#scrubbing layers of paint off thinking iwas th same color th whole time and its. orange. purple. turquoise. yellow. magenta. girl what

[trainingdummyrabbit]

like. its so fucking crazy though. its becoming so so rapidly clear how absolutely fucked it is iwas raised th way i was n Nobody Noticed. not even me. like damn i thought i was doing a fine enough job but apparently Being Hopelessly Reliant On A Perceived "Authority" is, as they say, Kind Of Fucked Up. like it really Does feel like this all came outta fucken nowhere, regarding the. horrors. but th more i think abt it the more its just repeatedly 'Ah. They Should Not Have Done That To A Child.' like ah. ok. ok. cool.

like its not that big a deal but the fact that i still think that is in and of itself, again, Kind Of Fucked Up.

"you never do anything, you used to be so good, you had everything going for you and everything, what happened?" 1) Whose fault do you think that is, 2) Are You For Fucking Real Right Now ??? Ill Kill Y