#sam stans dni

[scripted-downfall]

So I’ve just started watching Supernatural season 11 and I’m about twenty minutes into episode two and I was wondering your take on Sam here. I just passed him praying acknowledging that he is the reason that a lot of people are dying. But he’s also stated, in the previous episode, that he’d do it again in a heartbeat. So I guess I was wondering your thoughts on this? And if you feel like the actions differ from previous ones in that Sam is willing to sacrifice potentially thousands of people just so he doesn’t have to lose Dean. In the past they’ve been willing to sacrifice themselves or hurt demons, but even with saying no to the archangels it was in part to stop a larger amount of casualties. Also I was curious to your opinion on the “cure” angle which felt to me as a way to be like ‘see sam isn’t a bad guy sure he caused this but he doesn’t want to hurt anyone else he wants to help’ even though be doing that more people potentially get infected and die in the process.

Hello, and thanks for the ask! (And idk if you've been here before or not, but welcome regardless!)

The delay in response is largely because I went back and skimmed through the transcripts for episodes 1 and 2 of the season, as well as past conversation with friends, to see what I said then and remember my opinion on this... and damn but I remember all this now and I thank you for the opportunity to respond! I'll probably address your points slightly out of order, if that's okay! (And apologies in advance; this turned out longer than I thought... here's a keep reading :) )

First, re. my general opinions about Sam in these episodes. This section pissed me off when I first watched it. (For reference, I wasn't live-reacting to the show; instead, I would watch the show, then go to Discord and rant at @typicalopposite about all the things that --- positively or negatively --- stuck with me. And ranting about s11 eps 1 and 2 took at least half an hour without her responding, more so if you add in her responses.) Warning for spoilers to the end of episode two; it's been way more than 20 minutes since this ask, so I'm hoping that's not a problem!

For one thing, he ticked me off with his dumb talk about "when did we change, Dean? Since when do we shoot first, ask questions later" with all the zombie apocalypse level shit going down. In zombie film archetypes, he's totally the annoying pacifist who views zombies as people too and then gets people killed as a result. AND hides his injury to the point that he starts turning and could, in theory, end up infecting someone. Yeah, it ends/ended up working out here, but that doesn't make it good logic/decision making, and, in a supernatural contagion like the one they were facing, they should not have tried for the luxury of a cure. Indeed, Sam probably got way more people killed in the meantime than he actually saved. And I'm not sure what he meant by, "I'm gonna do what I do best, Dean," but, whatever was actually meant, I find it immensely amusing that the line was followed by Sam drinking monster blood and then lying about it to his brother. Yes, I recognize that this was not the same as the Ruby situation, but the (probably accidental) implication is interesting.

It also pissed me off that they keep running with this idea of "we broke this." Like, no, false, full-stop, we did not break this. Dean repeatedly said he didn't want you do to what you were doing. NOWHERE did he say he wanted it to happen. He was actually taking steps to not break the whole thing. The only culpability Dean has in the MOC not being dealt with without releasing Amara is that he took that swing at Death (and that only happened because he couldn't kill Sam, or let Death kill Sam). But that wasn't even what removed the Mark? Rowena et al. working behind the scenes is what removed the Mark. And she was working under Sam's... idk, request? threat? supervision? Fill-in-the-blank, you know what I mean. "We" did not break anything; Sam broke the thing.

Which brings me to your point about Sam acknowledging that he's the reason people are dying but also being willing to do it again, and about his actions differing from the past... I'm honestly not fully sure.

In some ways, his insistence on removing the Mark (and staying to find a cure) is in-character. He's often depicted--- though not always (cough cough: Benny, Emma, the other characters he inexplicably decided weren't human enough to receive the same repeated chances he gave everyone else) --- as believing in nurture over nature. Just being a supernatural isn't the same as being automatically evil. And, if he stuck to that, it'd, frankly, be an admirable stance to take. (But, again, he doesn't stick to it --- especially whenever a non-human character is getting mutually close to his brother.) And, in this case, he refused to believe that Dean was ever "too far gone" to be cured, so... that tracks.

It also bears mentioning... Sam has a habit of taking action because he feels guilty, and that guilt leading him to not consider the consequences. Take post-s3-finale-through-s4, for example: Dean's gone, and he feels guilty about it, so he takes on his ill-advised-and-poorly-handled attack against Lilith, which ends up starting the apocalypse. (And let it be known that, for all I'm a Sam anti, I do recognize that he wasn't wrong in going after Lilith. He, Dean, Bobby, etc; they all thought that killing Lilith was the way to go. My problem with him is a) how he did it and b) how he treated his brother throughout the entire arc. Not the action. However, it's still an example of his guilt driving him into something that caused a lot of people harm.) So, in that sense, getting rid of the Mark continues tobe pretty in character. I don't know if it started out normal or not. (e.g. I could see that Sam felt guilty about the fact that Dean took on the MOC because he was cruising along in his, frankly, vaguely suicidal mindset after Sam cut him off, but I'm not sure I remember the scenes well enough to know if Sam's intent focus on finding a way to take off the Mark stems from that guilt, or idealism, or codependency.) Regardless, after Charlie, curing the MOC becomes less about curing the Mark and more about him working off the guilt about her death.

And, stemming off of that, this is another instance of him telling himself that he's doing something for his brother when he's really not. s4: he goes on a revenge quest to take down Lilith "for Dean" despite Dean coming back, being right there, and asking him not to. s10, pre-Charlie: he decides to take off the Mark even after Dean says he doesn't want him to do so. (I admit that this is an iffier situation because, like with Sam's Gadreel thing, there's the question of whether MOC!Dean has medical authority over non-MOC!Dean... but still.) s10, post-Charlie: he continues trying to take off the Mark despite Dean very explicitly and without any qualifications saying he doesn't want him to. Etc.

So, on the one hand, Sam's actions regarding the Mark --- and his actions regarding the zombie-virus-adjacent cure --- are kinda in-line with past behavior.

The line you isolated about how he'd "do it again in a heartbeat" (or whatever the actual quote was), however, is unusual. Usually, Sam spends the aftermath of a plan going wrong angsting about how much damage it did, with 0 ostensible willingness to do it again. No matter how committed he was to that path ahead of time, and no matter how many times he follows that same path (with different specifics) again later, he at least claimed that his guilt was so powerful that he'd never act similarly, he'd changed, etc. After the s4 finale, for an example, he apologizes more-or-less nonstop for some of it, etc. This time, though, he's blatantly saying that he'd do it again. And, for all he feels guilty, he's, for once, recognizing that he doesn't feel guilty enough to not do it again, and he's coming to terms with what that means. That feels different from his character in the past.

And, secondarily, the difference between this action and his past actions is that they knew removing the Mark would cause problems. With Lilith? Like I said, they didn't know it would cause problems. It's not really a surprise that he didn't stop because they thought it was the right course of action, and he always thinks he knows the best way to go. With the archangels, saying yes was a clear path to death and destruction, so it's, again, not really a surprise they both said no.

But here? (And, btw, I've made a previous post comparing the MOC situation to the Gadreel situation --- basically arguing that Dean gets vilified for Gadreel while Sam gets away with MOC no problem, called Actions of the Greater Greater Good, if you wanna check it out --- and I'm borrowing some of the wording here.) Good, bad, and neutral characters alike had warned them against taking off the Mark; these include but are not limited to: Cas, Rowena, Crowley, kinda Charlie, the Book of the Damned itself, Dean (through the Mark), the Styne family, eventually even Death itself. Sam also had to work with Rowena (clearly suspect with bad motives at that point) and drive off a high-powered ally (Crowley) in the process, while working with a book tied to dark forces. And so on. There was no "whoa, however could we have known that this was going to cause wide-scale problems", or, at least, there shouldn't have been. Sam knew what the costs could be and went on anyway.

That's the real character shift. He's actively taking on the consequences --- and potentially harming multitudes as a result --- instead of accidentally stumbling into it. So, yes, I do think his actions here are vaguely out of character; not in the fact that he did what he did, but that he did what he did knowing what could happen as a result.

Which is --- to attend to your final point about the cure, and to borrow your wording --- why I agree with you about it's a way to say "see sam isn’t a bad guy sure he caused this but he doesn’t want to hurt anyone else he wants to help." He's doing the whole try-to-do-something-good-to-counteract-his-guilt thing, and it's once again quite possibly causing problems (since we've no clue how many people he actually saved, and how many people died because he was obsessed with the cure instead of saving people who hadn't been infected at all). It's annoying and naive, in my opinion, and it did not exactly endear me to his character.

I hope that was a vaguely coherent way of answering the ask... I've been rambling with my computer keys for so long that I'm not sure it makes any sense whatsoever, but I'm hoping it does... I'd love to hear back from you if you happen to have a response, but no pressure; all the best!

