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MON & SAM ⋮ EPISODE 2. gap the series (2022), dir. nuttapong wongkaveepairoj
#asiandramanet#asianlgbtqdramas#asianlgbtqdrama#gap the series#gap#freenbecky#monsam#freen sarocha#becky armstrong#mygifs#finally had some time to watch this and dear god am i going insane over them........ sam being insufferable i love to see it tbh#also not me being so touch starved that i almost start sobbing each time their hands brush hahaha anyways :)
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crying on my flight to arizona like i wont be a wreck tomorrow going back to the real world
#sam rambles#how did i survive these two weeks#like i miss my bed and bf!!!#this trip taught me i cant handle not being cuddled#like ive had it so good for 6 years#i was touch starved like crazy#and i love my people a lot#i just wish i was less......... me#i was a lot this week#i dont wanna dive too deep cause i am putting it off on purpose
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Being two golden retrievers in love (Dean Winchester headcanons)
Note: I hate the whole black cat golden retriever theory and the whole "YOU NEED TO BE A BLACK CAT IN ORDER TO KEEP A MAN" like bitch I'm a romantic and a proud golden retriever you will never take that away from me. Anyways, enjoy this!
You kissing his nose whenever you can because you loved his nose and thought it was the most perfect nose in history of noses
"What is your obsession with my nose?"
"It's a work of art."
Dean always playing with your hand/kissing it whenever you ride shotgun
You two having movie nights
"TIME TO SLICE AND DICE!"
"DEAN, WE WATCHED ALL SAINTS' DAY TWO WEEKS AGO IT'S MY TURN NOW!"
Always arguing over what to watch next
"I want Batman!"
"Ugh fine!"
Junk food galore during movie nights
Always quoting someone
Always
Sam just rolling his eyes
"(Y/N), I am your father!"
"Well you are... sometimes."
"Oh..."
Sam just standing there feeling uncomfortable
Dean wasn't a reader but you got him hooked on smutty fantasy books
"What is it about?"
"Fae and fucking!
"Give it to me!"
Since you were both touch starved you couldn't get enough of each other
"Stop touching my ass! We're in public!"
"(Y/N), your ass is like a peach and I love peaches!"
You both loved cuddling and now you couldn't fall asleep without each other
Forehead kisses and nose kisses
Both having the same lame dad humour and always making lame jokes making Sam cringe
"Why did the rabbit skip school,Sammy?"
"Why, Dean?"
"It was having a bad hare day!"
"THAT IS GOOD!"
"I'm out!"
You loved buying Dean gifts whenever you see something you knew he would love. Dean was also the same with you. He would buy you junk food when you were on your period, "those books that make you wanna fuck my brains out" or something that would remind him of you
One time he got you a keychain with a small peach because: "Your ass is like a peach and I love peaches."
You would get him comic books, band shirts, food....
Cooking for each other
"I made pancakes for breakfast!"
"Will you marry me?"
Jamming on roundtrips in Baby
Dean letting you drive his beloved car and not panicking
Karaoke nights in the bunker
"Guys, you're making my ears bleed!"
Sam hating every minute of it
Sex sometimes being chaotic and clumsy
Especially when you're drunk
"Dean, you're not moving!"
"Wait, I think I see double!"
And sometimes being so passionate and intense making you cry
And Dean freaking out
"Are you okay? Did I hurt you?"
"No I just love you so much."
He loved calling you his girl, sweetheart, babe, nerd
"Every time you call me sweetheart I wanna lick and bite every inch of you."
"Are you ovulating?"
"Yeah, probably."
"Horny jail!"
Always making each other laugh with stupid jokes
Rarely fighting
Well you fought sometimes on hunts
And afterwards you would fuck like rabbits
Having random burst of energy
"Dean I wanna do something stupid!"
"Like what?"
"I don't know but I feel like I'm on crack!"
"Calm down Skippy!"
"Can I suck your dick?"
"That's not doing something stupid that's doing God's work!"
"Shut up and take off your pants before I decide to go out and HIKE!"
"Not the hiking!"
#supernatural fic#supernatural fanfiction#supernatural dean#supernatural#dean Winchester#dean Winchester headcanons#dean Winchester x reader#dean winchester x you#dean winchester x y/n#dean Winchester fluff#dean Winchester smut#dean x reader fluff#dean x reader smut#dean x y/n#dean x you#dean x reader#supernatural headcanon
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I'm going to get a lot more personal on here than I usually do:
Baulder's Gate 3, and especially Karlach, make me feel seen in a way no price of media I've ever engaged with before has. It's a big reason why I love it and why it's sticking with me like it is. I too am a big, loud, enthusiastic woman who says out of pocket shit. I have a heavy internal dialogue with myself. I have a temper, I'm bisexual, I love cute shit. I endured years of being utterly touch starved. I love sex and food and being alive...
I also have cancer; it's Follicular B-Cell Lymphoma. I was diagnosed in 2020 when it had reached stage 3A. It's currently under control after chemo* and I'm living my life normally. But while it's a very treatable kind of cancer, it's not fully curable**. There's nothing in me they can remove (it's my whole lymphatic system that's broken) and no drug currently that can wholly knock it out. It's cause is not known (genetically or environmentally), and its unusual for this type of cancer to affect someone as young as I am (I was diagnosed at 35 - it's much more common 65+***). So every three months I go into oncology and they check my blood and symptoms and see if I'm doing ok. I get imaging and biopsies occasionally too. This will go on until I'm not ok (hopefully a long time yet). I'll have to have still manageable but more invasive treatment the next time around. It's a well researched kind of cancer, and my oncologist hopes that in the next decade there may be some more permanent cure for it.
So you can see where I'm going with this. When you hit Karlach's monologue after killing Gortash, I've never felt better understood. I have no one to blame for my condition, no revenge arc of course, but the very same fear, frustration, grief, and anger are all things my husband has heard from me. I've never seen a more beautiful and moving and real exploration of the topic that resonates with me so meaningfully out of a piece of fiction that I love. Béart's performance is amazing - capturing a whole spectrum of emotion.
Karlach's story is absolutely not incomplete as written, confirmed by both the devs and Sam Béart - a terminal condition is just that. You don't get to fix or save her, you get to go with her through tremendous trial and difficulty. If you want to continue that story in your mind that's great (I know I'm eager to do so, for my own personal encouragement if nothing else) but on it's own it's a whole story about coming to terms with something that doesn't have a quick and easy little fetch-quest resolution.
So - every time I see another whinging post/essay/bitchfest about how her story feels "unfinished" or "incomplete" or "has too much cut content" you can see why I might take it a bit personally - knowing that the life I have, the easy solutions I don't get, and the frustration and grief I live with is seen as incorrect and wrong and bad writing makes me a little pissed off. If you think the story is incomplete as told and think a 'third engine upgrade' is missing you completely missed the point.
Karlach doesn't get a simple easy ending because people like me**** don't get that either. And like my husband and the others who love me you can choose to follow that story anyway. And that's fucking beautiful.
*Yeah dealing with cancer and undergoing chemo during a pandemic was really a peach.
**XKCD hits the nail on the head here and here.
***Current treatments have good decade long prognoses... but saying 'you'll probably be fine for the next 10 years' is a lot different at 35 than it is at 65.
****And believe me I've heard from a lot of chronic/terminally ill folks who love the game for the way it represents these things and feel the same, with her Gale, and Shadowheart too.
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— sam cumming in his pants while you’re just next to him in the bed you had to share in the motel, not to mention while you were asleep..
Content Warning masturbation (m), sam being a pervert (not on purpose), wet dream, based on 3.10, desperate!sam, fem!reader doesn’t wake up (heavy sleeper..), sam trying not to get caught, this is downright filth.
Summary Sam notices how your gown is sliding off your shoulder slightly after he wakes up from a wet dream and he can’t help but look at your bare breasts beneath the silk gown (he basically gets off to you while you’re asleep).
16+ I am not responsible for the content you consume under this age. That is your doing.
Sam laid on his bed, waiting for Dean to arrive back to the motel. When he heard a knock on the door, he got up and walked over to the door. Twisting the doorknob and opening it only to reveal you. The girl he’s been crushing on ever since Dean introduced you to him.
He took in your appearance, a tan trenchcoat covering your arms and your clothing underneath. He gulped, and he looked down at you.
“Uh.. What are you doing here? Sorry- I was expecting Dean.” He said awkwardly, a sheepish smile creeping onto his lips. You let out a small laugh.
“I wanted to see you, Sam.” You pushed your way past him, entering the motel. He watched in disbelief as you practically walked by him.
“Is there- uh, a reason why?” He asked, he was clearly confused by your sudden appearance. Instead of answering verbally, you dropped the coat off your shoulders, making eye contact with him as he took in your.. attire.
You wore a lace, black, and short gown. His eyes widened, he was definitely not expecting this. He could already feel his jeans tighten. You stepped closer to him.
“I just.. I want you so bad, Sam..” You said, he subconsciously leaned forward. Your lips nearly touching. He couldn’t believe this was reality.
When he stayed silent, you kissed him. Your soft, gentle lips pressing against his own. Next thing he knew, he was laying you down on the bed, making his way down your body.
His fingers found your lace panties, a matching set. He moaned, pulling them down before he attacked your exposed cunt, you tasted even better than he imagined..
You moaned out in pleasure, his name spewing from your lips as he devoured your pussy like a starved man.
“Sam— Sam.. Sam!” You moaned, your head tossed back against his pillow. Your breaths heavy-
He woke up with a gasp. Looking over to see you on the other side of the motel bed.
Fuck, he really was whipped for you.
You were asleep, your breaths even and your nightgown, that was not to mention, lace, slipping off your shoulder while you were unconscious. Your bare chest exposed ever so slightly, and he realized the problem he had in his jeans.
Damn it.
This was so wrong- but he really couldn’t help it. His cock throbbed for some sort of relief. He palmed himself, already feeling the wet spot right against the center of his covered crotch.
He bit his lip, hesitating, was he really about to do this?
He pushed the warnings in the back of his head, carefully unzipping his denim and sliding his hand beneath the thin layer of his boxers. He bit back a whine.
