#sarah............. you didnt deserve that man................

[pulchrasilva]

Thinking about how being held can both be a comfort, affectionate and also a restraint, freedom withheld from you. Thinking about "she doesn't love you Sarah. She cant. She can't love what she fears"

[pruneunfair]

COBYB shit list (Rage post).

This isn't really an actual analysis or anything like that. Just a vent post to get out the frustrations of how willfully ignorant COBYB stans are.

It's all being a "girls girl" until it's this shit

When a woman wants to act obsessive and the man doesn't reciprocate, the woman is a creepy bitch who needs to go while the man is comforted by the audience and celebrated for rejecting the stalker (as it should be)

When a sexy man wants to be obsessive and abuse a girl to get out his frustrations of being in lust with someone who can't say no to him, she's just "rejecting her true feelings" and the man just doesn't know how to show his love in a normal way.

knowing damn well that this story would be treated as the psychological horror it truly is if Matthias looked like Marquess Sergev from I thought my time was up. Pretty privilege is so real right now.

"Oh he chose to do nothing against his bitchy mom! Kyle isn't deserving of Layla for being such a coward!"

"Matthias on the other hand buys Layla gifts even when he hurts her because he really does love her! It's the nobilities fault he's like this! He apologized in the end didnt he? 😢 he just doesn't know how to properly show his love!"

Be real: Everyone would adore her for "protecting her fiancé" and would sympathize with her if she was the lead of a basic isekai or regression.

Bro will meet this girl when she's 12 and get bliss out of torturing birds knowing it makes her cry and you still have people diagnosing Layla with BPD and absolving Matthias of all blame.

Hey guys, is this the look of a pleasured young woman after a so-called "fun night" in the woods?

You tell me?

Matthias can do whatever the hell he wants and it's just "He's a red flag but I'm color blind 😏" but GOD FORBID I defend Ari.

What? I thought you people LOVED toxic relationships as long as the guy is conventionally hot?

Layla gets coerced into being a mistress against her will so her uncle Bill will be safe and people STILL claim that it was not SA because she "consented" after her only remaining family members future was held as leverage.

"Who does she think she is? Kissing Matthias right in front of Layla 🙄"

His fiancé? And don't give me that "it was an arranged marriage" crap because we all know the manhwa community doesnt give a damn as evident by OTHER manhwas.

Plot twist: The ending wasn't actually Layla getting lobotomized by the plot to love Matthias. She just knew that man was never going to quit until she either accepted or he takes a page out of the song Sarah from Tyler the creator.

Yall know that "Grandma, you little victim." Meme that originated in tiktok? That's basically the best way to describe Laylas future when she grows old.

"If you don't like it, don't read, you're just justice farming for views 😒"

First of all, would you believe me if I said I got a basic summary of what happened thanks to getting a ton of COBYB related posts on tiktok and Instagram videos that were being extremely vague and gaslit you into thinking it was romance? (Yes, I did find the rest of the chapters to read so I could actually make a verified post but to begin with, I already knew a basic idea of what was happening.)

Second of all: if this were just some random 🍇 and degrading fetish comic on a porn site with little people defending it, I wouldn't feel the need to care. (EX: I don't make any abandoned empress posts because everyone already hates it so there's no need to say what has been said a million times already) this is a gross porn novel that was put on a site mostly inhabited by 10-16 year old girls that makes stalking and 🍇 look sexy thanks to the artstyle and the ML being a buff BTS blow up doll and instead of it being called out, you got THOUSANDS of people tarnishing the name of dark romance so they can justify a grapist while pretending to be girl's-girl's instead of coming to terms with the fact that the comic with a beautiful artstyle is grade A garbge.

[nigesakis]

ill never understand why people think tom hollands spidey is the best. sure, hes spiderman, but hes not peter parker at all.

they didnt just take plotlines (the tinkerer, tony & the suits, more minor stuff) from miles' comics, they literally took his entire character/personality too and tried to cover it up with some peter-like one liners

they took ganke and called him ned leeds (whos btw another character from the comics. guess they just went with the name cause ganke LEE > ned LEEds)

peter would never rely on tony stark like that, they changed so much of the struggle that made peter peter. this is literally miles in a tom holland suit. if you put mcu peter and miles in a movie together, that'd be literally the exact same character.

it makes me so mad cause 1. miles doesnt deserve this and 2. all these people seeing tom holland (not his fault) as the peter parker when he literally isnt. and theyre milking the hell out of these movies too

i recommend reading Miles' original comic run (Ultimate Comics: All-New Spider-Man) and Spider-Men (2012, which has comic!Peter and Miles next to each other and makes the difference clear)

update:

just found out they never mentioned ben (i only watched homecoming) and made may take his role and die?😭 make tony his new parental figure? thats like the tlou show removing Sarah or Batman's parents not dying... both Bens death and Mays presence are what make Peter Peter like... whoever that guy in the Mcu is, its not Peter parker i can tell you that much

[bojackhorsemanobviously]

I watched bojack in 2022 here are my thoughts on the show in honor of the s1 anniversary

BJ/Sarah lynn: Yeah i saw that coming a mile away it didnt gross me out like a lot of othersbut. it sure was weird cause every flashback he saw as what 8 years old? weird. i don't consider it nonconsenual as it felt s5 tried to imply, cause sarah lynn is a fully grown adult but man it was def weird / also through most of it bojack was a complete sucker/.. but man the woodyallenvibesbestrongheresigh

didn't like PB/Diane on rewatches how he goes about throwing a big party after knowing diane hates them when she says YES: Big Red Flag.

am i wrong for thinking that the show doesn't give enough agency to some of the women characters, cause Jessica Biel was just insane im not gonna pin it all on PB for why that relationship soured, katrina i got feel more for but ms cannibal justnahfam. and screw ana/angela too. him going to seek closure from his abuser will always be gross..

I was mad at bojack for 2 days after the penny episode. Bojack Chris hanson wants a word with you.

And yet I still want to hug him whenver I see his sad horsy face.

I didn't like the reporter stitx shrugs.. seeing bojack also get better only for it tocrash down was a bummer to watch..

its intersting how he treats his life as a sitcom tho even up till season 6 the many faces of depression/ escape to LA/ Prickly Muffin/Too much man.. boy tries so hard to life a sitcom life of course its gonna blow up in his face.

Notice how Todd however getts to mostly live a zany sitcom life?

