#seafucker

[horseshoecrabs]

1 & 14!!

1. do you carry around a bag when you're out and about? if so, what's usually in it?

indeed i do. lately i’ve been using a crossbody fanny pack and i have wallet, phone, keys (the usual suspects) along with lip balm, at least 2 lipstick shades, a scrunchie, headphones, tissues, and my inhaler + meds :-) pretty boring all things considered

14. which color of the sky is your favorite?

boy do i love the colors of the sky. i’m quite a fan of the deep deep blue it gets after sunset but before it’s gone fully dark

[beyblaiddyd]

i can't find the pumpkin emoji :( corbaby halooween costume indulgence

White rabbit! They r running late

[studiousbotanist]

i mean i associate you very closely w claudette just bc you're claudette fanclub president in my eyes BUTTT kin-wise i have to concur w arden on being jeff-like

wwww im HONORED i adore claudette so much . i want to be more like her :) !!! but the jeff agreement warms my heart . imo dbd wise i see you as meg w the same energy and determination !!!!! and also i 100% associate sylvain w you . i trust no one else w him nearly as much :saluting_face:

[cantarella]

gives u kaveh in the wet cardboard box he was born in. also kaoru hakaze

a kaveh-shaped mental illness got cannon blasted into my brain on a day in september last year and I haven't known peace since. the only man I can truly call my babygirl. thinking about him hurts 90% of the time except when I think about how he's essentially in a sitcom now which is very funny. whatever I think of this guy is the closest I'll ever get to kinning. I never wanted to force a character into therapy this bad

give it up for the second blond dude with parental issues and an obsession with keeping a facade in a row! anyway tried to not like him bc of the early story straightie allegations, failed miserably, so he's my favorite whore now. I'm enjoying his sweater arc in !! I'm glad to see a bad bitch have better mental health. he should be made more fun of for his ugly ponytail in 2nd year though bc what was that

[striehart]

happy birthday!!

thank you!! every year this holiday rolls around i have such fond memories of you i hope you've been having a great one

[evildeerboy]

honey bustard pickled seafuck meal

i don’t wanna brag but i just made the most cum worthy mashed potatoes i’ve ever made

[johnnyutah]

wait i liked listing out my fav girl characters for that post so much so i wanna share some pics of my faves.

from top left: dolores abernathy (westworld), sidney prescott (scream), nancy wheeler (stranger things), amanda brotzman (dirk gently’s holistic detective agency), tess ocean (ocean’s 11), fringilla vigo (the witcher netflix), amy brookheimer (veep), feng min (dead by daylight), and maeve millay (westworld).

(honourable mentions to mindy from scream, MANY women from dbd, MANY girls from the quarry, bart and farah from dghda, lou and debbie and daphne from o13, and okay let’s be real i could keep going so let’s cut it here.)

also tagging @adrianicsea @beyblaiddyd @gayscientist @jamie-tiergan @emmamountebank @dameferre @studiousbotanist @seafucker @eachuisge @weedsinavacantlot and whoever else feels like doing this. SHOW ME THOSE BLORBOS

[ghostadas]

@itzpapalotl tagged me in a cute lil moodboard prompt of theo + core in Pinterest!! These are very my vibe 😌 I’ll tag @seafucker @nola-aiwe and @hesitantbird 🌱🍀

[horseshoecrabs]

7 and 18?

7: evolution by braids

very cute love song i like to listen to when i drive in car. 🚗 beep beep

18: true blue by boygenius

ok fine maybe they have a point. it DOES feel good to be known so well.

[glowingvenus]

@seafucker took the bait and asked me to write 10 paragraphs about NATURE's song GIRLS so I can do nothing but oblige...

this was the song that inspired me to start my song of the day playlist which has now been going for 1,212 days (i'm normal.) sometimes a song is just so special and resonates so strongly that it sets you on a path of musical obsession.

to talk about the musical aspects first - the way that the tropical house sound, which was so popular in the early 4th gen, gets twisted, distorted and repurposed into something dark and ominous. that sweeping synth that runs like a razor blade again and again over everything. even the opening notes give you the feeling of strapping yourself into a haunted house ride, about to turn the corner and drop into something horrific...

but what really makes me crazy about this song is the way that it feels like the songwriters reached into my mind and pulled out all the themes, all the feelings that i've been most fascinated with creatively throughout my life. the concepts of virginity, love and sex as horror are expressed so elegantly here with so few words. (yes even "hot like chilly chilly," i'll get to that LOL.)

