#searchforthecure

[autoimmunedara]

I’m tired.

I’m tired, because I don’t tend to get a good nights rest.

I’m tired, because I spend hours in the middle of the night itching. Sometimes I’ll even so it in my sleep.

When I was little, my parents would wrap my hands in socks. They always made sure my nails were trimmed extra low to prevent me from further damaging my skin.  They also notified my teachers to never let me scratch.  So I would go hide in the bathroom.

My mom said in pre-school, the teacher found me in the bathroom stall with blood all over my legs and skin in my nails.

My mom would have to put my steroid topical ointments on while I was sleeping because of the burn.

I've been battling this, since the beginning.

I'm always tired.  I'm tired of being itchy 24/7 in multiple places at once.

I'm tired of always having to buy new bed sheets because of the blood stains I leave from scratching the night away.

I'M SO SICK OF ECZEMA AND PSORIASIS I WANT TO SCREAM.

Sometimes, I scream.  Sometimes, I cry.

And then I feel guilty.  There are babies with cancer dying and I'm sitting here complaining about my skin.

I need to be stronger.  Thankful I have asthma and eczema and not cancer and diabetes. 

I am blessed.  I am fine. 

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[autoimmunedara]

so, do i HAVE to wear shoes today?

So let's be honest.  If you have eczema you know what I mean.  The second you get out of the shower.. You don't want to dry off... You want to lay in bed, naked, allowing the air to dry you with time.  No touch.  No towels.  Just clean soft sheets against your back, and the warmth of your comfy bed cradling you like a cloud.  Then you remember you have to get up and put clothes on.   THE WORST.  Finding an outfit to cover your open wounds - let alone an outfit that doesn't make you want to scratch your self to death.

Everything hurts.  The slightest touch, or brush against the skin.

Constant feeling of UNCOMFORT.. as if feathers are tickling over your skin.. or bugs swiftly crawling.

  So today I'm wearing my usual work attire..  Leggings.. Boots... a long sleeved dress... a shawl.. hair up (because when hair brushes on my face I want to scratch)... light make up (because God knows eczema sufferers strive to find the perfect makeup that doesn't cause a reaction)...

Just another day.