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Despite everything, it's still you.
#kieran#pokemon#sorry i know this is badly formatted but i only really made it for personal reasons but then thought hey maybe someone else might need this#yes im sorry the first image having a different outfit bugs me so much but it's the only one i had in my screenshots with that expression#why am i even saying sorry JUST TAKE THIS IF YOU LIKE IT and if you don't... bye#hello if you're reading the tags
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haha I'll never finish this
but hewwo new followers <3
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch fanart#but the idea is cool so have this bleurg#today I broke a teeth and I don't know how#got an appointment but not before a week#it's annoying to eat 'cause the sensation is weird#maybe it will motivate me to lose weight tho#so I could finally pass this threshold of 2 pull ups in a row to 3#and finally go to the gym without my emotional support elastic bands#do strength training with your own bodyweight they say#it will be cheap they said#yeah guess what it's hard when you're afab lol#in the meantime doing legs is easy but eeeh no one do squat competition in party#it's always “hey look how much pull ups I can do”#gnagnagna#hey people who read my tags comment which clone would win a pull up competition if you read this#ok I need to sleep#bye
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Hello!! i just discovered your blog and firstly i wanna say that your art is gorgeous! <33 and secondly, if youre still taking requests could i get a lesbian/non binary cheetah? /nf
Thank you! Cheetahs be upon ye!
#ask#art request#my art#art#lesbian#lesbian pride#nonbinary#enby#nonbinary pride#enby pride#cheetah#pride#pride art#queer#queer art#animal art#lgbtqia+#lgbtq+#critter series#/nf is one of those acronyms that i don't really understand even though i know technically what it means...i think? it's 'not forced' right#(sorry if that's not actually what it stands for. apart from tumblr i'm very much under a rock when it comes to most internet stuff)#it's more the phrase itself that confuses me. or moreso amuses me i suppose#'not forced' sounds like something someone who is definitely *not* being threatened by a secret enemy spy would say#'hi fellow spy friend of mine. you know where we keep our secret stash of money haha /nf' <- absolutely being forced via enemy spy blackmai#what you obviously mean by /nf: hey don't feel pressured to do this :) this is a polite request#what my brain decides to read it as: dear god! it's secret code! someone is holding them hostage and forcing them to ask for art. D:#but i do appreciate you adding it just in case. but if you're polite and kind in your words than an ask never sounds demanding to me :)#anyway sorry for getting COMPLETELY off track. forgive my silly little mind. we're here for pride critters#AND WHAT A GREAT CRITTER CHOICE for those flags my friend. they worked really well :D hope you enjoy#id in alt
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Happy birthday to my amazing and wonderful friend!❤️❤️❤️
That's all, this is mostly just for her.
Ink belongs to Comyet/Mye bi
#hey just in case you're actually reading this#hello! <3#i just wanted to say how much you and our friendship mean to me#how fantastic and amazing you are#and that i'm so happy to be able to call you my friend#i'm not too great with words but i still wanted to try to say something#so yeah#hope you have a wonderful birthday! 💙#my art#utmv#sans au#ink sans#undertale au
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its like yeah rozin is basically canon to me but no I dont want it canonized in the upcoming Roku novel... hashtag QUEERBAIT SWEEP !!! and by queerbait I of course mean its not actually queerbait but like. you know what I'm saying. its about that narrative denial and blue balling.