He could feel how turned on he was. How much he needed you.
He started with slow strokes, doing his best to hold back his sounds of his pleasure. He heard your breath hitch, and his heart beat fast in an instant.
When he looked over at you, you were still soundly asleep. He let out a sigh.
He began to feel himself edging closer, the lewd sounds of his hand against his dripping cock filling the otherwise silent room.
He was biting his lip so hard until he felt the metallic taste on his tongue.
He was so damn close, and he looked back at you again, your lips parted slightly.
He wanted to feel those lips on his dick. He wanted to feel your moans and the sounds of your gagging around his cock.
The more he imagined it, the more he went faster against his length, a small whine escaped him.
He prayed you didn’t hear that. He was imaging you in such inappropriate situations, imagining your legs spread as he pushed his cock between your fo-
Fuck, he couldn’t help the groan that escaped him as he coated his hand and the inside of his boxers with his sticky release.
he’d have to take a cold shower in the morning, but he was too spent to get up right now despite the mess in his boxers.
He always did wake up before you.
#sam winchester smut#supernatural#fem!reader#sam winchester#jared padalecki#sam winchester x female reader
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One day I'll get a request and keep it short, but uh, not today because this could've easily been a series. Under 4k is good for me though, so that's a win.This is my first time consciously shooting for a G/N reader in a long time so, bare with me.
Floodgates Usual Winter Solider context warnings but this is pretty tame tbh Bucky Barnes x G/N Reader Imagine 3830 words Fluff, mild angst. 18+ MDNI Requests open for a while via messages check masterpost for updated availability.
Everybody knows that Bucky is touch-starved. It's the unspoken truth that's used by everyone to excuse his irritable demeanour. It's the reason why nobody minds leaving the common rooms empty when he passes out on the couch in the middle of the day and Steve doesn't let Sam jab at him too much for how sweet he is on you.
The hope that had flourished when you'd made your relationship a little more public was quickly dying out though. When all the inhabitants noticed that Barnes was still a grouch. If anything, he was more jumpy when people got too close.
It was Bruce who suggested that the reason might be that the only person who didn't understand this blatant link between being kept isolated for the better part of a century and not tolerating mundane forms of contact might be Bucky.
After a lot of hushed discussion, Natasha was the one who decided to address it. Not being able to stand the undercurrent of gossip, but also not wanting to provoke any kind of intense reaction, she bided her time and cornered you.
"Does Barnes know he needs some skin on skin, or is he still takin' the long way round figuring it out?"
Coffee catches in your throat. You're in a Starbucks, you've just run a stupid 5k route that you hadn't wanted to and she's asking you this, now?
"Of course, he knows" You reply after a beat, "I mean, we all know, but he really knows."
She looks unsurprised, offers you a brown sugar packet and sits back on her stool.
"You know, couples-"
"Are you about to give me a sex talk?" you cut her off, humour making your lip quirk, "Please do not give me a sex talk"
"I wasn't talking about sex, we all know you're havin' plenty of that-"
You scoff at her, not bothering to ask how or why that's a topic of discussion at all.
"-I know exactly what you're talking about..." you decide to say, tone a little more serious now, "...It's delicate, Nat"
"That's why I'm talking to you" she replies, "I want to stop hearin' about it, and the only way I can get Rodgers to stop talkin' is to stop him from worryin' and the only way to do that is give him something."
You consider her words for a moment before nodding.
"He knows, I know- We all know, but it's difficult for him and I am not going to rush him into anything" You tell her, "but that doesn't mean I'm not keepin' an eye, and for what it's worth, he's gettin' better with the whole thing."
"His attitude didn't seem better this mornin'-" she counters from behind her paper cup, "He nearly Wilson put through a wall-"
"-for trying to get him to go to a couples therapist with Steve." You remind her smugly, "He told me all about it."
It's her turn to scoff then.
"Any other personal things you want to ask me?" you press, half a challenge. She grins before making her expression intensely serious-
"So, about the sex-"
You don't linger in the cafe for long, and you definitely don't run back. You call a cab, much to Romanoff's dismay. The break from the serious atmosphere of the tower has done wonders for her mood though, and by the time you make it home your arms are ladened with bags. Fast food for everyone and clothes and some new kind of tablet thing that Tony had insisted he can turn into a portable holo-deck.
Bucky is waiting in your suite.
The second you see him the conversation you'd had about his attitude seems ridiculous.
He beams up at you so wide that he gets creases by his eyes, and all he can do is chatter about everything that's happened since you left.
Steve annoyed him by out-lapping him on their run.
Wilson annoyed him, by well, breathing apparently.
He's finally figured out how to fix the dishwasher, so he doesn't have to call maintenance anymore, and he's finished packing his bag for the mission he's leaving on in the morning, and, he tells you proudly- he's made dinner.
It's some kind of soup, at least, you think it's meant to be a soup. But, whatever it is, it's good. And he's still smiling as you wash the dishes, bumping his hip against yours when you make a snarky comment about him still not using the dishwasher he's so proud of fixing.
And then he gets quiet.
You're sitting together on the couch, the same way you have been for hours, with your legs barely touching but with his warm, flesh fingers wound tightly through yours. You think about asking why he's suddenly turned mute, but then you notice the time.
"When do you leave?" You ask, stroking the back of his palm with your thumb.
"Four" he mumbles unhappily, giving your palm the lightest squeeze, "You're stayin' here, right doll? You're gonna wait for me?"
You laugh silently, pulling your legs up beside you to curl into his side.
"Don't I always?" you tease, grinning as he reaches over with his metal hand, guiding your lips to his.
"I'll be back before ten" He promises, "Steve promises"
"Oh, does he?" you murmur, lips still ghosting his, "You know he's driving Natasha crazy"
He quirks a brow, even so, close to his face you can see curiosity shining behind his eyes.
"Aparently you're a jerk because I don't give you enough skin on skin"
He rolls his eyes, laughing as your fingers find his cheek.
The second you actually touch him, though- the laughter dies. He has to focus all of his energy on not moaning at the contact.
You feel him tense and lessen the pressure, letting him move instead, pressing another kiss against your lips as he goes back to looking at you, this time, though, there's nothing but adoration behind the blue.
"you do plenty" he whispers, before moving quickly, standing and pulling you up with him, carrying you effortlessly, "I'm fine."
"I know" You hear yourself agree, although you think he'll hear the doubt in your tone, "But- if you do ever want something, you know I'm here, right?"
What Bucky wants he thinks, is totally irrelevant.
He wants to lay in your lap for hours, he wants to fall asleep and stay that way for hours because your fingers are in his hair. He wants to cry and not have to hide in a shower to do it. But you deserve better.
You deserve normal.
As normal as he can give you anyway.
Not that that's much, but he can't control that he reminds himself sternly, what he can control, however, is this.
He can keep the floodgates closed. He can do what he does best and keep it down.
He can make do with fleeting points of contact. With your hand in his, and your body in the same bed. The warmth of you is more than enough. You being there, smiling safe and lovely is more than enough.
And when he places you on the soft mattress and watches you start to tangle yourself with the covers, he's once again certain that that is all he needs.
What would I say, anyway? he thinks sadly, taking his place on the side of the bed that always seems too cold, How could I even bring that up without openin' a whole can of worms?
His cheeks burn hot with embarrassment, and as he thinks tragically about how much he wants to just reach out and feel you, his eyes start to sting.
"You doin' alright, sweetheart?" you ask, already knowing that he's not. He nods though and forces a smile you recognise.
"Tired" he mumbles unconvincingly.
Before his cheeks can get any more pink, you decide to smile back. It works to settle him. So does the way you reach out to take his hand again.
"I'll try not to wake you up" he promises quietly, "I'll see you tomorrow night"
"Tonight" You correct, looking over at the clock on his nightstand, "It's 1, you're leavin' in 3 hours, you better try and get some rest."
You don't know whether he does or not. He's gone when you wake up, reaching out for the fingers you normally fall asleep holding. He's left a note, telling you he loves you, and that he'll see you soon. And you tell FRIDAY to send him a message wishing him luck. When you don't get a reply, you decide to keep yourself busy. You order a delivery of food, which Bucky needs more than he realises, the state of his small built-in kitchen is shameful it's at best and depressing at its worst.
In all fairness, a punnet of pulmbs, some milk, 2 carrots and half a loaf of bread is far from that- but still. A stock-up isn't going to hurt anything.
And then you still haven't heard, and the tower is creepy when it's empty.
Like a school at night, you muse, walking through the walls, chattering to FRIDAY just to have some background noise.
Aside from assuring you that everyone's vital signs are fine, she can't actually do much to distract you, so in the end, you abandon her too and settle for sitting in your suite, on the bed, exactly where Bucky had left you.
You fall asleep reading and only wake up when you hear the door click open. You beam, rubbing tiredness from your eyes as you wait expectantly for him to come in and greet you.
He doesn't though. You can hear movement but it's not coming towards you, so you decide to just go to it instead.
"Hi, sweetheart-"
Your happy greeting dies as soon as you see him. Flushed with adrenaline, and tugging at his belt, which is still laden with grenades. When he finally rips it free, tossing it to the floor with such reckless abandon that you can't help but cringe, you walk towards him.
He's pulling at his vest now. Metal fingers pulling desperately at the straps that hold it in place, growing more and more frustrated as he can't quite get them loose-
"Here" you whisper, hating the look of anguish he's wearing, "Let me help"
His arm snarls as you reach out to replace his fingers with your own. But to his great surprise, you don't even flinch. You just hush out a soft breath and guide the metal palm away.
"You're fine" you promise, seeing the way he's relenting.
His brow meets the window as he leans against it, both arms falling lamely to his sides as he focuses on breathing.
On staying still and not just taking off running until his legs give way beneath him.
"You're back late" you muse, flicking a glance at the wall, where the time is being projected by what you're assuming is Tony's version of a wall clock.
11: 33
"Not too late though, huh?" you continue, knowing he likes the background noise, "Is anyone hurt?"
Bucky gives a short shake of his head.
It hurts. The movement sends daggers through his eyes. But still, he bites his tongue and tries to keep still.