[darnell-la]

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[dreamytfw]

In a reddit thread about celebs with big dicks. I fucking died laughing. They're so right

[bloodfreakpropaganda]

deanstans that hate sam are so wild to me. dean would hate you. dean would look you in the eyes and shoot you for even daring to say a bad word about sam. dean actually would hate your guts.

he is insane. he is a rabid sam stan (in some aspects). he is just like me fr

[witchy-writer-lady]

any of them that you want

Tough desicion. There's a lot of characters that I have thoughts on, so I chose our main trio.

Dean Winchester - as you propably saw from my blog, I'm very much a Dean girl. He's my absolute favorite, having captured my heart from the start. He's kind, brave, loyal. Would do anything for his friends and family. Of course, there are desicions and actions of his (which mainly stem from his desire and duty to protect Sam) that I don't agree with and don't like. He's also very relatable and deserved better. Honestly, what I wrote is barely stratching the surface, I could go on and on about my thoughts on Dean.

Sam Winchester - hoo boy. I'm propably gonna regret writing this one, but anyway. I very much don't like Sam (hence the anti tag, so be mindful of it). I hate him. He's smart yes, but he's also selfish and doesn't appreciate his brother at all, and often manipulates and abandons him. He's also very self-righteous and a hipocrite, etc. So yeah I'm no a fan of Sam.

Castiel - I like him. His introduction and journey to learning humanity was a great one. I admire his friendship with Dean (only friendship. I don't ship Destiel!) and their bond. Of course, like with Dean, there there are desicions and actions of his that I dont like and don't agree with, but other than that, he's interesting character,

Hope that answers your question, anon. Thank you for the ask.

[transprodigalson]

btw i am NOT back into watching spn, but ive got to defend my best boy (sam) from the haters (non sam stans)

[opheliasam]

ok grandma let’s get u to bed

god he (dean) used to be so different my chest hurts

[ramp-it-up]

Knock You Down

Summary: James Bucky Barnes is an avowed bachelor and one night stand artist. But when he meets you, he finds out that sometimes love comes around, and it knocks you down.

Word count: less than 2K

Pairing: Art Dealer (mob boss) Bucky Barnes x Reader

A/N: This fic was in part inspired by Seb Stan's latest pics and this press run 🫠, and partially inspired by an old song by some problematic people, lol. This is the result. As usual, I am Basil Exposition, so this is broken into parts. Part II is already in the queue and will be posted on Friday, 10/11.

Warnings: 18+ Only, Minors DNI. Read at your own risk. Slow burn, cursing, mutual pining, Bucky the player, wild thoughts, kisses on the hand and the cheek. No sex!

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"Won't see it coming when it happens. But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now."

Bucky always scoffed at Steve’s advice. He and Sam never understood his solitary bachelorhood and his one night stand lifestyle.

The truth was, he hadn’t met anyone who held his interest enough to warrant a second date, much less anything beyond one casual hookup. So, he never made promises that he couldn’t keep, and most women said they were down for that. 

Even if they were lying to themselves.

At 42, James Buchanan Barnes was too dedicated to his business, ostensibly as an art dealer, for a serious relationship. The truth was that he dealt in many things, and that was why his business needed so much attention. 

His life and everyone’s around him depended on it. 

Bucky Barnes wasn’t going to get caught slipping.

In love or in business.

—---

The first time you met James Buchanan Barnes, on what you thought would be a random Monday afternoon, he appraised you in a way that shook you to the core, those ocean blue eyes looking into your soul. You felt as if he were evaluating a piece of art as he gazed at you across his desk. 

You couldn’t know that he felt the exact same way. 

His eyes never strayed from your face as he shook your hand, but he’d noticed every bit of you as you entered his gallery, Rebirth. You were more stunning than any piece of art that he’d ever curated in the space.

While nothing like his normal type, you made Bucky feel as if he’d been so wrong about so much in his life the moment you entered his orbit. He had to get to know you to find what he’d been missing.

This afternoon you were a sight to behold and serving body. Although you were covered from neck to shin in an elegant sheath dress, the high, wrapped waist was giving all of your bounteous curves up to whoever glanced at you. And you had heads turning.

Steve, Sam, and even Natasha craned their necks to watch you as you entered Bucky’s office. And he could have sworn that Nat’s neck was at a 90 degree angle as she watched you leave her desk just outside his door.

You were fine as hell.

Bucky was entranced by dreams of handling your curves and making you smile at him forever.

As Bucky dreamed, you admired the man in front of you. Tall, dark, and handsome, Barnes wasn’t a young man, but the gray in his beard and the crinkles around his eyes made him that much more attractive. 

Even more attractive than in the paparazzi pics of him with various young models and actresses of the moment, waifs and ingénues with whom he was never photographed twice.

You just knew you were safe from any advances from him.

You thought.

“Enchanté, Ms. Y/LN. It is a pleasure to meet you."

Bucky lowered his head as he greeted you, a slight bow and extended his hand to his desk. You noticed the tattoo that started on his hand and seemed to go up his sleeve and went in the direction he pointed.

"You know, you are quite tenacious. I don’t take many meetings with potential buyers. But all of my people told me that I should.”

The silk of his voice, the unexpected tenor of it, and the way he took your hand made you shiver at the aura of experience that he gave off.

The word Daddy floated around in your mind for a moment until he invited you to sit.

You had to concentrate on the business at hand, that of negotiating for a piece of art for the Art and Culture Center in Brownsville, of which you were the director. The purchase was made possible by benefactors to commemorate a deceased Brownsville artist who became famous, then forgotten, during the Harlem Renaissance.

“You’ve made it past Ms. Romanoff, my gallerist, Mr. Wilson, my business manager, and Mr. Rogers, my gallery director, Ms. Y/LN. What makes you think that I’m going to give you a different answer? Letting that piece go for the price you’ve proposed is not a good business move.”

“You can’t afford to miss out on this opportunity, Mr. Barnes. Yes, you will be taking a loss on the artwork, but you will be on the ground floor of a major rediscovery. You will be known as one of the few who helped to resurrect the brilliance of the artist Howard Benson. You can be the Alice Walker to his Zora Neale Hurston.”

And that is when Bucky leaned back in his chair, astounded at your shrewd calculation.

“I love the way your mind works, Ms. Y/LN.”

You smiled and settled back into your chair, causing Bucky to shift in his chair. He wanted to be buried in you. He appraised and decided that he liked the pout that changed your lips almost as much as the smile that initially greeted him when he replied, “But that price is still unacceptable.”

You raised an adorable eyebrow at him and rose to the challenge that he lay at your feet ready to tangle with the inimitable James Barnes. The conversation stretched from early afternoon to dinner time, making you suspect that Barnes was drawing it out for some reason. You matched him, point for point, until it was dark. But he yielded no ground.

The conversation was intellectual foreplay: art history, sociology, american politics. And it was the most stimulated you’d been in a while. 

You could do this all night.

Your phone buzzed and you looked down. There were several text messages and emails lighting up your screen. You’d been in deep with Barnes for hours. It was after 6 pm. It seemed like only minutes. You noticed that it was only you and Bucky left in the gallery and rose to excuse yourself, albeit reluctantly.

“Oh! I’m sorry to keep you so long. I’m sure that you must have plans.”

You’d done your research and you knew that there was probably someone little more than half Barnes’ age waiting for him. When you searched social media, there was a sighting or spotted every month or so of Bucky and a young, beautiful woman.

You reached for your coat, but Bucky was behind you in seconds, taking it from you and helping you put it on. You shivered at his breath at your throat and his hands on your collarbone as he draped the lapels over your neck. His deep chuckle made your stomach flip. He saw right through you.

“No one is waiting for me but my cat, Alpine. How about you, Ms. YLN? Anyone waiting for you in Brownsville?”

“Not tonight. No.”

Why in the world were you doing the sultry whisper thing? This man didn’t want you. 

Did he?

You cleared your throat and you felt dizzy when you looked up and saw how close he was standing to you. Those eyes and the smile that graced his handsome face had you warm, but the way he licked his lips had you spiraling.

Bucky pushed down a mild sense of panic that someone might be expecting you some other night, but that was irrational. Competition never ever entered his mind when he talked to other women. 

What was happening here?

“Well I would consider myself extremely fortunate and would be honored if we could continue this conversation over dinner.”

—-

The way James Barnes turned your meeting into a dinner date had your head spinning, but the wonderful conversation and easy, light hearted banter eased your mind. As soon as the first course was served at your table at dinner at Bohemian, he agreed to your initial price.

From there, once the terms were settled, the conversation turned to more personal questions, each of you sharing the stories of your life in your town, his childhood in Romania, your childhood in Brooklyn, and lots of funny stories.

At one point early in the night, Bucky stopped you from calling him Mr. Barnes.

“Please. Call me James. Or you could call me Bucky. My Friends call me Bucky. For my middle name, Buchanan. Bucky is short for Buchanan.”