#I support canonizing queer pairings unless it makes them less interesting and it would make Rozin less#interesting SAWRI... but no really. 'hey Roku here's a ceremonial hair piece I'm gifting you that#basically says you're part of the royal family haha. don't read into it.' sorry what#rozin#atla
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disclaimer that I don't like the idea of openly assuming things about strangers' identities or their personal lives, especially when you're catching a glimpse of only one part of them they choose to share in the public eye. but it Is very funny when you're reading or watching some interview with a famous person, and they say things that make you do this one comic:
#art source drememoto#''yeah I like my routine just right and I don't like when anything changes it lol I'm just kinda quirky that way!#I hate certain noises and I have very intense obsessions about things and I'm not so good at talking to people''#and you're like uh huh. uh huh. uh huh.#I enjoy reading those things tho. bc even if there's ultimately nothing to pathologise it's still like. aw hey me too#tho older ones from now deceased people who likely never had the opportunity to discover anything about themselve are quite heartbreaking.#especially if they come across as distressed or uncomfortable with aspects of their personality#then you get stuff like stewart copeland openly going ''he's probably not as autistic about it as I am'' when describing his ear for drums#which is really funny to me#idk if he's saying that in a more ''oh I'm so ocd lol!'' or a sincere way but I'd like to think it's the latter bc it was so blunt
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seeing non-black people critique rick's portrayal of black characters is interesting sometimes. only like 30% of the critiques I see make any sense to me to be honest
#“rick made carter be an elvis presley fan that's fucked up!” is a real thing I just read#do you think black people can't enjoy elvis even though he appropriated black culture for personal gain#boy you would not like what I have to tell you about eminem. or kpop. or anything else bc black culture has been#appropriated by like everyone forever. are black people not allowed to enjoy iggy or ariana or billie or [the list goes on]#I myself am not biracial but I /mostly/ like carter and sadie (specifically carter who isn't white-passing) as black representation#the part where carter feels indignant that he has to hold himself to a higher standard because the world is harsher on black boys#did genuinely resonate with me when I first read that part as a child and it still does to this day#can we talk about how rick knows nothing about black hair instead#or how hazel is from the jim crow era and seems to not have one single thought about race in the modern era#or hazel's horror over the amazons keeping slaves but “no they're not slaves they just like it that way 🥰”#my problems with hazel are not at all about stereotypes I just don't buy her as an authentic portrayal of a black girl from the 1930s#don't get me started on beckendorf. does every black character need to die a violent horrible death rick#anyways this isn't intended to make anyone feel bad but we need more meaningful nuance in critiques beyond “hey that's a stereotype! bad!”#if you can't discern and communicate WHY it's bad then you're not saying anything of substance#is it a caricature? is it uninformed/underresearched? are all the characters from that group being represented in that way?#is the stereotype itself a degradation of that group? is it being played for laughs? is the character a one-dimensional stereotype?#what can we glean about the biases of the author/narrative and their worldview through their portrayal of certain groups in the text?#a big part of literary analysis and critique is not only pointing out The Thing. you need to also say something about The Thing#like if you have a black character say they like hiphop then sure it's a “stereotype”. but lots of black people do like hiphop#it's an important part of black american culture and portraying that in media isn't racist by default#and in fact lots of poc keep parts of themselves quiet for fear of being perceived as a “stereotype” when we shouldn't have to do that#BUT if you're doing it like jonah wizard was written in the 39 clues then that's where we've got a problem bc wtf was that rick#that was so racist oh my god I was like 11 years old reading that 😭 and then he had the white mc poke fun at him for being a gangster#and him being a “gangsta” was always played for laughs throughout the story#not being pro-rick here as I'm a big fan of critical riordan reading just being pro-thoughtful critiques because some of you guys actually#sound a wee bit ignorant when saying things like what was mentioned in the first tag#baye.txt#pjo hoo toa#rr crit#<- tagging that just for. well the tags basically
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All right Saph, I took your idea of this and ran away with it. Haedus taught Star how to look hot and it took a month. 😂
Haedus had to work hard with this one: 😂
Considering WG!Star looks wholesome all the time, it was a challenge to try and hide that. He couldn't get rid of that smile though!
So uh, is he good enough to join the hot star club? 😅 If not, you can take over with your own version, you're way better at it.