He needs the vest off. He needs the layers of heavy, bulletproof padding, gone. He needs to not feel like he's dressed for battle, and he needs the ringing in his head to stop.
"Just you then" you murmur, more to yourself than to him.
"'m fine" he mutters, knowing you won't argue- especially since it's exactly what you've just told him.
You hum in quiet disagreement instead. Tugging the last of the straps free before letting the rough weighted vest fall to the ground with a dull thud that makes you wonder if you should've checked it for explosives first.
"Better?"
Your voice cuts through the pulsing in his ears, making him hyper-aware of the way he's still resting his head against the cool glass of a window of all things.
Is it better? he thinks, rolling his shoulders unhappily.
"Yeah" he murmurs, "Yeah, thank you, sugar"
And then he turns to you, wearing the fakest smile you've ever seen, and you can't help but reach out and stroke his cheek.
He flinches. He physically recoils back into the glass with a look so sad that you miss the false grin.
"They-uh" he coughs, embarrassment burning through his chest, "They shouted my words out through a speaker" he confesses, "I- I probbaly shouldn't even be here- Steve, Tony, they all, all say I'm okay, but I- I might... I, I just wanted to see you"
Your phone is already in your hand. Typing frantic questions to Natasha, to Tony and Steve and feeling your whole chest relax as replies start flooding in.
The words are deactivated, as deactived as they can be, anyway. He's not a danger, not that a different answer to that question would've changed anything, and everyone knows where he is. When he'd bolted from the Quinn-jet in irritable silence, the entire team had let him go because they knew exactly where he was going, and considering the fact that he's physically uninjured, fighting to get him to go to Med-bay would've been a waste of everyone's energy.
They still might've tried, in fact, Steve definitely would've tried, if they hadn't all been exhausted already.
When you look back up at him, your heart cracks straight down the middle.
He's just, waiting.
Eyes closed, brow on the glass,with his breath making it fog up by his face.
His back is heaving too, shining in the dim lights of the room. His back is shaking like he's crying, but his jaw is locked tight.
"What do you need, huh?" you wonder softly, not moving to touch him again, "Sweet, sweet boy- you got off that plane, and you ran- you ran all the way here, and then you stopped in here, why?"
His eyes flicker open, red and sore.
"I" he swallows, "I had to get it off"
You quirk your head, not understanding, and then you see the vest by his boots and nod.
"It hurts" he mutters to himself, "It's always hurt. I needed it off"
You know he's not talking to you, but you nod all the same, hoping that it might at the very least encourage him to keep his eyes open.
And then you realise what he's saying, and you can't keep quiet anymore.
"What hurts?" you ask softly.
His cheeks are hot again. He knows that he's embarrassed. That he should be, that it's right that he's burning with shame, but with the way his head is splintering he really doesn't care.
"The vest," he tells you quietly, "My skin, it- uh...it's always... the scars they uh... I- I needed to get it off..."
He looks at you, expecting to see a hint of something. Disgust, maybe? Or pity. What he doesn't expect, is the way you just nod again, expression understanding as you inch closer towards him.
He bites back a whimper, using all the strength he has left to not just collapse in your arms.
Keep the floodgates closed.
"Its off..." you remind him mildly, "Your home, it's off... so, what else do you need?"
Bucky blinks, sniffing to try and stop tears from forming as he stares at you.
And then, he hears you sigh, and his chest tightens so much that he can't catch a breath.
A sigh is never good. He thinks. He's done it. He's finally done it. He's done something that has made you realise he's a lost cause.
He's the lost cause.
But, when he forces himself to look back at you, wanting to memorise your face before you leave his world forever, no matter how painful it is, he sees you smiling. Leaning against the window, only inches away from him.
"I want to help" you promise softly.
A disbelieving scoff bubbles up through the tightness of his throat, and for a second, you think he looks like himself again. Even if he's a little rough around the edges.
"You did..." Bucky reminds you quietly, "I couldn't get it off, and you helped me"
The urge to roll your eyes at his gratitude is quickly tempered by the genuine affection in his tone. You settle for nodding instead.
"So what else do you need?"
This time, when your hand meets his face he shivers. Feeling something deep in his chest snap as he starts to lean back into the contact.
"C-could you..." he gulps, desperately shy now, "God, doll- could you just, touch my hair?"
"Your hair" you murmur, love drenching every word as you slowly trail your fingers up past his temple, stroking through the tangled length so gently he wants to scream.
"Please" he shudders, "don't pull-"
His frantic request chokes off incomplete, the heat in his cheeks making his jaw lock petulently.
"You don't like havin' your hair pulled?" you muse, tone light in contrast to his, "Noted."
"Does anyone?" he wonders bravely, adjusting to the slow, trailing warmth across his head.
You laugh at that, further coaxing him out of his embarrassment.
"Sure they do, Buck," you tell him conversationally, "people like all kinds of things..."
He's melting. He's sure he's physically melting into your fingers. Into the gentle tug and pull, into the wonderful, brilliant sting of human contact.
All you hear is the softest hum. It's content though, so you take it as a win.
"So since this definitely a winner..." you drawl, bringing your free hand down to his, letting him grasp your fingers in reflex, "What else do you like?"
The part of his brain that isn't purring like a cat, stuttering to a halt at your question. His eyes focus, as he blinks at you, face full of such total adoration that you feel like you should probably look away, but he's so beautiful that you can't quite manage it.
"You"
That makes you laugh, small and flattered as you shake your head.
"You've got me, Barnes." You remind him lightly, "If we could be doin' anything, anythin' in the world, right now what would we be doin?"
The smile he gives you then is the most precious one he's ever worn. Your whole body flushes with affection as he chuckles silently reaching up and pressing a kiss against the back of your hand, as you scratch your free knuckles against the back of his head.
"I have no idea" he mumbles honestly.
Your brow quirks, before you move, pivoting and opening your arms to coax him in.
He freezes, staring at you with longing as he offers a sad shake of his head-
"I can't- darlin'-" he stammers nervously, "I want to- I- I really- I-"
"You" he hears you whisper, "can do whatever you like."
He shakes his head again, stubborn this time.
"Not that" he mumbles, "Not to you"
"To me" you repeat, curious.
His lips tighten and then part, breath shallow as your thumb finds his cheek.
"I won't be able to stop" he explains, voice quiet like he's sharing a secret, "If I start, I won't ever be able to stop and you- you're-you're everythin' to me and I- I can't put that on you- because I really- I mean it- I don't-"
Your head is already shaking, your arms are moving, pulling him into your chest.
"I don't think I'll ever be able to stop" Bucky feels his words melting into your shoulder, he feels the heat of your body against his. His bare chest burning against the thin fabric of your vest. The feeling of your skin against his threatening to make his knees buckle. "I- I won't be able to stop"
You shake your head, hushing him as his resistance fades away to nothing. As he goes pliant in your arms, head falling to the crook of your neck.
"I'm sorry" he whispers, "I'm so sorry"
"You're never listen" You mumble in reply, letting his hand go so that you can hold him tight against your front, "I just told you, sweetheart..."
Bucky pulls away just enough to look at you, and when you see tears brimming in his eyes, you can't help but hush him again, noting the way his hands are wound tight into the fabric you're wearing.
His lower lip pouts, he tries to avert his gaze but it doesn't work. He just can't manage to tear his eyes away from you. From the way you're looking at him, full of affection. Full of patience and kindness and-
"Didn't I just tell you, huh?" you murmur, smiling a little again, "You've got me"
He blinks, still not understanding.
So you do the only thing you can.
You kiss him. You kiss him until he pulls back, until he dips back down into your arms, tired and aching and pressing his own kisses against the skin of your throat.
"I'm not goin' anywhere" You remind him gently, "We don't ever have to stop"
We don't ever have to stop.
Your sweet words rattle through his mind all the way to the bedroom.
If it weren't for the aching in his knees and the awful cold of the room now that he's not hidden in your front, he might not've even noticed the journey.
He's too tired, now. His head aches, and his adrenaline is well and truly shot. But the hope of you, of more of the wonderful warmth of you, is more than enough to keep him moving through it.
I've done worse for less, he reminds himself with every wounded step.
We don't ever have to stop.
And then there's the bed. The edge of the bed against his calves, and he knows his hands are free and that he should be doing something but he can't think of what, no matter how hard he tries.
You remind him, your hands on his belt, your feet nudging his boots so he remembers to kick them free before finally lowering himself onto the covers.
For a minute the familiar coolness jars him. His head spins and throbs and pulses and then,
and then your fingers are back in his hair. Your arms are wrapped around him, and all he can feel is warmth.
Warmth and pressure building behind his eyes. Incredible pressure that finally spills free as his eyes overflow. As he surrenders and clings onto your back with all the strength he has left, and cries.
He sobs, silently at first, tears melting into your chest as you stroke his back. Whispering soothing words that you know he can't hear. Letting him finally just be.
And then, he's asleep. And so are you, a tangle of limbs and covers and heat. The kind of heat that makes you drowsy, that makes Bucky drowsy.
Drowsy enough to sleep through whatever nightmares were bound to have been triggered by the missions, drowsy enough to keep him that way for hours in a row. And when he does wake up, for the first time in... well, a long time- he's smiling.
#bucky barnes fluff#bucky barnes x y/n#bucky x reader#bucky barnes imagine#bucky barns x reader#bucky barnes fanfiction#bucky barnes angst#bucky x you#bucky x female reader#bucky x y/n#bucky barnes x you#bucky fanfic#the winter soldier x you#Oneshot#fluff#x reader#drabble#bucky barnes oneshot#Bucky Barnes imagines#bucky x g/n reader
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General yandere Danny Phantom headcanons
Definitely overprotective, I mean, c'mon, have you seen what he deals with daily? Boys got trauma
Really really hesitant about letting you fight ghosts with him- can be convinced but if you ever get hurt beyond something like scraped knees he’s not letting you ghost hunt again
If you break a bone may god forgive whatever poor ghost hurt you because he sure won’t
Anyway, he's also really sweet. It's almost sickeningly sweet at times
Bro is smitten. He tries to do cute stuff with you when he’s not busy with ghosts but unfortunately he doesn’t get a break very often
By the way, you're gonna have to deal with some degree of manipulation. He swears he’s just trying to convince you to make the better choice, but honestly who is he kidding. For the most part at least he’s trying to keep you to himself. Maybe he’ll be ok with Sam hanging around you, but Tucker is standing on thin ice.
