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Photo Booth ft My Fav Jacket.

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May 16, 2016.

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‘Jackass Ginger Pond’ - Honolulu, Hawaii  March 2015.

I started being a photographer on my own around that time of year. I used to work with a clothing line, dude who owns it always saw potential in me. He pushed me to do a bunch of crazy shoots with him. He def brought the artistic side out of me. Things fell out, no bad blood. I was immature at that time. Getting myself into all types of trouble. I thank him still to this day for the numerous opportunities he provided at the time. We don't speak, but I always send good vibes from a  distance. Never liked to keep a harsh heart against anyone. 

This shoot above, this was my absolute favorite. Hailey. I met her at Macy’s. I was 19/20 when I met her. Lost soul, I was just discovering what the real world was like. Catching the bus at least 1 hour or so before my shift. Even though technically it was a 15 min drive to get to, my dad was rough on letting me get a damn license. So one hour getting to and from work. Being on time was always a military thing, even better when you are early. Macy's was cool. I went into the cosmetic world not knowing what the hell I was getting myself into. I did not do  1) eyebrows. 2)foundation. So rolling up with just eyeliner and mascara was all I knew. I was freaking out my first few days, trying to know what the fuck primer was, setting spray, which product had spf, or what was good for dry or oily skin - YA GIRL RIGHT HERE AINT KNOW SHIT.  But I know some things now, and I can do my eyebrows. 

A long lasting friendship was built by a simple “Whats your Instagram?” That is how Hailey and I became friends. She and another lovely soul named Chasity carried me under their wings as if I was their long lost little sister. I am forever grateful for them. They taught me the TRUE meaning of friends. So I dedicate this post to Hailey, thank you for allowing me to capture such a special moment in your life. 

Thank you. 

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Manisfesting.

It is real. It is true. And I am a firm believer. 

It is crazy how quickly my dreams are manifesting as reality. I have so much to be thankful for. I have a bucket list. A simple list that I would like to have, or get done by the time I leave Florida. 15 to dos. I’ve done 5 already. I have 4 months and 6 days remaining. This is what I call my ‘grind time’. Reality is that I really have no time to just have small talk with anyone anymore. I am constantly moving, or on the go. No personal time... (Except right now because I am suppose to reflect.) No time to really slow down for anyone. I told myself, no distractions. Focusing all my energy and brain waves to my future is so important right now. I am constantly telling myself, “IT IS MINE -- ANYTHING I WANT IS MINE”

Manifesting this Nikon Nikkor Z6 was the most successful I have been this month. I put it out there after my break up that I was going to work on getting a new camera. I told the universe the Nikon Nikkor Z6, mirrorless, is MINE. I made a promise to myself that I will devote time to myself, especially my thoughts. Here I am, camera in hand. *HUGE SHOUT OUT TO MY FATHER WHO WENT HALF ON IT WITH ME*  But mainly for coming through with making sure I got exactly what I wanted. He tried to tell me I was trippin for wanting a nearly $3k camera. But I know what I want. I get what I want. 

It was important to train my thoughts. Especially that inner voice. We all have that inner voice that talks back. Don't front. Training to recreate my thoughts. It was soooth sailing once I started accepting and became grateful of everything. Didn't matter what happened, good or bad - I was accepting and thankful. When it was bad, I still said thank you because now I see these moments as life lessons. I don't even see them as an obstacle. I see it as the next stage to process through to understand the next level of life. I do admit I get frustrated still sometimes, not as bad - and when I do get frustrated I am STILL able to get my head out and get it together. The way you think, is literally what becomes.

YOUR MIND IS A POWERFUL POWERFUL GIFT. 

I created this reality in my mind that I am living the life that I want, and it has become.

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Universal alignment, P1.

Wednesday April 17th, 2019 - 6:45 pm  Self reflecting. At that exact moment I was thinking to myself of how grateful and blessed I was. I felt the feeling of pure happiness. Mind clear, vision clear, world around me so bright and vivid. So pure. So cleansed. I felt so whole again. To love yourself is the toughest battle. I’m becoming a soldier to my own thoughts. Each and every day is a blessing. I feel so aligned and it allows me to flow freely. Mentally, its been good. Now what I am about to share is going to be one of the most cherished moments I will never forget. 

6:57 pm

Where I am located is this tiny lil path that is directly behind my apartments and it leads to this reserve that a lady by the name of Pamela Callahan fought to keep. She fought to keep it just as it is and it is such a nice area to go to and breathe.*inhales, exhales* She created a space for us to roam and think freely. 

A guy with a backpack (& two Games blunt packs on the side) walks past me as I’m sitting on the Pam stone. REAL TALK - dude scared the shit outta me. Like legit had me ready to do that SOS shit on my phone scared me. I saw and felt his ora. Weird to some, but it was the first time I ever clearly saw somebodies ora. Bright as day, vivid like. There is a lil buddha guy that is buried deep in the cuts of the bushes, so I asked him instantly “Do you know what that buddha represents in the back?” AN INSTANT VIBE --  He described a different buddha that I didn't see. So I show him the buddha my friend discovered and he instantly lit up even brighter. We started talking about the land - he describes the story of the lady who fought for it and how she did it for us. Us, souls out here trying to find direction. That area was my spot to think freely. Roam freely in my head and start thinking about everything I wanna do in life. Plan my future of success. Here another soul out here, to roam freely. Also to catch a PokemanGo gym. 

Jay. aka Philly, 31. “Im the biggest kid you’ll ever know” 

Just like that, we sitting there talking about our lives. He got a girlfriend, who, btw is fine as fuck, & they live in the apartments next to mine. He hates his current job, so he went out looking for a new one and caught an interview. Its even for a better position, better pay. I know you got it bro. Sending you those good energies. Its yours. Which brings me to the reason I am writing this piece... He’s a christian. Believes in only God. I also believe in God, but I also believe in Angels and Energies especially from the universe. He met recently somebody else who believes in what I believe in expect not a firm believer in God. He believes she believed energy is God, not a person. Which is cool, I’m never here to bash anyone or their beliefs. So as we are talking, spiritually, I am feeling a sense of pure happiness. Jay was so opened minded into what I believed in, no judgement. Appreciated the words I shared, and how I felt.... Immediately  I see in a distance a lil beam of light shining through clouds. That was my sign. That was my signal that I am on the right path. My social anxiety is no longer serving me. I was able to completely open up about myself to a complete stranger, but in a good way. I was able to shed some positivity to his day, share my experience with someone. The realization of the power I hold just by listening to someone,  and to send back good vibes, wish nothing but goodness upon someone I have never met. Be able to just fuel the positivity out. Be me.That shit felt fucking good.

As we were leaving, he said “Yo, you have such good positive energy, you gonna be famous one day” Humble as can be, “I only want to make a difference.” As I start to plan my next few months to prepare my move for Vegas, this energy I have right now - this mindset is only going to get stronger. My photos.... are only going to get better. The knowledge I seek is only going to make me smarter. I will only surround myself with energy that will fuel me. Meeting a complete stranger, at that very moment was the absolute most needed. It was MY reminder that I am good. I am doing exactly what I need to be doing. My goals and dreams are at arms length. And every person I encounter will grow, nourish into what they sought out to see themselves as. I believe IN you💫

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North Shore, Hawaii - May, 2015

Featuring my high school best friend. We were always getting into mischievous things when together. She told her dad one time in HS that she was running to the store to get Tampons, when we were really at a park getting drunk and going on an adventure through the woods. She also drove passed my house one time honking her horn screaming so I could sneak out the front door! Good times.

Some of the best HS memories was with her. ���️