Bucky found himself rambling. He had not been this nervous in a while.

You looked at him quizzically. At that moment, he would give you anything you were about to ask of him.

“Do you have a lot of friends? I mean, do a lot of people call you Bucky?“

Godamn, the husk in your voice, those lips, those eyes. Everything about you was about to set him on fire.

“I have a few who are in my close circle. Natasha, Steve, Sam. They and a very few others call me Bucky. Most people I speak with call me Mr. Barnes...”

You nodded slowly, licking your lips, making Bucky feel it in his cock.

“Then I will call you James.”

He got your subtle meaning. You wanted to be different. 

And you were. So very different.

After almost five hours of the best conversation and laughter, he proposed another time for you two to meet before the week was up, on Friday. He had made it clear at dinner that now that business was concluded that he wanted to spend time with you.

Friday night would be a date, the second one at his insistence.

You debated that fact as his driver took you home, even up until he walked you to the door of your brownstone.

He leaned against your doorframe and checked you out as you retrieved your keys from your purse. When you turned and caught him looking, you gasped, causing him to straighten up and move toward you, eyes dilated.

“It will be our second date,” you conceded.

Bucky’s mouth curled into a smirk as he grabbed your hand and lifted it to his mouth. Your soul burned as he pressed his lips to your palm. It was like the hint of a drug in your veins and you wanted so much more.

“What made you change your mind?”

That voice. Did you have a voice kink? Good lord.

You flushed, both at the images that were racing through your mind, and at the arbitrary three date rule you’d made up a while ago. Why was that again?

You cleared your throat.

“Because of the way you are looking at me, James. And the fact that you just kissed me.”

“Is this a kiss?”

“Ummhmmmm.”

You hummed as Bucky raised his eyebrow and your hand again. This time, he brushed his lips against your wrist and inhaled the perfume lingering there. You were about to melt.

Bucky didn’t even know what he was doing. The next step in his mind was to open his mouth and consume you, but he opened his eyes and spied you looking at him in that way, and he knew he had to stop. He didn’t want this to be like all of his other conquests.

He straightened up, but didn’t let go of your hand, entangling your fingers together. 

“You are correct, Y/N. In my mind, this is a date. I am interested in you, for more than just your taste in art. I hope that this is the first date of many.”

You were bowled over at his straightforwardness. It was not what you were used to. This was a man, not a boy in mens clothing.

“I appreciate your honesty, James.”

You went on tiptoes and kissed him on the cheek, your lips lingering on the black and grey stubble so close to his lips. You turned around, giving him a view of your backside as you opened your door.

“And your ambition.”

You gave him that smile again with a wink, and your “Goodnight, James,” floated up to him on cloud nine.

——-

Let me know if you liked it!

Part II here.

[lunarbuck]

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hello hello :) Welcome to my Kinktober Masterlist! As much as I would love to do a full fic for every single day of the month, it just isn't in the cards for me.

here you'll find everything I currently have planned for kinktober <;3 Key word being planned... i reserve the right to adjust this haha I also decided to do it by week so I can have some flexibility about when I'm posting these one-shots/drabbles!

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my masterlist | @lunarbucklibrary

──── Week One ────

Love Bites

Steve Rogers x f!reader (any race)

Thigh Riding

Lee Bodecker x f!reader (any race)

Table Sex/Threesome/Sensory Deprivation

Stucky x f!reader (any race)

Phone Sex

Sam Wilson x f!reader (any race)

──── Week Two ────

Double Penetration

Stucky x f!reader (any race)

Formal Wear

Bucky Barnes x f!reader (any race)

Being Recorded

Steve Kemp x f!reader (any race)

Free Use

Bucky Barnes x f!reader (any race) & Steve Rogers x f!reader (any race)

──── Week Three ────

Dacryphilia

Lee Bodecker x f!reader (any race)

Piercings

Bucky Barnes x f!reader (any race)

Begging/CNC

Ari Levinson x f!reader (any race)

Lingerie

Loki Laufeyson x f!reader (any race)

──── Week Four ────

Face Sitting/Deep Throating

Stucky x f!reader (any race)

Cock Rings

Steve Rogers x f!reader (any race)

Fingering/Cream Pie

Ari Levinson x f!reader (any race)

Costumes

Stucky x f!reader (any race)

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[lordprettyflackotara]

affection || Sam Golbach || the finale

smut, 18+, minors dni, tw: sad sammy & reader, happy unrealistic ending ;)

Colby Brock was not the moron he presented himself to be.

He was well aware of the fact that people underestimated him, whether it be other creators, haters, stans, or even his friends.

Colby knew that he was known for being a silly goofball ghost hunter on the internet and with that came the unfortunate reality of never being taken serious.

The only person who he knew for a fact that would never think of him that way was his best friend, Sam Golbach.

That was until Sam started fooling around with you being Colby’s back.

Colby knew he should’ve been pissed, the mere principle of Sam sneaking around with you, his ex girlfriend, a significant sign of disrespect.

After all, he would never look at Kat that way.

So why would Sam look at you that way?

That’s when he decided to start watching more closely.

Sam Golbach was not nearly as slick as he thought he was.

When he started coming and going at odd times, Colby in truth did assume he was going on his late night runs.

At first.

That was until he started noticing how different Sam was behaving.

How his eyes glossed over whenever Colby would talk to him. How secretive and quiet he became when the discussion of women came up. Or how he refused to show Colby his phone, even to show him something as simple as a photo he took.

Colby recognized the scent of your vanilla perfume, even if you both were long broken up. It was your signature scent, and Sam started coming home reeking of it.

Which Colby wouldn’t notice, if he didn’t do the houses laundry.

Colby felt like he was growing crazy, Sam’s behavior becoming more and more drastically different.

So he started following him.

It wasn’t Colby’s proudest moment, but he was glad he did. He watched Sam buy flowers for you. Colby had no idea where you moved to after he broke up with you, but he knew you lived in an apartment near your University. Colby watched from a far as Sam came and went from a certain apartment complex with hideous brown paint on its residents doors.

He never saw you. He just couldn’t prove in any logical sense that Sam was sneaking around with you. That out of all people on the face of the planet, Sam chose his ex girlfriend.

So Colby decided to test the waters. He waited for Sam to come home one night, pushing himself into exhaustion. He decided to continue watching Shameless, spending most of the night racking his brain for a reason as to why he was up.

For a bit, Colby wasn’t even sure Sam would be coming home. He didn’t usually spend the night with you, but maybe this time he would.

Relief flushed over Colby as he heard the front door unlock.

Colby had known Sam since they were practically kids, and he recognized guilt washing over Sam’s face.

That’s when he knew.

But that wasn’t enough for Colby.

The next time Sam began to head over to your apartment, Colby followed him again. A part of him felt like a creep, stalking his best friends whereabouts. He watched Sam awkwardly stand in front of your apartment door, lost in thought as he blankly stared at the shitty brown paint.

Colby contemplated intervening right then and there.

That was, until he saw you.

You looked so much better than the last time he saw you. Your hair had grown out, your hips swaying as you hauled over your groceries to your apartment.

Colby didn’t want to be right.

He watched as Sam rushed over and helped you carry in your groceries.

Colby wasn’t a moron, but he was indecisive.

How should he handle this? He wasn’t upset about your break up anymore. Colby didn’t care that you were seeing other people, but why did that person have to be Sam? Was it just meaningless sex? How long had this been going on?

Colby was on his feet before he could stop himself. He stood in front of your front door, where he could faintly hear shuffling.

Knock knock.

The sound of your voice was all Colby needed to hear. He didn’t want Sam to know that he knew just yet, deciding to throw in the bullshit about Kat and missing you. He didn’t resent you, but he had just moved on.

When Sam returned home later that afternoon, he looked like a wounded puppy. Colby could tell he had been crying, his face tomato red and eyes still watery.

“Hey man you alright?” Colby asked cautiously. He rushed around the kitchen counter, grabbing Sam by his shoulders. He tried to meet his gaze, the blondes eyes focused on the floor.

Sam did it all for Colby. There was no sense in telling him now, he had called it off with you. He had chosen Colby over you, even if he hadn’t wanted to.

“Fine,” Sam mumbled. Colby tried to get an answer out of Sam, even if it was a lie.

“Dude you can tell me whatever it is, we’re Sam and Colby for a reason,” Colby offered. Sam briefly met his gaze, the genuine look of sadness engulfing his blue orbs.

“Not this time brother, not this time,”

Colby knew he had to fix this.

Sam’s tears made it apparent to Colby that Sam’s affair with you was far beyond just mindless sex.

Colby knew how upset Kat and his breakup had made him. He didn’t want to see him go through that all over again. You couldn’t just call this off with Sam. Not after Sam was willing to sacrifice his friendship with Colby for you.

The next day Colby made his way over to your apartment. He parked quickly, practically throwing himself out of the car. His eyes darted to your little pastel yellow bug car, boxes filling the backseat.