Moving on. Of course he's gonna take advantage of his ghost powers to stalk you we’re talking about a yandere au
Also leaves little trinkets that he either found in the lab or made himself around your house. You don't know who's leaving green and white bracelets in your room or how they got in while all the doors and windows were locked but you sure wish they’d go away
I think he’d be kinda touch starved tbh. Am I crazy? Maybe. Am I projecting here a little. Most likely.
Usually has a hand on you somewhere- shoulders, hand, back, whatever. He's just really physically affectionate
Won’t kill anyone, but isn't above harassing people to make them go away
Gets really possessive when he’s jealous but also you’re gonna have to strangle it out of him if you wanna know why he gets really weird around any one person
Not all that quick to jealousy though!!! Maybe mild annoyance but usually not much further than that
One way to trigger it though is if you’re fine with him being touchy/are affectionate with him and then are the same way towards someone else. He may convince himself you're leading him on
Kinda goes by the logic of ‘well he’s best friends with Sam but he's not like THAT with HER so why would you be so affectionate with some other guy’
He does not grasp the idea that maybe you're more comfortable with physical affection with others than him. He should work on that.
End note here because this is kinda long, i’m running out of things to put here, and I’ve been working on this for something around 3 nights, kudos to the… *checks tag* one person who’s semi active in the yandere danny phantom tag. I dunno how you managed to come up with stuff without any other people to add fuel to the idea fire here, but great job. I could never.
#yandere danny phantom#danny phantom x reader#danny phantom#woooo first writing post here#I apologize for any typos I wrote this near exclusively at night and during school#Strawberry's basket
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now i see daylight | part ii: treacherous
song: treacherous by taylor swift
series description: set after lust conquers all, jamie returns to richmond and takes accountability for treating you like shit.
warnings: language-- it's ted laso, what did ya expect?; bff!sam, touch starved jamie and reader, A LOT OF ALCOHOL, richmond himbos
pairing: jamie tartt x f! reader
word count: 2054 words
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When the whistle was blown for full time, the cheers in the arena were deafening. You couldn’t hear yourself think and everything seemed to slow. You stood behind Roy, clutching your camera, as you watched the sea of red and blue storm the field. You were only snapped out of your thoughts when Will jumped on your back, hugging you from behind.
“We’re moving up!” Will screamed behind you, beaming from ear to ear. “Come on, Y/N, let’s celebrate!”
You placed your camera on one of the seats under the tent and tossed a jacket over it. You followed Will into the middle of the field where all of the coaches, players, and fans were celebrating.
“Dani Rojas you legend!” You yelled, running toward Dani. He grinned at you, picking you up by your waist to spin you around. “I am so fucking proud of you!”
“Thank you, Y/N,” he put you down, holding you by your shoulders. “You will come to the after-party, yes?”
“Wouldn’t miss it.”
You made your rounds with all of the players. Most of them were so excited, they couldn’t say anything but, “Let’s goooooo!” Colin threw an arm around you and walked you over to Sam, who you still hadn't seen because of the chaos. When Sam saw you, he ran to you, smiling so wide you were sure his cheeks hurt.
“Y/N! Can you believe it? We are back in the Premier League!”
“I believe it. I knew you guys could do it.”
“Thank you, Y/N,” he hugged you tightly. “Are you coming to the after-party? Please tell me you will. I can pick you up.”
You tutted, “Samuel, I will be there but you are not driving tonight. You deserve to get absolutely trashed.”
“Agreed, mate.”
There was that accent again. You turned around to see Jamie, glowing under the lights. Ever since the day he cornered you in the hallway, he made do with his promise. He didn’t bother you again unless it was for work. You’ve been more courteous to him. You no longer ignored his “good mornings,” or “how are ya’s,” but you still kept your distance. However, your resolve was slowly fading. Being around him again made you remember why you were so drawn to him in the first place. With him being a different version of himself now, it increased that attraction tenfold.
Sam looked between the two of you and smirked, walking away discreetly. He’s noticed the small smiles on your face whenever Jamie would come around. You tried to hide it, but Sam knew you too well.
You turned your body to look at Jamie, shyly looking at him. Jamie met your eye, eyes twinkling in a way that you haven’t seen since the last night you shared with him. He had a boyish smile on his face. You pursed your lips, trying not to let a smile slip, but you were unsuccessful. Jamie’s eyes got brighter, which you didn’t realize was possible.
“Great job, Jam.”
Jamie let out a breath he didn’t realize he was holding at the sound of his nickname leaving your lips. He bit his bottom lip, stretching his hand out for a handshake, “I appreciate it, Y/N.”
You rolled your eyes and smacked his hand away. You walked toward him and pulled him into a hug. Jamie froze in your arms for a second before melting into the hug and burying his face in the crook of your neck. You didn’t realize how much you missed him until you felt his arms tighten around your torso. It was like you finally got a taste of the thing you were craving for months as if there was nothing else in the world that could’ve made this moment sweeter, better.
Your hand made its way to the back of his neck, where you cradled the back of his head, fingers softly tugging on his hair. It was muscle memory, how you used to cuddle him on his couch all those months ago. Jamie sighed into your skin, his warm breath awakening you from the trance you were under, causing you to pull away.
Both of your faces were flushed when you pulled apart. Jamie cleared his throat, looking down at his feet, before vaguely motioning somewhere as if there was something requiring his attention. You did the same, leaving to go in the opposite direction as him.
You turned around and saw Keeley with a smirk on her face, arms crossed with a knowing look. “World must be ending, I suppose?”
Blushing, you shoved her lightly, “Shut up.”
In true Captain fashion, Isaac rented a giant party bus for all of the players and a few special guests, including you, Keeley, Roy, and Will. The bus was taking all of you to a club in London that Isaac bought out for the night to celebrate the win and promotion. Roy, who should know better now that he was a coach, denounced his coach-ship before he stepped foot on the bus, stating that tonight he was “going to have the fucking time of my life!”
When you walked into the bus with Sam, you were hit with the sound of a club beat. Players were already a few drinks in from the bottles of beer and liquor scattered around the bus. Jan Maas was holding onto the pole, laughing as he fist-pumped to the song. Richard had a bottle of red wine in his grasp, which you later saw had a sticker on it that said “Property of Richard Montlaur.” Colin and Isaac were in the corner singing into a bottle of gin when “Hotel Room Service” by Pitbull started playing.
Sam was pulled from you by O’Brien who made him take shots. With you both being the last two the team was waiting for, the bus lightly jerked as it began its journey to London. The entire team cheered, raising bottles in the air.
You laughed as you tried to make your way around the bus, trying to find a friendly face that wasn’t too far gone. You knew all of them would regret this in the morning. You turned to your right and found Jamie and Dani sharing a bottle of tequila, laughing at something that you’d later learn was not that funny.
“Y/N!” Dani yelled when he saw you. He scooted over on the leather bench, leaving a space next to Jamie for you to occupy. “You are here!”
“I am!” You replied, shaking your head at how far gone the boys already are and you’ve barely even left Nelson Road. “How you guys feelin’?”
“Fuckin’ fantastic,” Jamie replied, taking another sip from the bottle. He handed it to you, which you took. You drank some and grimaced when the strong taste hit your tongue.
The two boys laughed as you passed the bottle to Dani. Dani stood up, holding onto the pole that Jan Maas was holding earlier, and began to make his rounds in the bus. He kept offering the bottle to anyone he saw. You couldn’t help but laugh at how they all took the bottle from Dani, despite not liking tequila.
“‘M glad you’re here.”
Your attention focused back on Jamie, who was staring up at you. His eyes were clouded, eyelids droopy. You playfully punched his shoulder, “How are you already drunk?”
Jamie furrowed his eyebrows, “You and Sam were so late. We had to get started without you lot.”
“We were thirty minutes late.”
“A lot can happen in thirty minutes.”
You snorted. It made Jamie smile. He bumped your knee with his. You looked at where your bodies touched. Your breath got stuck in your throat. You swallowed, “I guess I need to catch up.”
“Damn right,” a lopsided smirk graced his lips. He dug behind him in the ice bucket and pulled out a bottle of Clase Azul. He handed it to you, “Go on then.”
“Menace,” you replied, grabbing the bottle from him. Your fingers brushed, sending shocks throughout your entire body. “You know I can’t say no to good tequila.”
“Yeah, that’s why I bought it,” he shrugged, opening a beer. “I bought it for you. Nearly broke Bumbercatch’s arm when he tried to open it earlier.”
“Jamie, this is an expensive bottle of tequila.”
“Yeah well, Coach wouldn’t let me buy the whole team PS5s as a sorry, but he didn’t say anything about buyin’ you expensive liquor.”
You were sure that Jamie was only saying this because the alcohol was clouding his better judgment. He probably won’t remember this in the morning, or at the very least, he’d wonder whether or not this was real life or just something his mind made up. You opened the bottle and took a long swig from it.
As good as the tequila was, you still grimaced, frantically searching to find a chaser. Jamie, who remembered your drinking habits, held out a cup of Diet Coke. You downed the entire cup, sighing in relief when the taste of tequila was masked by the sugary drink. “Thanks, Jam.”
“Missed you callin’ me that,” he admitted, a look of longing on his face. “Missed you in general, to be honest. Been hell without you in my life.”
“Jamie,” you started, turning your body to him. “You’re drunk so I suggest you stop talking.”
“Am I makin’ you uncomfortable?” Jamie asked, concern on his face. He sobered for a moment, blinking back as if he was trying to figure out what he just said.
“No, no,” you assured him, placing a hand on his thigh. He tensed under your touch, letting out a shaky breath. You were really close to each other now. “You’re not making me uncomfortable. I just don’t want you to say anythin’ you’ll regret in the morning.”