(Why do I feel always confident in my art until I actually post it?? Now it looks weird to me)
Also bonus Asha reaction, cause she's going through it. 😂
@your-ne1ghbor @oh-shtars @tumblingdownthefoxden @chillwildwave @kenihewa @thesafireartist
@snackara @spectator-zee @starss-artss @annymation @uva124
#I am completely aware that WG!Star isn't considered that attractive but it's fun anyway lol.#Asha is going through a “I won't say I'm in love” phase currently#This is pretty much her mental image of him now after chapter 7 and 8#I love my wholesome kids#i'm just rambling now#But hey#my art is actually improving here#I drew Asha much better than I did the first time#yayyy :3#Flicker I know you're reading these#there isn't a spicy joke here I promise#I really love my wholesome kids and it looks like all you guys do too#Thank you so much 🌟#But we really should make a Starboy hotness ranking chart at some point#rascal entertainments#wish reimagined#wish granted#wish granted au#wish concept art#wish rewrite#disney wish#moots <3#moots art#i love my moots#moot shenanigans#Aled wish au#the fallen star#the fallen star au#wish au#the fallen star comic
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Happy December yall! I bestow upon you all that remains to be posted of A Major Diplomatic Incident (part 1). It's going to take some revision, so I'm not posting it to ao3 yet, but this gets us to where I'm leaving off. The other chapter is the actual reason Elrond came to visit: post-Worst Road Trip, they invite him over to see Maglor. If he's going to be niceys about it. Both to Maglor and to Annatar.
…It was Tar-Glóriel who found Maglor in the first place. If it turns out he's literally Sauron, Elrond is going to blackmail Celebrimbor into letting him take Maglor to Lindon after all. At least for a year or two at a time.
This decided, Elrond ends the awkward pause with, “I suppose so. Mostly I'm just confused.”
“Tell me about it,” says Tar-Glóriel, tipping back over to put his head in Celebrimbor’s lap.
Elrond finds, despite himself, that he is smiling. His evil cousin-in-law, who feels about Celebrimbor the way he feels about Gil-Galad, thinks of him as a Maia. Not a half-Elvish Man or a half-Mannish Elf; not half-anything at all. What else would you be?
And Elrond’s voice reminds him of… what might honestly be one of the worst days of his infinitely long life. He can’t imagine it was fun in itself, but given what it led to, Morgoth must have been very upset. Thinking about it, he says, “That must not help with the urge to murder me.”
“It really doesn’t!” Tar-Glóriel complains, making the shadows dance, “But I'm being nice about it, because I am capable of self-control.”
Celebrimbor laughs and puts his hand in Tar-Glóriel’s hair, saying, “And I appreciate it, love, thank you for not attacking my friend.”
“Yes, I am the embodiment of kindness and grace, you know,” says Tar-Glóriel, sparkling again; Elrond is beginning to think that’s what he does when he’s teasing. If “teasing” is a thing that a being who could plausibly be literal actual Sauron can be said to do.
…If Elrond treats him like an enemy now - after being allowed to see him being so affectionate, so intimate, without further provocation - well, then he’s going to feel like the asshole in the situation. He might never stop expecting the further provocation to come, but he can’t act on that expectation, because he’s positioned himself as a - an amiable distant relation. Not even that distant, depending on how he’s counting! It’s possible he’d be in the wrong to start a fight even if he gets definite confirmation of Tar-Glóriel’s identity.
What in all the Iron Hells has Elrond gotten himself into?
#gem writes#silvergifting#aran morinorea#a major diplomatic incident#elrond peredhel#themb#i've gotta go over it to see if there are phrasings i can make prettier#dumb lore issues i can fix#might change how sure elrond is about annatar being sauron and/or what names he uses in the narration#i don't wanna be confusing with it - everyone already has so many names - but sometimes switching them around is cool narratively#these posts are in fact the time and place to say 'hey what does this mean it's not super clear'#or 'that's not consistent with itself/canon/the rest of the au'#or whatever#anyway its BEDTIME#if you read all these tags i appreciate u so much have a WONDERFUL time doing whatever it is you're doing
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Literally frothing at the mouth rn wishing there were more fics about cultural differences between the LU boys
#linked universe#Yes I have read Cultural Differences by Kastaborous#And It was excellent but I mean like less language barrier and more#“What do you mean that smithing technique is lost to ancient history. I literally made that type of blade last week.”#“Hey you can't say that it's rude.” “What the hell are you on about. That is a standard greeting.”#“What do you mean I can't do that? What is this? The thirties?” *Blank stares* “Oh right you guys are ancient I forgot.”#“Ravio and I are married.” “But you don't have a ring??” “I actually have several. Have you gone blind?” “No a wedding ring.” “A what?”#“Good on you for breaking the gender binary.” “What? I'm literally not doing anything.” “You're wearing a dress??” “???? So??”#I have many ideas#as you can see
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This time around I thought I would make a comic relaying the events after the last time I posted, because my gosh is it easier to explain with pretty pictures than upsetting words >vO I prefer to make jokes about my situation than anything, ‘cause honestly it’s a solid way of dealing with it and I take so many medications as it is, why not add laughter to it I say! ( •̀ ω •́ )✧
Despite my condition’s best efforts I still managed to organise and complete a commission with someone through emails! Thank you @waezi2 you were so patient as I arose from my grave every other day to get things done (❁´◡`❁) Fighting my body and winning to complete it was the victory I needed! The sheer satisfaction I get from a commission well received by someone is like pure nectar to me~ Sweet sustenance I just can’t get enough of! The money don’t hurt either, Disability Support Pensions do not go far in this economy 👀 This is as close as I can get to having a job and I wont let C.V.S (Cyclic vomiting Syndrome) or Chrohns take that from me!