Oh shit.

Colby picked up the pace, sprinting over to your apartment.

He pounded on the front door, his adrenaline causing him to nearly run in place.

You opened the door hesitantly, bags hanging from under your eyes. You were a completely different person than the one Colby had seen yesterday, your face completely drained of any color. Your skin was pale, your eyes puffy, your lips cracked.

You looked like you hadn’t slept, an oversized t shirt covering your frail body.

“Now’s not a good time Colby,” You say automatically, unfazed by his unexpected presence. Colby stared down at you for a moment, blinking before responding.

“Listen to me, you can’t do this to Sam. He’s a fucking wreck,” Colby said. He pushed past you into your apartment, noticing the lack of furniture or decorations. “And you’re moving away? You’re willing to give up your entire life just to get away from him? He’s not a bad guy,” Colby argued. You stared at him blankly, dumbfounded as to why he was acting this way.

“You really are a moron. I didn’t breakup with him. He broke up with me,” You interjected. You crossed your arms, glaring at him. “So tell me Brock what exactly happened to you wanting to get back together? Did you want to two time your best friend to get back at him? I’ll tell you now i’m not a fucking toy and i won’t be apart of some scheme-” You began rambling. Colby put up his hand, signaling you to pause.

“If I wanted to seek out some weird fucking revenge, you would not be my pick of the litter, trust me,” Colby stated clearly. Your kitchen counters were squeaky clean, bare of any signs you lived there. “So then what do you want? He called this off, not me,” You replied flatly. Colby’s snarky attitude reminded you of your old relationship, the bitterness beginning to reappear.

Colby ran his fingers through his hair, frustrated. “Why would he call this affair off? After this whole time?” Colby questioned. Your hair was admittedly tangled, thrown back in a sloppy ponytail that didn’t flatter your features. You tilted your head to the side, staring curiously at the brunette you had so heavily avoided all this time.

“Once again, you’re a moron. He called it off because of you.”

“Because of me? He clearly wasn’t thinking of me when he was fucking your brains out,” Colby answered dryly. You let out a stale laugh, your bottom lip cracking slightly. “What’s so funny?” Colby questioned, becoming more frustrated by the minute. Sam was willing to sacrifice his entire career and friendship with him, just for you.

“Sam called off an almost year long affair for you. All we ever felt was guilty. I’m in love with him and that wasn’t enough to stop him from leaving. All because he cares about you,” You answered honestly. You cleared your throat, watching Colby’s mind slowly process your words. “Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to finish packing,” You say. You brushed past Colby harshly, hitting his shoulder.

The brunette watched as you grabbed a box from behind him.

“Are you really going to leave town over this?”

You gave him an icy glare, one that would’ve killed him if looks could kill.

“I didn’t stay in this shitty town for this shitty college. I stayed for Sam,” You spat. Colby’s face fell, realizing his original theory of you staying with hope to get back together with him was all wrong.

“You can’t do this, you can’t abandon him like this,” Colby argued. He grabbed your arm, causing your eyes to narrow. You shoved him off, your ex boyfriend not wanting to cause you physical harm.

“Sam should know all about abandoning people, since that’s what he’s already done,”

Sam was a train fucking wreck.

Not only was Colby not answering his calls, but you had blocked his number. He tried to send you a text about something he left at your apartment, the message not sending.

It was early in the morning when Sam decided to tell Colby. He went to his best friends room, only to find it completely empty. Sam then blew up Colby’s phone, trying to seem nonchalant as he asked him where he was. His questioning made him seem like a guilty train wreck. Sam was sure Colby had somehow found out, and was planning on abandoning Sam all together.

Sam couldn’t sleep, his eyes bloodshot from staying up like an insomniac. He couldn’t face Colby when he came home, the blonde hiding in the safety of his comforter. He locked his bedroom door, deciding hiding from his issues would be the proper form of solitude to tend to his wounds.

It was Colby’s loud voice that awoke him from a light slumber.

“Sam fucking Golbach!”

Sam’s blood ran cold, his eyes popping open.

“Go away Colby, I feel bad enough,” Sam replied. Colby continued to pound on the door, causing Sam’s body to stiffen.

“I’m not pissed dude! Y/n is moving out of this state if you don’t stop her!” Colby yelled. This caused Sam to sit up, before quickly rushing over to his bedroom door. He hesitantly opened the door and peered up at his best friend.

“Y/n is moving out of the state?”

“Yes dude. She only stayed here for you,”

Colby didn’t look angry, as far as Sam could tell. Maybe a little stressed, but not as livid as Sam would’ve predicted he would be.

“And you’re not mad at me?”

“Am I a little bit annoyed you chose my ex to fall in love with? Absolutely. Do we have time to discuss this right now? No,”

Sam raised his eyebrows, giving Colby a puzzled look. Colby threw his hands up in the air, as if the answer was obvious.

“Y/n is moving out of the state today. Go fucking stop her! You have my blessing! Go!”

You had just finished placing your last suitcase in your car, pushing down on your trunk so that everything would fit. Your aunt was gracious enough to allow you to stay with her temporarily while you settled into your new school. You headed back over to your apartment, cringing at the shit colored door.

How did you ever agree to move into an apartment like this?

You looked around, ensuring everything was squeaky clean and empty. The furniture was easy to get rid of or donate, both of which you deemed to be quick and reasonable options. You walked down your small hallway, examining the bare walls.

You held your arms, ensuring no holes from nails were visible.

“Y/n!” Sam called out. He rushed into your apartment, quietly thanking whatever higher power existed you left it unlocked. He slammed the door shut behind him, hope flooding him with energy. You raised your eyebrows, turning your direction to see Sam.

You gritted your teeth. Was your apartment a fucking meet and greet today?

“What do you want Sam? I-” Your protest were cut off by Sam’s lips meshing against yours. He knocked the air out of you, your body tensing under his. You pushed at his chest, staring up at him. “Listen i’m not some fucktoy that you can use one last time-” You began arguing. Sam’s soft hands cupped your small face, his eyes boring down into yours.

“I love you,” Sam admitted. He urgently kissed you again, your body turning into putty under his touch. He pressed you against the hallway wall, his hands snaking under your shirt. He pulled away from your lips, kissing down the side of your neck. “I should’ve told you that yesterday. I fucking love you,” Sam grunted, pleasantly surprised that you were wearing no bra. He tugged at your nipples, that hardened quickly under the stimulation.

“Sam i’m gross I can’t-” You began, before Sam glanced around. His eyes landed on your bathroom door, a devious smirk spreading across his lips.

“Care for a shower then?”

The water was turned on and you both stripped your clothes in a blur.

Neither of you waited for the water to warm up, both of you too eager to feel one another. The cold water caused your nipples to harden even more, your body feeling like it was engulfed in flames as Sam kissed you. You shivered underneath the cold water, the water droplets causing goosebumps to rise on your skin. “It’s fucking freezing,” You whispered, Sam’s lips hot and heavy against yours. Sam chuckled as he pinched at your hardened nipples. “Let me warm you up,” He purred. His hands traveled every inch of your body, exploring and caressing your soft skin. “I’m so sorry,” Sam mumbled in between kisses.

His addiction to you was back in full swing, and his guilt had now been kicked out of the car of his mind. Sam brought his lips back to your neck, sucking harshly at the skin. You groaned as the water grew warmer, dripping down both of your bodies. He sucked at your sweet spots, littering your neck with hickies that would last at least a few days. “I’m never gonna go anywhere. Ever again,” Sam grunted. He snaked his fingers down to your aching cunt, teasingly sliding them up and down your folds.

“You belong to me. Officially. You’re mine,” Sam told you. You whimpered as he drew lazy circles around your clit, your walls clenching around nothing. “All yours Sammy. Forever yours,” You panted. Steam began to cloud the bathroom air, your vision becoming hazy as Sam sped up his abuse on your clit. “That’s my girl,” The blonde praised. He used his other hand to twist and toy with your stimulated nipples, earning hearty moans from you.

“I’m going to ruin this cunt every single night. Youre close already? You fuckin whore,” Sam purred, watching in delight as your brain slowly turned to mush. Your eyes began to roll back, his fingers assaulting your clit. “Sam i’m gonna cum, fucking, fuck, i’m gonna cum,” You mewled. Your hands began to cling onto his back for support, your nails scratching down his skin. “Thats it baby, mark me. I’m yours,” Sam groaned. His cock was poking your inner thigh, but the blondes full attention was on you.

You were so close, your body teetering on the edge of ecstasy. Sam smirked down at you, pleased at you unintentionally waiting for his permission to cum. “Cum for me baby,” Sam purred.

Sam could feel your nails digging into his skin as you came, the pain immediately subsiding from the hot water. He watched you come down from your high, your body shaking as your vision slowly settled.

