#sams Nexus

[lednet-sorrow-au-blog]

I have to zoom in to see if that was Nexus by his tlts-

SOTW - Lunar's Nightmares

yeah, this took way too long. but hey, every single excuse to draw Lunar angst is a good excuse so

also at some point while doing this i got like 5000 errors in 3 seconds- mom pls come pick me up i'm scared-

glitchless & normal colors under

[melodyartiez]

"Someone's gotta die today,And you have got the final say"

sun angst,my beloved

[muichixd]

Dark sun and nexus show!!! [October takeover sotw][my entry!!] :D

[fir156]

I needed to do this urgently

"Fights in prison? We have it!"

"A revolution? We have it!"

[ikamigami]

TW RANT - I may come off as rude here so I'm sorry in advance but people being too mad at Sun for everything that happened to Nexus just start to annoy me a bit especially when they act as if Sun basically abused Nexus

Sun doesn't need any excuses for how things were with him and Nexus at the beginning cause for what reason?

Sun never compared Nexus to Moon..

Nexus felt this way but if he cared to listen to Sun he'd understand that he was mistaken..

Because all Sun tried to say is that he doesn't want Nexus to do everything by himself while he's sitting there doing nothing just like it was with Moon..

Because at the time when Sun decided to be conduit for star's power Nexus was already taking care of everything by himself while Sun was doing nothing..

Just like it was with Moon..

It wasn't okay for Sun to lie but it wasn't okay for Nexus to yell his head of at Sun and refuse to listen to him and refuse to understand why Sun did what he did..

I wish to say something about people who defend early Nexus but I'll refrain myself cause I don't want to start any drama..

"nothing can excuse Sun for mistreating Nexus" it's a hella weird hill to die on..

Because what mistreating? The one Nexus made up in his head? And he never even cared to communicate with Sun and by that I mean that he also let Sun speak up and only yell "Me, myself and I" because that's not how communication works..

And what excuse? What y'all on about?

Sun apologized every time for when Nexus expressed being hurt..

But Nexus didn't care..

Or oh wait no.. Nexus just is too much of a coward to admit that he was afraid that Sun will die..

Why he never try to talk with Sun about anything..

Because he was a coward..

And now he chose hate.. because hating is easier..

The only wrong thing that Sun did was that he lied to Nexus.. but ofc is so good to held one mistake over someone's head forever, right?

As if Nexus never did any mistakes..

And ofc Nexus was worried about Sun well-being but he also actively pushed him away and was neglectful towards him..

But no one cares how it made Sun feel because apparently only poor Nexus' feelings are the most important thing..

[cancelforcipe]

Nexus: I'm your Moon, I just became evil.

Solar: ... No coffee for you then.

[xanas-eye]

"You [Solar] were the only person I considered a brother."

Oh man, go to Super Hell, Nexus.

Maybe he wasn't telling the truth, but I'm gonna take his words at face value on account of the fact that he felt closer to Solar than Sun — the main reason I started disliking Nexus in the first place, preceded by the New Moon and Solar dynamic which pushed Sun to the sideline.

Sun is here, grieving over this guy while Nexus (on today's EAPS ep) claimed that Sun was the family member he wanted to kill the most. Probably another lie, seeing as Nexus went after Moon more frequently during his villain arc, yet I don't think we will ever know for sure because he needed Sun to obtain withershards. So he couldn't kill him out of necessity.

In short, Sun's tears are wasted on this guy.

[ikamigami]

Finally!

Exactly, that's true!

Nexus was worried about Sun because he saw what he was capable of with putting himself in danger..

And it got worse when he met Dark Sun..

And when Solar died and later he talked to Moon in his head..

He realized that he can't actually save Sun if he did end up doing something dangerous..

Like yes Nexus wanted Solar back..

But if you think that he never cared about Sun you watched a different show..

It was all because he cared about Sun so so much..

He had that vivid dream/hallucinations where Solar was alive and Sun died after Earth dismissed his concerns about Sun being self-destructive..