“Don’t think that’ll happen,” he said, nonchalantly. He took a sip from his beer, trying not to move too much in fear that you would remove your hand from his thigh if he did. Hesitantly, he started drawing figure eights with his pointer finger on your hand that was touching him. He let out a breath when you didn’t pull away. “Been regrettin’ not saying anything to ya. Should’ve told you how I felt that night. Or any night after that, really. I was just bein’ a prick ‘cause I was hurt that Richmond let me go.”
You stayed silent. You didn’t know what to make of his words. Was he talking about the night you told him how you felt? Surely not. What does he mean by tell you how he felt?
Jamie continued, “And the thing was, I knew Richmond had no say in whether or not I was goin’ back to Man City, but it still hurt, I guess. Woke up to a text sayin’ I had to go back to Man City from my agent. Not even a text from Ted, or Keeley, or you. Thought I didn’t mean nothin’ to any of ya, so I just shut everyone out.”
“And it’s real shit of me to do, ain’t it? Especially how I treated ya. I don’t blame you for not forgiving me or giving me a second chance.” He stopped drawing on your hand. He drank from his beer again. You looked at him. He had a small and nervous smile on his face. Testing his luck, he brought a hand up to touch your face. “Shame I fucked it all up really ‘cause you’re the only person I ever actually wanted to spend the rest of my life with.”
“Jamie–”
“Come on, party animals!” Isaac yelled from the front of the bus. Somehow the top five buttons of his shirt became undone during the drive. He slung an arm around Will, who had a tie wrapped around the circumference of his head, “Let’s get iiiiiittttttt!”
The bus erupted in hollers as players trickled out of the bus. Sam, who was giggly under the influence, found you next to Jamie. Jamie, seeing that Sam was there to walk you out of the bus, waved goodbye to you and caught up with Bumbercatch. You held the Clase Azul bottle close to your body as you threw on a fake smile, walking off the bus with Sam.
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part i: don't you
part iii: daylight
#ted lasso#ted lasso oneshot#ted lasso imagines#ted lasso imagine#ted lasso series#jamie tartt#jamie tartt fanfic#jamie tartt x y/n#jamie tartt x yn#jamie tartt imagine#jamie tartt x reader#jamie tartt series#jamie tartt oneshot#frances writes#frances song fics#now i see daylight
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Hoodie- Human!Jake Sully
Word count: 950 A/N: this is just a little drabble I thought of while I definitely should have been focusing on my course work... Human Jake is kind of my weakness (ily Sam Worthington) And yes I am now shamelessly writing for Avatar too ;)
It was that pesky lab setting, the low temperature necessary to keep the teams samples stable and usable. To keep months of ground-breaking work and discoveries safe. And, to your chagrin, eliciting goosebumps upon entry to the lab every single morning, day by day. You of course understood the need for the cold environment, but that didn’t mean you were happy about it. And a certain ex-marine had picked up on it.
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“Video log seven, time is… twenty-three forty-nine, and I’m, uh… I’m in the lab again.” Jake’s eyes flick to the analogue clock to his left with a sigh before settling back on his own reflection in the camera, a slightly dishevelled face staring back at him, a biproduct of spending so much time in his avatar.
“Location, shack.” He sighs again. He doesn’t have time for this. There are other things to do, places to be. And taping one of these stupid video logs per Grace’s request doesn’t even begin to scratch the list of things on his mind. He gets their purpose, sure, and he understands why Grace places so much urgency on doing them right after he ‘exits’ his avatar. So, if he has to do them, he’ll do them his way. And his way involves you.
Jake swivels in his seat, eyes landing on your hunched over form at the desk behind his, your hand furiously writing in your little notebook like usual. He watches you for a few moments. The way your hair frames the features he religiously studies when you’re deep in thought, risk free of being found out. Your near-death grip on the pen in your hand as you scribble whatever thoughts or findings race through your beautiful mind. Your eyes, nose, lips, features he desperately wants to run his fingers over, like a man starved of touch.
Jake has had his eye on you ever since Grace had her very first, but certainly not last, rant about how she did not need him. How she needed his brother. You were rolling your eyes behind Grace as she went on her tangent. And to his delight when he was in the canteen later that night, alone and picking at the strange amalgamation of dehydrated meats and vegetables he’s never seen before, you stopped by. Just for a second, just to say words that have played in his mind every night when he lays in his bed, some parts more than others. ‘Hi, we briefly met earlier but I’m (y/n), and unlike Grace, I’m actually happy to have someone who doesn’t have a stick up their ass in the lab with us. And you look like the type of fun I desperately need here.’
And that was it for Jake. He took your words as challenge, as a personal goal of his. Every morning he wheeled himself into the lab, he took it upon himself to act a fool to any extent, if it meant he got a smile from you. Some days he even settled for one of those scoffs of yours you gave when laughing was one of the last things on your mind. And over time, what seemed like months to him but was just weeks in reality, he grew fond of you. And by association, began to dislike the cold of the lab.
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He tells himself to focus on the video vlog, the camera propped up against random shit he scrounged up on his desk still taping. But he doesn’t care, you take precedence.
“I can hear your teeth all the way from my station.” Jake chimes, eyes still on you as you continue to write. As Jake realises his words went right over your head, he smiles. He’s always admired your ability to lose yourself entirely in whatever you were doing.
He grips the edges of the hoodie he’s wearing, an old tattered grey thing he thinks has lived in his closet for longer than anything else he owns, before pulling it up his chest and over his head. He shakes it out a little to fix the left sleeve before he turns around and wheels himself over to your desk.
“Here.” Jake places the hoodie on your lap, the only available place as he eyes the paper towers stacked all across your desk. He squints at one of the papers near him but doesn’t read further than the title. He doesn’t understand the scientific jargon.
You flinch a little as the material lands in your lap and drop the pen. You look down at the clump of grey, Jake’s hoodie you realise, before turning your head to face him with a confused frown.
“What’s this for?”
Jake throws one of his grins your way that unbeknownst to him give you minor heart palpitations.
“Don’t want my favourite girl catching a cold.” He croons before turning himself back around and heading back to his own desk, heartrate slightly higher. Then again, it doesn’t come as a surprise to him.
He looks back into the camera, but this time not at his reflection. No, he watches as you play with the material of the hoodie for a few seconds before deciding that the ex-marine’s hoodie is probably your best option at staving off the cold. His eyes stay focused on you as you pull the hoodie over your head and down your torso, adjusting the hood of it. And for a second, he swears he sees you nuzzle your nose into the material through the camera’s reflection. His heart kicks up the pace, a small smile filled to the brim with pride not adorning his lips.
And as the low temperatures raise goosebumps on his own arms, he thinks it’s worth it to see you wearing his hoodie.
#absolutely self indulgent fic#avatar#avatar fandom#avatar x reader#avatar x you#avatar x y/n#avatar x human reader#human jake sully#sam worthington#jake sully x reader#jake sully x y/n#jake sully x you#jake sully#shameless fanfiction
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91% Function
Pairing: Shuri x Black Fem!Reader
Warnings: 18+ content, dirty talk, praise kink, vibranium strap, lesbian sex
Word count: 2.1k
Translations: Yeyona shit yesondo kakhulu endakha ndayifumana = That’s the sexiest shit I have ever seen, Hayi = No, Sithandwa = My love, Ndiyakudinga = I need you, Ukuya esihogweni kunye nehempe emhlophe = To hell with that short white man, Ewe, sithandwa sam. Ndiyazi = Yes, my love. I know, Molo kwintombazana yam entle = Hello to my beautiful girlfriend
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Your calmness slipped with each passing hour. Your girlfriend, Shuri, was supposed to be back from America hours ago. This was nothing new to you. Shuri traveled quite often, especially now that she was Black Panther, but she had been gone for 20 days, 11 hours, and 36 minutes.
You missed her terribly.
And you ached for her deep inside.
You both agreed not to pleasure yourselves until she returned. You were doing well until around day 10 when you discovered new footage of Shuri in Massachusetts, leaping across a tall building in her panther suit alongside Riri as they both took down a rogue CIA member.
Her swift, confident glides made you proud of her, but also frisky. You two have always had great sex, but since she took the heart-shaped herb, the sex shifted into something borderline astronomical.
You tapped a bead on your kimoyo bracelet, admiring your half naked figure in the full-length mirror beside your bed as you waited for Shuri to answer.
“Molo kwintombazana yam entle.” Shuri answered on the third ring.
“Where are you?” You blurted, unwilling to let her cuteness distract you.
“I am about thirty minutes out from the river border.”
“Thirty minutes?! Shuri, you were supposed to be here two hours ago.”
“Ewe, sithandwa sam. Ndiyazi,” Shuri sighed, “I got caught up in a conversation with Agent Ross and lost track of time.”
“Ukuya esihogweni kunye nehempe emhlophe!” You rolled your eyes, flopping dramatically onto the bed.
“Bast, (Y/N)!” Shuri admonished as she failed to contain her snickers.
“Oh, you think it’s funny?”
“Yes, you do get more agitated than usual when I am away for more than a week.”
“Ndiyakudinga.” You whined.
“I need you, too. I apologize for being late. I will make it up to you.”
“How?”
“With Riri’s help I was able to get the apparatus to 91% function. Figured we could test it when I arrive?”
You sat up instantly on the bed, beyond impressed. You two had been throwing around ideas for improving the vibranium strap's versatility for a while now.
“Wow, 91%! So, that means there’s a good chance that—“
“—That you will feel what I feel and I will feel what you feel.”
“Shit.” You cursed, moaning lightly as you rubbed yourself through your yellow lace panties.
“Mhm.”
“Bast, I don’t know which position we should try first.” You breathed, sliding your panties to the side for direct access.
“Well, hands and knees do seem to be your personal favorite.” She added, chuckling lightly.
You spread your legs a little more before dipping a finger inside your slick hole. You could not wait any longer. Three weeks was your limit. You were a touch starved mess.
“Do not start without me, sithandwa.”
“What? I’m not.” You lied.
“I can hear your finger sliding in and out of you, Y/N.”
Damn, you forgot how much stronger her hearing was now. Oh, well.
“You hear how wet I am for you?”
“Yes, I hear it,” Shuri purred, rubbing at her thigh to distract from the pulsation under her pants, “I cannot wait to taste it.”
