#seafavoured (james flint)

[vocesincaput]

[ STEADY ] from flint, for thomas !

𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐓 𝐀 𝐖𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

[ STEADY ]:     sender gently catches and guides the emotionally distressed receiver against a wall in order to physically steady them.

It wasn't the first time the ship had docked at Nassau but it was the first time Thomas had stepped foot onto the docks (at the insistence of his Captain). The sudden emotions and memories that had washed over him felt like the both the most overwhelming and catastrophic waves in the biggest of storms as well as the calmest of seas.

Both turbulent and serene all at once.

Thomas had spent the past half an hour walking through the streets in an almost daze as he took in the fact he was walking in the place he had spent so much time thinking about. His mind had turned to both Miranda and James and how he wished that the two of them were there to experience it with him.

Sadness crept into the Quartermasters thoughts as he thought about them both. His wife and the man he loved. Thomas stopped in the middle of half empty walkway whilst lamps were beginning to be lit as the days sun began to hang low in the sky. Eyes slowly looking around at everything until they settled upon a face that cut through all of his thoughts and that he had never expected to see again.

James.

Thomas felt as all breath had left his body as the waves of memories and emotions was rushing over him ten fold and all at once as he wavered upon his feet.

His mind had to be playing tricks of him because of everything he was feeling. It had to be. Thomas closed his eyes as all of the swirling emotions were rushing to the surface. He had kept himself composed in front of the crew of the ship he served upon, only breaking down when in his small room, he couldn't let himself break now.

The tears were starting to break even as Thomas closed his eyes tighter. He felt both lightheaded and as if he were being crushed by overwhelming sensations as hands settled upon his arms. He felt as if his feet were moving of their own accord. A rough surface pressing against his back.

"J-James.... no, no, it can't be...."