So Nexus wasn't lying that it's all because of Sun..

But he just didn't or maybe even couldn't say the truth..

Or maybe he just wanted to blame it all on Sun because it was easier to deal with all of this, all these emotions he felt to Sun, this way..

It was easier to hate and blame Sun.. than admit that you cared so much that it literally tore your mind apart..

"the beginning of new moon's problem started here"

No

It started here

[tsams-and-co-memes]

[tsams-is-my-hyperfixation]

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[BAD THERAPIST NEXUS AU 💀]

Earth: "I'm literally being cyber bullied on this f#cking computer every day and I don't know what to do!"

Nexus walked over, with a cold and calm expression, and forcefully close the laptop with a thud.

Nexus, looking at her and taking off his glasses and grinning at her: "Problem Solved."

The audio of a picture being taken played, then Sun walked up.

Sun: "Meet Dr. Nexus, a therapist with a zero star rating on Yelp, which he claims is because he only tells his clients the brutal truth."

Flashback...

Solar: "There is something seriously wrong with me."

Nexus: "What's wrong?"

Solar: "When I look in the mirror, all I can think is 'no-one f#cking likes you'."

Nexus, with a calm expression and voice: "There is absolutely nothing wrong...with being honest."

Another picture was taken, and Sun walked over to Nexus.

Sun: "When we asked Dr. Nexus if his 0 star rating upset him, he responded"

Nexus, cleaning his glasses and grinning: "The only zeroes on the internet I care about are the ones in my bank account. If I ever felt upset, I'd wipe my tears away with a f#cking $100 bill."

Flashback 2...

Lunar: "My brother used to hit me when I was a kid."

Nexus: "Is your brother still involved in your life?"

Lunar: "Kind of...he is in another dimension, working as the theater attendant."

Nexus: "Well, what are you waiting for, you could definitely win the rematch with your f#cking powers."

Final picture taken, and Sun walked back to the camera, microphone in hand.

Sun: "Maybe this guy SHOULDN'T be a therapist..."

[botanicalfoxx]

OK this is kind of a hot take about the whole Nexus arc but I gotta get this out of my brain and into a post because I haven’t seen anyone else say it.

I think if Nexus would have sat down with the celestial family and TOLD THEM DIRECTLY that he was having trouble with his identity being conflated with Moon’s, they would have helped him. I’m not talking about just saying ‘I’m not him’ in an argument, I’m talking about directly spelling out ‘this is what’s hurting me, please stop doing x and y.’ (Dude nobody in this family is neurotypical you have to be DIRECT. Ain’t no hint dropping that’s gonna work here. I say this as someone who also needs it spelled out for me lol) There is next to no doubt in my mind that the family would have made the effort to step back and let him develop as a person, that they would have listened. Heck, if he was having that much trouble articulating it Earth would have gladly helped him find the words. He wouldn’t even be the first to have this sort of problem (see: Solar changing his name and appearance to avoid the identity and expectations associated with Eclipse.)

If there had been a proper sit-down-and-spell-it-out conversation about his problems, it may not have fixed everything instantly but the family would have made the effort to try. I say this as someone who does the same thing: Nexus sat there and let it fester until it turned him into an angry, resentful person, and by then he was so far into it that in his mind, it was everyone else’s fault. I mean yeah, technically, but if you directly told them what was happening they would have made an effort to fix it for you because they loved you. Even after you went off the rails Sun never STOPPED loving you.

The blame doesn’t rest solely on Nexus, not at all. The pressure he perceived from his family to be Moon had to have come from somewhere. But you can’t convince me they wouldn’t have listened if he talked to them about it.

If you ask me, in a perfect timeline, Nexus would have made the choice to talk to somebody about this issue before it got so bad. Probably Earth, who would then help him discuss the issue with his family and eventually become his own person. He would likely have moved into a new body and changed his name (again, like Solar) and in the process I’m willing to bet they’d find the original Moon in that chip in his head and bring him back as well. With the original Moon back and Nexus having his own name, body, and identity outside of him, Nexus would no longer feel the need to live up to Moon’s legacy (or at least not quite as intensely.) Of course there would still be problems (because what’s a good show without conflict?), Solar probably still would have gotten thanos snapped and eventually resurrected, but at least the whole family would be able to face it together.

