#sanrio is the backbone of this story

[ddarker-dreams]

Lock has finally fall down into the gojo rabbit hole!!! , i was also surprise that u also like geto too tho i dont blame you theirs a reason why hes much more popular with the ladies than gojo lol also im excited for the release of golden girl!!! another fanfic series to binge ever since nexus is already finished 😭😭 im so excited for mc's relationship with gojo and geto!!! and lets not forget her friendship with shoko and her mother and son relationship with megumi 🥹🥹🥹

i'm fighting for my life down here in the gojo rabbit hole ...... i cannot crawl out of this pit no matter how hard i try. he kicks me back down whenever i near the surface.

for the longest time, i didn't see the appeal in geto, but gojo's past arc changed my mind. it also made me think there was a lot more that could've been explored with his character? the :) protect the weak to 🐵🚫 pipeline felt sorta jarring. i could still follow it and his reasoning enough for it not to be immersion breaking, but the reality of non-sorcerers being the only catalysts for curses to exist feels like such an interesting concept...

MCs relationships with the different characters is probably my favorite part of the fic, especially in her late 20s era. the students see how close gojo and MC are just kinda. squint. they ask megumi how this came to be like he isn't as equally perplexed over it as they are. MC is the type you easily gravitate to, whereas most deliberately go out of their way to avoid gojo.

some tidbits on MC's relationship with other members of the cast:

nanami thought she was annoying when they first met, but soon learned that surprisingly, she's one of the more reliable upperclassmen. later on when they're adults, he admits he declined most of her offers to hang out because he knew gojo would be in the vicinity.

her and shoko had matching my melody and kuromi keychains for their phones during their high school years.

megumi barely talked to/acknowledged her existence when they first met. similar to nanami, he found her upbeat nature annoying GJSKLDF it wasn't until she was sent on a three week long job that he realized maybe she isn't so bad. at least she makes tasty food and gets along well with tsumiki. he considers MC a decent enough role model in everything except her romantic life.

she gets along with maki surprisingly well. out of all the big three sorcerer families, the zenins are the only ones MC actively dislikes. her cursed technique is useful when it comes to training others, so they often spar together.

[subskz]

warning: a very chaotic essay about bb below

from the beginning, reading butterfly bandage made me feel like i’ve been transported into a bubble universe of sorts. there were so many different threads running through the story that i was curious about, and with the last part, you wrapped them all up into a neat little bow. it was such a well-rounded, intricately-written story !! ✩

a big thank you to seo changbin for showing up to his lecture woefully unprepared and picking to use the reader’s sanrio pencil that day, as it would ultimately end up setting off the chain of events that caused chan & the reader to find each other; truly the backbone of this entire fic 🙌😭💕 when you described his shy smile as, “unexpected, coming from someone who looked like he bent iron bars for fun” 💀💀 binnie’s antics were completely on-point. i loved the dynamic between him & the reader so much. they gave us the perfect comedic relief (which was much-needed at some points in the story 😭)

i love the premise of university aus so much, i am truly so simple

this is a super minute thing, but i always loved seeing the ʚïɞ symbols at the start and in the dividing lines when reading bb; it’s just so cute 😭

also do not think that their apartment being numbered 8-325 slipped past us!! i noticed a lot of parallels hidden throughout, and to me, they are a testament to just how much thought went into writing this~! ♡ the continuous occurrences of inexplicable heat like when they first met, or the random burning feeling in the reader’s thumb without even knowing chan got cut there too; the metaphor of them being akin to binary stars; their discussions about twin flames… i loved all the themes you wove into the story, everything fell together so beautifully. chan and the reader really are twin flames, mirror souls, bound together by the red string of fate to reveal the other’s true reflection to them for the first time.

also, i think you hit quite a few of us in our soft spots with the reader’s self-effacing temperament and her history of broken relationships :,) the amount of parallels i found between chan, the reader and myself… she just like me fr. it made me think what you might’ve went through in order to be able to depict the gravity and nuances of those sorts of emotions so well ㅠ_ㅠ when the reader merges paths with chan who, for once, wants to be her equal, it feels so deserved. also, the overflowing fondness that the reader has for all the channie-isms is so sweet n accurate 😭💞 you crafted such a beautiful universe, and you did such an excellent job characterising everyone.