The sultry inflection of her voice was enough to drive you to slide a second finger in, moaning louder this time. “I can’t wait to feel you inside me.”
Shuri gasped, “I know you did not just add another fing—“
“—Mmm, it feels so good.” You cut her off, whimpering as you felt the edge nearing.
“Take your fingers out, Y/N. Now.”
“Hayi.” You disobeyed.
“No?” The sheer shock in Shuri’s voice would have made you laugh if circumstances were different. She sounded scandalized.
“I’m about to cum, Shuri.”
“Do you remember what happened the last time you were being a disobedient brat?”
You did remember which is why you angled your two fingers and thrusted them faster inside you. Shuri had you calling on every god in existence that night. The memory alone had you throbbing.
“You better answer me, Y/N.”
Your climax was approaching and little did Shuri know, she was talking you up and right through it.
“Y/N.” Shuri repeated, growling into her kimoyo beads and that sent you over the edge.
You came as hard and as loud as you wanted. Consequences be damned. You had been holding that in for three long ass weeks. The orgasm was nice, but without your girlfriend you were always left ravenous. Shuri was silent for a beat, listening to your ragged breaths and sinful moans. You shivered as you pulled your fingers out and brought them up to your mouth to lick them clean.
“Prepare to take every inch I give you.” Shuri hissed. You could hear her breaths become harsher. Oooh, she was mad. Good.
The last thing you heard was Shuri swearing and one of the Dora Milaje responding to Shuri's question about their whereabouts.
“We will be home in seven mi—“
The combination of the abrupt silence and your girlfriend's last words sent a sweet chill down your spine. The thought of your impending punishment made you wetter. Even though, the icy tone of Shuri's warning had you swallowing the nervous lump in your throat. You knew she meant business.
You sobbed a moan while hot tears started to pool in your eyes as you were denied yet another orgasm. Shuri pulled out of you just as you were about to bust. She left you lying there on your back as she moved to sit on the edge of the bed.
She looked back at you, enjoying the drenched, sensitive mess spread out before her. Looking into her eyes, you could not suppress the ache and frustration you felt. For the fourth time, she has pushed you to the precipice, only to yank you back at the last second. You were going to wither away if you didn’t come soon.
“Don’t look at me like that. You brought this on yourself.” She shrugged, looking down at the strap attached to her. She stroked it loosely as it was slick with your wetness.
“Please let me cum.” You begged as you sat up on your knees.
“Come to me.” Shuri called over her shoulder.
You crawled to the edge of the bed, stopping beside her. She turned her face toward you, grinning as she saw the desperation in your eyes.
“Ride me until you cum.” She gestured for you to straddle her lap and you obeyed, moving with an eager quickness.
You both moaned softly as you eased your pussy down the length of the strap. The model was only at 91% and it was revealing to you both various levels of pleasure you thought were impossible to achieve.
You began to bounce slowly, but quickly found your pacing, up and down, swirl and grind. You lowered your gaze to Shuri, silently pleading with her to touch you. With a playful glint in her eyes, she looked up at you.
“Baby, please touch me.” You huffed, bouncing harder.
Usually when you were riding your girlfriend she would grip your waist to help you move up and down, suck your nipples, or smack your ass. SOMETHING! She wasn’t doing anything. She was leaned back, both palms spread against the bed as she watched you fuck yourself onto her. It drove you crazy when she didn’t touch you and she fucking knew it.
“Obviously you no longer need my help to get you there.”
“But I do need you, baby. Please help me cum.”
“Tough.” Shuri said, not moving an inch.
You pinched her shoulder in frustration and she just laughed at you, unfazed.
Fine. If she wanted to play like that then so be it.
You shoved two of your fingers in your mouth and sucked on them before bringing them to massage your clit. Your eyes fluttered closed as you threw your head back in pleasure and moaned loudly.
“Fuck, Shuri. You feel so good inside of me.”
You knew she loved when you were vocal about how she made you feel during sex and would eventually touch you.
“No one could ever fuck me like you do,” you continued, “I love the way you fuck me.”
The cocky grin she was sporting faltered as she let out a deep moan, soon after she rolled her hips up to meet your vigorous bounces.
A climax tore through your stomach as soon as Shuri bent forward to capture your rigid nipple in her warm mouth, and you threw your head back and whimpered.
You were only given a few spare moments to catch your breath before Shuri picked you up and pounded into you against the wall.
Sheer unadulterated euphoria flowed through you. You were so sex dazed that you couldn't recall how many times you came in the last thirty minutes, but Shuri was still not through with you. Sweat was the only barrier between the two of you. Your passion for her only deepened with each carnal kiss and perfectly calculated thrust.
You were now on your hands and knees, chestnut thighs shaking like a cheap, synthetic wig on a windy night. The noises of pleasure that escaped your lips were so loud and obscene you took it upon yourself to shove your face into an orange satin pillow. You knew your throat was going to be sore and your voice would be gone come tomorrow. Still, you didn’t care. Shuri was fucking you too damn good for you to be silent.
“Thank me while I fuck you.” Shuri grunted as her hand came down, smacking your plump ass, making the flesh jiggle from the ample force.
“Aaah! Th—thank you! Thank you!” You whimpered as you rocked back onto her.
With her free hand, Shuri gripped your throat and pulled you up, bringing your sweaty back to rest against her bare chest. She slowed her thrusts and ground into you slowly as she trailed delicate kisses across your cheek and down the neck to your shoulder.
“You always take me so well, Y/N.”
You could barely form a word so you just nodded. She knew all too well what her praises did to you.
“If only you listened as well as you took me.”
Shuri kissed your ear and nibbled on your earlobe before whispering, “Are you going to be good from now on and listen?”
“Yes.” You vowed, gasping as Shuri began to rub tight circles around your clit.
“Yes, what?” The deepness of her lust filled voice never failed to send you into a frenzy.
“Yes, Panther. I promise.” You groaned.
“That’s what I like to hear.” She panted.
“Shuri, please,” you pleaded as she rubbed your clit even faster, “I can’t cum again.”
“Mmm, I think you can give me one more. Shall we try the highest pulsation?” Shuri pressed on the side of the strap twice, bringing it to level five. You cried out in pleasure, not only because the ability to feel what Shuri was feeling intensified, but also because she brushed against your g-spot over and over.
Shuri chuckled as she felt your walls clench around her, “Go on,” she encouraged as you squirmed, “Be a good girl and cum one last time for me.” The vibrations from her next stroke shot throughout your entire body. Almost like receiving a slight magnetic jolt.
You let out an ear piercing scream that was definitely heard throughout the palace. You have never experienced an orgasm like this before. You came everywhere. All over your thighs, Shuri’s thighs and the bed. You made a mess. The intensity of your orgasm took Shuri by surprise as well, causing her rhythm to falter once she realized that you were squirting.
“Yeyona shit yesondo kakhulu endakha ndayifumana.” Shuri praised as she shoved you down into the mattress with one hand while the other tightened on your waist. Her euphonious moans grew louder as she drove into you wildly, chasing her own orgasm.
Shuri came with a cry, her thighs shook against the backs of yours. You were still trembling as your knees gave out and you sagged against the bed. She pulled out of you and flopped down next to you.
You both breathed shakily, warm bodies completely spent. You mustered all the strength you had left to turn onto your side so you could face her. Of course, she was already on her side, smirking at you.
“So,” Shuri cleared her throat as she scooched closer to you, resting her hand on your waist, “how are you feeling?” You wanted to roll your eyes at the smugness in her voice but that simple action required energy you didn’t have at the moment.
“If you’re ever walking outside and hear a rustling in the bushes, don't worry about it. It’s just me.” You enlightened her as your cunning amber eyes peered into her haughty walnut pupils.
Shuri’s eyes crinkled as she bit her bottom lip to stifle a laugh, shaking her head fondly at you. She thought she was used to your post sex outbursts by now, but every now and then you stumped her.
#can't believe I'm back writing smut#please like comment and share#shuri udaku#shuri#shuri x reader#shuri x black!reader#black panther fanfiction#black panther fandom#shuri x you#shuri x y/n#smut#shuri smut#vibranium strap#my fics#black panther x reader#shuri imagine#shuri oneshot#black panther smut#shuri x fem!reader#black panther shuri#wlw#marvel smut#mcu smut#black reader#black reader insert
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Blog intro
Hello! I’m Aster, a person who gives advice and who is still learning about the world as a whole. I am non binary, a calico cat therian and questioning voidkin
Fandoms/Artists/Bands:
Kingdom hearts (lore)
Castle of illusions (yt)
FNAF
Hellaverse (Hazbin Hotel + Helluva Boss)
Ride The Cyclone
Epic the musical
Gravity Falls
The Owl House
Heartstopper
The Wonder Years
How I Met Your Mother
Brooklyn 9 9
The Truman Show
Warrior Cats
The Blackthorn Key
Scythe
Together We Rot
Cinderella’s Dead
Loveless
Solitaire
TX2!!! (Met Evan, corky, and cam on March 2024! Saw Sam but never got to say hi)
Ice nine kills
Alesana
6ARELYHUMAN!!!!!
Asteria
Linkin Park
Iron Maiden
Sleeping with the sirens
My blog is mainly about anything that catches my eye, such as cats, food, memes, fun things, famous posts, photography, tag games, etc.. and centered around magic. It is also very therian themed, touch starved posting, and anything relating to my hyperfixations.
People don’t usually respect my DNI so I will just block freely at this point. Half the time it’s nothing personal, the other half is because you might be someone I would rather not be around.
I want to make clear: I do not want to be harassed or sent hate asks!(especially anon). Also no asks about Gaza or anything relating to Israel or Palestine
I am slightly unhinged at times and half the things that I say I don’t remember!
I am queer in many ways (also hold the title of the gay cousin, sharing custody with my cousin mel).