Hot take finished.

[lednet-sorrow-au-blog]

AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!F*CKING SH*T- 🥹

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABBBBBBBBBBBBBBYYYYYYYY

“In another time, a happier place, we’ll meet again.”

Nexus talked to himself as both the darkness and light of the thing he once used as power engulfed him.

Maybe in another life he’d be able to meet a Moon, anyone, who cared about him.

[precisely-42-bees]

A bit of a redraw if you will, about 6 months between these two drawings. How much changes in such little time.

The original drawing:

[ikamigami]

Nxbxbbcbcbcbnxbxbxn

Today's episode heavy breathing was just everything

Moon shouldn't wait till Sun run away to go to him..

But I think that he just needed some time to think what to say..

Cause I knew it! He said to Solar that he said what was needed to be said.. which definitely implies that Moon was afraid that he'll say something insensitive or start yelling at Sun bxbxbxbbxbx

He didn't want that..

And yeeeessss Moon finally realized that no one expects him to fix everything QwQ

And that Sun doesn't need him.. and even if Moon might have said that because he hates himself..

I think that in this situation he meant that Sun isn't going to die without Moon because he's so dumb etc..

I think that Moon finally distanced himself from.. himself.. (edit: cause actually yeah after thinking about it more it really was more about how Moon hates himself and that Nexus was better and that Sun shouldn't choose him but Nexus that's why he said that Sun doesn't need him nxnxnnxnxnxn I was happy too quickly QwQ)

Hdndnndndnndndndn

Which allowed him to see Sun for who he is.. for how awesome brother Sun is.. and to why Sun loves Nexus and that's why he said that he would still be Sun's brother even if Sun loved Nexus more than him and even if Sun chose Nexus to live because he regretted killing Nexus bxbxbxbbxbxb QwQ

I'm so happy that despite Moon being afraid to be left by Sun he put Sun's feelings first.. he was considerate about Sun's feelings QwQ bxbxnxnnxnxnxn

Moon really is trying his best.. it makes me so emotional QwQ 💞

Also Lunar whyyyyy jxnxnxnxnnx

Yes Sun shouldn't be held captive but Lunar should still know where Sun is or if he's away for a long time he should call him or something..

Like Sun shouldn't go out or be left alone for too long.. not in this state..

I hope that Solar and Moon will have a talk and Moon will apologize for getting to upset at Solar especially cause Solar told him such a nice thing and he was right that Sun needed to talk to Moon QwQ

And now onto Sun..

Hooo boi..

Sun can't hate Nexus which is not surprising to me at all..

And ofc Sun said that maybe he doesn't need Moon but he wants him in his life.. which I always knew..

And I think that this is exactly what Dark Sun was unable to understand.. or maybe he understood this while talking with Moon?

But at the same time I'm still angry that he traumatised Sun so much with forcing him to choose to kill his brother and that I think that he knew that Ruin put that bomb in Nexus' chest which is why Sun's magic killed Nexus bxbxbbxbddn

But the most important part I wanted to point out from today's episode is that Sun didn't agreed nor accept Moon's words of support nxnxnnxnxnxnxnxn

Which means that Sun doesn't agree with Moon that he's a good brother QwQ

He also still doesn't want to shout out what weigh on him..

And he didn't thank Moon bxbxbbx

Cause I think that Nexus' words truly felt like proof to Sun.. proof that he's a terrible person actually..

This is so awfully relatable..

Cause at first I thought that maybe it'll be the time for Sun to open up but noooo

And it's so relatable QwQ

Sun wanted to have Moon as a brother.. he wanted to have Nexus as a brother.. he wanted to have a family..