You pulled him in for a savory kiss, your hand slithering down to his length. You began to jerk his cock, his length twitching in your hands. Sam knew that if you continued he’d cum too quickly, his body yearning for yours. “Turn around slut,” He ordered into the kiss, guiding your hips to obey him.

You turned around, facing the white shower wall.

“Hands, babygirl,”

You slowly put your hands behind your back, Sam’s large one holding them together. “Such a good whore for me,” Sam praised, giving your shoulder a few kisses. He brushed the tip of his cock up and down your folds, groans escaping both of you from the pleasurable sensation. “Please Sam, I need you,” You whined, your core aching in desire.

And who was Sam to deny you of your needs?

He shoved himself into you quickly, careful to allow you to cockwarm him for a moment so you could adjust.

He used his spare hand to slither around to your throat, squeezing it gently. “You feel so good around my cock,” Sam groaned. You pushed your hips back against his, letting Sam know you were ready. Sam bucked his hips slow at first, gripping your neck as he slid in and out of you.

Through the foggy steam he watched your ass bounce against him, the sight only making him harder. He began to pick up the pace, your moans echoing off of the small bathroom walls.

Sam began picking up the pace, slamming his hips into yours brutally. His cock abusing your cervix. He tightened his hand around your throat, your airways becoming restricted. You moaned his name, your breast bouncing as Sam thrust inside of you.

“You’re all mine,” Sam groaned, smacking your ass harshly. The electric shock sent a shiver up your spine, the sharp pain mixing together with the pleasure Sam was providing. Sam allowed you to breathe removing his hand from your throat, tightening his grip on maintaining your hands behind your back.

His hand traveled down to your clit, his slender fingers rubbing the overstimulated bud. “Shit,” You slurred, becoming drunk off of the pleasure. Sam smirked at your response, placing sloppy open mouthed kisses on your shoulder. Sam drew faster circles, grinning devilishly as your walls squeezed him.

“You like that don’t you slut? I can feel you milking my cock,” Sam teased. You babbled a hardly coherent agreement as you whined against his cock, his name a mantra escaping your lips. The cord inside of you was threatening to snap again, your legs shaking. “Oh my fucking God- fuck Sammy, I can’t-” You cried, your orgasm violently crashing over you. Your legs nearly buckled, the lack of access to your hands causing you to almost fall. Sam grabbed your waist quickly, releasing your hands and keeping you upright.

“I got you baby, you’re doing so good for me,” Sam praised. He slipped out of you, wanting to give you a moment to breathe. You panted as you brushed your wet hair out of your face. You quickly turned around, sinking onto your knees. Sam couldn’t contain his groans as you took him in your mouth. “Oh y/n,” He mewled, his hand flying to your tangled wet hair. You took his further down your throat, bobbing your head on his cock.

You forced your jaw to go slack, allowing Sam’s girthy cock to sink lower into your throat. You gagged slightly as he hit the back of your throat, drool dripping down the sides of your mouth. “You look so pretty with my cock in your mouth,” Sam smirked. You licked the underside of his shaft, causing his hips to stutter. “Please keep going,” Sam whispered, the submissive plea leaving his lips unintentionally. If you could, you would’ve smiled.

You began deep throating him, the blondes head thrown back in pleasure. You used one hand to balance yourself against his thigh while the other massaged his balls. The shower water began to lose its warmth, cool water droplets trailing down Sam’s body and your face. You forced yourself to the base of his cock, your nose nuzzled in his blonde curls.

“Fuck, right there, i’m cumming,”

His warm seed came out quickly, spray painting your throat. You gagged, trying to swallow his cum as quickly as possible. Sam slowly pulled out of you, watching as you gulped down his cum. You stuck out your tongue at him, proudly showing him you swallowed his seed whole.

As Sam grinned down at you, a certain feeling of content washed over him.

He would be able to be with you.

Now and forever.

[myveryownfanfiction]

18+ MINORS AND THOSE WITHOUT AGE IN BIO DNI

tags: @illiana-mystery, @iobsessoverfictionalmen

warnings: swearing, Bucky gets hurt on a mission

AN: Happy 42nd birthday Sebastian Stan!

"Be safe Buck." I whispered into the phone. I heard him sigh on the other end.

"I love you." Bucky said instead. Running a hand down my face, I let out a harsh breath. This mission would be a tough one.

"I love you too." I whispered back. There was a click as he hung up and I sat there with my phone in my hands for a minute, staring at the screen. Opening the messages, I texted Sam: 'Keep him safe'. I put my phone away and rubbed my hands down my face. I went to work, trying to keep my mind from wandering to Bucky and what he was doing; if he was safe. Maria came to see me a week later. They were coming home. By the time I got back to my apartment, Bucky was already there.

"Hi doll." Bucky breathed out when he saw me. My bag hit the ground as I ran to him. He was waiting for me and picked me up as I practically tackled him. "It is so damn good to see you." Bucky sounded like he was on the verge of tears as he whispered in my ear.

"You're back." I breathed out, inhaling his scent and holding tight to him. Bucky set me down and cupped my cheeks, kissing me deeply. The way he was kissing me felt like he had wanted to do this for a lot longer than a week. My fingers dug into his hair, tugging slightly. Bucky groaned, pulling away as I pressed my body against his.

"Sorry." He mumbled. My hands moved to hover over his chest. "It was rough out there. Flagsmashers don't hold back. And every time we take out a cell, another one pops up." I nodded, eyes drifting down to where he was holding his side now.

"What happened to super soldier healing?" I asked. Bucky smiled sheepishly at me.

"Broken ribs take a little longer." He said softly. My eyes went wide.

"How did they..." I started. Bucky shook his head.

"You don't want to know." He said, other hand coming over to hold tightly to mine. "It feels more like a pulled muscle at this point. I got the clear after we got back. The ribs are healed but the rest is still catching up." I nodded slowly as my eyes went back up to his eyes. Bucky was looking at me softly, a little sadness there as he let me take in the extent of his injuries.

"How is Sam?" I asked finally. Bucky laughed and rolled his eyes. "If they were able to break your ribs what did they do to him?"

"He was in the air." Bucky scoffed. "I was on the ground. That's why I'm hurt and he's the one complaining that his damn tech has been ruined." I laughed as I hugged Bucky.

"Well that explains the reason he didn't text me back." I said. Bucky shot me a look before I kissed his cheek. "I wanted to make sure that you were being safe. Guess that went out the fucking window." Bucky rubbed my back and kissed me softly.

"I did my best." He admitted. "Can't help it if the bad guys see it differently." I giggled as he nuzzled my cheek. "I love you. So much."

"I love you too Buck." I whispered. "Now come on. You look exhausted and I could use a nap." Bucky chuckled as he picked me up.

"Whatever you say doll." He agreed as he carried me to bed.

[scripted-downfall]

Season 11 anon, with a quick second thought because I ran out of room in my last ask. Sam was very adamant about saving Len and scolds Dean for thinking that they might have to kill Len saying “we can’t kill him yet, he hasn’t done anything” as if given their history with the soulless Dean’s not on the right track. Especially as Sam hasn’t spoken to him. Dean seemed to be being realistic about, given the situation, they might have to stop Len and in their history that includes killing. Vs Sam, possibly motivated by the guilt of this being his fault, has this idealistic or impractical approach as Amara ate the soul so there is no saving or fixing in that situation. The fact that Sam is being framed as the “voice of reason” and Dean as willing to just blast away, I guess I’m not happy with that word choice but here we are, feels like a huge step backwards in terms of character growth because over that past ten seasons Dean has been becoming more empathetic to “good” monsters (his MoC days excluded) while Sam has been becoming less sympathetic perhaps in general not just towards those who aren’t human.

Hello again :)  This is, naturally, going to be a bit shorter, since this was just a follow up ask; hope that’s okay!  I get what you’re saying about the situation, and I agree.  Sam is very — as you put it — idealistic (which, imo, stems from the fact that his “goodness” comes from his morals, as we’ve defined them, and not from his values), whereas Dean is realistic verging on, tbh, cynical.  

Frankly, while I think that Sam’s we can’t kill anyone unless it’s the last possible alternative is noble, he also takes it too far.  I also agree that Sam is pretty consistently viewed as “the voice of reason” in contrast to Dean’s trigger-happy-ness (yes, that’s definitely a word, shhhh) and that’s aggravating too. Given that the brothers are perched squarely on the divide between right and wrong, the fact that he’s stating absolutes like that (we never kill anyone unless it’s the last alternative) and abiding by it in all contexts isn’t good.  He should be a bit more adaptable to the situation, because what’s right in one context might not be right in others.  (Like, for example, the statement that “killing is bad.”  It’s true, generally, but self-defense — despite having the same result of loss-of-life — is usually considered not-bad.)  The context is what changes the acceptability or not of an action, whereas Sam tends to take one point and apply it in all situations, regardless of what’s going on, and, given the nature of their fictional universe, that luxury isn’t always present.  Take the contagion in the earlier eps we discussed: yeah, it was possible — and, indeed, it happened to shake out well — that he could have found a cure.  But was it likely?  No.  Additionally, as you and I have discussed, he might well have gotten people killed in the meantime.  In that context, it turns into a trolley problem — whether to exchange one lives for many, or, perhaps more accurately, when to make that exchange — instead of a situation befitting Sam’s one-size-fits-all don’t kill unless absolutely necessary mentality (because, technically, in these situations, there’s always another alternative: letting the trolley smash through five people instead of taking out the driver). The same is true of soullessness, where they’re but in the dilemma of to take out the person (and possibly harm an innocent who was never going to go dark side) or not to take out the person (and possibly let them harm other innocents before they can be stopped).