i still can’t get over how plainly obvious you were about your true feelings in your initial introduction of lino 💀 taking a whole paragraph just to describe his ethereal beauty (i would do the same thing)

i loved 3racha’s performance too — i’m paboracha-biased (although seungmo and innie have been making me act up recently) with the biggest weakness ever for hannie, so the brief cameo part with him where he was described as shamelessly reading his own lyrics off his phone sent me 😭😭😭 the little details like those were another display of how much care was put into the fic and made it even more special to read ♡

the making out in the bathroom at the party afterwards as well was so vkvjjxifxutsdut the slight possessiveness was so hot… ♡

and when channie and the reader had their first time, the reader being like, “oh. he was loud.” 💀💀💀 so real, he is so cute hhhhvknvvcj, and his praise kink but simultaneous extreme inability to take compliments wounds my heart. you write him so well 😭 how much i wanna build up channie’s self-esteem until he realises how others see him !!

also i’ve gotta say, as others have pointed out already too, you were seriously out for blood with the scene where chan cries while eating the reader out… i’ve never felt so conflicted 😭 the timing to be a dacryphiliac has truly never been worse LMAOOO because my heart was shattering at all the terrifyingly sad things he was repeating fo himself and i just wanted to scoop the lil channie mash potato boy up and be like “no baby, it’s okay, don’t cry”, but ALSO at the same time, that was so hot wtf </3

then to follow that up with THE BATHING SCENE… you are crazy (affectionate). i have never felt so soft omg… he is so infuriatingly lovable and it’s crazy he can’t see it. i’m glad he finally got someone like the reader who he can gradually learn how to release some of his burdens with. 🥺

“…as if he was afraid that now that you’d discovered a side to him that dared to be anything less than accommodating—anything less than convenient for you—you’d pack up and leave without a second thought.” OUCH

you wrote so many beautiful and heart-wrenching lines throughout this 😭

and LEE MINHO… ㅡㅡ why is he like this. the feminine urge to rail the brat out of him, my god. he is a lil meow meow fucking menace, that’s for sure. as much as he singlehandedly destroyed everything, he was only acting the way he did out of the (misguided) instinct to protect chan… :( the way he begrudgingly made amends with the reader at the end 😭 in my imagination, they patched up their relationship over time despite his enormous fuck-up and became friends again

i read part 4 as soon as it was posted, and i was genuinely reeling afterwards, questioning why you were doing this to us 😭 but it felt strangely cathartic, to watch the house of cards they had stacked up out of fear of ever leaning on each other, finally crumbling apart, because now, they can restart and build their relationship with a secure foundation that allows for a balanced exchange of emotions between them, and protects the wellbeing of them both ♡

anyway i’m so sorry that this ask is longer than the reader’s physics textbook 😭 this story broke me apart in the best way possible, and then put me right back together again. it’s such a well-rounded work, n i hope you’re proud of yourself 🫶

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oh my god 😭😭😭😭 when you said to expect an essay abt bb from you i had no idea just how much u meant it…i can’t believe all the thought and care you’ve put into this, thank you so much for taking the time to write out such a detailed, heartfelt message!

as i was mapping out the story, i found myself wondering at times if i’d be able to tie up all the loose ends bc there was just so much going on in so many different places…so to hear you say that it was wrapped up nicely means so much to me!! the fact that u even took notice of all those threads and kept track of them throughout the series is also very touching to me! thank u for being invested enough to do so, it’s sincerely the best feeling <3

SEO CHANGBIN!!! our dear leo boy…he is absolutely the backbone of this entire fic u are so correct. where would we be without his questionable academic decisions n his accidental matchmaking skills…even when he’s not the main character he is always the star of the show!! 🥰 i’m delighted u liked that line abt him LOL binnie’s softness n silliness in contrast to his tough appearance is the most endearing thing on earth to me, so i hoped to capture a bit of that lovable personality of his! i think i had such a blast writing his scenes for exactly the reason you mentioned…it was really nice to write his lighthearted antics w the reader amidst the heavier parts of the story, so i couldn’t be happier that his role brought the same relief for you!! ^_^

i’m such a sucker for university aus as well…so simple but so many things to love abt them! and it’s very sweet of u to point out the butterfly symbols! i figured i should take the theme and run w it hehe i’m glad u found it to be a cute detail ♡

there was no way i couldn’t sprinkle in those skz easter eggs here n there…like a lil secret we’re all in on 😽 yes! many details in bb are kinda meant to parallel aspects of skz in reality, esp channie’s struggles in predebut (im going off on a tangent here but that’s also why i chose 3racha’s placebo as the song chan was working on! i feel like it gives so much insight on his state of mind at the time) it’s really meaningful to me that u caught on to all those recurring themes and connected them w ease in the story! and the binary stars…when i learned abt them n how they orbit each other so closely and rapidly, to the point where they can even exchange materials through tidal interactions and influence each other’s evolution…i just couldn’t resist adding it into the story hehe it felt too fitting for how channie n the reader take on parts of each other and change for the better! you are so incredibly kind and observant thank u so much, you’ve really read this w a keen eye and i’m so grateful!