Hank the hippo makes me eye more than just bill cobsy

sarah lynn/sobs at jenneate and all the abuse in hollywood in general glad the kids are doing sober tho.. as miley/lindsey /britney are doing well..

sharona never should have given bojack that spiked orange juice

watching bojack in his 30s/50s near angela im just, man this guy has ZERO backbone its sad

PB: gay for Bojack

Fav quotes: This penis has been inside this vagina

Everyone Deserves to be Loved

Made me cry ugly tears: Bojerb/ Bodiane

Hate: Beatrice horseman

fav: Bojack probably obvious.

fav episode: I think bojack hates the troops is pretty funny.

its cool how his flashbacks have a sitcom vibe to it.

I feel i try to border on not excusing bojack but understanding how itcan be so hard to be anything than what he became cause his parents gave zero love zero esteem and he was set up to fail at relationships. clearly he hatese himself bec too bad for him ne bascially became his parents alcholicsm, advantage of women, insulting hisson i mean friend Todd similar to how bea treated him.

I don't like the plot for sarah lynn death as i feel its take to much responbility off a adult women who had a wall full of drugs , found the heroin and took it of her own free will.. and prefer the ide of bojack being at fault for just being a enabler..

sarah lynn predicated it well that she would hang out with enablers and die young, speaking of enablers im annoyed at pc for inviting bojack to her buisness party and trying to get him back in the hollywood spotlight like why girl just why??

love todd/bojacks ending it was very sweet

i suppose thats all i have to say ... this is just a ramble of my scrambled brain thoughts of the show.. xd.

[malka-lisitsa]

cont.

"it gives security. i know that if something goes wrong, i have a place to return to; parents that help me. it's the feeling of knowing that i'm not alone."

That answer made Katherine feel a lot of things. Jealousy mainly. Not because she didnt think this girl deserved the positive touch of having a support system... more so that she had never been given any of the same. Her house was lead by an alcoholic father that treated all of them terribly. The same man who pulled the rug out from under her feet and was so quick to exile his child.

She was thrown to the wolves at a very early age and had never felt the safety and security of a stable home in her life.

That isnt Sarah's fault though, and Katherine tries not to take it out on her however brightly the anger in her chest burns from envy.

"Sounds like a dream."

"You must be well loved."

[girltober]

When I decided to do Girl Month I considered many things: how my cis-het friends would react, how my parents would react if they ever found out, the risk of fucking up my body with E, whether I might get dysphoria...

The elephant in the room I DIDN'T consider was how it would feel to go outside and ride my bike through a busy populated area dressed in revealing girl clothes while being extremely hairy.

Things that went though my mind:

Oh god oh fuck why didnt I buy more normal and concealing girl clothes at the op shop?

Wtf do I say or do if somebody talks to me or starts shit?

With the panopticon social media hellscape we live in, any rando could take a pic of me and post it online. Jesus fuck.

I wish I was wearing a covid mask that would at least help hide my identity

I live in a small city where its easy to run into someone you know in a random location. What if a cousin or someone recognises me?

I definitely need to order a cute girly covid mask asap. And find a disposable one to use in the meantime

God what about police?

I 10000% get why L is so afraid of the police now jfc

🎵 you don't know the world beyond [tumblr,] you don't know what Satan can plan/ You don't know the safety you'd be leaving, we're your family we're your clan 🎵 -Abigail Thorn, in her excellent cover of "The Devil You Know" about coming out as bi

That one scene in Sex Education where Eric is walking to the pride parade in drag and a car of goons pulls over and beats him up

In Sarah Z's recent video about the evolution of the term queerbaiting, she talks about how theres a movement within the LGBT community gatekeeping men from wearing skirts bc thats a manipulative clout chasing queerbaiting thing.

In that video, she shows a screenshot of a tweet which reads "I hope a cis straight man who wants to wear a skirt for clout gets hatecrimed today."

Fuck the author of that tweet. Thats a fucking awful thing to wish on anyone and you should feel bad.

I feel really weird exposing the fluffy hair trail that leads south from my bellybutton

Makes me think of that one transmasc dipper pines comic where hes going to the pool and hes nervous about swimming topless. I get that comic so much better now.

Anyway, SCA people were of course extremely kind, chill and welcoming. Very special shout out to my good friend Ari, who dropped everything with no notice to meet me there, be a friendly face and support me.

Ari you are truly a fucking legend I appreciate you so much I owe you a Great Debt. I couldn't have done this without you.

Anyway tonight I used a sewing machine for the first time sewing a rapier hood, classic #girl activity! It came out uuuh pretty bad and apparently my instructor fucked up the instructions so I need to redo some of it, but here it is still wip

I cycled home in a lightning storm, a lot more confident under cover of night, and am currently safe and sound on my couch.

Tonight was a big night. I have been a very good girl and a very brave girl and I deserve a treat. I'm gonna get myself a girl treat for being such a good, brave girl.😊

Thanks for reading and supporting my journey everyone, hopefully my next few posts will be a bit more fun and a bit less terrifying 💞💖🩷

(Re-reblogged with background blurring, ORIGINALLY posted October 2nd. unfortunately the timelines gonna look pretty confusing now rip)

Going out for the first time in girl mode... riding my bike to an SCA meetup. Lowkey shitting bricks rn, i wish I was waxed.

(EDIT Oct6 - blurred distinctive features in background to meet roommate's concerns)

[meliia]

Throne Of Glass **WITH BIG SPOILERS**

i have just finished Kingdon Of Ash and i am DEPRESSED. i have become so attached to this series that now im sad i cannot continue on with these characters.

the final book had me sobbing not stop in its final moments. even though i knew The Thirteen were going to do The Yielding i did not expect them to do it in the way they did, but im especially happy that Asterin was the one to finally end Mother Blackbeak.

but Sarah, I NEED A MANON AND DORIAN BOOK. i just want to see Manon (and Abraxos) heal from her loss and finally find peace with Dorian by her side.

i adore Aelin as a main character mainly because she reminds me so much of Villanelle from Killing Eve. her and Rowans relationship made me also emotional seeing most the things they did were things she corrected from her time with Sam. like with the soap, she never let Sam use her expensive soap but its the first thing she gives Rowan.

the graveyard scene where Rowan put the stone on Sams grave as a thank you was an attack from Sarah herself.

going into this i had never even heard of Erawan, even from the things about the series i already knew, i just always thought Maeve was the main villain, and in a way she was. Sarah did an excellent job with Maeves character because there were so many times in the final book where i question if she really was the bad guy. i believe she really did want to save Erilea and she had good intentions but after some time she started to lose her grasp on what she truly stood for and started to see alternative ways to get what she wanted, even if that made her the villain. there was a moment where i thought maybe she was going to turn good with Dorian but then i realized that damn this entire time i was being manipulated.