Damn it QwQ

And I only say that Nexus is damn liar xnnxnxnnxnxn (cause I watched the podcast)

I think that he blames everything on Sun cause it's easier to hate a person he loved the most..

Like no one knows that Nexus had that vivid dream - except Monty bxbxbxbbxbx

No one knows that Nexus was afraid of Sun dying..

Nexus was so worried but his worries were constantly ignored..

This is what is the most sad thing to me.. that Nexus never talked to Sun about anything..

They both loved each other so much and yet..

And also ha ha I don't believe that Nexus wanted to kill Sun the most..

Such bs when he never even hurt Sun at all - physically I mean..

I'll die on the hill that Nexus actually cared deeply about Sun but he was just confused..

It's not Sun's fault.. again..

And also people completely forgot that Moon's computer constantly was comparing Nexus to Moon - saying that Nexus is dumb compared to Moon and it tried to and downloaded all the knowledge into Nexus' head..

But no "it was all Sun bla bla bla"

Nexus never wanted to talk to Sun about anything.. he only yelled so Sun stopped mentioning Moon..

Maybe if Nexus talked with Sun like a normal person.. then maybe he'd learn that Sun still loved Moon despite all the abuse.. and then if he allowed Sun to talk about the past and grieve and move on and also talk about his own insecurities etc then Sun would definitely apologized and he'd give Nexus space to be his own person..

But also he actually gave him that space.. he saw how much Solar was making Nexus happy so he didn't bother them.. but also Nexus is such a liar cause he obviously enjoyed playing games with Sun.. they had so much fun.. he wasn't threatening Sun like Moon used to do.. and also Sun never wanted Nexus to fix everything.. and definitely not on his own..

And I think that Nexus knows that..

But I think that the fear of Sun dying was too much so it broke Nexus..

And it was easier for him to hate Sun then even admit that..

Nexus knows that he wasn't the best to Sun like he claims himself to be.. but he can't admit his wrongs..

Just like Moon used to do..

Solar was right that Nexus isn't that much different from Moon but he doesn't want to admit it..

And yet Nexus claimed to be the Moon cause he called Moon a knockoff..

I think that Nexus loved Sun deeply but he also couldn't admit to being wrong..

His ego is what destroyed him actually..

That's why he acted like Creator.. cause I was thinking for quite some time that the more egotistic Nexus was the more he acted like Creator.. cause Creator made them.. so he became like Creator who is a pure ego..

And also Nexus saying that Sun would probably purposely hurt him.. yeah sure Jan keep lying to yourself..

Like they say whatever makes you sleep better, right Nexie ^^

Poor Sun loves Nexus so much yet he has to suffer now because Nexus pretended till the end that he never cared and hates Sun 🥺😭💔

[hazard-c-horror]

Concept I really hope gets explored in canon

Ruin gets split!

Right now the idea is that once Nexus doesn’t need Ruin anymore, Dark Sun decides to use him. More specifically Ruin’s Moon. (Bc I still believe he’s just stealing knowledge.)

The Sun part gets left behind/technically not really idk. (I believe Dark Sun has a secret small soft spot for suns) And he’s stays there until…

The October take over! Mid way though Solar get through to Nexus, and Nexus realizes that Dark Sun was going to betray him. So they work together to defeat Dark Sun

On the way they find Ruin Sun

read Right to Left

And that’s all I have. Don’t expect me to expand on this. I’ll probably just do random scenario doodles, idk

[sloth-artstudio]

Ah Yes! Another person who adores the Edgy boi being reborn as a sweetpea (no members of being Nexus or hurting his first family btw) and being brought over to a new dimension with Stargazer! KC (My TSAMS, The Stargazer family AU).

Also thank you for the Equinox love, I've been trying to figure out their shape for awhile now. They absolutely love lil' Azzy and is a great parental figure to him.

Speaking of parental figures...

Any ship name suggestions are more than welcome.

Sketches inspired by @socksandbuttons Baby Nexus AU.

New Moon reborn as Azriel.

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So small featuring Killcode and Azzy.

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Equinox and Baby Azzy.