I do agree that the showrunners/writers/et al. did make Dean a bit more… ruthless? maybe? in this episode — judging from my vague recollections of the episode, as well as the transcript online — relative to his seasons-long arc, and I’m not sure how I feel about it. On the one hand, it is a bit of a too-sharp step back; on the other, he did just come off of being in a situation (i.e. having the MOC) in which he was in a vaguely similar position to the people in question. Because he had the Mark, he’s experienced the sensation of trying to do the right thing and not necessarily being able to/being corrupted by the supernatural side of himself, so it kinda makes sense that he wouldn’t want to trust that Len would be able to resist his soullessness. Especially since he knows how Sam and the others reacted to being soulless. It’s kind of an “I couldn’t do it, Sam couldn’t do it, and all these other people couldn’t do it; it’s naive to assume that he’ll be able to do it” situation. (And all this is pointedly not helped by the fact that he’s Sam’s exact opposite. Sam is “neutral”, but trying to be “good”; Dean is “good”, but thinks he’s not. So Sam has this idealistic view of “oh, Len’s a good person, he can fight this, he’ll be fine” because he wants it to be true and Dean is looking at the situation from more of an “oh, come on, he’s a good person but he’s not gonna be able to resist it any more than you were, he doesn’t deserve to die because he hasn’t hurt anyone yet but we can’t take that chance, so, I, the resident Bad Person, shall deal with it” mindset.) Anyway, that was a long way of saying: I think Dean shouldn’t have been portrayed as ruthlessly as he was, but it also does make some sense that he’d be more ruthless than before. If that makes sense?

Thank you for the ask, and I hope that made sense :)

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Sex Crimes of Any Kind, Super Violent/Xtreme Kinks, Inflation, Feederism, Abuse, Puke, Shit, DDLG, Age Play, Raceplay, Wound Fucking, Gore, Vore, Misgendering/Detrans, CBT, Sounding, Fisting, Gunplay, Drugging, Stepcest etc...

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Genderbent Characters, Mild Yandere, Daddy/Mommy Kink, Cheating, Mild BDSM, CNC, Dubcon, Monsters, Hybrids, Sex Pollen, Legal Age Gap, Power Imbalance (Prof/Student, Boss/Employee), Feet, Armpits, Piss, Breeding, Mild Blood/Knifeplay, Cock Warming, Dry Humping, Voyeur, Public Sex, Orgy, 3somes, Sex Toys, Overstim, Edging, etc... etc... :P

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F/F, M/M, F/M, GN/F, GN/M, Poly Ships of any kind.

Now that that's out of the way, here's the list of fandoms and characters i'm familiar with and will happily take requests on! (you can request other characters from these fandoms, but it might take me longer!)

Adventure Time/Fiona & Cake: PB, Marceline, Marshall Lee, Winter King, Candy Queen, Simon, Ice King, Fiona.

Attack On Titan: Armin, Eren, Mikasa, Sasha, Levi, Hanji, Annie, Historia, Reiner, Erwin, Ymir. 

Avatar: Jake, Neytiri.

Batman Begins Triology: Batman, Catwoman, Bane, Joker, Scarecrow.

Bee & Puppycat: Bee, Deckard, Cass, Toast.

BigBang Theory: Raj, Leonard, Penny, Amy.

Black Dynamite: Honeybee, Black Dynamite.

BNA: Michiru, Shirou.

Bob’s Burgers: Bob, Linda.

Breaking Bad: Jesse, Skylar.

Call of Duty: Konig, Ghost, Mace, Keegan, Krueger, Valeria, Farah.

Creepypasta: Jeff, Jane, Ben, Toby, EJ, LJ, Slenderman, Splendorman, Clockwork, Kate, Masky, Hoodie,

Desperate Housewives: Bree, Gabi, Edie, Lynette, Carlos, John.

Dirty Dancing: Johnny, Baby.

Earth Girls Are Easy: Mac, Zeebo, Wiploc, Valerie.

Elemental: Wade, Ember.

Encanto: Isabela, Bruno, Dolores, Julieta.

FNAF Movie: Vanessa, Mike, William/Steve.

Frozen: Elsa, Anna, Kristoff.

Futurama: Leela, Fry, Amy, Bender.

Gravity Falls: Ford, Stan, Soos, Melody, Giffany, Bill.

Jane The Virgin: Jane, Michael, Petra, Luisa, Rose, Rogelio, Xiomara.

Jurassic Park (1993): Ian Malcolm, Ellie Sattler.

Jujutsu Kaisen: Gojo, Choso, Nanami, Sukuna.

King of the Hill: Hank, Peggy, Luane, Nancy, Dale, Khan, Min, John Redcorn.

Lisa Frankenstein: Lisa, Creature, Taffy.

Little Mermaid (2022): Ariel, Eric.

MHA: Dabi, Hawks, Aizawa.

Moon Knight: Moon System, Layla, Khonshu.

Mulan: Mulan, Li Shang.

National Treasure: Benjamin, Riley.

Nintendo: Link, Zelda, Peach, Daisy, Rosalina, Luigi, Bowser, Waluigi.

Norbit: Rasputia, Norbit.

Princess & The Frog: Tiana, Lottie, Naveen, Shadow Man.

Ratatouille: Colette, Linguini. 

Regular Show: Mordecai, Margret, Eileen, CJ, Benson.

Resident Evil: Karl Heisenberg, Carlos Oiliveria, Lady Dimitrescu.

Rick and Morty: Rick, Jerry, Beth, Doofus Rick.

Riverdale: FP Jones, Hiram.

Scott Pilgrim vs. The World: Kim, Ramona, Gideon, Wallace.

Scream 5: Amber, Tara, Sam.

Serial Mom: Chip, Beverly.

Silverado: Slick, Rae, Mal, Paden.

Shallow Hal: Rosemary, Hal.

Shameless: Lip, Fiona, Kev, V.

SheRa (2018): All Adults.

Sherlock (2010): Sherlock, John Watson.

Slashers & DBD: Brahms, Ghostface, Michael Myers, Jason Vorhees, Pyramid Head, The Spirit, Huntress, Trapper, Wraith, Trickster, Pearl, Jennifer Check, Stu Matcher, Billy Loomis, Tiffany Valentine, Patrick Bateman, Thomas Hewitt, Vincent Sinclair, Eric Draven, The Artist, Amanda Young.

Spiderverse: Miguel, Jessica Drew.

Spongebob: Dennis, Man Ray.

Squid Games: Gi-Hun, Sae-Byeok, Ali, Sang Woo.

Steven Universe: Garnet, Amethyst, Peridot, Lapis, Jasper, Blue Diamond, Rose, Greg.

Stardew Valley: All Adult Humans (Except George & Evelyn)

Stranger Things: Robin, Billy Eddie, Chrissy, Hopper.

Supernatural: Sam, Dean, Castiel.

Super Store: Amy, Jonah, Dina, Garrett, Cheyenne.

Tangled: Flynn, Rapunzel, Mother Gothell.

The Batman (2022): Batman, Riddler.

The Breakfast Club: John Bender, Allison Reynolds.

The Nanny: C.C, Fran, Maxwell.

Total Drama Island: S1 Contestants, Chris, Chef, Blainley.

Triple Frontier: Frankie, Santiago.

Turning Red: Ming Lee, Jin Lee.

Twilight: Edward, Carlisle, Alice, Charlie.

YOU: Beck, Joe, Peach, Love.

Young Sheldon: Mary, Connie.