YRENE KILLING ERAWAN?! DIDNT SEE THAT COMING

this is completely all over the place but so this isnt massively long here are some short thoughts:

- Lysandra and Aedion are cute

-will never forgive Gavriels death

-Lorcan i warmed up to you

- Chaol your book was so boring mainly because i dont like you but i love your wife so i stuck through it

- seeing all the character from The Assassins Blade pop up made my heart soar

- Manon, Elide and Abraxos are the best charcters and i will die on that hill

- Nesryn loved you, you were fun. have fun being empress and shout out to the rukkins and Sartaq

-Manon and Elides friendship gave me butterflies

- hey Feyre nice to see you pop up, btw your child will kill you when you give birth to it, be better to Nesta

- Rysand cool to see you, thanks for slowing Aelin down but could you tell your wife that her life and the baby's life is in danger, thank you

- that fight between Manon and Aelin will always be one of the best

-Dorian finding some sort of peace with his father (also him being named after his father :') ) im happy for him but another reason i need a him and Manon book is because wtf happened with his mother and brother, do they just chill in a mountain now?

-Fenrys im glad you got your justice in killing Maeve

-every time the Thirteen showed up i lost my shit. big rest in peace i hope Asterin is with her man and baby again.

-kinda wish the guys from Mistward were at Aelins coronation

- RIP Sam hope you beat the shit out of Arobynn in the Afterworld

- Rip Elena, you kinda deserved it but not in that way

- REST IN PEACE NEHEMIA I WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU

- another example that we need a Manorian book is where the fuck did the Bluebloods Matron go?

-shout out Rolfe

- shout out Fleetfoot

my full thoughts from every book would take forever but here is my ranking (for now):

Kingdom Of Ash > Queen Of Shadows > Heir Of Fire > Empire Of Storms > Crown Of Midnight > Throne Of Glass > Assassins Blade > Tower Of Dawn

5/5

[pankowfruitsnacks]

Shattered JJ Maybank Chapter Seven

master list | series master list

warning: mention of the night before briefly

word count: 1104

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"Morning JJ." John B smiled at him over a plate of scrambled eggs.

He grinned back. "Morning bird."

John B continued to scoop his breakfast in his mouth. "How was last night for you?"

"Interesting, none the less." JJ thought to his conversation with Ava. "Where is Ava?"

"She left before I was up. Made enough eggs and cut up fruit for the whole cut." JJ wanted to check  in on her. She poured her heart out and opened up about some very difficult things. He understood the difficulty in being vulnerable. This morning she would be walking through a war zone.

"Oh okay."

"What even happened last night between you guys. I've never seen you be so civil with her." They both chuckled.

"We had a good chat. It'll be civil from here on out. I promise." JJ scoped some eggs onto his plate. It was in moment he decided he would go to figure 8 and check in with her. After all the pain he caused, she deserved it. Hell, he thought, she deserved the world and someone on her side for once. JJ would make the effort to show someone other than his friends that he was there for them and he would show her the same respect and care that he gave everyone else. He felt terrible for the way he treated her. Never again.

"I'm glad. Everyone really thought things would never change. You said some terrible things that we thought we would never see her again after."

JJ dropped his head. "I have no excuse for taking everything out on her. I thought she was too perfect to be one of us."

"She is one of the lucky ones." If only John B truly knew.

Once John B was done he pushed back from the table. "Well I have work today and then I am taking Sarah out. Pope and Kie already left last night so it's just you right now."

"Okay cool." He nodded and John B went out the door.

JJ went to his self claimed room to change, deciding on his navy blue cut off shirt and some black swimming trunks. To finish off he grabbed his read hat and headed out the door.

JJ rode his bike through the banks all the way to figure 8, parking it in front of her house. Matt Abott was a well known and respected doctor throughout Kildercare County, of course his house would reflect that.

JJ was nervous as he knocked on the door.

"Can I help you?" Matt opened the door. JJ felt his stare.

"Yes sir. I'm JJ Maybank. Friends of Ava. I was wondering if she got home alright this morning and if it would be okay if check in on her."

"I appreciate that, son. If you head around the to the side, there's the door."

"Thank you, sir." JJ turned around to head to down the stone path.

"Wait. JJ." He spun around. "Just knock lightly, she seemed a little shaken. Did something happen?" Concern was etched in the older man's face.

JJ stepped closer. "I messed up sir and said some things that were uncalled for. We talked and worked through it, but she was super vulnerable after." JJ could see the subtle anger in his eye, but it didnt over power the respect Matt had for JJ for being honest.

"Go on now, kid." JJ ran around to the side doors and softly knocked.

The blonde girl opened the door. She wore a tan cropped tank top with matching sweat pants. Her cheeks looked tear stains. "Uncle Matt, I said I- oh hi JJ." She straightened her posture.

"I, uh, just wanted to make sure you got back safe and see how you were doing."

She put on a smile. "Please come in." JJ followed her into the apartment. His eyes roamed.

"It's pretty sweet right. Uncle Matt had it fixed up when they have guest over. Perfect timing." She tried to force a chuckle.

"You're uncle said you seemed pretty shaken this morning."

"Last night," she took a shaken breath. "It opened Pandora's box, JJ."

"I'm gonna be honest, I don't understand what that means exactly, but I think I know what you mean." She stared at him puzzled. "Talking about it made it feel real. It made you think about it for what it was."

"That was just the tip of the iceberg."

"I'm sorry for opening Panera's blob or whatever." They both laughed. "But I want you to know, I'm here. I know how hard it is to open up. You need someone you can trust."

"JJ, it's really just a lot right now. You barely even talked to me before last night." Ava's features were soft, but JJ noticed the fear. He was pressing and needed to back off.

"I'm sorry. I want to make it up to you and I really want you to know I am here for you. I shouldn't have taken my anger and issues out on you."

Ava didn't know what to do. Her feelings were conflicted between breaking down crying and going stone cold, just block all of this out. She never had someone be there for her like this. JJ seemed to understand what it felt like to be broken. "I forgave you JJ."

"And I appreciate it more than you know."

She smiled. "I'm kind of done talking about it JJ. It's very exhausting."