I’m raring to dive into more if anyone’s interested ♪(´▽`) I’m just about to post a new “commissions sheet” to broadcast that very fact >vO I do love having something to draw between Ectober pages~
#OKKennyMay#chronically ill#chrohns disease#Comic#cyclic vomiting syndrome#If you're wondering about the fire#long story short my body has little to no control over it's temperature and sometimes it tries to overheat me to death during my episodes#it makes it such a hassle constantly changing out ice packs and devouring ice only to vomit it out trying to cool it myself down physically#In a room that's colder than ice but feels like a furnace to me#all the while in a desperate and delirious haze#needless to say it's a bit of a wild time but i've got a really awesome mum who keeps me alive during these moments#I'm determined to be more honest about what's going to in my life for my own sake#i'm tired of having nightmares about people knowing details about my illness so i'm just going to rip the damn bandaid off#no matter how embarrassing or horrifying it is to relay at times I gotta do it#because i'm tired of being ashamed for things I have no control over dang it! It's not my fault my body doesn't work right >:V#hey if you read all these tags thank you#I appreciate you
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Okay this is the *actual* last comment, for real, but I just found out Spider is now smearing me as a convert and accusing me of being involved with drama I was not involved with because he mistakenly attributed my apologies for his public temper tantrum as being about something unrelated.
THIS IS A FALSE ACCUSATION and I do not appreciate having yet another bit of fake malicious intent falsely ascribed to my actions and* attributing a completely unrelated attack to me.
Also, it's very sad and disappointing whenever a Jew gets mad at a convert because something else is going on in the Jew's life and the convert happens to be in the splash zone and the Jew falls over backwards to smear the convert and invalidate her faith.
Just....the childish aggression is making me so, so sad and disappointed, from someone I used to think very highly of, who is now lying about me and publicly smearing me with false accusations based on a conflict he started because he misinterpreted something I said and I went out of my way to give him the benefit of the doubt when trying to clear up the mistake HE MADE that led him to decide bullying and attacking me for three fucking days was appropriate and okay and that I'm the bad guy for saying it's wildly unprofessional to behave like this in public to a former customer face.
Sorry, but facts, reality, linear time and the truth of what I actually said and did are on my side here, and I will not stand for being smeared and attacked and shat all over because I had the gall to try to kindly resolve his uncalled for, unjustified temper tantrum.
I am also not sorry that I left a side note in the tags that it was also unacceptable for HIM to drag his daughter into a stupid internet slapfight based on his own reading comprehension failure. Because it was and is unacceptable, and she needs to hear that message from someone.
End of story. Keep digging that hole as long as you like, Spider. It's not helping your case and is continuing to make you look progressively worse and more unreasonable, and the only person you have to blame is yourself.