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Abel Morales (A Most Violent Year)

Astarion (Baulder’s Gate 3)

Babbo Natale (Violent Night)

Barbie (Barbie 2023)

Basil Stitt (Lightning Face)

Beverly Goldberg (The Goldbergs)

Bruce (Beyond Therapy)

Charles Ingalls (Little House on the Praire)

Charlie Dompler (Smiling Friends)

Chel (Road to El Dorado)

Dale Kobble (Longlegs)

Dan Conner (Rosanne)

David Levinson (Independence Day)

Din Djarin (The Mandalorian)

Doug Remer (Baseketball)

Duke Leto Atreides (Dune)

Fezzik (Princess Bride)

Francine (American Dad)

Fujimoto (Ponyo)

Georgia Miller (Ginny & Georgia)

Jack Harrison (Translyvania 6-5000)

Jackson Rippner (Red Eye)

Jon Arbuckle (Garfield 2024)

John Doe (John Doe Game)

Jonathan Levy (Scenes from a Marriage)

John Wick (John Wick 4)

King Baldwin (Kingdom of Heaven)

Kitten (Breakfast on Pluto)

Laurent LeClaire (In Secret)

Linda Gunderson (Rio)

Llewyn Davis (Inside Lleywn Davis)

Master Chief (Halo)

Mike (5lbs of Pressure)

Moe Doodle (Doodle Bops)

Nani Palekai (Lilo & Stitch)

Nathan Bateman (Ex Machina)

Outcome-3 (The Bourne Legacy)

Orestes (Agora)

Paul Blart (Paul Blart: Mall Cop)

Paul Cable (Last Stand at Saber River)

Peggy Bundy (Married With Children)

Peter Mitchell (3 Men & A Baby)

Poe Dameron (Star Wars)

Prince John (Robin Hood 2010)

Robert ‘Bob’ Floyd (Top Gun: Maverick)

Rose Tyler (Doctor Who)

Shiv (Pu-239)

Stanley Ipkiss (The Mask)

Star-Lord (Gaurdians of the Galaxy)

Tate Langdon (AHS: Murder House)

The Janitor (Willy’s Wonderland)

Thomas Magnum (Magnum, P.I 1980)

William Tell (The Card Counter)

[dawkacynizmu]

czwartek 19.09

۶ৎ podsumowanie dnia

zjedzone — 1300 kcal

hej

tragicznie czułam się wczoraj po napadzie, nie mogłam zasnąć z bólu brzucha więc późno się położyłam. jeszcze przed tym jako alternatywne dla powracających myśli o sh rysowałam jakieś pierdoły słuchając video essayy o hannie montanie (xd) i jak kilka dni temu wyszła mi znośna karykatura daisy z girl interrupted to wczoraj żaden rysunek mi nie wychodził. może się zastanawiacie skąd to nagle zamiłowanie do rysowania skoro dotychczas wojowałam głównie słowem (dlatego niegdyś starvinpoet się nazywał mój blog) otwarcie mówiąc o swoim braku zdolności manualnych. cóż, przyjechała do mnie kuzynka, malowaliśmy węglem i jakoś mi się spodobało XD sam ten proces, też wymaga skupienia, jakiegoś wyciszenia. picasso nie jestem rysuję jakieś króliczki kotki spooky rzeczy typu duszki bo klimatycznie. rzeczy na poziomie marginesu w zeszycie na nudnej lekcji.

obudziłam się czując się tragicznie, wypiłam siemię i kawę poszłam do szkoły, a przed lekcjami ze znajomym z klasy poszliśmy kupić wodę na zbiórkę dla powodzian. w mojej szkole jest przymusowa xD każdy uczeń miał przynieść 5l wody ewentualnie można było to ogarnąć klasowo, każda klasa się złoży i kupi. wybraliśmy się jednak oboje do biedronki (mieliśmy nadzieję kupić 2 baniaki 5 litrowe ale nie było) a potem Lidla. btw podrożała cholernie xD cena gazowej jest mniejsza. w każdym razie kupiliśmy, weszliśmy z tym do szkoły lekko spóźnieni pytamy woźnego gdzie z tym. "do waszej klasy" "nie mamy klasy" "aa 3B??" rozbawiło mnie jak od razu wiedział o którą chodzi xD zgadza się, jesteśmy jedyną klasa w szkole która nie ma swojej sali ponieważ nasza wychowawczyni jest wfistka i nam nie przydzielili. lekcje wychowawczce mamy na sali gimnastycznej. WRACAJĄC powiedział żebyśmy zanieśli do gabinetu pedagog, pedagog powiedziała że do szatni i tak lataliśmy z dwoma zgrzewkami wody. potem okazało się że moja klasa rzeczywiście robiła zbiórkę kasy o której nie zostaliśmy poinformowani (cierpienia młodych outsiderów) i jako jedyni pofatygowaliśmy się osobiście z wodą.

miałam mieć 8 lekcji ale uciekłam z i ostatnich 3 przez złe samopoczucie, ból brzucha i lekko niestabilny stan psychiczny. w oczekiwaniu na autobus poszłam do biblioteki poczytać lalkę, zaszłam mamie do apteki i sobie po tusz do rzęs brązowy, jutro wypróbuje ale wydaje mi się że będzie mi pasował do jasnych oczu. w szkole niczego nie jadłam, w domu znowu pierogi xD na tym miało się skończyć się skusiłam się jeszcze na owoce, potem...loda i na kolację bułkę bo mam jakąś fazę na kanapki. wcześniej ciągle owsianka, serek wiejski na słodko i zrobiłam się spragniona pomidora. miałam się głodzić ale jakbym to zrobiła to bym się jutro obżarła xD czas ogarnąć dupsko. jesień miała być chuda czy coś.

mini notka do 1 zdjęcia moja biblioteka na takie drewniane pięterko z balustradą gdzie są pufy i można sobie posiedzieć JA SIE TAK CHOLERNIE TEGO BOJĘ ciągle mam w głowie że jak wejdzie kolejna osoba to będzie przeciążenie i jebniemy

@anjinho-sem-pes0 nazwała trafnie jedną z moich przyczyn napadów, jem bo nie chcę mi się niczego robić. jak widzę ile rzeczy mam na głowie zaczynam czuć napięcie, obżeram się, a skutki objadania się (bóle brzucha, nudności itp) dają mi pewną wymówkę do odpuszczenia. ważne jest też to, co robię po napadzie, fast w większości przypadków przynosi kolejny napad dlatego pomimo że dzisiaj nie jestem zadowolona z liczby zjedzonych kcal to jutro normalnie wezmę sobie jedzenie do szkoły mimo że kończę wcześniej. (mój Edward twierdzi że jak jestem w domu o 15 to nie opłaca się jeść w szkole Edward nie mów mi co mam robić). wypiję też siemię lniane, zrobię owsiankę na kolację bo się stęskniłam i w weekend postaram się znaleźć jakiś balans między obowiązkami a odpoczynkiem żeby nie wzięło mnie znowu na obżeranie się. może być ciężko bo mam od chuja nauki na następny tydzień xD zaplanuję to sobie jakoś jutro dokładniej, jakie tematy przerobić którego dnia, lubię mieć rozpiskę i wiedzieć co mam robić zamiast błądzić jak ślepiec.

motywacją do powrotu na dobre tory bez napadów są też jelita. jest źle z nimi ngl.

w ogóle ludzie jacyś mili dziś dla mnie byli

[lolahaurisfw]

✎ Introduction ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

Here i'll only be taking requests for fluff, platonic, and angst! Reqs are always open like usual too, and you can request as much as you want and as detailed as you want! i just get to things when i can/want to.

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What I Won't Write:

Smut. (Go to my other blog)

What I'm Willing To Write:

Reader Who Is: Tall, Short, Fat, Chubby, Curvy, Buff. Trans/NB.

Reader Who Has: Depression, Anxiety, DPDR, ADD.

Fluff, angst, platonic, hurt/comfort.

HC's, one shots, short multi-chapter fics, imagines/drabbles.

Canon-friendly, AU's, Canon Divergence, Out of Character.

Ch x Ch / Ch x Reader / Ch x OC / Poly Ships of any kind.

F/F, M/M, F/M, GN/F, GN/M, Poly Ships of any kind.

Fictional Other (F/O) Imagines: +18, no names, they/them only.

Now that that's out of the way, here's the list of fandoms and characters i'm familiar with and will happily take requests on! (you can request others from these fandoms, but it will prob take me longer)

Adventure Time/Fiona & Cake: PB, Marceline, Marshall Lee, Winter King, Candy Queen, Simon, Ice King, Fiona.

Attack On Titan: Armin, Eren, Mikasa, Sasha, Levi, Hanji, Annie, Historia, Reiner, Erwin, Ymir. 

Avatar: Jake, Neytiri.

Batman Begins Triology: Batman, Catwoman, Bane, Joker, Scarecrow.

Bee & Puppycat: Bee, Deckard, Cass, Toast.

BigBang Theory: Raj, Leonard, Penny, Amy.

Bistro Huddy: All Staff Members.

Black Dynamite: Honeybee, Black Dynamite.

BNA: Michiru, Shirou.

Bob’s Burgers: Bob, Linda.

Breaking Bad: Jesse, Skylar.

Call of Duty: Konig, Ghost, Mace, Keegan, Krueger, Valeria, Farah.

Creepypasta: Jeff, Jane, Ben, Toby, EJ, LJ, Slenderman, Splendorman, Clockwork, Kate, Masky, Hoodie,

Desperate Housewives: Bree, Gabi, Edie, Lynette, Carlos, John.