"Whenever you want to talk about it, I'm here."

"Thank you." She shuffled around to the couch and took a seat on the other end. "Promise me you won't talk to the others about it. This is kind of a sensitive subject."

"I would never betray your trust." She hummed another thanks and flipped on the television.

"This couch is way comfier than John B's and you have way more channels." She giggled. "Not to mention the air conditioning." They both shared a knowing glance. It seemed like they were the only people who had an issue with the 'no AC' at the chateau.

"You're always welcomed. I know how hard it can be with Luke." She felt akward calling him his father. No man like that deserved that title.

"Thanks." He tightened his lips in thought. "Everyone else is being boring today and has work. How does some surfing sound?"

"Like a dream come true after living a nightmare." They both laughed a little too hard. "I have a board you can test out for me."

"Hand-crafted?"

"Wouldn't surf any other way." They shared a smile and headed out to thier surf spot.

[jennrypan]

Bucky flirted with Sarah, you yts can shut the fuck up.

Would Sam and Bucky have been nice? Absolutely but its DISNEY. The same place that comes up with a first gay character every time they make a fucking movie also Marvel who had one gay character in Endgame and it was one of the Russos. Be realistic. We may not get gay representation but we could AT LEAST get a dark black skinned woman in a relationship with a main character where Shes not a stereotype. Cuz black woman are always shoe horned into the strong alone types and its fucking boring.

They deserve love. Dont come in here with that clown shit (she doesnt need a man) obviously not but she still deserves to have someone love her.

Bucky flirted with her, he didnt give a shit if she shared the same name as Steves mom (whoever thought that is a fuckin weirdo. Like..you tryna fuck someone cuz they have the same name as your friends mom?? Tf) he said her name like that cuz he was attracted to HER, he likes black people. Die mad about it.

But first before that, cry your yt tears into a cup so i can drink it.

Have a good day ✨

[clumsycapitolunicorn]

FEAR STREET 1666 THOUGHTS (SPOILERS)............................................................................................................

OK I THINK ITS ONLY GOOD THAT I START WITH:

FUCK YOU NICK GOODE FUCK YOU I HAD SOME HOPE YOU WERE GOING TO ACTUALLY HELP THEM AND MAYBE IT WAS YOUR BROTHER I WANTED YOU TO BE GOOD CAUSE I WAS READY TO SHIP YOU AND OLDER ZIGGY (I FEEL LIKE A CLOWN) BUT THAT WENT OUT THE WINDOW (I SAW THIS SPOILER FIRST BEFORE I COULD WATCH IT) WHAT A COWARDLY PIECE OF EVIL TRASH YOU ARE ALL THOSE PEOPLE AND KIDS.

YOU WERE PULLING THIS SHIT AT CAMP AND KILLED THE SISTER OF THE GIRL YOU LOVED AND THAT TRAUMATISED HER FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE AND CAUSED HER TO SHUT HERSELF AWAY AND BE SCARED SHE WOULD DIE AT ANY POINT STILL (BUT YOU MADE A SPECIAL CASE FOR HER SO THAT IS WHY SHE LIVED) AND SHE STILL LOVED YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU BETRAYED HER WHEN YOU DIDNT BACK HER STORY AND WE ALL KNOW WHY NOW YOU PIECE OF TRASH. I SHOULD’VE CLOCKED ON WHEN YOU DIDNT HELP THE KIDS. BUT THERE WAS ALSO OTHER HINTS (MARTIN CALLING YOU EVIL I FORGOT) LIKE AT THE CAMP WHEN HE LITERALLY HAD THE BLOOD OF THE CAMPERS ON HIS HANDS AND THEN WAS ASKED IF HE KILLED THEM (IF HE WAS REALLY NOT ABOUT THE ‘FAMILY BUSINESS’ THEN IT DOESNT TAKE MUCH TO WALK OUT CAUSE UM KILLING PEOPLE ISNT THE SAME AS NOT WANTING TO DO LIKE A JOB YOUR FATHER WANTS OR FOOTBALL PLAYER OR WHATEVER CLICHE SHIT) I WAS BLINDED CAUSE I THOUGHT MAYBE HE IS JUST A DUMB ASS BUT NO HE IS STRAIGHT UP COWARDLY EVIL. YOU COULD’VE BEEN LIVING IT UP IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH ZIGGY AND BEING A DECENT HUMAN BUT NAH YOU ARE A TRASH PIECE OF SHIT. FUCK YOU NICK.

Ok...I need to end my Nick rant so I can talk about the rest of this.

ZIGGY MY QUEEN YOU DESERVED BETTER IM SORRY YOU FELL FOR A PIECE OF TRASH AND HE BETRAYED YOU LIKE THAT IM SO GLAD YOU’RE ALIVE I LOVE YOU. YOU’RE MY FAVE YOU WERE AMAZING (CARRIE HIM) I CANT IMAGINE HOW HARD THAT WAS REVISITING WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, FINDING OUT THE MAN YOU LOVED WAS THE ONE BEHIND IT ALL AND KILLED YOUR SISTER. YOU ARE AMAZING.

SHE SHOULD’VE KILLED HIM TBH LIKE SURE I TOTALLY GET DEENA KILLING HIM BUT DAMN EVEN MORE SATISFYING FOR ZIGGY CAUSE THAT MAN LIED TO HER, KILLED HER FRIENDS AND HER SISTER. I AM SO GLAD SHE REUNITED WITH MRS LANE THEY ARE FAMILY NOW.

ALSO SIDE NOTE THAT MOMENT WHEN THE POSSESSED KILLER THAT STABBED HER IN 78 GOT HER AGAIN I SAW A CLIP OF THAT THE DAY BEFORE AND FREAKED OUT CAUSE I’D IMAGINED SOMETHING LIKE THAT HAPPENING. 

OK, LOVED THE STORY OF SARAH FIER. OK BUT NO THE PARALLELS OF SOLOMON GOODE BEING SARAH’S FRIEND AND BETRAYING HER WITH NICK LOVING ZIGGY AND BETRAYING HER... THE EYE BIT WAS GROSS, AS WAS THE PIG BIT. BUT NOTHING WILL TOP THE BREAD SLICER. THE ARM IS SECOND GROSSEST THING. I THOUGHT SHE REALLY CUT IT OFF AND WAS GOING TO CURSE THE HOMOPHOBIC TOWN AND WAS ROOTING FOR HER TBH. THE FACT SHE WAS JUST AN INNOCENT GIRL WHO LOVED A GIRL AND THEY HANGED HER WHILE THE REAL PERSON GOT AWAY SCOTT FREE FOR OVER 300 YEARS. 