Boundaries:
Yelling (don’t yell at me please)
do not call me selfish or delusional
Invalidation (Don’t invalidate me or gaslight me in a way that’s not jokingly)
Apathy-like saying how you don’t care or seeming disinterested or acting like you have a problem with me without saying it to my face or just not communicating if there’s a problem
Too many bad things all at once
asking about my age or things relevant to that
insulting me to a higher level in a serious way (more on that here)
Showing me pics of your SH
men/boys hitting on me (queer + not interested, this includes trans men obviously)
Talking about eating disorders or going into detail about anything relating to eating disorders
anything relating to genocide
#lore drop” for posts about me, either emotion related or abt what’s going on in my life.
#asks for aster, #questions for aster, and #asks are all for asks and questions
#cat therian is mainly vent posts abt shifts and being a cat therian ooc
Notice: I am no longer in wizardblr but my lore has not been taken down and is free to use or have inspo of it
@amethyst-aster-2 is my alt
@same-pic-of-uranus-everyday is my pic verse blog
@anxiety-culture-iss is another blog I run
Fun fact: I can read and write in Norse runes
Fun fact 2: I am obsessed with shiny sharp things and creepy things (especially daggers, scissors, fire, swords, serial killers lore such as the Zodiac Killer and the Candy Man)! I also will not stop talking abt Greek mythology (specifically epic the musical)
Link to wizardblr:
TW Unreality, Mild Violence, Knives, Weapons, and sexual references
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Brooke's Tuna-Tober 2024 Masterlist
Hey everyone! I was recently brough into the ranks of the ever wonderful Murdock's Tuna Team discord server and the legend @pastafossa came up with a list of prompts for us to write for the month of October! Instead of it just being angst or fluff or kinky, we have all three options per day and can choose one or combine to our heart's desire! I have a wide range of characters that I came up with ideas for a lot of the days and I can't wait to share them!
My little disclaimer as usual is that I am working part time and going to school part time, so I may not be super on time with posting day by day, but dangit, I'm gonna get everything posted that I have ideas for! It may end in November, but it'll be fine! I have also taken some of the days off because the muses weren't feeling them or any of the backup prompts, whoopsie!
Anyways! without further ado, my tentative list of writings for Tuna-Tober!
All pieces are written as character x fem!reader unless specified otherwise!
Day 1: Falling asleep in a hospital room (angst) - Spencer Reid
Day 2: “Why? Why do you love me?” (angst) - Qrow Branwen x fem!OC
Day 3: Role reversal (smut) - Matt Murdock (self reblog)
Day 4: “This isn’t you” (angst) - Bucky Barnes
Day 6: “Shh, I’ve got you now. I’m here.” (angst) - George Weasley
Day 7: Nothing underneath (smut) - Matt Murdock
Day 8: Overstimulation (smut) - Matt Murdock
Day 10: A hug that lasts a little too long (fluff) - college!Matt Murdock x gn!reader
Day 12: “I did it for you” (angst) - Sabine Wren
Day 16: Against a window (smut) - Din Djarin
Day 17: Tickling (fluff) - George Weasley x gn!reader
Day 19: Touch starved (angst) AND “I’ll always be there for you” (fluff) - Matt Murdock
Day 20: There was only one bed (fluff) AND “You were made for me, weren’t you?” (smut) - TBD [may or may not get to this one]
Day 21: Fainting/collapsing (angst) - Spencer Reid (self reblog)
Day 23: Father (angst) - Sam Winchester
Day 24: Drunken confession (fluff) AND “Shh, do you want them to hear us?” (smut) - Dean Winchester
Day 26: Under the desk (smut) - Matt Murdock
Day 27: Near death experience (angst) - Sam Winchester (self reblog)
Day 28: [prompt switch out] “I'm in love with you, and that scares me” - Bucky Barnes
Day 29: Forehead kiss (fluff) - TBD headcanons for multiple characters [may or may not get to this one]
Day 30: Road trip (fluff) - platonic Winchester Brothers
Day 31: Blanket hog (fluff) - Matt Murdock
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DISCLAIMER TO THE WORLD: ANYTHING I LEARN, I LEARN FOR THE SAKE OF ﷲ, I AM A DEVOTED BELIEVER OF ISLAMIC KNOWLEDGE HENCE MY JOURNEY ON THE APP BEING SOLELY MEANT FOR THE PURPOSES TO LEARN AND BE ONE WITH PEOPLES LOVE FOR ﷲ THE WAY I DO, I BELIEVE IN CHANGE AS MUCH AS I DO WITH SOCIAL HEALTH AND WORLD PLAY, GROWING UP, I NEVER WROTE ANY FANFICTIONS BECAUSE I STRONGLY DISBELIEVED IN SOCIAL HARMONY ELSEWHERE THAT COULD HAVE HELPED WITH MY AUTISM, SO THE MORE YOU KNOW ABOUT ME, THE MORE ITS LIKE A COMING-OF-AGE FAIRYTALE THAT I AM WHAT I BELIEVE IN AND ANYTHING I HAVE LEARNED IS THAT MY DREAMS OF REACHING FAME IS LIKE ME IN THE END THAT I WILL NEVER CHANGE BY WEALTH IF GAINED THAT I GIVE BACK AS EQUALLY AS I DO BY MARRIAGE AND THATS HOW YOU KNOW HOLLYWOOD TO ME IS MORE THAN A HOME KNOWING EVERYBODY BY HEART (NOT FROM THE SHAMS AL-MA'-ARAF) BUT FROM THE BOOKS KNOWING ISLAM WAS THE HARDEST SUBJECT TO LEARN KNOWING WOMEN AMONG ME KNOWN PAIN BY MISUNDERSTANDINGS OF CL0THING AND IT WAS HEAVILY PREDJUDICED THERE THAT I WILL AND BE THE FRONT RUNNER OF GIRLS LIKE ME IN HATRED OF THE PATRIARCHY KNOWN FIRST THAT I WAS LED BY A MATRIARCHAL COMPASS THAT LAID BARE ON NOW CELEBRITIES LOOKING UP TO ME KNOWN I WAS AN EQUAL BUT HATE LIVING IN FEAR OF THE WORST CASE SCENARIO, THE CONCEPTS OF TIME AND SPACE FLUCTUATES THE OWNERSHIP OF THE SHAMS AL-MA'ARAF IS LIKE THE WORLD TO MANY KNOWING CONSOLIDATION OF THE ARTS FORBIDDEN IN THE QUR'AN NEVER WAS, THE QUR'AN EXPLAINS CURIOUSITY OF KNOWLEDGE PREVAILING YOU LIKE OF THE ANIMATION YOU SEE AND BECOME OF YOU THAT YOU ARE AGAINST ALL ODDS THE BEST YOU CAN BE THAN I AM TO RAVEN FROM DC COMICS TO ME BELIEVING IN HAYA LIKE I AM OF LIGHTMARE, LIKE SHE IS TOO SHY TO BE KNOWN BUT KNEW PAIN AS DEEPLY AS RAVEN THAT RAVEN WAS MISUNDERSTOOD BUT HER WORLD BURNED IN FRONT OF BATMAN (EVAN GRIMM) THAT HE POSSESSED NOT ONLY THE WORLD, HE TRIED TO KILL PEOPLE KNOWING THE SHAMS AL'MA'ARAF COULD NEVER WORK FOR HIM BUT HEARTBREAK ASCENDS FURTHER TO HIM THAT HE IS BUT NOT EVEN COGNIZANT TO HIM LIKE ASTROLOGERS BEFORE HIM (YOU KNEW THE ENDING), THE INFORMATION I USE IS TO GUIDE BUT HEED MY WORDS, IN PANIC AND DISGRACE, USED HARSHLY AND THE SHAMS AL-MA'ARAF CAN KILL (LETHAL POISONING OF LIGHT IS GLARES FROM A STAR IF MET IN TOUCH TO YOUR HUMAN BODY) AND THE QUR'AN WARNS ITSELF IN TURN TO USE ONLY IF YOU KNEW THE POWER OF ﷲ ALL TOO WELL, TREAT ﷲ LIKE A FRIEND OR TO YOUR IMAGINATION OF HIM YOU SEE AND HE IS AND HIS GUIDANCE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU STARVING, LIGHT PROTECTS YOU FROM ILL WEALTH AND DARKNESS KINDLES YOU LIKE FIRE IS TO THE WORLD KNOWING THE DUNYA IS MADE FOR A BABY AND NEVER AN OLD STERN MISERLY HEARTBROKEN MAN CAN CARRY AN ILL FATE TO A HEARTBROKEN PREGNANT WOMAN THE SAME WAY
I BELIEVE IN ALL OF THE BOOKS PROFESSED TO ME LIKE YOU SEE BODIES OF MAN OF ALL AGES, FAME ASCENSIONS OR NOT ON HEAVEN AND EARTH, HELL IS PROTECTED ONCE GUIDANCE MAINTAINS YOU IN THE BODY OF YOUR OWN COMPANY LIKE YOU, A LIBRARIAN IS SOLELY KNOWN TO BE THE OWNER OF THE WORLD YOU LOVE MOST.
SO HERES MY KINDNESS IN RECOMMENDATIONS THAT I GIVE TO YOU TO FEEL FROM MY WONDER:
FALLEN SERIES (LAUREN KATE)
THE WOLVES OF MERCY FALLS (MAGGIE STIEFVATER SERIES)
MAGONIA DUOLOGY (MARIA DEHVANA HEADLEY)
NIGHT CIRCUS (ERIN MORGERNSTERN)
THE STARLESS SEA (ERIN MORGERNSTERN)
ME AND EARL AND THE DYING GIRL (JESSE ANDREWS)
AUTHORS PRIMORDIAL: AMIE KAUFMAN, JAY KRISTOFF
I'LL GIVE YOU THE SUN (JANDY NELSON)
WRATH AND THE DAWN (RENEE AHDIEH DUOLOGY)
YOU'VE REACHED SAM (DUSTIN THAO)
LOOKING FOR ALASKA (JOHN GREEN)
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Episode ask game!
-Beyond the Sea
-Irresistible
-Pusher
-Demons
(All my season favorites)
+ Excelsis Dei because I think you’ll be funny:)
Oh, multiple! This will be fun!