Dirty Dancing: Johnny, Baby.

Earth Girls Are Easy: Mac, Zeebo, Wiploc, Valerie.

Elemental: Wade, Ember.

Encanto: Isabela, Bruno, Dolores, Julieta.

FNAF Movie: Vanessa, Mike, William/Steve.

Frozen: Elsa, Anna, Kristoff.

Futurama: Leela, Fry, Amy, Bender.

Gravity Falls: Ford, Stan, Soos, Melody, Giffany, Bill.

Jane The Virgin: Jane, Michael, Petra, Luisa, Rose, Rogelio, Xiomara.

Jurassic Park (1993): Ian Malcolm, Ellie Sattler.

Jujutsu Kaisen: Gojo, Choso, Nanami, Sukuna.

King of the Hill: Hank, Peggy, Luane, Nancy, Dale, Khan, Min, John Redcorn.

Life Is Strange (2015): Maxine, Chloe.

Lisa Frankenstein: Lisa, Creature, Taffy.

Little Mermaid (2022): Ariel, Eric.

MHA: Dabi, Hawks, Aizawa.

Moon Knight: Moon System, Layla, Khonshu.

Mulan: Mulan, Li Shang.

National Treasure: Benjamin, Riley.

Nintendo: Link, Zelda, Peach, Daisy, Rosalina, Luigi, Bowser, Waluigi.

Norbit: Rasputia, Norbit.

Princess & The Frog: Tiana, Lottie, Naveen, Shadow Man.

Ratatouille: Colette, Linguini. 

Regular Show: Mordecai, Margret, Eileen, CJ, Benson.

Resident Evil: Karl Heisenberg, Carlos Oiliveria, Lady Dimitrescu.

Rick and Morty: Rick, Jerry, Beth, Doofus Rick.

Riverdale: FP Jones, Hiram.

Scott Pilgrim vs. The World: Kim, Ramona, Gideon, Wallace.

Scream 5: Amber, Tara, Sam.

Serial Mom: Chip, Beverly.

Silverado: Slick, Rae, Mal, Paden.

Shallow Hal: Rosemary, Hal.

Shameless: Lip, Fiona, Kev, V.

SheRa (2018): All Adults.

Sherlock (2010): Sherlock, John Watson.

Slashers & DBD: Brahms, Ghostface, Michael Myers, Jason Vorhees, Pyramid Head, The Spirit, Huntress, Trapper, Wraith, Trickster, Pearl, Jennifer Check, Stu Matcher, Billy Loomis, Tiffany Valentine, Patrick Batmeman, Thomas Hewitt, Vincent Sinclair, Eric Draven, The Artist, Amanda Young.

Spiderverse: Miguel, Jessica Drew.

Spongebob: Dennis, Man Ray.

Squid Games: Gi-Hun, Sae-Byeok, Ali, Sang Woo.

Stardew Valley: All Adult Humans (Except George & Evelyn)

Steven Universe: Garnet, Amethyst, Peridot, Lapis, Jasper, Blue Diamond, Rose, Greg.

Stranger Things: Robin, Billy Eddie, Chrissy, Hopper.

Supernatural: Sam, Dean, Castiel.

Super Store: Amy, Jonah, Dina, Garrett, Cheyenne.

Tangled: Flynn, Rapunzel, Mother Gothell.

The Batman (2022): Batman, Riddler.

The Breakfast Club: John Bender, Allison Reynolds.

The Nanny: C.C, Fran, Maxwell.

Total Drama Island: S1 Contestants, Chris, Chef, Blainley.

Triple Frontier: Frankie, Santiago.

Turning Red: Ming Lee, Jin Lee.

Twilight: Edward, Carlisle, Alice, Charlie.

YOU: Beck, Joe, Peach, Love.

Young Sheldon: Mary, Connie.

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Abel Morales (A Most Violent Year)

Astarion (Baulder’s Gate 3)

Babbo Natale (Violent Night)

Barbie (Barbie 2023)

Basil Stitt (Lightning Face)

Beverly Goldberg (The Goldbergs)

Bruce (Beyond Therapy)

Charles Ingalls (Little House on the Praire)

Charlie Dompler (Smiling Friends)

Chel (Road to El Dorado)

Dale Kobble (Longlegs)

Dan Conner (Rosanne)

David Levinson (Independence Day)

Din Djarin (The Mandalorian)

Doug Remer (Baseketball)

Duke Leto Atreides (Dune)

Fezzik (Princess Bride)

Francine (American Dad)

Fujimoto (Ponyo)

Georgia Miller (Ginny & Georgia)

Jack Harrison (Translyvania 6-5000)

Jackson Rippner (Red Eye)

Jon Arbuckle (Garfield 2024)

John Doe (John Doe Game)

Jonathan Levy (Scenes from a Marriage)

John Wick (John Wick 4)

King Baldwin (Kingdom of Heaven)

Kitten (Breakfast on Pluto)

Laurent LeClaire (In Secret)

Linda Gunderson (Rio)

Llewyn Davis (Inside Lleywn Davis)

Master Chief (Halo)

Mike (5lbs of Pressure)

Moe Doodle (Doodle Bops)

Nani Palekai (Lilo & Stitch)

Nathan Bateman (Ex Machina)

Outcome-3 (The Bourne Legacy)

Orestes (Agora)

Paul Blart (Paul Blart: Mall Cop)

Paul Cable (Last Stand at Saber River)

Peggy Bundy (Married With Children)

Peter Mitchell (3 Men & A Baby)

Poe Dameron (Star Wars)

Prince John (Robin Hood 2010)

Robert ‘Bob’ Floyd (Top Gun: Maverick)

Rose Tyler (Doctor Who)

Shiv (Pu-239)

Stanley Ipkiss (The Mask)

Star-Lord (Gaurdians of the Galaxy)

Tate Langdon (AHS: Murder House)

The Janitor (Willy’s Wonderland)

Thomas Magnum (Magnum, P.I 1980)

William Tell (The Card Counter)

[cosmicstarlatte]

Stripper songs (Obey Me!)

minors/ageless/blank blogs dni or get blocked :c

HC: songs I imagine your fave demon dancing to at a club that he somehow secretly ended up working at.

This was a self indulgent shitpost I guess lol. I also have a [stripper mc and their reaction] somewhere in my notes.

P.s. do you know how hard it was to not list just Lady Gaga songs

anyway, song names = youtube, artists = spotify instead. In case anyone bored was curious to check some out.

Lucifer: Secrets - P!nk

I imagine him absolutely killing it with this song. Its mesmerizing. Patrons can't take their eyes off this sexy mysterious dancer. They came for fun and left wanting to know more about him. If you see him, you'll spend all you got. No regrets.

Mammon: Mood Swings - Pop Smoke, Lil Tjay

...this song is so dirty and I love it. I always hc he has this song on his playlist whenever I listen to this song. Like, you can't take this away from me. Anyway he's a crowd favorite especially when he dances to this. I also loved the beginning of Glamorous by Fergie bc its definitely something he would choose to play.

Levi: With Love - Hilary Duff

He's cute and sexy on stage. I know he's shaking his ass and hips in such a cute way, he's moving just right. The crowd goes while for this cutie, his interactions are to die for. He treats his regulars well.😭

Alternatively I love the idea of him completely switching to a stage persona and throwing it back and twerking to Bad Ass Bitches by Wiz Khalifa. 😭

Satan: Rude Boy - Rihanna

I thought this one was fun. It's got a lot of energy and I'd die if I saw him dance to this in some sexy kitty costume.

Asmo: Telephone - Lady Gaga

This is the one. This one is perfect. This one just screams Asmo to me. I 100% know he strips to this song.

Beel: Lollipop - Lil Wayne

What a fucking classic, throwback frrrrrr.

God this big cutie knows how to rile the crowd. He knows what he's got. I wanna see him strip so bad. If I could animate this- nvm. You guys wouldn't see me ever again. alakskalslfkgsl

Belphie: The Hills - The Weeknd

He takes his time and you still think it's way too short. The way he winks and he slowly grinds his hips near your face...

I'm not even a belphie stan y'all but this hc makes him a little more tolerable now. You saw it here first guys, my possible belphie redemption arc. AHAHAHA.

Diavolo: Paparazzi - Lady Gaga

He's working that pole. * Working it.* He is bringing that energy. He's making the crowd fall in love with him. He's coming off cute and sexy.

Barbatos: Casual Affair - Panic! At The Disco

I'M FUCKING SCREAAAAAAAMING.💥💥💥

THIS. THIS IS THE SONG BARB WOULD DANCE TO.

Oh your eyes are completely glued to him. Oh he's taking his tie off. He wraps it around you. You cannot look away. He knows it.

You end the night penniless.

For shits and giggles, Simeon: Unholy - Sam Smith 😌