the feeling of being inexperienced in love and sex - whether you're young, or you're older but you feel young because of that - is terrifying. it can mutate into such a dark and twisted thing where you feel childish and stupid trying to even approach someone that you desire, because you don't know anything. and you might find yourself wishing that they would use you, hurt you, take advantage of you, just to break the seal and take away the childish innocence that weighs so heavily upon you.

so in this song we have a protagonist who feels that she's in love with someone, a person who has haunted her for a long time - she's built up this obsession in her mind, and she wants the person to just notice so that she doesn't have to make the first move (which will surely be fumbling and embarrassing, and make them hate her.) and because the person doesn't notice, or doesn't care, the love becomes laced with resentment.

regardless of her actual age, "before love" (as in, in front of love) she's just "a girl" - and the word used is 어린애, which means girl as in - child. she's standing before this thing that's supposed to be romantic and beautiful, and it's facing her down like a dark tower, and she feels lost and scared.

she asks, "can’t you accept this love, even if it’s childish?" after all, "tonight is the last night" - it's a desperate plea, she's waited as long as she can and she's willing to give up everything at this point, even if it tears her apart.

the lyrics of the song are very sparse, but what lyrics there are are dragged out - single-syllable words are sung with multiple notes, in a way that you really don't see often in kpop songs. and this gives such an incredible weight to certain words, like in the prechorus - "순진했던" - the word for "to be innocent/naive" in past tense, so "(something that was) innocent/naive" - and then when we hit the chorus, we finally hear the next word - "난" (I/me.) this gives it the effect of a painful confession; every word is dragged out of the protagonist as she confesses her awkward, shameful desire.

in the postchorus, "내 모습 우스워져" is typically translated as "I feel so ridiculous" but I think there's a lot more to it than that. "모습" literally translates to figure or shape - as in, the entirety of me, what you see when you look at me. and "우스워져" isn't just ridiculous - it's laughable, it's worthy of mockery. she's saying that this feeling of love is making her into something laughable, disgusting. and i think that anyone who's ever been in love and felt that it was unrequited, or hopeless, can relate to that. being loved back? what a joke. look at you.

"my heart is really really/hot like chilly chilly" so it's NOT chili as in a chili pepper, lol, but the hot and cold feeling of fear. terror. these warm feelings toward someone are supposed to be positive and beautiful, but with all this baggage and self-loathing behind them, they become something that puts you in a cold sweat.

the music video is amazing as well, although i don't consider it part of what makes me so obsessed with this song, but - the white dresses that gradually become soaked in blood? the imagery of violence, of stabbing, cut in with the claustrophobic maze-like set and the girls softly holding each other? the lesbian overtones? yep. that's what i would have gone for too. because again, what i hear in these lyrics is really a craving for violent love, violation, loss of innocence.

from a closeted lesbian perspective: you might not understand why you want love so badly yet the idea of being with a boy terrifies you in so many ways. you might think that this is just what desire is, and that it's terrifying for everyone and you have to just rip off the bandaid and let someone hurt you if you don't understand how to do it naturally. or even if you're not closeted, it can be just as scary to enter the world of adult desire feeling like you don't know what you're doing, like you're the only one who's inexperienced, stupid and ugly. so that's what i hear in this song. a beautiful masterpiece.

[kirigear]

tagged by my gab to post some books i want to read this year, i believe i can clear this whole list but my 'remember' tag in my library app is at nearly 200 so that's a small victory. also considering i have that many books i want to read, this is not necessarily indicative of my broader tastes ig

aaronscrownest mr-ribbit yvoi growleaf rangerwill seafucker octakiseron ?

[cantarella]

4

ok I don't want to say kaveh bc we don't know too much about him yet, though what we Do know screams "wow he is literally me" but anyway. probably xingqiu bc I too talk too formally sometimes, hate bureaucracy, am a younger sibling, a little shit, and have even shittier penmanship

[beyblaiddyd]

yunjin 2A indulgences . or emma 1A indulgences,

Hows about both of them

[studiousbotanist]

@seafucker YEAH, NO, omg you've seen it too ?? dude . wtf was this movie . like . it was very good it did the job it wanted to, but I'd also erase it if I could . complicated feelings

[johnnyutah]

art thou still doing these. if so just kin me whatever the fuck ahah love you!

^ Him +

he/they version of Her

[needlekind]

yes, kai