in sharing bb i was hoping there might be someone out there who could relate to its central conflict, but i was taken aback by just how many ppl’s experiences it seemed to align w ㅠ knowing it resonated w you as well both fills my heart and tugs at it…i know i said this before but this series was kinda like a love letter to everyone who is like channie n the reader, so i really hope u found some solace in its message 💗 “chan, who, for once, wants to be her equal” u really got me w this…that’s exactly it isnt it ㅠㅠ the balanced, endless cycle of love that they both deserve!! and the channieisms…it’s only right that the reader adores him and all his cute lil habits just as much as we do!! characterization is always the most important thing to me above all, so thank u so much for saying that it's the highest compliment!

HELPP LMAO i will never be free from that paragraph describing lino’s first appearance huh…if there’s any moment in the story where tumblr user rin subskz is speaking instead of the reader…it’s definitely that 😭 very embarrassing for me but seeing that u are paboracha biased i feel a lil better at least…u know firsthand what it’s like to be bewitched body and soul by lee minho

i’m so thrilled u liked the section abt 3racha’s performance! i debated even describing it in detail for a while bc i wasnt sure if it was necessary…but i ultimately decided it wouldn’t be right to skip over since it led into what happens later! HANNIE <3 it makes me happy that moment got a giggle out of u lol i really wish i could’ve included more scenes w him…applying the scatterbrained genius energy of trainee jisung to the context of an exhausted uni student wouldve been very fun! and once again, the fact that u paid attention to lil things like that is so fulfilling to me <33

the idea of the bathroom scene w the reader feeling a lil possessive was actually what initially sparked the plot point of the party in my head 😭 and YES w the way chan sounds like he’s getting the soul sucked out of him UNPROVOKED on a daily basis…i just had to make him the loudest most vocal most reactive baby on earth there was no other way!! it makes me so happy that u felt he was written well, thank you so much ♡ praise kink and channie just go hand in hand dont they…u described it perfectly that combo of being so desperate for approval but so easily flustered is just irresistible

hehehe channie crying while giving head was truly my equivalent of sending out a bat signal to all fellow dacryphiliacs 🙏 the little channie mash potato boy…..please ㅠㅠㅠㅠ i’m very sorry for the conflicting emotions that scene sparked in u it was a lil evil of me…i even gave myself some psychic dmg while writing it but at least u know u werent alone in that internal battle!! n i’m happy it had the desired effect~ <3 the bathing scene!! truly just a fraction of the love n care he deserves…and as u said it’s crazy he cant see it!!! he just needs to be shaken lovingly and violently by the shoulders until the idea gets through his beautiful head -_-;

i feel like the sentence u pointed out really describes bb chan’s mindset in a nutshell, how he sees himself as someone to be used rather than to be loved ㅠㅠ my apologies again for the misery haha but i’m glad to know there were lines that could touch ur heart!

LEE MINHO!!! he took his role of meow meow menace very seriously as u can see…though i personally think he had a good reason for being so cold to the reader (maybe leeknowism plagues me even fictionally) he definitely put those defensive walls up far too quickly without knowing the full story…though can we blame him after he’s seen the same cycle repeat time n time again (yes actually) in an alternate alternate universe, the brat was railed out of him n everyone lived happily every after <3 but yes, i hope him realizing he had to be the one to round up these lovesick losers made him a lil less insufferable for u at the end haha! that’s so sweet to think abt as well…i’d also like to believe that the reader is forgiving enough to give him a second chance and they eventually became genuine friends! bound by their mutual love for channie ♡ maybe she can finally tell him what she thought of that anime he recced her…

hehe i really wish i didnt have to split bb4 up and leave u guys hanging for a bit like that…but the hand of god (tumblr text block limit) interfered 💔 describing chan and the reader’s relationship as a house of cards is absolutely perfect!! very tentatively built and full of care and attention to detail, but ultimately very fragile bc their idea of love wasn’t sustainable. a balanced exchange of emotions!! you’ve worded it so beautifully, it makes me very giddy that you got the core message through and through

please don’t apologize!! if anything i’m so honored and grateful that you immersed urself in the story and had such lovely, thoughtful things to say abt it. i must’ve thanked u a million times in this response but again, thank you so much!i it means the world to me that you entered this lil bb universe and that u enjoyed it 💗💗💗