For reference and to avoid repetition, here is the scale:
Scum on Earth | Will Not Rewatch | Pretty Bad | Not Great but Charming | Objectively Not Good But I Had Fun | Neutral | Some Good Stuff Here | No Complaints | This is Great | This is Fantastic | One of My Favorites | Actually a Divine Work Nothing Will Ever Top This
S01E13 'Beyond The Sea' - This Is Fantastic
Sticks to the pattern of the Christmas ep going directly for the feels
Surprise Don Davis! But he dies basically immediately so :(
Scully's backstory gets quite a bit of a reveal though
Mulder whump! Complete with hospital scenes! The gods are kind to us today
I actually cheered when Scully went to Boggs after Mulder was shot and absolutely went off at him
And how Scully takes over on the case whilst Mulder is in the hospital and sees it through to the end...
The fake deal scene yesss
S02E13 'Irresistible' - This Is Great
I'm not gonna lie. First watch around I didn't find it too compelling
That said it was during the period when I was going through like seven episodes a day so...a lot of things flew right by me lol
Moe Bocks the UFO guy! Wish we'd seen more of him!
Mulder just took the case to go see the game and then all this happens. Bruuuh
Pfaster is creepy as f*ck just in general how did he ever get a job anywhere
Yet another Scully kidnapping :(
She does practically get away all by herself, though! You go girl!
Then when Mulder tilts her head after the rescue at the end...and the hug...your honour I have never felt more touch starved in my life who said that. Anyway
Great ep for Scully's character from an outsider perspective but sucked to be her :'(
S03E17 'Pusher' - One Of My Favourites
First of all the whole bit of Modell being able to just talk people into doing things is so interesting as a concept
This is the one with Dave Grohl in it for no reason so that's fun
The falling asleep in the car on the stakeout...
"Please explain to me the scientific nature of the whammy"
Modell looks like Sam Neill from The Dish or is it just me
The scene in the van where Mulder says 'smile, Scully' almost destroyed me
And then THE RUSSIAN ROULETTE. HOLY SH*T
Something something Mulder's mental state is secretly (!) really bad. Let's examine that in a fic (coming soon!) (hopefully!)
S04E23 'Demons' - One Of My Favourites
OH MY GOODNESS this ep.
First of all the scene in the motel where Scully takes care of Mulder I am DECEASED it lives in my head RENT FREE FOREVER
Particularly the line 'Did you take anything, Mulder?' as discussed in this ask
The rest of the ep though. Mulder's insistence to pursue the case despite his condition as he doesn't remember if he shot the Cassandras. The fact that he's actually literally having seizures and Scully is trying to get him to a hospital and he keeps refusing. And then the climax scene in the old house...waaa
And the fact that this is RIGHT BEFORE Gethsemane but we're not talking about that here
The amount of fics around this episode is obviously immense, but some of my favourites are Blood And Water by @agent-troi, Provisions by @freckleslikestars, and Dancing With Mephistopheles by Satchie, everyone go check them out!
S02E11 'Excelsis Dei' - Neutral
This is being kind. I might avoid it on a rewatch
It was boring even to skippy rewatch to write this but it would make good background whilst I'm working (recently I have been listening to episodes like audiobooks whilst doing particularly mindless tasks and it works surprisingly well)
I only really liked the climax scene in the bathroom and even that didnt climax enough imo
To quote the fic plan that I have for this episode:
The rest of the episode is meh due to the subject matter and portrayals etc.
The '''plumbing''' comment though 💀 Scully should have got to drop kick that guy
Also Teryl Rothery!!! Hello!!!
Thanks for this ask! It made my day a lot better to get to review these episodes! :)
#i did some skippy rewatches of these eps and it was great#youve got good taste in favourite episodes :)#if you liked pusher just wait till you get to kitsunegari#i wasnt expecting so many tho bestie or i would have sent you more :'(#right! tag time#x files#ask#s01e13#beyond the sea#s02e13#irresistible#s03e17#pusher#s04e23#demons#s02e11#excelsis dei
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Hi, I just came across your au where Sam and Dream are like demons and Punz is an angel and they end up together and I was wondering if you have like some more lore for it? I liked the idea so like if you have more ideas I'd love to hear it. Especially if there's anything about Dream's and Sam's relationship before Sam got therapy?
Hi friend! :o) sorry this took so long to answer. I do not have a good excuse. I kept staring at my inbox and saying Yes I Will Answer This And Be Very Productive. And then I did not. Fuck.
While I don't have anything in my pile of notes for it from back when I wrote it, I do think Dream and Sam were more friends than dating each other before Sam went a bit off the deep end and put Dream in a cage. Sam has a huge jealousy kink, but before therapy he didn't think of it as a kink, was kind of ashamed of being turned on by his friend being fucked by other people (and then Sam fucking him and showing off how much better he was.) He tried very hard to adjust it to his more black and white worldview and his need to be righteous and just. Other men were touching Dream, being touched by him, when Sam could take far better care of him.
And it was Dream's job, of course, so it wasn't his fault that other people wanted him. Especially when his friend was just so! So-!!!! (Pretty wonderful perfect made to be held made to be loved.)
So obviously the solution is to lock him away and make him Only for a Sam.
On Dreams end, he enjoyed teasing Sam about how possessive he got when Dream came home with bite marks or with the faint scent marks of one of his clients. It was a bit funny to him, but if Sam wanted to fuck him until he forgot anyone else, it felt good to have that kind of intimacy with someone he really enjoyed being with- not even just sexually, but as a close friend. As someone who cared about him.
So he went out to his job, had fun with his friends, came home to his roommate/friend/big teddy bear who hoarded the covers and always managed to get peanut butter on his nose.
Dream didn't really have a residence up until this point, notably. He never saw the need for one. Didn't do a lot of sleeping either, because Sleep Is For People Who Can't Stay Awake, You See. When Sam got worried and coaxed Dream into maybe having a sleepover, Dream slept for a week, only waking up every once and a while because he was hungry. Since inccubi/succubi feed off of affection, whether platonic, romantic, or sexual, Dream's solution to needing to feed was to crawl into Sam's lap and cling onto him like a backpack until he was sated. Sam was, of course, very normal about his dearest friend relying on him to be safe and taken care of and loved.
Sam was earnest about Dream being So Good at his job and taking care of people, so it was kind of abrupt to be locked inside a gilded cage with his normally very silly Sam guarding the entrance.
I honestly haven't thought much about the Abuse and Bad Things That Happened, and I remember very distinctly thinking about how I didn't really want to think all that much about it, because we already have so much canon stuff to work with, and I am a very tired clown who just wants 30000 increasingly outlandish AUs where Sam and Dream kiss.
If I needed to have an idea, it'd be a thing where Dream, locked away as he was, wasn't able to feed from anyone that wasn't Sam, and Sam, in his weird, distressed mindset, wasn't always the best food. Pure Affection, untainted by negative emotions, is usually whats most filling and what tastes best.
(Self-love isn't sustainable long term, but its considered a good backup reserve when you're starving and in need. Dream... never really had all that much self-love in the first place. Confidence, assurance, but never love. Being locked away and hungry is not the best time to be having this realization.)
#ask boxed#I can potentially write more definitely for sure. I just need to make my brain actually start rotating again#I have more asks I need to answer and I apologize for the length of time this is all taking#i'm still being insane about my little guys I'm just. having trouble writing??? Its weird and I dont like it#I'm passing out now but if you would like something more specific just let me know. thumbs up. Collapsing into the mattress
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In Good Hands
Dean is eighteen and bleeding out on the carpet of a seedy motel room when it happens. He’s going to blame it on his malfunctioning brain later on, on the concussion that accompanies the through-and-through in his thigh. On the drugs that will be coursing through his system when he comes to, many hours later, in a hospital bed, miraculously alive. But right here, right now, left for dead, with unconsciousness licking at his vision, it’s a remarkable moment, even with everything weird he’s already seen in his life.
Dean has no illusions about the severity of his injuries. If his father or even Sam were here, he’d stand a chance. But they’re on a food run and oblivious to the attack on Dean or the fact that his femoral artery has been severed and is pumping his life juice onto the smelly brown carpet.
He’s tried to use his belt as a tourniquet, and in spite of the blow to his head and the room spinning around him like crazy, he’s managed to get the belt around his thigh, but he’s too weak to pull it tight enough and keep it that way. Hell, he can barely see what he’s doing, and his fingers are slick with his own blood.
Dean’s phone is on the floor, screen smashed and as dead as he will be soon.
His heartbeat spikes in a brief burst of panic.
No chick flick moments.
The fear in his chest begins to flicker. It fades in and out, along with the room. He’s tired. So, so tired. The pain in his leg lessens. His hands are tingling. His eyes are slipping closed.
I’m sorry, Sammy. I’m sorry, Dad.
Dean hears his heart thrum in his ears. Hears it flutter. No– there’s an actual flutter. He feels a gust of air. What…?
Dean forces his eyes back open. The room is bright. Too bright for Dean or his oxygen-starved brain to understand what he’s seeing: a shape, a being, haloed by light. Curved black shadows spread out behind it. Are those…?
Dean cannot finish the thought. It unravels, dissolves. Dean’s eyes close.
Something touches him on the shoulder. He senses heat. Brightness penetrates his eyelids. Warmth floods him. A feeling of safety. Of being caught and held.
The pain goes away.
Blackness comes.
XXX
“We found you just in time,” John Winchester tells his son the day after, sternly, as if the attack had somehow been Dean’s fault. “The doctor says it’s a miracle that you’re not dead. If you hadn’t tied that tourniquet…”
His father breaks off, and Dean, drowsy from the meds, doesn’t realize that his dad is fighting tears. Or that Sammy is standing by the side of his bed, lanky, timid and big-eyed.
Floating on morphine, Dean tries to hold on to the memory from last night, to the light, the presence, the touch, but it gets lost, erases itself to a flutter, a whisper…
“Some angel must’ve been watching over you,” he hears his father say as he slips back into sleep.
A/N: I am obsessed with the idea that Castiel had been assigned to watch over Dean long before he rescued him from hell.
#suptober23#no.4#nimbus#fanfiction#pre-series#supernatural#dean winchester#castiel#john winchester#sam winchester#spn#blood cw#hurt/comfort#hurt dean
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