was never prepared for this one. as a person who loves reading angst i didn't expect s2 to be this... idk painful?until now, i still can't seem to move on from him. but the season 1 (bomi's flower) is a very cute one, its so fluffy and smiley but the season 2 really brought me down. i still haven't read season 3 bc like i said, im not ready to let go of hamin's flower, the pain is just 💔💔💔

death is the only ending for villainess — i remembered being inlove with this one. penelope (fl) is so powerful oml im down bad😩😩 i still haven't continued reading the manhwa thoug. back then, bc i love this manhwa i read the novel and stopped bc my favorite ml (there are abt 5 mls??) did something and he died (i wont speak tell who) and since then, i stopped reading it. but they said he's not dead so idk what to feel

i became the hero's rival — oh felix😩😩 hes so mmm. as usual i haven't finished this bc its on going🤡 and i haven't continued it bc i forgot the last chapter i read (and im currently reading something) idk what to say to this except how the hell felix can make me feel stunned. and his sister claudia is so so pretty 😩😩 chamberlain siblings is just mwah. and irene is such a mood, i love her character. somehow, she reminds me of melissa from beware of the villainess.

perfect secret love: the bad new wife is a little sweet — this one is a manhua but im still gonna include it. this one have 200+ chapters and still ongoing and idk how i read that for two days. this manhua got me hooked and idk what made me attached to this one.

elixir of the sun — the emperor is down bad for her. the classical softie to fl. this one is ongoing too😗😗

so i think that's some manhwas that i remember i read? tbh i read manhwas but most of the time, i dont finish them it's bc either they're ongoing or i forgotten abt it.

then there is this one popular manhwa i was abt to read called who made me a princess bc saw this one pretty dude who is my type but hes the second lead🤡🤡

might as well share the manhwas that i want to read:

marriage of convenience

father, i dont want to get married

the princess imprints the traitor

business proposal

(i forgot the titles of others🤡)

As for your question, this stubbornman hasn't come👹 tbh im not hoping for him anymore, i lost my hope and just decided to move on but look at me still pulling for him

Oh and the five kasen. we got scara crumbs i see 👀 the simps have been fed after months of his disappearance 🤡🤡 im really looking forward to more of scara's or lets just say kunikuzushi👀👀 im really interested in his lore tbh😗😗

OML AND KAZUHA😩😩😩 YOU DONT KNOW HOW FOCUSED I AM WHENEVER HE APPEARS😻😻😻

[tintinswebtoonselfcorner]

me everytime i see couples:

[alatusxiaoo]

okay this is random but i just finished bomi's flower on seasons of blossom and ohmygod??? i fcking love jinyeong and jaemin sm??? i was literally screaming on the last few chapters. also im abt to start hamin's flower and i really have a strong feeling that it will bring me rivers of tears and pain bc i just read the special chapter rn and im literally crying bc i thought its real but its just her written story abt them having an alternative happy ending???

dont mind me ranting on your ask lmao

aksjdjs omg hi anon!! and stop this rant is literally well appreciated 🙇‍♀️😭

im a fucking simp for jinyeong hhh theres just something so adorable abt his personality >.< and the spring season was so heartwarming in the absolute best possible ways! but uGh THE SUMMER SEASON !!! SFKSJ, i have no actual words,, that shit broke me for the rest of my life,, im sorry to admit this in advance, but you will most definitely be shedding tears at the end of it :((