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*revised for clarity
#don't buy from nerdykeppie#all receipts are under this tag#if you're so offended because my reporting on the things you say and do makes you look bad maybe the problem is you#this whole thing was completely needless#and yet he is continuing to DARVO me because he's pissed that his usual method of smugly lashing out at people over their poor reading#comprehension doesn't work when it's him who failed to comprehend what I wrote in the first place#also REAL FUCKING INCHRESTING that he's lying about me being involved in the jewvestigation of him so he responds by......jewvestigating me#lol#lashon hara. maybe he should study it sometime.#and maybe he'll learn warning others about poor behavior from a business so they don't waste their money there is not lashon hara#but honestly I doubt it because he's never going to let go of his desperate complex about always being the smartest raddest dude in the roo#it looks pathetic and I think he realizes that or he wouldn't have had such a dramatic extended meltdown over the things *he* said to *me*#I also still find it funny that he has conveniently forgotten to address the whole “hey bud your timeline doesn't add up” part#and I think that's because he knows if he were to address the proof that he didn't remember it correctly he would be forced to admit that h#threw a massive shitfit at someone for no reason because his memory got mixed up#so so funny that he can't come up with an answer for that#almost like! he knows he fucked up bigtime and is scrambling to make himself the victim!#also funny that “worrying about someone who was dragged into a fight by a bully” got twisted into sneakily scheming to turn her against him#I'm not a scheming plotter I'm worried because the behavior you showed your child in public was wildly inappropriate TO HER.#it's sad! It's fucking sad and embarrassing and hypocritical and immature and SAD!#but the pretend me other people are attacking because they made shit up is none of my business#if he wants to keep writing fanfic about me he can go right ahead#because again#the more he talks the worse he looks#the more he digs this hole the deeper he gets mired in his own muck#and it's not my job to bend over backwards to keep him from experiencing the natural consequences of his actions.#I really should learn the lesson that people who are snide assholes in one situation are usually snide assholes across the board#really the worst part is knowing I defended him when he threw tantrums like this before#that's what I regret and feel guilty about: that I backed up his shitty behavior and gave it legitimacuy#that was wrong of me and I'm sorry for every time I jumped in as one of his flying monkeys
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My husband came up with this idea that made me see Ionius in a slightly different way: Edelgard mentions that the Empire "demands many heirs" in her Goddess Tower support w/ Byleth, hence why Ionius had a load of kids by different women. Normally I'd think "wow that's stupid, way to invite a power struggle after you're dead" but what if it's actually an Empire tradition? Like, Ionius maybe is the first Emperor in a while to try to consolidate power but maybe only one of many to have a ton of kids, AND the reason is not only to have a kid with a Crest, but that the Slitherers practice Crest experimentation on each generation of heirs with the hope of creating a two-crested Nemesis clone to help them kill off the Nabateans. Ionius just happened to be the survivor of his batch of siblings. Maybe having 10-11 kids is to make sure that some of them will live long enough to be the next Emperor, and that's why the "Empire demands many heirs."
Oh!
FWIW, the Index of Imperial Nobility mentions how House Vestra is supposed to "coordinate things such as Imperial Consorts", adding to that how House Vestra has been at the Hresevelgs' back since the danw of the Empire, yeah, we can make a pretty good case that Adrestia has a long standing tradition of, uh, imperial consorts and all.
It can be seen as dumb because it invites power struggles, but it avoids the issue that could very well have happened with the Kingdom, aka Dimitri ded = the King's direct line is dead and it's chaos because one of the first duties of a King/Emperor/Leader under those kinds of hereditary systems is, well, to secure a heir - the lineage cannot be broken!
(that's where we usually have sekrit heirs popping up from nowhere in some kinds of stories, or bastard children !)
Having multiple Consorts - thus a large number of heirs - makes it sure that the line will not be broken as easily as, idk, a baby choking on a pretzel or a serious flu.
However, as Hanneman mentions in Hubert's support, having dozens of consorts means creating dozens of families who suddenly have to get some privileges bcs the Emperor is figging their daughters - and depending on how powerful those families are, if the Emperor obviously favors one kid over the others (or pisses on one over the others) one of those families might not be happy and start shit in the Empire - taking more and more consorts means shaving little by little the power of the Emperor in Adrestia!
(and guesses who spearheads the insurrection? Arundel, one of those "consort kin"!)