I LOVED THE OG ACTOR FOR SARAH FIER AND WANTED MORE OF THEM. BUT I GET IT CAUSE THE ACTRESS PLAYING SAM WAS PLAYING HANNAH AND HER AND THE ACTOR PLAYING DEENA HAVE GREAT CHEMISTRY. THE FACT IT WAS HANNAH AND HER FRIENDS WHO BURIED HER BODY ELSEWHERE AND THE FREAKING RED MOSS....

I LOVED MARTIN JOINING THE GANG AND EVERYONE GOING ALL HOME ALONE IN THE MALL. I LIVE FOR ZIGGY CARRIE-ING NICK AND MY DUMB SELF REALISED IT WAS GLOWING BLOOD TOO LATE. LOVE THAT THEY JUST ADDED GLOW IN THE DARK MESSAGES ON THE WALL AND IT WAS SO SMART TO SPRAY THE BLOOD ON THE POSSESSED KILLERS SO THEY WOULD TAKE EACH OTHER OUT. (I WANT A RUBY LANE SPIN OFF)

DEENA REALLY GREW ON ME BY THIS POINT, JOSH IS AMAZING AND BRAVE AND YOU KNOW MY FEELINGS ON ZIGGY. WHAT A TEAM UP AND WITH MARTIN. SOMETIMES A TEAM THAT ARE TAKING DOWN A CORRUPT EVIL COP WITH THE IRONIC LAST NAME GOODE IS A LESBIAN, HER SMART BROTHER, A BRAVE SURVIVOR FROM A MASSACRE WITH ONE OF THE POSSESSED KILLERS THEY ARE FIGHTING, AND ONE COOL GUY WHO JOINED LAST MINUTE, WHO DID PRETTY WELL TAKING IT ALL IN AND WAS DOWN TO KILL GOODE WHEN ASKED. ALSO ONE POSSESSED LESBIAN WHO DESERVED MORE SCREEN TIME (I will not tolerate any sam hate she is nice).

I LOVED THE BITS AT THE END, ZIGGY WITH MRS LANE, THE PERSON CHATTING ONLINE WITH JOSH REVEALING HERSELF, THE SIGN PAYING RESPECTS TO THE DEAD AND THE ENDING WITH DEENA AND SAM HAVING A DATE NEAR SARAH’S GRAVE WITH THE PRETTY MOSS AN MAKING A NEW SIGN FOR HER. (WHATEVER HAPPENED IN THAT AFTER CREDITS SCENE MY MONEY IS ON THE MAYOR. IF IT CONTINUES NICE IF NOT IM FINE WITH IT)

THE LESBIANS SURVIVED A HORROR MOVIE. THEY WERE THE FINAL GIRLS. TAKE THAT @ THE CW AND OTHERS THAT DID THE BYG TROPE. 

[inyoursheets]

i got tagged by the wonderful @bathroombreaks​​ and @ama-ssiempre​​ to do the ship game thingy.

rules: Movie/TV ship questions; answer with a GIF; no repeats

im tagging @mrslackles​​​, @bethsuglywigs​​​, @medievalraven​​​ @cavalieryouthposts​​​ and @yellowhammerga​​​ if you want, no pressure!

1. First ship - oh man. idk. i think if im being technical it may be sophie/sky from mamma mia. i remember watching that film as a little kid and being...... obsessed with amanda seyfried in that bathing suit in a very totally not queer way haha wym

2. First otp - oh probably bella/edward. sigh.

3. Favourite current ship - brio. it’s my only ship atm? they’re the reason i started writing fic again? the reason im back here?!?!?!

4. Shipped from the first minute - lumberpunk! aka sarah and cal from orphan black. and by first minute i mean like, the minute michiel huisman appears on screen.

5. Wish they had been endgame - i think im gonna say grey’s anatomy’s crowen here bc i liked their chemistry but really, i like cristina’s s10 storyline a lot sooo im not at all heartbroken over it

6. Wish they had been canon - sterek, oh my god. i hate teen wolf for the amount of queerbaiting they did. also i never watched the last few seasons so idk what happened to them but i know they never got the story they deserved bc jeff davis is WEAK. you cant convince me that if a m/f couple had that much chemistry on screen with so much fan support they also wouldn’t have pursued it, even just a little.

7. Ship everyone else hates - hmmmm. dare i say beth/rhea/rio? i dont think everyone hates that ship but just. a lotta people dont see it and/or are brio purists. but me? i have a vision. one that inspired a certain threesome fic writing and its expanded universe lol. ok now imagine rio here with them:

8. Don’t even watch the show but still ship - since i so carefully craft my dash on here by following only a limited amount of blogs and blacklisting any fandom im not a part of that people i follow post about iiiii kinda dont know what to say?!??! except wait! i do! i wanna watch killing eve at some point for the gay shit and im lowkey in love with sandra oh so im gonna go with... whatever their shipname is. is it villaneve? idek

9. Wish they had a different storyline - grey’s anatomy’s japril. to be fair ive only seen the first ten seasons so idk what happens to them exactly, but i just know that i didnt like what happened s10. id keep the friends-to-lovers slowburn and the dramatic wedding crashing tho bc that was excellent

10. Actually endgame - haha okay well.... endgame by loose definition... since i never watched the later seasons so i have no idea what happens to them but what ive seen theyre in a good spot... connor and oliver from htgawm

[confusedconfetti]

FATWS- Episode 4

(First 5 mins of FATWS)

(Last 5 mins)

1. THIS was a heart breaking scene. The emotions and the pain.

I can't stop crying, I just cannot.I have so many flux of emotions over this.I just hope none of yall hate him or see him as villain..he is a VICTIM. His suffering is so painful. The determination to get out of this hell cycle, the pain and eventual relief, all that is visible on his face in this scene(and kudos to Sebby for that) and that hurts.

2. Sam in his therapist element was so calming. He was so so so soft with Karli, bringing out the reason, no one reads the room like him(reason 102903, he is our CA). And guess who ruined it. I just knew it he is about to do something stupid.

3. Karli threatning Sarah, touched my sensitive nerve. Nobody touches her and boys.

4. That jumpscare for a moment where I thought Zemo is gonna take the serum?? Lmao I bit my fingers in that scene.

Just a minuscule second of scare but yeah he's got a code, he has his Morals standing high. *chef's kiss*.