The topic of Ionius' 11 children is sadly forgotten by the plot - but iirc Word of God said the Ordelias (Lysithea) were experimented upon as a test, and when the Agarthans had, uhhh, conclusive results, they experimented on the Hresvelgs.
Given who was in charge when Ordelia was ran over by Adrestia - even if no character mentions the consequences or make a link because you have tea bags to sell - imo it would totally make sense that Ionius killed two birds with one stone : flexing his underdeveloped muscles at peons who helped people who dared to betray him, and getting guinea pigs for his plans to get the strongest Emperor ever.
Bear in mind that the Ordelia fuckery was done before the Insurrection aka, Ionius had this plan before Ludwig'n'co decided to depose him!
(Was Vestra aware of what was going on? Who were the Agarthans working with Ionius? Is it a situation à la Manfroy'n'Arvis, people disapproving of the Emperor listening at shady people?)
The Ordelia experiments leads me to believe the plan to become "super strong with dual crests" was hatched and developed during the Ionius era, but again, the game is so crappy at lore building that we don't even know if Ionius had 10 (legitimate) sibs, or only 5, and what they are doing when Supreme Leader is running the show, or did when Ionius was defanged.
Granted, we don't know since when Agarthans are slithering in Adrestia - if we believe the "Willy's sekrit history" was tampered with and assume Supreme Leader was telling the truth, that it was passed down in generations, maybe Agarthans were slowly manipulating Adrestian Emperor to get their revenge on Nabateans (in Nopes, a book about the rebellion of the Southern Church mentions how the Emperor wanted to cut ties with the Central Church anyways since a long time, but doesn't explain why).
And so, maybe Agarthans devised several plans, that all failed, to make the Hresvelgs turn against the Church and be strong enough to be flattened in 5 seconds, and it only worked during Ionius' era ?
We will never know, but it's still fun to think and headcanon about!
To bounce back on the "Adrestia demands many heirs" thing, given how I am fond of a certain AU, what if
This came up as a reaction to the entire Lycaon debacle?
Wilhelm 1 picked a heir, his heir died "to a mysterious illness" and instead of assuming rulership or helping another heir to rule - like he did for Lycaon - Wilhelm bailed out of Adrestia.
It could be explained by Lycaon being the golden child and favourite kid of his dad, so if he's not the one ruling, Dad doesn't give a fuck anymore about his Empire... or -
What if Lycaon was Willy's only child, and the subsequent Hresvelgs are "cousins" or members of a branch family?
In that case, it wouldn't be Willy playing favourites, but bailing out because his own son "suddenly fell ill and died" and he wouldn't be as involved as he was in helping his own kid, if now we're talking about helping a great grand-nephew or someone else.
(Rhea would have had to give a transfusion to the subsequent Emperor - i name her by convenience Hildegarde bcs no imagination and it's faster to type than "the female emperor who succeeded Lycaon and dueled against Ferdie's ancestor who wanted the throne" - to make people believe there is a direct continuity between Wilhelm, Lycaon, Hildegarde and her future heirs).
In that "only kid" scenario, it would also justify why House Hresvelg became so obsessed with taking Consorts and having a lot of heirs - Adrestia was nearly left Emperor-less after Lycaon's death because they had no other heirs to pick a successor from...
#anon#replies#adrestia stuff#FE16#is it the ionius hour?#is it the wilhelm hour?#is it wolf (fe16)'s hour?#wow a trio of adrestian emperors! that's rare!#what if willy never had 120 children but to avoid the issues he brought to Adrestia by abandoning everyone#his successors make sure to have 120 children?#the lack of bastards or cousins or branch lines of the Hresvelg family is just baffling imo#ffs in Faerghus we heard about Lambert's brother and we see him more or less planning a coup#but in Adrestia? Are we supposed to believe Ionius was an only child? When Imperial Consorts are a thing in Adrestia? Seriously???#I stand by an earlier hc#gatekeeper and his twin are distant relatives of the imperial family due to the 120 children things#'from nuvelle to myrddin everyone can have a claim to the throne'#a popular adrestia saying i came up with to explain the consequences of the 120 children#by claim it's just a blood tie sometimes distant from 8 generations#but hey with a history of 1k years#TFW Bob the carpenter in Remire is born with a major seiros crest when prince Erik has none at birth#Fodlan AU#there is a fic if you want about Willy having to take wives to make alliances and Seiros having to deal with lycaon in the oven#it's not how I would write Rhea acting in a similar situation nor willy but if you're interested it's worth a read!