And again who ruins it????? WALKER. Arrgh!

5) Reason no 102904 Sam is deserving, when Zemo asks him if given a chance will he take the serum, and he gives a unwavering, NO. And if did not fall more in love with him, I'd be lying. And guess who failed that test too???

6) Did you notice how Zemo has this soft corner just for Bucky? Hear me out, he apologised just to Buck for what happened, he isn't after Bucky(not rn atleast) He didnt think twice before shooting Karli tho, he hates hates John, he respects Sam for saying no to serum and he hates Steve, he still hates avengers but no Bucky, probably because Buck was the only one who got into all of this without his consent. God I hope Zemo stays that way.

7)They killed Lemar, and I just did not see that coming, everything in that moment was slow motion, I can't help but feel sorry for John, because after serum was changing everything in him, Lemar was his grounding factor. He was so so supportive, he would have been a sweetheart( a bitter realisation, Steve lost bucky and became bitter and now John lost Lemar. Its scary how detached his face was). I will miss him.

8) Wakandans are my favourite, Ayo is amazing. Walker's face was so crumpled when he lost a fight to them..'they are not even super soldiers'. YES, honey they are Dora Milaje, fierce warrior ney fierce black women, who are protective of their kingdom and its people.

Its infuriating because he crosses a boundary and goes for physical touch.(white man that doesn't understand consent, not surprised) Naturally they got their asses handed.

This scene speaks for itself

9) Last is Mr Walker because, we all saw that coming. He had this cold stare and detached look, I just couldn't shake it

To say its horrifying will be an understatment.

It captures something that was bubbling up for so long, and the final straw was his friend dying. The serum worked, the politics worked and we lost a soldier to them what we have now is a borderline psychopath with revenge on his mind. That last second hints that he stopped and saw people's reaction to him and has that look of being caught but no remorse and no guilt, we'll see how that develop(trailer had a scene of him kneeling, lost, its yet to come.)

Also, on an absolutely unrelated note, Team Cap...this pain and horror you feel is what we felt(atleast a good fraction of it) when that shield went down on Tony.

Anyways, wrapping up it in 2 episodes and I am not prerpared.

[captainjimothycarter]

life is full of surprises:

They wanted a funeral for Steve.

"Why?" she asked, doing careful work not to meet anyones eyes while she carefully packed away a file that read Bowling. "It's not like there's a body."

There's silence. It's tense and akward and no one likes it. Especially not her.

"To give everyone a chance to say goodbye," Jones says careful, catching her hand before she can turn away. "We're not asking you to organize the damn thing, Pegs. You don't deserve that."

She huffs and tries not to think how warm his hand is. She lets hers hang loosely, finally picking her head up to meet the Howling Commandos. Steve's Commandos.

No. Hers. Theirs.

They shouldn't be here. The war might be over and people celebrating in the streets but their had just begun.

Yet she had the sneeking feeling Phillips was the reason they were here. He was out of the office for some reason or another after watching her like a hawk.

Its not like she needed a babysitter. Even if the company was mutely appreciated.

"Okay," she finally sighed and pulled her hand away. "However...I'm not going." She paused and sees Jim nod to Pinky and Dugan looks almost nervous. "I'll be taking temporarily leave to return to Brooklyn to see Winifred Barnes. Jame's-"

"Mother, we know," Dugan interrupts. "We're coming with you. Ah-not because you need to be watched but he was our friend too. They both were. Howard and the Colonol can plan the funeral."

Peggy had the suspecting feeling they already had been.

**

It's two days later Peggy finds herself in company of Winifred Barnes and James' baby sister - Rebecca. She's no longer the baby Bucky reminisced about. She's 12 and quick witted and misses her big brother very much.

As many soldiers, James lied about signing up soon as he could. He was drafted. There was paperwork left in his mother's care proving this.

Winifred knew about her, about the Howlies, and about Steve, even his untimely death.

"James loved much in life," she told Peggy and some of the Howlies over a cup of tea. The others played a game of marbles with Becca and given Jim's moans he lost another game. "He loved life. His sister. Steve in his own manner. He didnt want to go but he put on a brave face. We all did. Most of all, Miss Carter I know he loved you. The same way Steve did. Their letters came often and spoke about you or the Howlies more than anything."

"...they wrote about me?" It was logical, yes but it was a shock to her system.

Winifred chuckled and squeezed her hand softly. "Yes. Often. Quite often. Steve even.. " Her throat bobbed and she took a long sip of her drink. "Captain Rogers asked me to give you something if you...ever came by in the time of his death. Or...Howard Stark. He was sure I could find him."

That was Steve...have the utmost fate in people.

Captain Rogers. Not Steve. Steve was too personal. Captain Rogers wasn't. It wasnt Steve who laid dead in a frozen tundra but Captain Rogers - a war hero.

Steve was still alive in them.

Peggy's thoughts were distracted when Winifred came back to the table with a small, locked box. Inside were a few letters, a will, and a small ring box. She slid it across the table to Peggy who didnt want to pick it up.

She knew what was inside and didnt trust herself.

"It's okay. He wanted you to have it," Its Dugan who spoke, muttering beside her. "He talked often about...life with you."

Peggy's fingers trembled as she opened it up and inside laid as she expected - wedding bands. Tarnished with age and a diamond missing off of one but cared and loved for. Sarah Roger's wedding bands.

Steve wanted her to have them. To marry her. "Steve."

The tears flowed before she could stop herself, Winifred walking around to hug her and shooing the boys off like she was their mother. They knew when to listen.

Peggy didnt know when the tears stopped. When she was handed a quilted blanket Steve had once stitched by hand. It was small and uneven, the stitches were wonky and smelled of dust but it was perfect.

She missed him.

**

Another two days later, Peggy finds herself at the bar. The rings are stored on a necklace tucked into her blouse. She's on her third drink, listening to the boys trade stories about the time James tried to adopt a goat.

Winifred had assured her Steve and James both loved her and their deaths were not in vain. She did not blame them for her son's deaths because Steve might not be hers biologically but he might as well had been.

"It's time," she hears Howard beside her grunt, nodding to his pocket watch. He shares one last sombering look with her. "Are you sure...? We dont blame you but it be nice..."

"Putting empty caskets into a ground might soothe you and the guys and the public but not me. I'll be here when you get back." She paused and saw the way his shoulders slumped. "I promise."