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I think one of the biggest things that's helping me feel more certain in my transition is the realization that I am extremely good at enduring. I've learned to endure pretty much anything. I can be in a situation that I hate and just switch off and ride it out until it's over. When I was a kid it was because there was nothing I could ever do about it. I hate long loud boring gatherings but I'd have to stay until my parents took me home many hours later. I hate traveling but I'd have to endure it for weeks. It's taught me a great deal of patience, I do it all the time now. I endure long journeys, events I didn't want to attend, trips I didn't want to take, people I don't want to hang out with... It's an important skill to have. but the thing is, I was subconsciously planning on doing that with my gender dysphoria for the rest of my entire life. I WAS doing that for years, not even trying to explore what that horrible feeling was. I'm the endurer! I endure! I switch off and ride it out until it's... over.
Maybe this isn't one of those things I have to put up with. Maybe it's time to stop enduring my life and start enjoying it.
#hey look it ends on a haiku#aint that neat#gender dysphoria#tw dysphoria#personal#i will say ive been much worse at enduring things in general lately#probably why im just now realizing this whole trans shit#jen if you're reading this and thinkin ''bitch you aint endure those last two family trips very well'' i knOW dont worry i know lmao#and this isn't me being like ''oh woe is me to be invited on a free vacation so horrible'' i just find traveling an unpleasant ordeal#im a creature of habit i need space and freedom and quiet but i come along to be polite and sociable and grateful#but i hate traveling. ough.#anyway theres that disclaimer ok bye
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events of the past 3 days btw
@gr-74 is the dervil 🫶
#i feel to embarrassed to post this silly to the gulag but.#but. hey. did you know 'oh I'm just gonna read up some things to understand my friends ocs better'#is code for 'oh you're getting a new diesease'#bc dam. got me out here studying pages of info to create 1 (one) guy#I love u Elliott i say this with much joy and whimsy in my heart#for the lvoe of creation and getting to play touys with my friends
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I've been playing slitherio these past few days, and after some time messing around with nicknames and my own experience with the stuff, I've realized anger is something very easy to weaponize. On my second attempt of having "trans rights" as a nickname I killed a huge ~5k point worm as a teenie tiny 200 point worm simply because it was so desperate to kill me specifically. Anger makes your life harder, but it also makes people really unwise. I fucking bet this is in "the art of war", even though I haven't read it.
#Slitherio#Slither.io#If all these russian and pro war bastards can make me angry I damn bet I can try and make them mad too lol#It's such a pity pride flags aren't available in slitherio idc if the creators hate lgbt or not this is a great game mechanic#Users are easy to miss and if I'm a 6000 point long 💕🔵⚪🔵💕 worm people will go to me to fuck me up lol#Did I mention that I got to like 6200 barely attacking other worms myself? I don't think I did#I didn't count how much I attacked though so it doesn't count I should do a full defence kills run#If I play optimally I can get to a very big number I feel#You guys should try it too it's actually surprisingly fun if you're the kind of person to let go of things#Again though one good rule I learned these past few days is if someone's nickname makes you angry -> turn the other way#Being named 'trans rights' made me a target but also people attacking me were so much sloppier than when I was named 'meow'#It might be largely bc of the sheer number of attempts but hey. I've been there & I lost a few times specifically bc I was mad at some ppl#//interesting#Is the art of war a hard read though? Has anyone read it? I've heard it's fun#Oh yeah the mandatory vacation is messing with me a lot how'd you guess that?#Just don't think what this constant and never ending aggression towards a slogan in support of someone's existence in an online game says#about what it's like living in the world for these people#I've been mad at this at first but I'm starting to dig the shitty/absent censorship of both bigoted and also gay things. No hear me out...
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