"I know, kid, I know." Peggy doesnt mind how he kisses her temple. Or how scruffy his cheeks are. Or the alcohol on his breath. "Come on, boys. We got a funeral to crash."

Its not even an hour in to Captain Rogers and Sergeant Barnes public funeral when Peggy finds herself not alone. She's unsure how long the persom has been behind her, her senses are dulled while under the influence.

The hand touches her and she reacts. The man is on his knees and she lets go, letting out a gasp and scrambling back on the dirty floor.

The drinks must be laced. Or playing tricks in her exhausted state. Or...or...grief.

There's no way Steve Rogers is standing in front of her. He's worst for wear. His uniform is tattered. He had an exposed gash on his shoulder, his eye is black. She can see a few specks of glittering glass on his uniform. Any in his skin looked to be picked out. Hes barely standing and staring at her, unmoving.

"You werent at the funeral."

"Who goes to their own funeral?!" Is all she can shout. She has a hundred and one things to say. She can't think of them. "You're not real."

"I dont think being in this much pain means I'm fake."

He starts to fall and Peggy catches him. Hes solid. Cold and warm. Skin green and pale. No. Hes real. Hurt. But very real.

She wants to cry. To be angry but she can't find it past the relief. Especially when his eyes open, thick lashes fluttering to reveal pretty baby blues.

Hes holding onto her chain, stroking the rings.

"You got them. Good."

Thats how Steve Rogers came back into her life. Ignoring his own funeral, beaten and bloodied, and knowing where she'd be.

That's how a very real and a very hurt Steve Rogers did the most Steve thing ever to come back into her life.

Always taking her by surprise.

[lifesucksheres20bucks]

Thoughts I had for Episode 5 of TFATWS

***spoilers***

- gosh i’ve been seeing everywhere that this is the saddest episode and I don’t think I’m mentally prepared

- I’m also going in spoikers free so if it’s bad it will hit me HARD

- I really hope we see more of Isaiah

- Coward running away

- The blood is still on the shield oof

- Steve would never

- Take it away boys

- Always hiding behind his shield huh

- Bucky :’)

- The fact that the us will probably make him an even bigger hero

- Walmart cap tried to go for the kill on sam

- BUCKY NO

- Get up bucky

- Dear god no you’re not

- HE WAS GOING FOR THE KILL AGAIN

- Omg that was fucking intense i got scared there

- HE FUCKING SMASHED BUCKY’s FACE

- HOW DARE HE

- whats sad is that sam got the shield but he got the corrupt shield :(

- He tried to wipe it off the blood :(

- Torres :’)

- Omg are we getting falcon torres now!!!!

- Goodbye walmart cap

- Now we have the real cap: sam wilson!

- Walkers wife better leave lol

- Walker isnt wrong lol he did do what the us taught him to do

- Honey you dont know how to be cap either lmao

- JULIA

- OMFG

- I LOVE HER

- I DIDNT KNOW SHE WAS GOING TO BE HERE HOLY FUCK

- Holy fuck im genuinely so fucking ready for her

- Didnt know i needed her but now i do

- Shes gonna play such a big role in the mcu i feel it

- Karli also has a point

- Oop daddy zemo

- Hot

- Lmao zemo is like i wont kill you ❤️

- Quick kiss

- Yas queens

- No kiss

- Thats rude

- Im very much shipping bucky with everyone

- PATRIOT

- hes giving him the shield :’)

- Im so happy they got a black writer and a female director for this show

- Oof blond and blue eyed huh

- God this is intense

- Isaiah ily

- Im so sorry

- Tough but necessary story

- This is why the episode was sad

- Fucking hell

- The hurt in sam’s eyes oof

- Her kids throwing her under the bus lmao

- I’m gonna have to see sam as a dad

- It’s gonna have to happen

- The power of community

- Young sam pics oop

- Bucky just came uninvited lol

- did bucky get sam vibranium wings!!

- SARAH

- I CANT

- BUCKY’s SMILE

- Bucky fishing for an invite lol so fucking cute

- WALKERS STILL LYING

- FUCK U

- lemar deserved a better friend

- I dont feel one ounce of sympathy for walker lol

- SHARON

- BATROC

- OMG

- Look at bucky!!! Hes happy

- Im not crying

- Happy bucky is my new favourite thing

- Bucky i love you so much

- Flirt with sarah

- Destroy that tree

- Sam throwing and bucky catching oof hot af

- Bucky being aware

- Not bucky saying the shielf is his family

- The winter soldier theme in the background oof

- Them throwing the shield around is very hot

- Not bucky going to see the old man i cant do that today

- Lil kiss goodbye pls

- Its all about legacy<3

- Oof i needed this sam montage

- Hot af

- WITH THE CAP THEME

- So sam and bucky are the gay uncles<3

- SHARON? DID YOU SEND BATROC IN THE FIRST EPISODE?

- BATROC BABY

- SO QUEBECOIS I CANT

- The fucking quebecois english i cant

- Im fuckjng dying

- I love that torres is a facetime bitch

- WHY THE WINTER SOLDIER THEME

- WHY was there the winter soldier theme during the meeting!!!!?

- Omg pls let it be vibranium wings pls

- Shuri pull through pls

- NOOO WHY DID U STOP

- Honey you arent iron man

- Pls stop

- You look like a cosplayer

- 5 min hacks

- fuuuuuck okay im very excited for the final oof

- Cant believe its already the last episode next week

- Im very excited to see batroc again, homeboy repping my city

- Sharon???? DID YOU SEND BATROC TO DEFEAT FALCON??? WHAT ARE YOU DOING

- I cannot belive julia louis-dreyfus is now in the mcu fucking hell im excited

- Def not the cameo i was expecting but the one i needed??

- Sam and bucky<3 being friend<3 i fucking love it

- WHY WAS THE WINTER SOLDIER THEME PLAYING DURING THE MEETING AT THE END?? WHAT IS HAPPENING

- i have a lot of questions and im very excited for the final!!

[jamesvanriemsdyk]

hi James, love your blogging! just wondering, did you ever make an updated-through-the-2021-season version of that Leafs primer you had last year? if not, would you happen to know anybody on here who has made something like it? looking to give my roommate a crash course on who everyone is before they watch the game with me tonight. if you don’t have anything, that’s totally fine, enjoy the game!!

hello. the answer to both those questions is no, but i will literally do one to two sentence player summaries under the cut right now, and i will keep a tally of how many times i have to google. it will not be many.

let me just start with the big four:

auston matthews: #34, first overall in 2016 and first line center, won the richard this year with 41 goals in like 53 games or something crazy. highest drafted latino player ever, theres lot of baggage here, im sure u can explain all this to ur friend but itd take too long to get into it here

mitch marner: #16, fourth overall in 2015, best playmaker on the team, first line rw. human energizer bunny and the best player on the team. hella sexy on the pk, i love him.

william nylander: #88, eighth overall in 2014, second line lw, best skater on the team, also best at zone entries. severely underrated and notoriously hated by the toronto media and also don cherry.

john tavares: #91, second line center, drafted 1st overall to the islanders in 2009. signed w the leafs in 2018 (hometown boy!!! johnny toronto!!!), best captain ever, sexiest man on the team. i love him.

and uh now i will finish the first two lines and then go into lines 3 and 4:

zach hyman: #11, drafted by the panthers and then signed w the leafs because fuck the cats (jk i like them so much but zach didnt so. toronto), lw on the first line, penalty killing KING, the sparkplug of the team. bounces around the lineup but not because hes bad, hes genuinely that versatile of a player. also jewish, which is cool. king.

nick foligno: acquired at the trade deadline, plays rw on either the first or second line depending on injuries, i love him. was the captain of the cbj for like a while, which is neat because he left them for the team they knocked out of the bubble last year. hilarious.

alsx galchenyuk: my beloved. #12, my favorite number, will probably be out of the lineup for at least game 1 because the leafs are literally too good. has a whole saga involved w his career, but used to be a hab and was drafted 3rd overall by them, which is important for this playoffs. king.

third line:

mikheyev-nash-kerfoot

ilya mikheyev: #65, penalty killing king, cannot score shorthanded to save his life but he DESERVES it. signed in the 2019 offszn. i love him.

riley nash: #20, another cbj newbie. originally acquired for cap shenanigans, going into the lineup because hes a veteran and great defensive center. we'll see how this goes.

alex kerfoot: #15, acquired in the kadri trade, another great pker. i love him, he has more points than pld this season, hes great.

AND NOW FOR THE OLD MAN LINE.

jason spezza: #19, actual literal hall of famer, was with the sens and then the stars and now hes HOME, and i love him, and hes amazing. my dad.

joe thornton: #97, another literal hall of famer, was on the sharks FOREVER, now is here and very excited about it. has been decent this season, which was surprising to me, and i love him now. my friend sarah thinks hes hot.

wayne simmonds: #24, my beloved, used to be a flyer, he was exactly who i wanted dubas to sign this offseason, i adore him. my mom.

aaaaand now the dmen:

morgan rielly: #44, dating tessa virtue, the team's best offensive defenseman. people are mad at him rn because hes kinda sucked. we'll see how he does, but i love him either way.

thomas james brodie: #78, i love him i love him i love him i love him. signed from the flames this past offszn, best dman this team has seen in probably decades. i love him.

jake muzzin: #8, acquired from the kings, i love him deeply. will punch a bitch in the face and crush them also. love him.

justin holl: #3, works hard loves the game (and the boys), underrated as fuck. been in the organization forever and a day. i love him.

travis dermott: #23, boyfriend material, also been in the org forever, i love him deeply. third pairing/seventh d guy, does his job stupidly well for the disaster it must be to try to do it.

rasmus sandin: #38, drafted 29th overall in 2018, king king KING, hes amazing, holy shit hes so good especially for how young he is, i love him so much, king of my heart, king of this entire blog. i love him.

ben hutton: #55, acquired at the trade deadline, just happy to be here, will maybe get into the lineup if theres injuries, i love him.

GOALIES:

jack campbell: #36, the only goalie that matters, actual sunshine on skates, id let him **** me (thats big for me), i adore him. hes amazing. broke a carey price record this season. king.

freddie andersen: #31, i wish he was still good but he just isnt any more, it makes me deeply sad. hes still sexy tho

dave rittich: #33, BIG SAVE DAVE, acquired from cgy at the deadline, im very fond. will only get into the playoffs if theres insane injuries.

ok so i didnt google any of this but i did check the nhl app like 3 times for numbers. so. i hope this works lmao

[roskii]

I love Bojack but seeing people literally making excuses for his actions REALLY missed the point of why they are bad...and the shows message. Yes..he is pretty much drunk or high, yes some people influenced his actions

But hes literally a 50 yr man, he also is insanely selfish and if you give him an idea, he'll run with it and it will evolve into something crazy or downright awful. The penny situation? HIS FUCKING FAULT. he's the adult. Penny was a minor at the time and was..guess what, probably buzzed cause Bojack supplied alcohol. (Not sure if she outright rejected it) we can assume Bojack is also buzzed too since hes was still drinking during his stay.

Even tho he rejected her twice, but Bojack left the door open. He knew she would go in after him. Also the arguement that penny was in the wrong is victim blaming at its finest. Again she was 17, Bojack is a celebrity and for the most part treated penny nicely so penny is gonna assume maybe they can work (which is sad honestly) I genuinely dont think Bojack felt feelings for penny, but probably just saw Charlotte..it still doesn't make what he almost could have done with penny any less fucked up. Season six I think Bojack got what he deserved, he literally also is why Sarah Lynn is dead.

Also someone pointed out if Bojack was female and penny was a male, people would be fine with it. The issue is that techically speaking the media would be conflicted with it. Female abusers barely get any flack, but victims get bullied and shamed, especially if the female abuser is abusing a young boy. And guess what it still wouldnt be the victims fault cause 1 hes a minor, 2 lady Bojack still was in the WRONG.

Just cause Bojack was drunk, high, depressed, lonely, etc..it DOESNT excuse he hurt people. He literally caused all his issues and he did deserve the flack he got, prison too! His suicide attempt was mainly caused by Angela Diaz revealing she wouldn't fire Herb if Bojack made a big stink. He was THAT valuable to the network they would have kept Herb, and he..wasnt there for herb. Also seeing yourself so young and hopeful and youre now a stinky old horse man isnt the best realization.

I think thats why in Bojacks view from half way down, herb was a big part of it, the last one to leave. The one to give some comforting words to his dying friend. Herb was the start of his better life, away from the abusive home..and Bojack destroyed it himself. It all started cause he wasnt there to defend his friend. Maybe if he didnt betray herb maybe he wouldn't be a shit heel? Who knows

But like dont baby that cartoon horse hes a bastard.